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CHAPTER 4 – Letters to Friends

The week went by extremely slow for Harry. Every evening he would wake up from a nightmare and then he would go up to the Astronomy Tower to have some 'fun'. By the end of the week, he was down to two joints and half a bottle of vodka. Harry decided that he needed to write his friends so they knew that he needed more. He thought he would be able to get through at least two weeks, but as his nightmares grew worse, he couldn't help but use it up faster than planned. Ever since he had returned to Hogwarts, his nightmares came back as bad as they were at the beginning of the summer.

Harry woke up early on Saturday morning. Once he was ready, he went down to the kitchens. He didn't feel like going to the Great Hall. He also noticed a change in his friends. They seemed to walk on eggshells around him. Always making sure Sirius or anything to do with last year was never mentioned. They were always trying to talk to him; they never left him alone. This caused Harry to become more frustrated at his friends and made him want to leave and meet with his group even more. While he was walking back to the Gryffindor common room, he came across Ron, Hermione, and Ginny.

"Hey Harry! We noticed you were already gone…did you want to come with us for breakfast?" Hermione asked.

"No thanks. I already ate," Harry said.

"Oh…okay then. We're going to go to the library after to work on McGonagall's essay, want to come?"

"Umm…I'm not sure. I guess we'll see" Harry said, waved goodbye and left. He didn't feel like standing there and talking.

When he got back to his dorm, he took out a piece of parchment.

Hey Guys!

You wouldn't believe how much I miss our little late night fun.

I'm starting to hate it here. All of these people just won't leave me alone. At least you guys always knew when I wanted to be left alone. Well they seemed to miss the memo.

Anyway…I kind of already ran out…so I was hoping if you guys could send me some more 'stuff'. I really need it at the moment. Things are just not the same here anymore.

I would really appreciate it. I estimated on how much it would be so I hope what I'm sending you will be enough. Otherwise just let me know. So remember to take it to Mrs. Figg.

Thanks,

Harry

ps. I really miss you Alexia

With that, Harry folded the parchment, added some money, and wrote another quick note to Mrs. Figg.

Dear Mrs. Figg,

This is a letter for my muggle friends. I put it in an envelope and already addressed it, so I would appreciate it if you could send it with the muggle post.

Thanks,

Harry Potter

Realizing that everyone was still at breakfast, Harry made his way to the Owlery and found Hedwig.

"Take this to Mrs. Figg" Harry said and sent her off. Harry hoped that he would get a reply soon.

Sunday night found Harry sitting, again, on the ledge on the Astronomy Tower; bottle and joint in hand. He wondered when his supply would come. This was his last joint and bottle of vodka. He looked down on his arm. Two new scars were there. He was even cutting more now that he was back. Everything was just worse the moment he came back to Hogwarts.

Monday morning, Harry was sitting with his friends. They were chatting away, Harry just starring at his food. He had lost his appetite. He looked up when he realized someone was poking him. He looked and saw an owl. Excitement rushed Harry. He hoped it was a message from his friends. He took the letter and package.

"Who's it from?" Ron asked.

"Friends" Harry replied.

"Duh!" Ron said. Harry took the letter.

Dear Harry!

We miss you too. Sounds like its horrible over there. Maybe we should come? Haha. Anyway. We got your letter. Mrs. Figg actually delivered it to us. Weird huh? She said that you probably didn't want to wait even longer with the post. Whatever. We can't believe you already used everything up. It was supposed to last at least a week and a half. Things must really suck! So here you go. Your money was enough. We actually had one pound left over, but we kept that as delivery charge. Haha. This should last at least a week. Just mail us when you need more. So hope your well and will visit us soon. Miss you!

The guys, and Alexia

Harry smiled after he finished reading the letter.

"So who's it from?" Ron asked again.

Harry was starting to get irritated.

"Friends" he hissed and got up from the table, package and letter in hand. When he made it to his dorm, he opened the package carefully. He smiled as he saw a chocolate bar, just like he asked them to. He then saw two bottles of vodka and a couple of joints. He hid everything in his trunk, placing a concealment charm on them.

The next week, Harry hardly spent time with his friends. They were really starting to piss him off and he just didn't want to hang out with them anymore. Sunday evening, he owled another letter, asking for more 'fun' items.

The next morning at breakfast, Dumbledore stood up.

"Good morning. I would just like to let everyone know, that this weekend is a Hogsmead weekend. As you know only third year students and up…" Harry tuned out after that. This was just what he needed. He was planning on a way to visit his friends. He just never knew when he could do it. But with all the students mostly gone from the castle, Harry could easily slip away for a couple of hours.

Harry kept planning in his head on his way to Transfiguration.

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