[a/n] sorry for the shortness of the last chapter but it was a really last minute thing. I need atleast 2-4 reviews to continue this story. Yeah, so here's the new chapter. It's short as well; I'm not sure how to continue this;; should I make Miley dump Nick, have Jake wallow in pain, or find Jake a new girl. Read & Review guys.
The kiss was really like Whoa. I wonder if she felt the same way. I hope she did but I know she didn't for right after we were done with the scene she rushed over to Nick and kissed him. I bet she thinks he kisses better than me. As they pulled apart I saw Nick smirking at me, he looked triumphed as if he beat me. Sadly he did. He knew I liked Miley and he always used it against me when they went out. He once banned her from seeing me, that didn't work out quiet well though.
Still I was the bestfriend and not the boyfriend.
Once all the scenes for the episode was done I hurriedly walked out of the studio not willing to face Miley while she had her arms around Nick. I made it to my car and just sat there thinking about the feeling of her lips on mines. Her clear strawberry scented lipgloss still lingers on my lips. Her scent, her touch, her sight drives me crazy. I couldn't do anything but stop myself from attacking her lips with mines. I couldn't ruin our friendship and trust over this crush, this yearning, this urge. She'll never look at me the same ever again. Especially if I try to do anything now, her "boyfriend" will be closely lingering. He'll been in hysterics if I tried telling Miley my true feelings about her. I couldn't and I shouldn't. Miley is happy now I can't tarnish her happiness for my own sanity. Her smile is the brightest of them all and it's breathtaking. I won't be the reason to replace that for a frown. I need to forget these feelings for her.
With that thought I drove home. I took a shower and walked into the kitchen to cook some dinner. I tried with immense difficulty to keep my thoughts from coming back to Miley. Her soft blue eyes, her carefree laugh, her enchanting voice, and that beautiful smile. It wasn't working; my every thought revolved around her. I could make a never ending list about the things I love about her or even song about how much I love her but those our words and thoughts she'll never hear. I was weak; a coward. I never had enough courage to face her and tell her how much I love and adore her. The many chances I had but oh no I backed out in ever one. I was like the cowardly lion in Wizards of Oz except that I never found a way to my courage. I could walk to Emerald City but I could never confront Miley.
For now I'll always be the best friend and never the boyfriend. I'll hopefully find the courage to change that.
[a/n] yeah this was short as well, extremely sorry. Thanks for reading and hopefully reviewing. It's so cool that I have people from all over the world reading this; Saudi Arabia, Germany, Ireland, Estonia, and much more.
