Well I am not sure if I should continue writing this story…..it does not seem to be getting much reviews or interest.

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I hope that more people will read and let me know what they think!!!!! I won't be hurt if you think I should stop writing this and try another one.

I am a new writer and I know I am not going to be great overnight.

Well enough said…here is the next chapter.

CHAPTER 5

BPOV

When I got to the hospital, I immediately when to the OR to prepare for surgery. Two hours later, I was telling the parents of my patient that things went well and then went to check on her one last time before I went home.

When I got home I realized that I didn't have much time before dinner at Emmett's and Rosalie's. So much for taking a nap or just relaxing.

I took a shower and then left to meet everyone for dinner. As I was on my way, I couldn't stop thinking about how I saw Emmett and Edward together on the field. Why did Emmett jokingly hit Edward's arm? What was Edward even there?

I knew I was going to need to talk with Emmett, but I was not in the mood for his teasing and I know that would happen. I could just imagine Emmett joking about me having a think for Edward and that is not the case. At least that is what I am trying to tell myself these past few days.

I pulled up to the house and I was attacked by my daughter Angela. "Mommy, mommy, guess what?" Wow. Something has Angela all excited. "Hello sweetie." "What has you all happy?" "Mommy, I got to play with Ben today."

I stood there for a second and tried to remember why that name sounded familiar to me. Oh, the boy in her class. "Angela, was Ben at the game today?" "Yes, mommy, but then grandpa let him come over to his house to play with me."

I can't believe that my dad had another kid in his house, besides my three.

By the time I was going to ask Angela more about her afternoon, she was already gone. Instead of calling Angela back to talk with me, I decided that I would just ask my father about it later on tonight.

After saying hello the my other two daughters, and the rest of the family, I went into the kitchen to help Rose with dinner.

I don't think I was in the kitchen for more than two minutes before Rose said, "spill." What is she talking about? What did she want me to tell her? Having a look of confusion on my face, I asked Rose what she was talking about. "Bella, I saw you ogling Edward Cullen when you were on the field talking with Emmett." "And I saw the little exchange of a wave between the two of you before you left the stadium." "Now spill!"

Was it that noticeable that I was staring at him? "Did anybody else think that there was something going on between us?

I looked at Rose and told her that I just met him at parent teacher conferences. I explained that his sister is Victoria's teacher and that she introduced us. I then went on to tell her about Seth and the incident at the hospital. As I was talking I couldn't help but shed a few tears.

"Oh, Bella, I am so happy that you have found a new friend." "I think it would be good for you to try and see what might be there between the two of you."

As I stood there, I started to cry alittle more. "Rose, I just feel guilty for even thinking about dating someone." "I know I need to move on, but what if I am not ready?" "What if the girls are not ready?"

Then Rose said one thing to me. "Bella, you will never know if you are ready or not unless you try." Wow. Now that hit home. Maybe Rose is right. I am never going to know if I am ready for a relationship unless I try.

"Rose, I don't even know if Edward likes me." "And I am sure he would not be interested in a someone with three children." For a second Rose just looked at me and smiled. What was that grin for? Alice had that same look on her face when we went out last night. What did they know that I didn't?

Rose then started talking seriously. "Bella, first of all, I can say that from what I saw and from what Emmett told me, I think Edward would not mind getting to know you better." "Another thing is that I am sure you having three children would not be a problem for Edward."

"How do you know this Rose?" "How can you be so sure?" I wanted to believe Rose. I wanted to take everything she said and run with it. I wanted to take a chance on possibly developing a relationship with Edward, but all I could think about was the what ifs.

Rose than asked me if Edward and I have talked besides the time at the hospital. I told her that he gave me his number that day at the hospital and told me to call him anytime. "Well did you?" I paused for a minute, but then shook my head yes.

"Well did you guys talk about your personal lives?" I stood there for a few minutes and thought about my conversation with Edward. Did we talk about our personal lives? We did alittle. But I didn't tell him everything.

I think Rose was getting alittle impatient because she was tapping her foot while waiting for my response. "I am waiting Bella." Alright she wins. I give up.

"Alright Rose, I did not tell him everything." "I told Edward about Jacob and he knows that one of my girls are in Alice's class, but…….." "But what Bella?" "Well……I ….might ….not….have mentioned that……I have three children,." Did I just admit to that? I am such an awful mom.

Realizing what I had done, I fell to the floor and cried and cried and cried. "I am such a bad mother." "How could I not share something so important to me with Edward." "My girls are my life."

