Okay there are a few words here that may confuse you, just so you know, there is a small dictionary at the end of this chapter.



Honestly this chapter has been typed up a day after chapter 11, i just couldn't post it cuz one of my betas hasn't come back from x-mas break. so sorry if it took so long..


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Chapter 12

I've Done So Much Evil, Is It Too Late?

I remember the days we spent together were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin' except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

"H-Hiten, do you love me?" Kagome repeated her question, trying her best not to sound too eager for the answer. 'I wanna know; I wanna know now!'

Hiten's deep crimson eyes threw Kagome into a confusing void we'd like to call her heart. Her heart was pounding furiously, she felt as if it would jump out anytime.

The thunder Youkai wanted so much to avoid this conversation, much to put it to an end, but it was already here, he had to face it, like the man he was supposed to be.

"I don't love you Kagome..." Came the answer, Hiten looked away, for he cannot look her in the eyes after lying, he knew she didn't and won't return his feelings anytime soon. He would spare himself the humiliation- for now.

'He doesn't love me. Who was I kidding? I'm the most unlovable person in existence.' Kagome looked disappointed; she almost made herself believe that someone could love her. But now, she believed the only person that would fall for her; would be some lowlife scum who lived in a box eating newspaper clippings.

-sigh-

Hiten sensed his mate's sudden emotion change and his mind sunk into deep confusion.

'The hell?! Why does she look disappointed?! She should be happy I won't trouble her with my love.'

A gentle thumb lifted Kagome's chin and urged her to look into the deep, now-depressing eyes of Hiten. Kagome got lost in his eyes; they were so big, deep, and beautiful. She envied him for them.

"I don't love you, for now,"

Kagome's reaction made Hiten's heart soar with utmost glee. She looked so cute, with her eyes sparkling with the glimmer of delight. He had made her happy, it was very clear in her eyes.

"It feels good you know," Kagome's angelic voice brought Hiten back to the painful reality we call earth.

His breath hitched for no reason at all. "W-what does?"

"To know that someone finds me attractive and admits it." The raven head girl blurted out with a hint of sadness in her joyful voice. "It makes me so happy,"

Hiten looked at her as if she just told him she ate her brother. What was wrong with her? Couldn't she see how beautiful she is?!

He grabbed her chin with a force that was not meant to harm her and said. "Your head must be really screwed up if you believe you are unattractive!" He brought his face closer to hers, their noses touching. "Tell me, who dares find you ugly and I will rip out his eyes; He doesn't deserve eyes if he can't see such entrancing beauty." He finished, leaning a little bit closer, but pulled back in a flash.

Kagome could have sworn he was about to kiss her, why didn't he, the timing was perfect- then it dawned her.

He respects me and my wants; he knows I want Bankotsu... Oh Hiten, Why can't I fall in love with you instead?'

Suddenly, he pulled her back into his embrace. Kagome accepted it without hesitation. They stayed like that for awhile, not until Kagome broke the peace.

"Oh, I have to go; Bankotsu could wake up and notice I'm gone." Kagome said, disconnecting herself from Hiten's warm body.

Hiten's paranoia kicked in. "What?! You sleep in the same bed?!" He snapped.

Kagome, sensing his uneasiness tried to tame his sudden flare of anger. "No! It's not like that Hiten. I just woke up and he was on my bed, I-" He cut her off.

"He dared to take advantage of you in your sleep!? When I see that guy, I'm gonna fry his ass!" Hiten roared, standing up, rubbing his temples.

Kagome couldn't help but giggle, "Oh, Hiten, you can always make me happy!" She proclaimed without shame and wrapped her arms around her mate. Hiten's body froze at first from the sudden hug, but he soon melted into it and placed his rather large, smooth hands over hers and they watched the clouds dance with the moon.

"I better go," The miko informed and began to walk away. Before she knew it she was scooped up by Hiten and the soared through the heavenly sky.

"From what I've seen, you're energy drains fast. Why is that so?" Hiten asked, not even sparing her a single glance.

Kagome stopped studying his enchanting face and looked away with shame. Noticing this, Hiten looked down at her; her eyes seemed to hold uncertainty and loneliness.

"Tell me" He pried.

