Authors note: Ok so I'm really sorry that I haven't updated in a while….my computer had a virus and the hard drive crashed and I had to reload everything!!!! Well at least I'm back now!!! (=

(Edward's P.O.V)

I'm such an idiot, now I have absolutely no one; Bella's off with the dog. My family hates me. Emmett will never forgive me….Rose might but Alice, she knows the truth, she's probably told the rest of the family what I've done.

I can't believe I ever did that…..epically with Rose, I mean she's my sister. That's just low. I'm so stupid.

I have no where to go, no one to go to. I'm just slowly walking down the street heading up towards the woods, maybe I'll go hunting.

I haven't eaten in almost two weeks. I have deep purple circles under my eyes and walking down this street smelling human blood is driving me crazy; I feel like Jasper.

Poor Jasper, I have no idea how he can deal with this all the time. Feeling this way makes me want to pull the shinny copper hairs out or my head.

Speaking of shiny the sun is coming out and I'm starting to sparkle, thank God everyone walking the street at this hour is too drunk to notice anything out of the ordinary.

It's only like four am, but you'd think there would be people getting ready for work at this hour.

Maybe it's Sunday, I don' know, I can't keep track of the days anymore. I no longer have a reason to keep track of anything.

Everyone's gone, every single loved one I ever had now hates me. I wish I had never done any of this.

I wish I could rewind time; I can't only blame myself though. If you think about it really it's mostly the mongrels fault, I mean Bella was my wife, not his. He has no right!!!!

On the other hand if I had just given Bella what she wanted she wouldn't have gone else ware to get it.

And isn't this what I wanted? Did I want her to find some one else? That's why I left in the first place.

If I hadn't left she would have never even befriended the mongrel. I guess this sort of is all my fault.

(Bella hasn't gotten to talk yet lets see what she has to say!!!)

I guess this was all true….I still didn't believe all of it but it was true. I can't believe I was so stupid and thought Jacob was a liar. Now that I look back on it I don't think it would even be possible for Jacob to make all of this up….and why would Carlisle lie to me? I was stupid to think everything was a made up lie formed from somewhere in Jacob's fantasies.

I had to apologize, "Oh Jake, I'm so sorry, I should have believed you I'm such an idiot!!!!!!!!!!" I said as I stated to cry.

"Bells, your not an idiot, it's ok, all that matters is that you believe me now……You do believe me right?" I asked rocking me back and fourth in his arms.

It Made me feel a little better but it also made me a little nauseous. "I believe you Jake, I'm just really sorry I thought you were a crazy liar."

"It's o-" Before he could finish the baby started crying…..our baby……Jeremy. Jake started rocking him and he fell asleep.

"Jake…wow….your good at this." I said amazed, I had no idea he knew how to parent.

"Good at what?"

"Parenting."

"Oh." He whispered making sure not to wake the baby.

I understood what had happened but I still had a few questions about the past few days. "Jacob", I said in a normal voice.

"Yes", he said whispering motioning for me to whisper too.

"Um….what exactly happened to Charlie." I asked now whispering with him. I was hear at Charlie's house but he was no where to be seen, when I asked Edward he pretended not to hear me and changed the subject.

"Charlie's at the hospital….Edward beat him."

"Edward did what?!?!?!" I asked shocked practically screaming.

"Shhh Bella, the baby's still sleeping." He said as he brought Jeremy to the crib in the hall, I was wondering what that was for.

"Bella, you have to be considerate of others, you're a mother now." 'A mother' just hearing that freaked me out; I couldn't believe I of all people was a parent….I never even really liked children. I guess I'd have to learn to love them now.

"Again sorry, I need some time to get used to this, it's so weird….this is all wrong!!!"

When I said that Jake started laughing. "What's so funny?" I asked upset, I've been threw all this and hear he is laughing at me.

"It's just that...ha, ha, ha…….you said that same thing last week."

"Seriously?"

"Yah."

"I still don't see why it's so funny."

"You had to be there."

"I was there…."

"Yah, but you don't remember."

