Peeta'sPOV
I sit next to Katniss as she picks up the book.
Amazement is flowing through me as I remember the letter I had been assigned to read aloud had declared we are placed in the chairs we are for a very important reason. We are grouped together according to the strength of our bonds to each other and most importantly, to Katniss. According to the letter, I am placed beside Katniss in the spot I expect Gale ought to be, because I am one of the people closest to her—deepest in her heart, and most important to her survival. The idea is one I am struggling to wrap my head around.
For now, I decide just to listen to her musical voice as she begins to read her assigned chapter.
I clasp the flask between my hands even though the warmth from the tea has long since leached into the frozen air. My muscles are clenched tight against the cold. If a pack of wild dogs were to appear at this moment, the odds of scaling a tree before they attacked are not in my favour. I should get up, move around, and work the stiffness from my limbs. But instead I sit, as motionless as the rock beneath me, while the dawn begins to lighten the woods. I can't fight the sun. I can only watch helplessly as it drags me into a day I've been dreading for months.
President Snow will not go easy on Katniss if he were to find out what she really does in those woods beyond The Seam of District Twelve. I only know that I will do whatever I can to protect her—protect her at all costs. That's all I've ever wanted—to protect her. I can stand adoring her from afar, but I cannot stand to stay on the sidelines while she is being hurt—in whatever manner that may be. For now, I do my best to ignore President Snow's presence in the room.
By noon they will all be at my new house in the Victor's Village.
The entire room is blanketed in an eerie silence. You can hear a pin drop should it occur.
My mind, however, races at a million miles a second. Katniss is a Victor? Of which Games? To come? At how old? And at what cost? And surely—SURELY—if Katniss has been Reaped, and come home a Victor, then I am dead at this point. I would and will never let her enter those Games without me. No matter the cost. No matter what boy is Reaped, I will volunteer in order to protect Katniss—the girl who refuses to believe that every so often she does indeed need help and protecting.
The reporters, the camera crews, even Effie Trinket, my old escort, will have made their way to District 12 from the Capitol. I wonder is Effie will still be wearing that silly pink wig, or if she'll be sporting some other unnatural colour especially for the Victory Tour. There will be others waiting, too. A staff to cater to my every need on the long train trip. A prep team to beautify me for my public appearances. My stylist and friend, Cinna, who designed the gorgeous outfits that first made the audience take notice of me in the Hunger Games.
I scoff under my breath, and Katniss catches it, meeting my eyes questioningly. I shake my head at her, a tiny smile playing at my lips. That girl has no clue. Katniss Everdeen could win over the heart of the nation in her pyjamas and completely bedraggled. She may be a girl from The Seam who has become the primary breadwinner for her family, but that does not diminish her beauty. In fact, in my eyes at least, it only adds to it.
If it were up to me, I would try to forget the Hunger Games entirely. Never speak of them. Pretend they were nothing but a bad dream. But the Victory Tour makes that impossible.
"Welcome to my world, sweetheart," drunkenly slurs the one and only Haymitch Abernathy from beside me.
As usual, he is thoroughly ignored.
Strategically placed almost midway between the annual Games, it is the Capitol's way of keeping the horror fresh and immediate. Not only are we in the districts forced to remember the iron grip of the Capitol's power each year, we are forced to celebrate it. And this year, I am one of the stars of the show.
One of? What does that mean? It's normally only one star on the Victory Tour…
I will have to travel from district to district, to stand before the cheering crowds who secretly loath me, to look down into the faces of the families whose children I have killed…
Katniss should never meet that fate. She's been through too much already. I don't want her to ever go into the arena! I never want her to be put into the position of having to kill children in order to continue living a life of struggle—because god only knows what happens to the Victor's mental health. Haymitch is a case in point.
The sun persists in rising, so I make myself stand. All my joints complain and my left leg has been asleep for so long that it takes several minutes of pacing to bring the feeling back into it. I've been in the woods three hours, but as I've made no real attempt at hunting, I have nothing to show for it.
