[a/n] hey people thanks for the very demanding reviews keep up the good work. I like the reviews for this story but don't forget to review for Secret Lies Behind Pretty Faces because does reviews are really pretty for me to continue that story. Read the authorsnote for chapter 14 for that story over if you forgot why! Anyway Read & Review: This chapter is excessively long because there are lyrics to 3THREE3 songs.
For now I'll always be the best friend and never the boyfriend. I'll hopefully find the courage to change that.
Did I find my courage to tell Miley about my feelings tomorrow of course not. Ever chance I get to tell her I either spazz out or get interrupted by Nick. I'm on the verge off ripping his head off; but I calm down every time knowing doing that will ruin any remote chance I have with Miley. This episode we were filming today must've been my favorite even if there was no kiss; Miley sang me this very beautiful song and right now I'm wishing I could be the one, she tackled me to the ground about a million times since we couldn't get it right each time of course I didn't mind I rather enjoyed her in my arms and the furious look on Nick's face, and I got to tell her I love you of course she didn't know I really truly meant it since it was Jake Ryan telling Miley Stewart I Love you.
I truly hated the end of the day but I was truly anticipating the movie date with Miley at my house later tonight. Alone in the dark with Miley what more can I possibly want; maybe I'll get the courage to tell her. Maybe I should write her a song or a letter inscribed with my feelings for her.
Once I got home I set down at my desk and grabbed a pen and paper I began writing down everything I loved about her:
I can't keep my mind off her
My dreams are about her
Her voice is sweet harmony
Her laugh is the sweetest sound second to her voice
Her eyes are brighter whenever she's into a song and is performing
She has a natural glow to her
She always have a smile even when shes down
She's full of life and excitement
She always think of others
That dazed look on her face could get me in a daze about her beauty
She has outer and inner beauty
She's perfect even with her minor flaws
I can't help but love her
That was the list of things I never said and hopefully will tell her. I feverously fixed that list and wrote it into a letter pouring my heart and soul out just for her. At the thought of all my wonderful memories and thoughts about her filled my mind I began infected with many songs that I could write about her. I grabbed more paper and began jotting down these words about her that just flowed out of me oh so easily.
I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know
[Jesse McCartney "Just So You Know"]
Words come
easy with you.
To keep them coming
There's nothing I won't
do.
And love comes easy with you
'Cause you've got a face
that makes my heart race.
And I'll
be there, my girl,
'Til the sun doesn't rise.
And I'll be
there my girl
When there's tears in your eyes.
And I'll be
there my girl
To hold you when you're feeling down.
'Cause
when know one seems to care,
And life ain't being too fair,
I'll
be there.
'Cause when the feeling can't compare,
And life
ain't being too fair,
I'll be there.
And I'll
be there that's all I phoned to say
The day you broke down
mentally
And you were on the motorway.
So when you've given
up, there's nothing left to do -
My damsel in distress, I'll
do my best to rescue you.
And I'll
be there, my girl,
When the sun doesn't rise.
And I'll be
there, my girl,
When there's tears in your eyes.
And I'll
be there, my girl,
When you're feeling down.
'Cause
when know one seems to care
And life ain't being too fair
I'll
be there.
'Cause when the feeling can't compare
And no one
seems to care,
I'll be there.
'Cause when the feeling can't
compare
And life ain't being too fair,
I'll be there.
[Tom Felton [The guy who plays Draco Malfoy in Harry Potter] "I'll be there"
'Cause I
live to get lost on lazy afternoons with you
And what I'd give
for any cause to turn a day into a few.
'Cause
just one kiss is all I need.
Take my hand and let me lead
Far
away to an empty place.
I live to see your face smiling back at me
after kissing you.
Got a trick right up my sleeve if I'm missing
you…
'Cause I
need to do to is close my eyes
And you'll be right by my
side.
'Cause I need is you.
You're in my mind,
everything's gunna be alright.
'Cause a thousand miles
wouldn't keep me
From seeing you.
(Seeing you…)
A
thousand miles wouldn't keep me from seeing you.
So if I only
have one day left in my life
I'd make you my wife.
I'd take
your hand
Fly to the warm sand.
That would be grand.
And in
my last few hours,
I'd find you some flowers.
And for once, I
wouldn't need my guitars
'Cause right now I'd rather be in
your arms.
Yeah you heard it right, I wouldn't need my
guitars.
I'd rather be in your arms.
You're right, you can
keep my guitar.
I'd rather be in your arms.
'Cause all
I need to do is close my eyes
And you'll be right by my
side.
'Cause all I need is you – you're in my
mind.
Everything's gunna be all right.