Rose knelt down beside me and tried to comfort me. "Bella, you are not a bad mother." "You are the best mother I have ever seen." "Those girls are lucky to have such a wonderful mother."

If I was such a good mother than why didn't I tell Edward. I mean he didn't really ask me if I had anymore children, but why did I not just come out and tell him?

"Bella, I am sure you were just scared to share with Edward because you don't really know him." "Besides, I am almost sure that Edward has things he needs to share with you, but is alittle scared himself."

I wonder what Rose means by that? I know that Edward is divorced and has a son, but what else is there?

Trying to change the subject I decided to ask Rose why Edward was at the game today. "Rose, can I ask you a question?" Rose shook her head and so I then continued. "Why was Edward at the game today? "I mean, Seth is not in high school, so what brought him to the game?"

Rose had that grin on her face again, but than started to speak. "Edward has another son, Bella." "James is a freshman and he plays on the team." "He was there to watch his son play."

Wow. Edward has two children. Why didn't he tell me last night on the phone? I mean we talked about Seth and I even commented on how hard it must be for him. Then it dawned on me. When I said about how things must be hard for Seth, Edward said that it was hard on them. Here I thought I was just tired and heard him wrong.

Rose stood there just looking at me. "Bella, are you okay?" Am I okay is the question. No I don't think I am okay, but I would like to be. "Rose, I am not okay, but I want to be." "I really, really do want to be okay again."

Rose didn't say anything, but just hugged me. I know I have said it before, but I don't know what I would do without my family.

Just as Rose and I were done hugging, Angela and Sue came into the kitchen to see how supper was going.

I said hello to Sue and thanked her for helping my dad watch the girls this afternoon. "Bella, it was my pleasure." "I love children very much."

I then remembered that I wanted to ask Sue or my dad about Ben. "Hey Sue, did one of Angela's friends from school go to my dad's house with her after the game?" With a big smile on her face, Sue explained that Ben is one of the children she is a nanny for. "Angela was so happy to see her Ben and I didn't think his father would mind if I took him with me to play with Angela." "I hope that was okay?"

This woman was great. I really needed to see about finding someone like her. Maybe I could bribe her. "Sue, it is fine." "Angela has done nothing but talk about Ben since the first day of school." "I am glad she got to play with him today."

Sue then went on to tell me that Ben talks about Angela all the time. I then told Sue about Angela's birthday party next Saturday and asked her to make sure that Ben's dad knew about it. Angela would be crushed if he wasn't there. Sue guaranteed me that she would personally make sure that Ben was at the party. I told her that the invitations would be passed out in school on Monday and she said she would make sure to look for it.

After my talk with Sue, it was time to eat. Dinner was great.

We stayed alittle longer after we ate, but when it was after 9 pm, I decided it was time to get the girls home.

When we got home, the girls and I got into our pajamas and then I made my rounds to their rooms. Tonight took longer with Angela. She was so excited about how she got to play with Ben. Then she started talking about her birthday party and how Ben was coming.

I let her talk for a few more minutes but then told her that she needed to go to sleep. I reminded her that we were going to go shopping for things for her party so she needed her rest. With that being said, Angela finally stopped talking and was asleep before I could turn off her light.

After all the girls were in bed, I myself headed into my room. I was drained. Today was a hard day for me emotionally. I did a lot of crying and that always makes me so tired.

Looking at the clock I saw that it was 10 o clock. I flipped on the tv and got into bed. As I was going from channel to channel, I realized that there was nothing that was going to catch my attention. With that being the case, I decided to just turn off the tv and go to sleep.

I took the remote, turned off the tv and was just about ready to turn off the light when my phone started to vibrate. Who was calling me this late at night? The first thing I thought of was something happened to my dad.

As I opened up my phone, I was relieved to see that it was a text message from Edward.

I hope that everything went well at the hospital today. Sweet Dreams!

E

I just sat on my bed reading Edward's text over and over again. Maybe Rose was right. Maybe it was time for me to move on. And who knows maybe Edward and I could get to know each other better.

I was not sure if I should reply back to him. I didn't want him to think I was too eager, but than I didn't want him to think I was not interested.

I finally decided to send him a short message so that he knew I received his and was thankful for his care.

Yes, things went well. The girl will recover just fine. Thank you for asking.

Sleep well tonight.

B

I was just about to put my phone back down on the nightstand when it started to vibrate again. Opening it up immediately, I was happy to see that I got another message from Edward.