Why did I get the feeling she was lucky that day that she returned home empty-handed? Well… will be lucky… whatever.
It doesn't matter for my mother and little sister, Prim, any more. They can afford to buy butcher meat in town, although none of us like it any better than fresh game. But my best friend, Gale Hawthorn, and his family will be depending on today's haul and I can't let them down. I start the hour-and-a-half trek it will take to cover our snare line.
Well, you learn something knew everyday. The snares must be Gale's doing—why he goes hunting with her.
Back when we were in school, we had time in the afternoons to check the line and hunt and gather and still get back to trade in town. But now that Gale has gone to work in the coal mines—and I have nothing to do all day—I've taken over the job.
I could see why she gives up school after winning the Games. Who wants to continue school when it gets you no where if you aren't a Victor?
By this time Gale will have clocked in at the mines, taken the stomach-churning elevator ride into the depths of the earth, and be pounding away at a coal seam. I know what it's like down there.
Sadly enough. I wish she didn't.
Every year in school, as a part of our training, my class had to tour the mines.
I appreciated knowing what the miners were faced with. But I hated why.
When I was little, it was just unpleasant. The claustrophobic tunnels, foul air, suffocating darkness on all sides. But after my father and several other miners were killed in an explosion, I could barely force myself on to the elevator.
And each year I want nothing more than to wrap my arms around her protectively and reassuringly.
The annual trip became an enormous source of anxiety. Twice I made myself so sick in anticipation of it that my mother kept me home because she thought I had contracted the flu.
I remember that. I despise that she's made to go through that hell.
I think of Gale, who is only really alive in the woods, with its fresh air and sunlight and clean, flowing water. I don't know how he stands it. Well… yes, I do. He stands it because it's the only way to feed his mother and two younger brothers and sister.
It'd be so much easier to hate him if he wasn't only Katniss's best friend, but also if he wasn't as pure-hearted and well-intentioned.
And here I am with buckets of money, far more than enough to feed both our families now, and he won't take a single coin.
He's too kind and good to hate. So much so I hate him for it.
It's even hard for him to let me bring in meat, although he'd surely have kept my mother and Prim supplied if I'd been killed in the Games. I tell him he's doing me a favour, that it drives me nuts to sit around all day. Even so, I never drop off the game while he's at home. Which is easy since he works twelve hours a day.
Madness. Pure madness.
The only time I really get to see Gale now is on Sundays, when we meet up in the woods to hunt together. It's still the best day of the week, but it's not like it used to be before, when we could tell each other anything. The Games have spoiled even that. I keep hoping that as time passes we'll regain the ease between us, but part of me knows it's futile. There's no going back.
I'm not very surprised. She would need someone who's been in the Games with her to know the side-effects of it. More importantly, to fully understand. That would ideally require her male tribute counterpart to also survive. That will never happen.
I get a good haul from the traps — eight rabbits, two squirrels and a beaver that swam into a wire contraption Gale designed himself.
Of course Gale designed it, I think bitterly. The resentment builds within me more.
He's something of a whiz with snares, rigging them to bent saplings so they pull the kill out of the reach of predators, balancing logs on delicate stick triggers, weaving inescapable baskets to capture fish.
Of course he does.
As I go along, carefully resetting each snare, I know I can never quite replicate his eye for balance, his instinct for where the prey will cross the path. It's more than experience. It's a natural gift. Like the way I can shoot at an animal in almost complete darkness and still take it down with one arrow.
Her clean kills are nothing short of awe-inspiring.
By the time I make it back to the fence that surrounds District 12, the sun is well up. As always, I listen a moment, but there's no telltale hum of electrical current running through the chain link. There hardly ever is, even though the thing is supposed to be charged full-time.
It never ceases to amaze me.