She looked up once again and was welcomed by vermilion orbs.

"I- I only have a few weeks to live Hiten, I'm dying." exclaimed the sagittipotent girl. To her surprise, Hiten didn't seem to be moved.

The thunder demon looked away from her. "I've always had a hunch about you being the key, the catalyst. I just never believed it."

Kagome's eyes widened in shock. 'How did he know that?!'

"What do you know about my situation Hiten, tell me, now." She demanded, obviously wanting her questions answered.

He looked down at her with pity, "I know everything about it, and this explains a lot of things; including your snake friends. Don't worry Kagome, I will protect you, they will NOT get to you!" At that, he trapped her in a brotherly hug of protection.

"W-who will try and get me?" She pushed him to say more.

"Demons, they are not very happy about this. The idea about our demise isn't very appealing." Kagome, again looked away.

"Shouldn't you be on their side, shouldn't you bring me to them?" The Kagryuu wielder stated, tears threatening to fall.

"At the moment, I am not so sure that our extinction is a bad idea," He paused. "Or maybe I'm just doing this 'cause you're my mate and it's instinct to side with you."

The frail girl in his arms, reached for his face and made him look at her.

"Doing this Hiten, this spell? Is it the right thing to do?"

Hiten hesitated to answer, probably because he did not know the answer himself. He snapped his head at her, with an irritated face.

"I hate it when things get mushy, cut it out!" He exclaimed, pouting, a tint of pink on his cheeks.

Kagome's thin lips curved into a smile, 'typical Hiten' she thought.

She decided to drop it for now, she just wanted to rest. She would save her energy for tomorrow. Their flight was filled with silence until their arrival.

"I'll be back soon, I promise," With that Hiten took off, leaving his mate with the man he was going to befriend in a matter of days.


Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
and know the stars are, holding you tonight

Kagome crawled into bed and slipped beside the sevidical mercenary that unknowingly held her heart's loyalty. She rested her head on his hard chest and felt for his heart. 'God Bankotsu, don't hate me please? I never wanted you to see me die, I thought you wouldn't care...' She glued her body on his more tightly and cried on his bare chest.

"Ban-" She silently sobbed the name that made her heart leap with glee.

Bankotsu, half asleep, moved his arms to push Kagome closer to him and it went down to rest on her waist.

"It seems we are a couple" He mumbled cockily in his sleep.

Kagome's closed eyes flickered open, electricity coursing through her veins, 'did he just talk?! Not only that, he talked the way he used to before he started hating my guts! I love that! That cockiness, oh please be awake!'

She craned her head higher to steal a view of his face; to her delight his eyes were ever so slightly open. With her heart filled with joy and a new found courage, she summed it all together and brought her face near his. She really shouldn't be doing this but this time she would break the rules, heck! She was dying and she was gonna to die happy- Period.

The slimikin girl's lips were a mere centimeter away from the mercenary's cheek, she paused to inhale his intoxicating scent, and the smell filled her lungs and playfully tickled her pounding heart. Finally her lips touched his soft yet manly cheek and gave it a quick, sweet, meaningful peck.

Realizing what she just did, she turned her face opposite his when she felt him shift beside her, she was beet red with a very content smile on her face. She closed her eyes and swiftly fell asleep, not really wanting to see if the man beside her registered the kiss or not, she would just find out tomorrow.

Feeling the woman beside him move in a swift fashion, he fully opened his eyes and leaned in to see her sleeping face. His hand traveling up to touch his own cheek, and tried to feel where he felt those tenacious lips of hers touched.

'Did she just kiss me?' Words could not explain what Bankotsu felt at this very moment, he felt a strange joy and a very weird stirring sensation in the pits of his stomach.

His usually emotionless face molded into his infamous smirk. 'well, this was unexpected,' He thought this and went back to his former position beside Kagome.

'Does she have a thing for me? If this continues, then we would... No I can't, I don't deserve her, no...'


In this farewell, there's no blood

there's no alibi, cause I've drawn regret

from the truth of a thousand lies

So let mercy come

The moon shinned dimly in the lush forest, where four creatures dwell with skillful stealth. The only woman in the foursome dashed forward to catch the escaping snitch, swinging the return bone to block the monstrous child's path. The possessed entity, swerved into another direction with great speed- unfortunately, the speed wasn't enough, for the blue haired beauty tackled the lithe form to the hard ground.

