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Anyways... It's a bit short and not really evil... Just - Luby time :P (And yes, I know Richard's an ass, and he will 'be gone' at some pont, but can't tell you when)
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Chapter 11 – A Whole New Feeling
"We could always do one of those volcanoes." Abby gave him a dead stare as Luka started chuckling.
"Luka, volcanoes are 5th grade science projects. Not 9th!" She couldn't help but start laughing along though.
They had gone to the library after school to come up with a science project, and so far they hadn't gotten anything done besides fooling around and gotten on everyone else's nerves. Even the librarian had had to tell them to quiet down multiple times.
"Okay. This is useless. We're not gonna come up with anything today!" Luka nodded in agreement and put away the random books they'd found.
"Maybe we should just both try to think of something, and then share our ideas tomorrow at school." Abby pushed the double doors open and they walked out into the cold, but sunny air.
"Sounds like a plan." She took a deep breath. The only reason Richard had allowed her not to work today was because she would be doing school stuff. He might be mean to her, but he wanted her to keep up with school and seem just a little bit normal, so that nobody would suspect anything being abnormal with her home life. "Look, I really don't feel like going home right now. Are you in a hurry?" Luka stopped walking and looked and her.
"Oh, why not?" She bit her lip. She couldn't really tell him the real reason, so she'd have to come up with something.
"Ehm. My mom's got some friends over and ehm, it's just…"
"No need to explain. I know the feeling." A little smile crept upon Abby's lips, happy that he believed her lie. "Wanna take a walk by the lake?" She looked up at him with half shut eyes since the sun was so bright.
"I'd like that."
"Seriously, that's the most retarded joke ever!" Luka joined in on Abby's laughing. "Is all Croatian jokes that lame?" He took another bite of one of the chocolate chip cookies he had brought from home.
"I don't know. To be honest, I don't know that many." Abby smiled but stopped walking.
"Look. Isn't it beautiful?" Luka looked the same direction Abby was. The setting sun was reflecting itself in lake Michigan, causing hundreds of different colors to play on the quiet water. Luka nodded, but then remembered that she couldn't hear that.
"Yeah. It really is." He wasn't just talking about the Lake though. He turned to look at Abby and a little smile formed on his face.
"Come here." He turned her around so she was looking at him. "You've got something…" He put his hand on the side of her face and carefully wiped the cookie crumps away from her cheek with his thumb. Abby bit her lip. She tensed a little by his touch. Not because she didn't like it, but more like the opposite.
Luka couldn't help but notice how her eyes sparkled in the afternoon light. Or wait, it was the same sparkle they always had, it just stood out in a way he hadn't noticed before now.
Even though the crumps were long gone, he still gently stroke her cheek. And to his surprise she didn't complain.
Without really knowing what he was doing, he slowly leaned down towards her. Abby's eyes were closed as Luka's lips gently touched hers. It felt like something inside her was on fire. But in a good way. She'd never kissed anyone before, hadn't even imagined ever doing so, but she was surprised at how amazing it felt.
Or well, she had been 'kissed' before. By Richard. When he was drunk. But she chose to think of those times as though they'd never happened.
And besides, this was special. She did this because she wanted to, because it felt right. This was Luka.
It felt like everything was moving in slow motion. So even though it felt like their kiss could last forever, it felt way too short when they finally pulled back.
But when reality kicked back in, Abby looked down at the ground. She felt embarrassed, and she was kind of mad at herself for letting this happen, for falling for Luka. She couldn't deal with dating, and it wouldn't be fair to him. But most of all she was mad because she'd actually liked it. Enjoyed it.
Biting her lip she tried avoiding his gaze.
"Abby…"
"Luka, I'm sorry. This shouldn't have happened." She felt his hand under her chin.
"Hey!" Even though she really tried, she wasn't able to resist it when he carefully lifted her face so she was looking at him. "I don't think it was that bad." Abby just continued biting her lip while staring at Luka, not sure what to say.
"Look. I know you weren't expecting that to happen, and neither was I. But it did, and I don't regret it." She looked away, but she could still feel Luka staring at her. She knew he was expecting her to say something, anything.
"Luka, I…" She closed her eyes, unsure of what to say. "I can't do this. It wouldn't be fair to you." When Luka didn't say anything, Abby forced herself to look up.
"What are you talking about?"
"Look, Luka, I'm screwed up. You're a great guy, you deserve way better. You can get anyone you want, and I don't want to hold you back." She bit her lip, but when he didn't say anything, she continued. "I'm not into all the touching, nothing personal, I just don't like it. And you're a boy! You're gonna want… Sex… And I'm not gonna be able to give you that!" She felt her eyes get watery, and quickly looked away. She couldn't believe the things she had just said. They had been really difficult to share, and she wasn't sure if she felt relieved or exposed now that they were out.
"Abby!" He put his hands on each of her shoulders. "Look at me!" Swallowing hard, she carefully turned her head, noticing how intense he was staring at her. For a while both of them stayed quiet, until a cold wind pulled them out of their trance.
"First of all, I do not want sex, so that's totally irrelevant. And no, Abby! You're not screwed up!" She looked away as she felt a tear slide down her cheek. Of course he'd say she wasn't screwed up. He didn't know her. He had no idea what her life was about. What was going on in her mind. How scared she was of everything, all the time. How broken she was, even though she'd never admit it.
Once again he placed his hand beneath her chin and forced her to face him. He looked straight into her eyes, making it impossible for her to look away. And when he slowly leaned towards her to kiss her again, she didn't protest.