I wriggle through the opening at the bottom of the fence and come up in the Meadow, just a stone's throw from my home. My old home. We still get to keep it since officially it's the designated dwelling of my mother and sister. If I should drop dead right now, they would have to return to it. But at present, they're both happily installed in the new house in the Victor's Village, and I'm the only one who uses the squat little place where I was raised. To me, it's my real home.
I am in no way surprised by this. That's just so… Katniss.
I go there now to switch my clothes. Exchange my father's old leather jacket for a fine wool coat that always seems too tight in the shoulders. Leave my soft, worn hunting boots for a pair of expensive machine-made shoes that my mother thinks are more appropriate for someone of my status.
Well, coming from Mrs Everdeen's old status before she married, I am far from shocked by her opinion.
I've already stowed my bow and arrows in a hollow log in the woods. Although time is ticking away, I allow myself a few minutes to sit in the kitchen. It has an abandoned quality with no fire on the hearth, no cloth on the table. I mourn my old life here. We barely scraped by, but I knew where I fitted in, I knew what my place was in the tightly interwoven fabric that was our life. I wish I could go back to it because, in retrospect, it seems so secure compared with now, when I am so rich and so famous and so hated by the authorities in the Capitol.
I wonder why. What happened in her Games that turned them against her? I know she has some strong opinions, but she's learned to keep quiet. What happened?
A wailing at the back door demands my attention. I open it to find Buttercup, Prim's scruffy old tomcat. He dislikes the new house almost as much as I do and always leaves it when my sister's at school. We've never been particularly fond of each other, but now we have this new bond. I let him in, feed him a chunk of beaver fat, even rub him between the ears for a bit. "You're hideous, you know that, right?" I ask him. Buttercup nudges my hand for more petting, but we have to go. "Come on, you." I scoop him up with one hand, grab my game back with the other, and haul them both out on to the street. The cat springs free and disappears under a bush.
She's got to be happy about that. Anyone who knows Prim, knows that she and Katniss have wildly differing opinions on that cat.
The shoes pinch my toes as I crunch along the cinder street. Cutting down alleys and through backyards gets me to Gale's house in minutes. His mother, Hazelle, sees me through the window, where she's bent over the kitchen sink. She dries her hands on her apron and disappears to meet me at the door.
I am fairly sure Gale's mother would fully approve of a union between her son and Katniss. My mother cannot even try to tolerate me.
I like Hazelle. Respect her. The explosion that killed my father took out her husband as well, leaving her with three boys and a baby due any day. Less than a week after she gave birth, she was out hunting the streets for work. The mines weren't an option, what with a baby to look after, but she managed to get laundry from some of the merchants in town. At fourteen, Gale, the eldest of the kids, became the main supporter of the family.
Just like Katniss.
He was already signed up for tesserae, which entitled them to a meagre supply of grain and oil in exchange for his entering his name extra times in the drawing to become a tribute. On top of that, even back then, he was a skilled trapper. But it wasn't enough to keep a family of five without Hazelle working her fingers to the bone on that washboard. In winter her hands got so red and cracked, they bled at the slightest provocation.
I always feel bad for her in the winter months.
Still would if it wasn't for a salve my mother concocted. But they were determined, Hazelle and Gale, that the other boys, twelve-year-old Rory and ten-year-old Vick, and the baby, four-year-old Posy, will never have to sign up for tesserae.
I admire and greatly respect them for that. Again, you cannot possibly hate Gale for that reason. And I resent it more and more as time goes on. What do I have to offer Katniss in comparison? I don't have the skills or the background to understand her or connect with her in the way it counts most. HE does. Unfortunately.
Hazelle smiles when she sees the game. She takes the beaver by the tail, feeling its weight. "He's going to make a nice stew." Unlike Gale, she has no problem with our hunting arrangement.
I don't see why she should. Or would. They always catch the best game there is on offer.
"Good pelt, too," I answer. It's comforting here with Hazelle. Weighing the merits of the game, just as we always have.
I suspect she would guess that's the way Katniss would feel.
She pours me a mug of herb tea, which I wrap my chilled fingers around gratefully. "You know, when I get back from the tour, I was thinking I might take Rory out with me sometimes. After school. Teach him to shoot."