I will definitely sleep well now that I heard from you.

E

I don't think I have had such a big smile on my face in so long. What is it about this man that makes me feel this way.

As I laid in bed, I started thinking about my conversation with Rose. I came to the decision that if I wanted to get to know Edward better that I needed to tell him about all three of my girls. I need to be up front with him right from the start, no matter how much I was afraid.

EPOV

I have to admit that I was disappointed that Bella had to leave. When I saw her coming towards me on the field I was excited. I almost thought that it was me she was coming to see and talk too, but then I realized that Bella was Emmett's sister. This meant that Chief Swan, Sue's boyfriend, was Bella's father.

After talking with Emmett for a few more minutes, Seth and I went up to the stands. I didn't want to have the kids bug Sue so I called Ben down to sit with us. Sue was here with Bella's family and I didn't want to have my kids interfere. Of course though Ben threw a fit. "Daddy, Angela is here and I want to sit with her." "Please daddy, pretty please." Why does that name Angela sound so familiar? Then it hit me. Angela is the friend that Ben asked if I could be her daddy. I looked at Sue and she just nodded her head.

"All right Ben, but please make sure you are good for Miss. Sue." "I promise daddy I will be."

I was not worried. I knew that my sons were well behaved for Sue. It was me that they like to give a hard time too.

The game went by pretty fast. Our team won 14 to 7. I was so proud of my son.

I was just about to turn around and call Ben when Sue came up to me and asked if Ben could go with her over to Chief Swan's house to play with Angela.

Why would Angela being going over to Chief Swan's house? Sue could tell I was alittle confused so she explained to me that Angela was Bella's daughter and since she was at work her dad was going to be taking the girls to his house.

Bella has two children? Why didn't she tell me that last night on the phone or at the hospital? Was she scared to tell me? Did she think it would scare me away?

On my way home I started thinking about my conversations I had with Bella. It then hit me that I didn't even share with her that I had three children.

How could I have left something like that out. My boys are my world. Without them I would have nothing. The next thing I knew, my eyes started to tear up.

I felt like such a bad father.

We got home and I told the boys that I had some work I needed to do and went into my office. I cried alittle for the first time in a while. I was not one who cried easily, but for someone reason the tears were just falling down my face.

I think I cried for about thirty minutes straight. Wow. That felt pretty good.

I then tried to get some work done, but my mind was preoccupied. I couldn't stop thinking about Bella. I am not sure what it is about her, but I came to the realization that I wanted to get to know Bella better. I am not sure if she feels the same way about me, but I want to find out.

However, I had to tell myself that if I wanted to get to know Bella better that I needed to tell her about all three of my boys. I need to be up front with her right from the start, no matter how much I was afraid.

I didn't get much work done after that. Sue brought Ben home before on her way to dinner with Bella's family.

The boys and I ordered pizza and had movie night. At 9 p.m. I told Seth and Ben it was time for bed. James was allowed to stay up later of course, but I think the game wore him out because he headed to his room as well.

After tucking Seth and Ben in and reading them each a story, I went to say good night to James.

I know I told him once that I was proud of him, but I wanted to tell him again. "James, I was really proud of you today." "You played so well." He thanked me and even gave me a hug, which is not something he does often.

When I got to my room I got changed and went to turn on my tv. I flipped around alittle, but for some reason I couldn't find anything to watch. I turned off the tv and was just going to go to bed when I decided that I was going to send Bella alittle message before turning in for the night.

I hope that everything went well at the hospital today. Sweet Dreams!

E

I sure hope I didn't scare her off. I just wanted her to know that I was thinking of her.

A few minutes past and I was just about ready to lose hope when my phone went off.

Yes, things went well. The girl will recover just fine. Thank you for asking.

Sleep well tonight.

B

I was not sure what or if I should respond back to her. However, if I wanted her to know I was interested, I decided that I needed to step up to the plate.

I then opened up my phone and sent another text to her.

I will definitely sleep well now that I heard from you.

E

I was not sure if she would see the text message as my way of telling her that I wanted to get to know her better, but I would make sure one way or another Bella knew that I was definitely interested in her.

AUTHORS NOTE: Once again please let me know if you think I should continue this story. I have to say that I am pleased with this chapter. So far Bella knows that Edward has two sons: Seth and James. Edward knows that Bella has two daughters: Victoria and Angela. I wonder what will happen when Edward shows up for Angela's party……and then there was 6!!!!!!!

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