Chapter 2: Savin' Me

I didn't really train the genin team. I didn't sit Naruto down to taught him how to access Kyuubi. It wasn't my job to. Even though I had to admit to myself, it was shredding me apart, completely. Gritting my teeth, I sat with the rest of the other sensei for the Genin teams, waiting for the results. Even though I sort of already knew how they'd turn out.

"Don't worry Kakashi…you'll see your Genin team soon enough, I have a feeling we all will." I heard a snicker before looking up into a pair of brown eyes. Sarutobi Asuma. Looking next to him, I smiled softly at Kurenai. "I think they will be fine Asuma." I said.

"I don't know about that Kakashi, I heard this year's charge is Ibiki." My eyes shot up in fake surprise, "That Masochist?" I asked and Asuma nodded.

"Whose Ibiki?" Kurenai asked. I bit my inner lip to keep from chuckling. Kurenai was new. I laid back and let Asuma explain everything to Kurenai. Feeling the cushion shift, I sat up to look beside me to see Asuma sitting next me. "When the Genin team arrives, I need to talk to you." I nodded slowly, this never happened in my time line, but I wasn't going to dock it. When he looked ahead, I followed his gaze to Kurenai as we sat there discussing our genin teams, and their progress. My eyes trailed over Asuma's figure. I knew I was bisexual since I was around fourteen, fifteen. However, besides the random hook-ups, I haven't had a stable relationship until…him. Shaking my head from those thoughts, I smiled softly when Asuma gave me a sharp look.

Excusing myself, I stood up to walk around, waking up my restless body. Closing my eyes, I rolled my head before stepping outside. I missed my kawaii Genin team. All too soon, the exam was over. Ibiki came out and told us that the rookie nine all made it, that they were heading to the Forest of Death. I cringed. Leaving the building, there was nothing I could do until I got a call from them about my team. I hoped they make it, however, it's up to them. When they make it back, I decided that I'd greet them, even though it was supposed to be Iruka, and I knew the reason for that. This was not the Jounin exams, this was the Chunin, which means a Chunin had to do it.

I walked down the road, with my head in the sky. There was only one place I wanted to be right now. As if my feet knew it, it took me to the training ground number seven and rested my fingers on the stone. "It's been awhile…sort of." I chuckled softly. "Depending on how you look at the time rolling backwards. Eh, Obito? Did you have something to do with this…" I asked, before falling silent, standing there. It must've been hours that I stood and thought about the changes when Asuma came up behind me.

"Should have known you'd be here since we can't see our students yet…" He whispered. I shrugged. "I'm nowhere else usually." 'That…never changed.' I thought to myself as I rub my eye that was covered. "What are you doing here Asuma?" I asked.

"Are you okay Kakashi? Today you seemed…off." One thing I loved about Asuma, he never beaten around the damn bush. I turned around and faced Asuma and smiled softly at him. "Just thinking of things could turn out, you know? For us, the genin, the Hokage."

A hand rested on my shoulder, and I savored the touch, even though I didn't know why. I guess partially it was because when Asuma got killed, I had missed his friendship. It was also made me open my eyes to see that my heart wasn't as closed as I thought it was. He squeezed my shoulder gently and smiled softly. "So, for that talk…"

I swallowed hard. He wanted to talk, was never a good thing. However, I rolled with it. Turning around to face him, I felt his fingers grasp the edge of my mask. I wanted to take a step back, but I didn't. Slowly, he leaned into me and traced his lips over my nose, down past my lips before kissing me softly through the mask. Swallowing hard, I leaned into the touch. It was idiotic, that I knew. I also knew that my insides were churning as if I was Naruto's age, or a little older like Neji-kun. Breathing shallowly, I investigated Asuma's eyes, waiting for a response.

"I don't…sorry. It just felt like something I needed to do." He said softly. I nodded in understanding, I understood a lot more than he knew. However, I hoped he wasn't expecting more than I could give. My heart…belonged to him, however he was still too young. I just wasn't willing to risk Asuma's heart for something that wouldn't last. As if he could read my mind, he laughed lightly. "No Kakashi, I'm not in love with you." I smiled contently then nodded.

Suddenly, the air got tense, "I'm in love with someone else, you'd probably think I'm disgusted for." I shook my head and placed a hand on Asuma's shoulder.

"I'm here if you ever want to test things out Asuma, that I have no issues with. After all," I smirked, "Besides Jiriaya, I am Konoha's biggest slut." That earned me a scowl, but he nodded. I didn't know if he'd ever take me on my offer, I wasn't going to push him on it.

We stood there for hours, contemplating our own thoughts when Asuma suddenly offered to buy a round of Sake for us both. Nodding, I agreed. My team, as smart as they were, wouldn't be done this quick. They still needed to grow up a bit. As Asuma and I shot Sake, my mind still circulated around my team, in the "future", now, and I calculated how different they became. Although my heart broke, I knew some things I couldn't ever change. It wasn't meant for me to change. Like the guy next to me, and his death. Shaking my head, I stood up. "Asuma…" I wanted to tell him, tell him everything. However, a moist pair of lips stopped me. Blinking in shock, Asuma's body was pressed against my own. Well fuck. I guess he was taking me on my offer after all. Closing my eyes, I enjoyed the small touch, walking him into a wall, I allowed him to dictate everything. Even though he was the first person to ever claim me…I allowed Asuma to dominate me. To gain his experience as a Top, although I knew it wasn't my name he was calling out when he drove himself deep.

As the sun rose, and our naked bodies, coated in sweat and semen, I laid there awake. It wasn't my name Asuma called out, however it wasn't my place to comment. His secret, was safe with me, for now. A smirk fluttered through my lips as I thought of a way to make Asuma happy, and maybe…they can do something to save this beast. Closing my eyes, I drifted off to sleep with my own heart flashing before my own eyes.

'Don't leave me…'