It will never go astray to a family in need such as theirs, or any of us in all reality, to have another skilled hunter. There may only be so much game, but the more hunters, the better the chance of survival. At least, I hope that is indeed the case. At least it would hopefully be more efficient.
Hazelle nods. "That'd be good. Gale means to, but he's only got his Sundays, and I think he likes saving those for you."
She knows he does, I frown. Of course she knows. A true mother knows her child, in the Seam at least, often mothers know their children better than the children know themselves. And that's not just the young and underage children, but their adult children too.
I can't stop the redness that floods my cheeks. It's stupid, of course. Hardly anybody knows me better than Hazelle. Knows the bond I share with Gale. I'm sure plenty of people assumed that we'd eventually get married even if I never gave it any thought. But that was before the Games. Before my fellow tribute, Peeta Mellark, announced he was madly in love with me.
A hush so thick it was smothering fell over the room. My breath caught as Katniss's eyes moved to meet mine. I can see the shock on her face… but the longer our gazes stay locked, the more she—well, we—recover. Then I can see the memory of that day— the one when I purposely burnt bread to save her and her family all that time ago—play through her mind.
"You really are, aren't you?" Katniss whispered so softly I barely heard her. I don't think she'd intended for anyone to hear, but I had and so I nodded… blushing all the while, mind you. The blush she'd just read about was mirrored on her face, and she was so very much more pretty than usual. Her beauty enhanced.
Prim leaned across to study us. She smiled beatifically before grinning almost smugly. Meanwhile remaining as cute as button—she's never not cute, no matter what she does… and I think she knows Katniss better than Katniss could ever suspect. Prim is nothing if not observant—she isn't as gifted as her mother when it comes to healing for no reason; she learns by watching, and she watches and admires her big sister adoringly, trustingly.
Prim taps on the book Katniss had dropped then grabs it and lightly smacks her big sister with it. Katniss, being the excellent sister she is, understands Prim's actions immediately. Taking the book, Katniss finds her spot before continuing. The heady hush in the room has lightened, but just barely, as everyone refuses on the story… trying to distract themselves from the revelation, though we all instinctively know that it would not have been mentioned if it weren't crucial.
Our romance became a key strategy for our survival in the arena. Only it wasn't just a strategy for Peeta. I'm not sure what it was for me. But I know now it was nothing but painful for Gale. My chest tightens as I think about how, on the Victory Tour, Peeta and I will have to present ourselves as lovers again.
I gulp my tea even though it's too hot and push back from the table. "I better get going. Make myself presentable for the cameras."
Hazelle hugs me. "Enjoy the food."
"Absolutely," I say.
My next stop is the Hob, where I've traditionally done the bulk of my trading. Years ago it was a warehouse to store coal, but when it fell into disuse, it became a meeting place for illegal trades and then blossomed into a full-time black market. If it attracts a somewhat criminal element, then I belong here, I guess. Hunting in the woods surrounding District 12 violates at least a dozen laws and is punishable by death.
It may be illegal, but most of the District only survives because of the Hob and who contributes to its existence. Even the Peacekeepers occasionally resort to trading there, as well. You have to be at least half as pretentious and snobby as my mother to spurn the Hob and its necessity for District 12 to continue at all.
Although they never mention it, I owe the people who frequent the Hob. Gale told me that Greasy Sae, the old woman who serves up soup, started a collection to sponsor Peeta and me during the Games. It was supposed to be just a Hob thing, but a lot of other people heard about it and chipped in. I don't know exactly how much it was, and the price of any gift in the arena was exorbitant. But for all I know, it made the difference between my life and death.
It's still odd to drag open the front door with an empty game bag, with nothing to trade, and instead feel the heavy pocket of coins against my hip. I try to hit as many stalls as possible, spreading out my purchases of coffee, buns, eggs, yarn and oil. As an afterthought, I buy three bottles of white liquor from a one-armed woman named Ripper, a victim of a mine accident who was smart enough to find a way to stay alive.