To his dismay, the small creature slipped away and again, attempted to get away, but to no avail, for the man, no, the thing she feared stood in her way.

"Hikari, snap out of it!" The velvet voice commanded the little girl.

"NO! I'm hungry! Feed me!" The usually sweet innocent girl roared with much rage.

The blond covered his ears, and focused his power on silencing the menacing girl. Hikari's eyes dilated and she fell to the cold forest floor. The icy eyed man lifted the frail girl and turned to his comrades.

"Sango," He called for her, she quickly turned to face her moody leader.

"Yes?" She answered in feisty voice, fire evident in her eyes brought by the annoyance she had for the man.

"Go and find your blood relative, and find Kagome, the full moon arrives soon!" Exclaimed Kyou in an emotionless voice.

Sango glared at the man she was meant to follow with all her heart, she nodded and called forth her loyal companion and rode away, leaving the two odd-haired men to deal with the monster they held in custody.

"Finally! Away from that stuck up freak!" Sango said with joy and flopped down Kirara's furry back. The fire-cat seemed to agree with her.

After a very peaceful journey, something caught Sango's attention, believe it or not, there are only a few things that can catch her attention.

She looked down to the growing vortex beneath her.

"What the fu-?!" She didn't finish, the unknown portal's gravitational pull just strengthened and pulled her down. Wild wind splashing on her face, made her hair dance to its direction.

The vortex narrowed as the slayer and the fire cat fell deeper. Just when they thought they were goners, the vortex suddenly disappeared and there stood the man they never wanted to see ever again.


Inside the vast depths of the Inuyasha forest lived a lone hanyou. He'd lost all his friends, and all for one person. Scratch that, dead person. Right now, it all seemed worthless, his never ending obsession with Kikyo cost him his friends, and in the end he was all alone. Kagome, the sweet woman who loved him to the point of no return, as he believed was dead, and Sango, the woman who was just almost as brave and feisty as him is missing in Action. Miroku, the perverted monk whom he thought of as his best male companion, forever lost in the abyss of his broken heart. Shippo, the little kit that he secretly considered as his and Kagome's son, refused to leave Kaede's village. Kirara, the only cat he was able to stand aside from Buyo, gone, along with her mistress. It was all over.

"GOD DAMNIT!" He roared, slamming his rock hard fist on the ground. He fell to his knees and seethed, he never thought that this would happen, how could Kikyo do this to him?! She destroyed his pack, his family, and then she just left?!

"Fuck her!" He cried, his jaws clenching, he was almost off the edge, one more push and he would let his demon take over, where was Kagome when he needed her, oh that's right, she was dead.

'Kagome, you wouldn't be dead if I didn't gave in to Kikyo's needs, I'm sorry.'

His little encounter with the Shichinintai with the smells that confused him never left his mind, but he has already thought of the explanation to the very weird situation. They stole Kagome's back pack and used the shampoo, as to why they were alive, Naraku brought them back. The only question is: Does Bankotsu have a crush on Kagome?

Aurulent eyes narrowed as the dog-eared one thought of this. Could that cocky dick head actually developed a liking of the bright miko? In honor of his late friend, his love, he would find out.


The slayer's eyes widened, her pupils shrunk in size. After recovering from her shock, her thin brows drew an angry line on her face; she felt the need to puke after seeing such a pathetic man, the thought that she actually loved this character disgusted her beyond all reason.

The man staggered towards her, reaching out to her with a hopeful gleam in his eyes. She moved back.

"Sango..." came the voice she absolutely loathed to hear. Her eyes grew angrier and angrier, her breathing hitched as she held her ground.

"Stay away from me you leech!" Sango snapped.

"Please Sango, come back to me!" begged the fallen monk. "I'm lost without you."

Sango snorted, "Hah! Serves you right, traitor!"

Miroku grasped Sango's arms and shook her violently. "After all we've been through together?! You act as if it were all nothing!"

"Let me rephrase that, you mongrel, after all we've been through together. You slept with another woman!" She yelled back, jerking away the very unwanted hands that held her in place.