"Oh whatever." I said ending it "Jacob, look at you hair, you need a shower." I said changing the subject. His hair was standing up in all different directions and it looked like it had more grease in it then a pan full of butter.

"You don't smell too pleasant either." I said trying to convince him that he really did need a shower. His normally piney sent was now one of a dumpster and raw sewage.

"It's just manly odder", he said smiling.

"Well manly odder smells like you've been rolling around in a dumpster."

"Aw, you know you still love me." He said coming closer. "Kiss me."

"Ewe, no way, you stink!!"

"I won't take a shower unless you do!!"

"No!!!"

"Bella…"

"Tell you what, you take a shower, wash your hair, change, burn those nasty cloths you have on now, and then clean the bathroom I'll think about it."

"Why do I have to clean the bathroom?"

"Because when your done he whole room will be black."

"That's not nice!!"

"No, but it's true."

"Fine, I'll take a shower, but could you put these in the wash", he said taking off his cloths and handing them to me.

"Jacob!!!"

"What?"

"Do you have to be naked like twenty four seven?"

"I don't know, dose it turn you on?" He asked seductively.

"Oh just shut up and get in the shower." I said pushing him.

"You know that means yes."

"Will you get in the damn shower already and stop acting like such a pervert!!"

"I don't act like a pervert, I act like a normal teenage boy."

"Well Edward's a teenage boy and he doesn't act like you."

"He's not a teen, he's like a hundred years old, you want me to act like an old man?"

"Jacob just get in the shower, clean up, and then I discuss this with you." I said as I walked into the laundry room and put his filthy cloths in the washing machine.

"Fine." He said finally going into the bathroom.

It was almost seven am, it was still pretty early but Jacob was probably hungry so I decided to make him some breakfast. I made toast, scrambled eggs, bacon, and got out a huge bowl of Fruity Loops, it was a lot of food but he would eat it all.

Actually he could probably eat more….thinking this I decided to bake some blueberry muffins and chocolate chip cookies…..I had a lot of time on my hands.

After putting the cookie batter in the oven I heard Jacob yell, "Bella where's the shampoo?"

"Jake, you've been in there almost an hour and you still haven't washed your hair?"

"I had to take that time washing the rest of me, you said it your self, I was filthy!!!"

"Yah, you really were but still….an hour?"

"Oh will you stop yelling at me and help me look for the damn shampoo?"

"….Fine." I said going into the bathroom, at least he had a towel on now. "I think it's in the cabinet." I said taking out some shampoo, conditioner, body wash, and detangler.

"I need to use all of these?"

"Yes."

"Bu-" Before he could finish his compliant the fire alarm went off.

"Shit!!! The cookies!!!" I said running into the kitchen. I got there just in time with the fire extinguisher.

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Half an hour later Jake was out of the bathroom with a towel around his waist and a comb in his hand.

"Smells good." He said taking a seat at the table.

"Thanks, you smell good." I said sitting next to him, the aroma of the shampoo on his head was filling the room.

"Yah, my hair was a mess."

"You got the knots out?" I asked as I took a glass of orange juice.

"Yah, it's soft now….and I'm all clean….and I took a shower."

"What are you getting at?"

"Someone owes me a kiss."

"Fine, you can have your kiss now." I said leaning over. He pushed me practically on top of him.

"Jake!!"

"What?!?!? If were going to kiss we might as well kiss right."

"No thanks, I don't need to be knocked up again."

"Gosh Bells, I just wanted a kiss……after all I've done for you, I can't even have one little kiss." He said pouting.

"Jake, don't act like a baby…we already have enough of those."

"Speaking of him, where is he? Is he still asleep?"

"Um….I don't know."

"Oh God, we didn't lose him again did we?" Jake asked looking worried.

"No, he's in the crib…."

"Oh, thank God."

Authors note: So there's your chapter, nice and long. Sorry about the lack of updates. Hope you enjoyed that, tell me what you think. Tell me what should happen to Edward!!! Should he get back with Rose? Should he apologize to his family? Should he commit suicide? It's all up to you guys LOL. (=