The liquor isn't for my family. It's for Haymitch, who acted as mentor for Peeta and me in the Games. He's surly, violent and drunk most of the time. But he did his job — more than his job — because for the first time in history, two tributes were allowed to win. So no matter who Haymitch is, I owe him, too.
I wonder what it took to award two Victors from one year's Games. It must have been a lot. How did we do it? It's the question on everyone's mind—every face in the room shows it… one way or another; for good or bad.
Katniss's gaze meets mine for a second time in this first chapter. Her eyes reveal a silent promise; whatever it takes to get us home, she'll do it in the event of us being reaped together. I return the silent promise just as fervently. Her lip twitching up is her only acknowledgment of understanding my non-verbal message. My family doesn't need me, but her family needs her. I need her, but I'd just as soon sacrifice myself to ensure her wellbeing as I would live to be with her—in whatever capacity she accepts me into her life and heart; because she owns mine, completely owns mine and has for years.
And that's for always. I'm getting the white liquor because a few weeks ago he ran out and there was none for sale and he had a withdrawal, shaking and screaming at terrifying things only he could see. He scared Prim to death and, frankly, it wasn't much fun for me to see him like that, either. Ever since then I've been sort of stockpiling the stuff just in case there's a shortage again.
Cray, our Head Peacekeeper, frowns when he sees me with the bottles. He's an older man with a few strands of silver hair combed sideways above his bright red face. "That stuff's too strong for you, girl." He should know. Next to Haymitch, Cray drinks more than anyone I've ever met.
That's very true. Cray does drink far too much. But if he didn't, I shudder thinking how different the Peacekeepers attitude could be.
"Aw, my mother uses it in medicines," I say indifferently.
"Well, it'd kill just about anything," he says, and slaps down a coin for a bottle.
When I reach Greasy Sae's stall, I boost myself up to sit on the counter and order some soup, which looks to be some kind of gourd and bean mixture. A Peacekeeper named Darius comes up and buys a bowl while I'm eating. As law enforcers go, he's one of my favorites. Never really throwing his weight around, usually good for a joke. He's probably in his twenties, but he doesn't seem much older than I do. Something about his smile, his red hair that sticks out every which way, gives him a boyish quality.
Her well advanced maturity goes a long way to make up the age gap—however small or big it is.
"Aren't you supposed to be on a train?" he asks me.
"They're collecting me at noon," I answer.
"Shouldn't you look better?" he asks in a loud whisper. I can't help smiling at his teasing, in spite my mood. "Maybe a ribbon in your hair hair or something?" He flicks my braid with his hand and I brush him away.
Irrational irritation floods through me at the thought. There's no doubt that Darius was flirting with Katniss—though she, in typical Katniss fashion—clearly doesn't realize. Honestly wouldn't surprise me if he was already making subtle passes at her… and I feel surprisingly violent at the mere thought. Gale making lovey-dovey eyes at here when she's not looking is bad enough—at least he helps keep her and her family alive as well as himself and his own family.
"Don't worry. By the time they get through with me I'll be unrecognizable," I say.
"Good," he says. "Let's show a little district pride for a change, Miss Everdeen. Hm?" He shakes his head at Greasy Sae in mock disapproval and walks off to join his friends.
"I'll want that bowl back," Greasy Sae calls after him, but since she's laughing, she doesn't sound particularly stern. "Gale going to see you off?" she asks me.
"No, he wasn't on the list," I say. "I saw him Sunday, though."
"Think he'd have made the list. Him being your cousin and all," she says wryly.
It's just one more part of the lie the Capitol has concocted. When Peeta and I made it into the final eight in the Hunger Games, they sent reporters to do personal stories about us. When they asked about my friends, everyone directed them to Gale. But it wouldn't do, what with the romance I was playing out in the arena, to have my best friend be Gale. He was too handsome, too male, and not the least bit willing to smile and play nice for the cameras.