Miroku looked taken back, "It was Kikyo's doing!! She forced me into it!" He proclaimed, silencing the pink clad slayer.

Sango was in deep thought, that bitch had done enough damage already, and she really needed to die.

Taking advantage of his former love's silence, he approached her and pulled her into an embrace.

"Everything I've done was because I love you," He said lovingly, happy to be triumphant, winning his woman back, or so he thought. As usual, his cursed hand traveled down her scrumptious back side.

She pushed him away bluntly, tears unfolding in her brunneous eyes. Her face looked so desperate to get away from him, which hurt him.

She spoke in the gentle, kind voice she rarely used. "You are not capable of love Miroku." She explained as she brought her hand to cup his cheek. His eyes widened in both horror and confusion.

"You never were." She finished, her eyes closed, keeping her wild tears from falling, she pulled back her other hand and bitched slapped the indigo coated man.

He stumbled back and held on to his swollen, bleeding lip.

"I pulled you down here for two reasons, my beloved Sango," The sudden darkness in Miroku's voice frightened the said girl.

"You are going to be with me Sango, one way, or the other!" He finished with a yell, he slashed off the holy beads that kept the Wind Tunnel at bay, and unleashed his power upon her. "Now you will forever be with me!"


Jakotsu looked up to the now flavescent sky, 'morning already? So fast.' he thought. He didn't know why, but he couldn't sleep last night, something kept him up, it disturbed him. He felt like something was going to happen today. Good? Bad?, he did not know.

"Oi Ja, what kept you up last night?" asked the two faced man who just woke up.

Jakotsu whipped around and pouted. "I have no clue."

Suikotsu sat beside his gay brother on the porch and waited for the perfect time to introduce his new found gossip about their favorite aniki.

Silence fell and Suikotsu used this to his advantage.

"Wanna know something?" He asked, already knowing the answer.

Jakotsu flashed his girlish grin at him and said. "Took you long enough to find a decent topic." earning him a glare from the doctor.

"Bankotsu oo aniki and Kagome-chan are sleeping on the same bed, cuddling."

If Jakotsu was drinking something, it would have been shot off his mouth a long time ago, luckily he wasn't.

"REALLY?!" The gay brother choked out, his onyx eyes, drooping down from its sockets. He couldn't believe it! So fast too!

Suikotsu knew that look. "They didn't have sex you pervert!"

Jakotsu looked disappointed. "Then what did they do in the bed huh?!" He argued. "Sleep?" He snorted, rather stupidly.

Suikotsu slapped his head, and took pity on his brother's weak, obsolete brain. "What is a bed for Jakotsu?"

Jakotsu answered with a bright, happy, gay voice. "Oh I know! It's for sex and-" His voice trailed off in realization.

"And?" The doctor urged him on.

"Sleep." He grumbled and looked away. He hated being talked to like he was a child.


Put to rest

what you thought of me

while I clean this slate

with the hands of uncertainty

so let mercy come

With a hand propping his head up, he stared at the girl whom he knew kissed him last night, that thing she did, just brought back the good ol' Bankotsu, a little bit. He admired her face, he noticed on how they looked so smooth, pretty, and fragile. He wasn't blind, there was something different now, she seemed replenished, was it because of him? He'd like to think that.

Kagome's eyes fluttered open; she shifted her blurry gaze around the room she slept in, continuously searching for a certain hot mercenary. She caught sight of a figure, black, blue and white; she waited for her vision to clear. It eventually did, and she saw him.

'This is the life, falling asleep, the last thing I see is his face, and waking up, seeing him too! But one day, I won't wake up anymore. Damn it!'

"Good morning, Ban-kun," She didn't know why, but she felt like fooling around with him today, specially because last night's event was very, interesting for both parties.

The 'kun' brought a smirk to Bankotsu's glorious tanned face, making Kagome turn beet red. 'Oh God, he remembers! Shit!'

Kagome shot up a brow as she sat up. "Were you watching me sleep?"

He looked at her with a naughty expression, but soon it faded, his face returning to the cold emotionless one, the one that hid his true feelings.

He turned around and started to walk off, but before he was out of ear shot he answered her.

