Authors note: Hey guys sorry I haven't updated this story in like forever but I've been working on my other one so anyway hear we go another chapter…..let's see what happens, oh one more thing this chapter I've decided is going to kind of be like the lost chapter though it's not lost but you'll understand once I get to it anyway this is taking place before all this craziness happened….Or maybe the start of the craziness Idk anyways hear we go (=

(10 months earlier…Jake's POV first )

I couldn't believe this was going to be the last time I would ever see Bella, the last time she would ever be in my garage, the last time I would get to see her human.

Soon she'd be married and a…a….oh I can't even think it…just one of them…that is if she even made it back alive…I wouldn't be surprised of the blood sucker killed her during the honeymoon.

Ewe just think of it…Bella and…the thing….ewe, ewe, ewe, get out of my head!!! Out, out, out. I can't let this happen…she has to see the better choice…

Before I could even think Bella was opening the doors to my garage….hum strange I hadn't heard the loud familiar noises of her rusty old truck….Charlie must have driven her over….Well if he was staying for dinner at least I would get more time with her…I mean she wouldn't have to cook him dinner….That would give me at least an extra hour right….maybe that'd be enough time to convince her of the better choice………

"Hey Bells." I said trying to sound as happy as possible…I didn't want to show her all the pain I had bottled up inside…I mean every time I thought of what I was losing…even if I just though of it for a second it was like being stabbed over and over again in the dept of my soul.

I didn't even know if I had much of a soul anymore…I mean once she was gone the little part of me that was still left now would be gone. I never knew why I felt so strongly for her….I mean she wasn't overly pretty and she wasn't perfect but to me she just was…she's always telling me that I could date anyone hear and I'm crazy to love her…sometimes I think that may be true…but then again it's not like hundreds of girls were just waiting in line at my door step….

"Hey Jake." Bella smiled and blushed….she smiled but I could tell it was pained and forced….she knew she was hurting me….but I rather see her and hurt just a little then never see her again…that would hurt way more…….

"So…."

"So…"

"Um...so marriage…that's coming around the corner….you nervous?" I asked. Like I really cared….personally I didn't want to hear anything about there wedding…it just hurt more.

"Um…yah…I don't really even know if I'm making the right decision." Bella mumbled….wait did that mean I still have a chance? I think she could see my eyes lighting up and a smile forming and she quickly had to make herself clearer.

"About marriage I mean I love Edward but I don't know if we should get married yet." Bella replied.

"Oh……that." I sighed….guess I didn't have a chance……well I could still make my own chance right?

"So….is this the last time we'll see each other before…um…you know." I mumbled.

"Huh…I think so." She sighed….was she sad too?

"Well might as well make the best of it." I said as I took out the brown bag which usually held sodas.

"Jake…that doesn't look like soda."

"Come one Bells…don't you want to live a little….you know before you die?" I asked this would be her last and only opportunity to get drunk…how could she turn this down?

"Um….I don't know." She muttered.

"I'll drink with you." I offered.

"Uh…."

"Come on Bells….don't you want to have a little party before the wedding, didn't Edward get to party?" I asked…I wonder if this was wearing her down.

"Uh…well yah but…he….he just went hunting." Bella muttered…oh yah like that was the truth….I bet he had strippers…….

"I'm sure he did." I muttered taking a sip, I didn't really drink….and it tasted horrible…but if it worked it could work……

"Jake stop that, your making faces, I know you don't like it." Bella muttered taking the can away from me.

"No….that was just my...um drinking face." I said…yah that was believable……….

"Come on Bells….just a sip….for me?" I asked. I gave her my can…if I got too dunk I wouldn't be able to get my plan finished…….

"Fine…..I guess it can't hurt to try it." She said taking the can from me….wow that was a big sip for a first time drinker who 'just wanted to try it'

"Hear, you finish this…I don't feel so good." Bella said handing me the can again…oh god I hope she didn't puke….this was totally going to ruin the plan….maybe we should stop drinking….time for plan B…..

"Bells does it really bother you when I do things like this?" I asked taking her hands in mine.

"Um…no…not really." She muttered….hey this might actually work…and I didn't even have to get her drunk….awesome!!

"Well dose this bother you?" I asked her setting her on my lap.

"Um…no…you know your so warm…it'll never really bother me." She muttered….oh yah she knew she loved me.

"Then this really shouldn't bother you either." I said leaning into kiss her…she could see it coming and she wasn't pulling away….When our lips met she was actually following me and my motions, when I opened her mouth with mine she didn't really care…..she let my tongue in without saying anything.

It felt so good, kissing her. She was so perfect….it was so magical and yet not magical enough….I wondered if I could take this further.

(Bella POV)

It all happened so fast I didn't know what was going on….Jake was kissing me and I didn't even care, I was actually kissing back…he was so warm, and beautiful and he tasted so good….

Was this a feeling from the alcohol…it couldn't be….I had only taken a sip…this was real feeling and real emotion….I was in love with Jake and I wanted this…I wanted to go further...no matter how wrong it was…no matter how much I would regret or deny it later…..

I knew it was wrong to lead him on like this but I couldn't help myself….I couldn't stop myself, it felt so right and so good. Items of clothing ere dropping one by one onto the floor but I didn't care.

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Authors note: Um…ok that was emotional…cool I usually just do funny and weird…..did you guys like I or hate it? Want more of the past? Want the future….Edward's return? Funeral? What?