Disclaimer: Words are mine, the guys are not.
AN: Genesis POV, inspired by jenovas boy at LJ
RATING CHANGE! Please note that this chapter is rated T for some serious angst and non-explicit smex between two males. Thanks.
As always, feedback is love. ;3
Hurting, aching, needing. What? I cannot know. What I know is that I want you to hold on to me because I have nothing to hold on to.
The world has lost its path.
I'm too afraid to say I'm afraid, and I keep my eyes shut, spinning deeper into the void.
Will you follow me?
You smile and I grit my teeth, clawing, pulling, wanting.
You are like the virus you carry, you are inside me and if I wanted to kill you I would have to kill myself.
The fire and the butterfly. You desecrate me and I kiss you.
I want you to look at me, to look inside me and see what I can not speak of.
Fragile.
No strings to hold me sane. Can you follow?
I'm like a deer caught in a headlight. Paralyzed, I stare the end in the eye and I can see as my bloodied body falls. Who will lay me to sleep?
Reflected in your eyes, my madness stares back at me. Blow out the candles.
Broken, mismatched pieces.
You.
Me.
Biting, kissing, holding.
I offer you myself, unworthy sacrifice. You take it and it shatters me.
Tell me once more I'm beautiful.
Grunting, whimpering, hissing.
I know I'm hurting you. My teeth leave bruises and you laugh.
Will you break my fall? For my wing is broken and I can no longer fly.
Harder, faster.
Lips like silk.
Power.
Say something, anything to me. Say we can be what we have always wanted. Whisper my name into the dark, the only sound of my silent victory ever.
Except that we are both destined to lose.
Deeper, stronger.
Can you save me? Will you?
I soak in you and it burns. Choking, I scream.
Release the bird from the cage.
Ripples of water.
I crave you so bad, my body trembles.
Can you feel it?
You.
Only you.
I tear into flesh. Doesn't matter whose until it hurts one of us so perfect.
I'm in your blood and you are in my tears.
You.
Me.
Rapture.
Have you ever seen the stars in my eyes?
I want to merge our skins.
Blazing.
So many sunrises, so little time. Let it be how it is not supposed to.
We are monsters.
Do you remember? How young I was. How innocent.
Taken away. What's left is what's yours.
The White Banora Apples.
Claim it.
What I am now?
These cutting shards of my heart litter your floor.
Ripples on the water.
Don't let go. I am what you make me to be.
Harder, deeper.
Panting, moaning, thrusting.
Conquer.
So sweet it's bitter, don't cover me in lies.
Faster, stronger.
More.
Don't stop. Don't ever stop.
Pushing, arching, tensing.
Silver among my fingers and sweet, molten gold in my veins.
I close my eyes.
Breathe.
Red sunlight. Morning comes too soon. Don't leave me, I'm so cold. Hold me a little longer.
Always.
Hold me until I break.