'Cause a thousand
miles wouldn't keep me from seeing you.
I said, a thousand miles
wouldn't keep me from seeing you.
'Cause all
I need is you, you're in my mind.
Oh yeah.
'Cause all I
need to do is close my eyes
And you'll be by my side.
All I
need to do… is be with you.
Everything I do – I do it, girl,
for you.
[Tom Felton "All I Need]
'Cause
we belong in two thousand and eight
The best year of my life
without debate
Oh wait
And in an age while learning your
ways
Who would have planned
To fall in love in a
caravan
'Cause we belong getting lost underneath ancient
stars
And no one else was in that moment 'cause that moment was
ours
And you would have planned
I'd be walkin' the land with
you
And who would have guessed
I'd fall asleep with your head
upon my chest
'Cause we belong
In a song that I've
written
About you and I
At the best of times
I've been
fallin' in love
I run you a bath or two
'Cause we belong in
center of the sky
Where the only guests allowed
Are you and
I
'Cause I found what I need to get through
It's all in the
shape of you
In the words of my song that's where we
belong
'Cause you belong asleep right here with me
I sing
you all my songs under the willow tree
And oh no
I won't look
forward to tomorrow
'Cause time without my girl seems
Unbelievably
hollow
And yet you are the reason why
I won't be sleeping
tonight
Yet you are the reason why
I even feel alive
You are
the reason why
I won't be sleeping tonight
Yet you are the
reason why
I even feel alive
'Cause we belong in a song
that I'm singing
'Cause I'm not interested in being with other
women
'Cause I've found my girl
She's all my world
'Cause
we belong, yeah
We belong, oh
We belong together
In my arms
you will stay
Girl I'll never let you get away from me
'Cause
we belong in center of the sky
And the only guests allowed
Are
you and I
'Cause I found what I need to get through
It's all in
the shape of you
In the words of my song
That's where you
belong
In the words of my song
That's where you belong
[Tom Felton "We Belong"]
As I put down the pen and admired my work I noticed the clock stuck 6 and Miley was going to be here in 30 minutes. I got out the chair forgetting all about the paper with me proclaiming my undying love for Miley were still on the table and began frantically fixing up my room and the living room. I grabbed some dvd's and placed them on the coffee table. I walked into the kitchen and got some drinks and snack and placed them along the dvds. I walked into my bathroom hopped in the shower for a quick shower. Ten minutes late I got out the shower and I slipped into a dark blue v neck tee and black/blue sweats. I dried my hair and messed it up a bit and walked into the living room to see Miley walking into my house wearing black/white checkered shorts and a pink/black t-shirt that said Live in Love with a heart next to it; my favorite thing about her outfit was that beautiful smile on her face. I walked over to her and engulfed her in a big bear hug taking in her scent and almost lost in my own world. Until I pulled apart and arrived back into reality.
"So, what movie you want to watch?" she asked.
"No hi, hello, how are you Jake. Thanks Mi, that's a great way to greet me," I joked only to get a light smack on my arm.
"Hi, hey, hello Jakey. Now what movie you want to see?" she asked again.
"Umm I don't care you choose there all on the table. You want anything to eat or drink," I asked her.
"Water will be nice," she said.
"Okay, you go pick a movie and I'll get your water," I said as I walked into the kitchen grabbed a cup and poured some water. As I was walking back I saw her looking at the table that had the letter and the songs on. I immediately put down the glass and rushed over there. I hastily grabbed the papers out of her hands noticing that the letter was still at the bottom and she didn't read it. Thankfully.
"Those are nothing," I said.
"Jake, there really good. So who was that special girl you wrote them about," she asked her blue orbs staring intently at me.
She was so close to me with a slight dip of the neck I could've been kissing her.
"You," I quietly said looking down hoping she wouldn't hear.
"M-me?" she said as I looked up not to see her bewildered or angered; she seemed surprised and a bit happy about it. I must've been dreaming.
Knowing this is the last chance I'll ever get to do this or ever even get to see her again I got closer and slightly dip my neck and my arms wrapped around her waist bringing her closer to me and then I kissed her. Her arms wound around my neck and she was kissing me back. I nibbeled on her neck hungrily asking for entrance and when she opened her mouth slightly I tongues collided with eachother. My arms were now roaming her body and her hands were pulling slightly on to my hair. I heard her moan.
I was the bestfriend making out with her and yet I could never be the boyfriend.
[a/n] What do you think. Review and tell me! Next chapter; Miley's reaction to the kiss.
Oh yeah if you didn't notice I love Tom Felton; he has a beyond amazing voice. Go on youtube and listen to him you know you want to!
This is the biggest chapter for this story.
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