This story is actually really easy to write for. I might have jinxed myself.
Hey, do you guys know what's my favorite writing utensil? Yes, it's time skips.
Aka: Skyler is lazy, and this still makes sense in the whole of things, which I think is kind of impressive, really.
7. Μέρος α'
Dear Evan Hansen:
Today's going to be an amazing day, and here's why. Because today all you have to do is just, be yourself. But also confident that's important and interesting, like easy to talk to, approachable. But mostly be yourself that's the big thing, like that's number one, be yourself. Just be true to yourself.
Also don't worry about nobody talking to you because Connor said he was going to look for you at lunch, so you can arrange how you're going to work out the whole helping him issue. But also don't worry about how that conversation will go, because there's no way to not make it awkward, even if lately the two of you've been spending more time together and-
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And Evan was so going to need to re-make this; only, there was no time, so with a sigh he shut his laptop, just in time for his mom to enter his room.
"Morning Evan"
He gave her an awkward smile.
"Morning"
"You didn't eat last night- the money is still on the kitchen table"
He swallowed, looking away.
"Sorry I uh, forgot"
"You've got to get over being scared to order food. You know you can do it online now? No talking necessary!"
Evan didn't need to see her to know she had that one disappointed look she seemed to wear practically 24/7.
"You've uh, still gotta talk to the guy when he comes to the door and then you uh, you need to wait while he counts out change and that's, that's painfully awkward and then sometimes you uh, er- you like, touch hands and your hand is super sweaty and his isn't so he gets grossed out and uh, it's just really… really not worth it for a pizza?"
And even if it was, or if Evan were a better human being, he had felt nauseous last night, so he probably wouldn't have anyway.
"What about the letters, are you still writing them?"
"Yeah, I uh started the one for today, I was- I was gonna finish it at school"
Evan was finally able to look at her again, though not yet to make direct eye contact.
"Good! Those letters are important honey, they're going to help you boost your confidence!"
Evan looked away again.
"I uh, I don't know I guess we'll see…"
He heard his mother sigh, and knew she now bore her hopeful look, the expectant one, Evan wasn't sure which he disliked more.
"Come on Evan, it's senior year! And you have this new friend, Connor, why don't you invite him over?"
There were many reasons, none of which he could tell to his mom.
"I don't- don't know if he'd be able? I'll ask"
"Good, I've got to be off. Oh! I booked another appointment for you after school with Dr Sherman by the way. I won't be able to drop you off there, maybe Jared can drive you, or Connor if he has a car"
"But I uh, I have an appointment this Thursday"
"I know I just thought since school was starting you might need another session to help with the nerves and stuff"
Yeah… no, Jared would probably want nothing to do with him, and Connor wasn't actually his friend; neither was Jared, really, but Connor was like a weird level of acquaintance. But, again, his mom didn't need to know that.
"I uh, have to ask"
"I'm so proud of you Evan"
Evan didn't see why she'd be proud, he hadn't done anything spectacular, and he had just kind of lied to her.
"Uh thanks"
"Alright, get ready I don't want you to be late"
Evan nodded to her; she made a move to leave but stopped.
"I love you"
"I love you too"
And with that she was off, leaving Evan to dress and try to prepare for the day ahead.