"Maybe,"

Hearing this, Kagome flopped back down on the bed, a huge grin on her face.

"Typical Ban," She said out loud, and after awhile, stood up and looked for the wash room.

'While my energy is back up, I might as well clean up, no way am I letting Bankotsu do that for me,'

Her now recharged body took her to the porch, where the two other Shichinintai members chatted- er gossiped.

She stretched out and cleared her throat to catch their attention. Hearing the noise, the two whipped around to see Kagome, standing, and not looking half dead. Jakotsu was the first to react.

He stood up and prepared his arms, in case Kagome would fall over. She giggled at his reaction.

"Relax Ja, I'm fine." Jakotsu relaxed a bit but was still alert. Suikotsu looked at her with much worry.

"I can see you are feeling better now, how's the bite?" The doctor's eyes told her not to lie.

Kagome shot him a glare, what was with the sudden obsession with her wound? Oh yeah, he was a doctor, that's what he is suppose to obsess about.

The icy glare soon disintegrated into a warm, bright smile. "Where's the hot springs?"

Not really liking the fact that she ignored him, he pointed at some random direction and said.

"Bring those weird new weapons of yours, and when you get back; I will give you a full check up." Kagome nodded and headed back to her room to pick up her powerful arms.

Once she finished strapping the sheaths to her slim waist she turned around to find Bankotsu leaning casually against the door frame.

Its official, she was in a complete loss for words; he looked so hot, all propped up like that.

He smirked, his eyes not leaving hers. He stood there, waiting for her to react. He had one thing he needed to clear up with her, he'd best do it now.

Kagome felt her body tense, he was gonna say something, and she knew it. 'Brace yourself girl,' She thought.

He walked to her and pushed her down to the bed and sat with her. He leaned his head on the headboard and propped his hands behind it, crossing his legs.

Kagome, hating the silence spoke up.

"What?" She choked out. 'What? He wants to have a conversation with you and you say "What"?!'

His gaze suddenly becoming cold, "Why do you expect me to talk to you, why do you seem so needy of me?"

Kagome didn't like the tone in his voice, it made her feel sad, she was DYING and he was fussing about the way she acts? How blind is he?!

She bowed her head down and gripped his un-armored chest, she squeezed her eyes shut, not wanting to see the look on his face after she was done speaking. She felt him stiffen, probably confused by her sudden actions.

"Is it wrong?" She began. "Is it wrong to want to see you smile?" Her grip on his{deleted second his} chest intensified as she continued. "For me?" She couldn't take it anymore, she snapped.

"Is it so hard for you to hide the fact that you hate me?! That you are forced to take care of me!? Would it have killed you to try?" She cried, facing him fully, two hot streams of tears trickling along her cheek.

That was it, he couldn't keep his cool. He had to put an end to her little crush on him- now. Even though he wanted to return those feelings, he couldn't.

He pushed her off him and pinned her on the bed, it seemed such a perfect time to tell her about his feelings, but he won't, he would explain why they can never be together.

Kagome seized to struggle for it would be useless against Bankotsu's big body.

"I- You can't be my friend Kagome, but I can be yours," He stated his riddle.

'What's that supposed to mean!?' He confused her, what is wrong with him?

"What the hell is wrong with you?! Why not?! What did I do wrong?!" Kagome seethed but was hindered by Bankotsu's thumb. Oh how she wanted to bite that tanned thumb off his hand.

"Not you Kagome, You did nothing wrong I-"

"THEN WHY?!" She cut him off, she couldn't understand him. What was he trying to say?

Bankotsu's jaw clenched, his teeth gritted together.

"I DON'T DESERVE YOU GOD DAMN IT! END OF STORY!"


Dictionary:

(These aren't normal words, they are 'lost words' so some may not know them- Now increase your vocabulary my pretties! Ha ha ha!)

Sagittipotent: Has a skill in archery.

Sevidical: A person who speaks harsh and cruel words. ; threatening.

Brunneous: Dark brown in color

Slimikin: A small and slender bodied person

Aurulent: Golden hue.


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I realized that my chapter's word count keeps increasing every chapter, if I don't stop that now, then when I reach chapter 20, it would be 15,000 words per chapter, we don't want that now do we?