"Of course I wouldn't play nice! You're in the arena—and acting out a romance with a boy you've never noticed before!" dramatically states the aforementioned too handsome, too male best friend.
Katniss shoots him a reproachful look for his interruption. "And what's it to you? Huh? Why would you care so much about what I'd have to do to survive?"
He's silent. She isn't done—curious and fired-up now.
"So? You're as resourceful as I am—maybe more-so—so if you really wanted me to survive, you'd volunteer! Not sit back and watch and hate whatever it took me to survive!"
Hawthorne looks appropriately chastised… possibly even guilty. He knows better than most about not getting on the wrong side of Katniss Everdeen.
We do resemble each other, though, quite a bit. We have that Seam look. Dark straight hair, olive skin, grey eyes. So some genius made him my cousin. I didn't know about it until we were already home, on the platform at the train station, and my mother said, "Your cousins can hardly wait to see you!" Then I turned and saw Gale and Hazelle and all the kids waiting for me, so what could I do but go along?
Greasy Sae knows we're not related, but even some of the people who have known us for years seem to have forgotten.
"I just can't wait for the whole thing to be over,"" I whisper.
"I know," says Greasy Sae. "But you've got to go through it to get to the end of it. Better not be late."
"It's never over, sweetheart; it's never over," Haymitch prattles drunkenly. The other Victors present look like they're in agreement with him. Katniss, however, just shakes her head.
A light snow starts to fall as I make my way to the Victor's Village. It's about a kilometre-long walk from the square in the centre of town, but it seems like another world entirely. It's a separate community built around a beautiful green, dotted with flowering bushes. There are twelve houses, each large enough to hold ten of the one I was raised in. Nine stand empty, as they always have. The three in use belong to Haymitch, Peeta and me.
The houses inhabited by my family and Peeta give off a warm glow of life. Lit windows, smoke from the chimneys, bunches of brightly coloured corn affixed to the front doors as decoration for the upcoming Harvest Festival. However, Haymitch's house, despite the care taken by the groundskeeper, exudes an air of abandonment and neglect. I brace myself at his front door, knowing it will be foul, then push inside.
My nose immediately wrinkles in disgust. Haymitch refuses to let anyone in to clean and does a poor job himself. Over the years the odours of liquor and vomit, boiled cabbage and burned meat, unwashed clothes and mouse droppings have intermingled into a stench that brings tears to my eyes. I wade through a litter of discarded wrappings, broken glass and bones to where I know I will find Haymitch. He sits at the kitchen table, his arms sprawled across the wood, his face in a puddle of liquor, snoring his head off.
Sounds typical and about what you'd expect from him.
I nudge his shoulder. "Get up!" I say loudly, because I've learned there's no subtle way to wake him. His snoring stops for a moment, questioningly, and then resumes. I push him harder. "Get up, Haymitch. It's tour day!" I force the window up, inhaling deep breaths of the clean air outside. My feet shift through the rubbish on the floor, and I unearth a tin coffee pot and fill it at the sink. The stove isn't completely out and I manage to coax a few live coals into a flame. I pour some ground coffee into the pot, enough to make sure the resulting brew will be good and strong, and set it on the stove to boil.
Haymitch is still dead to the world. Since nothing else has worked, I fill a basin with icy cold water, dump it on his head, and spring out of the way. A guttural sound comes from his throat. He jumps up, kicking his chair a metre behind him and wielding a knife. I forgot he always sleeps with one clutched in his hand. I should have prised it from his fingers, but I've had a lot on my mind. Spewing profanities, he slashes the air a few moments before coming to his senses. He wipes his face on his shirtsleeve and turns to the window sill where I perch, just in case I need to make a quick exit.
I wonder why Katniss was the one to wake him. And by the looks of it, I'm not the only finding the description of his house offensive to the senses. Though it leaves me more curious than ever as to how he won his Games, what situation he had to face.
"What are you doing?" he sputters.
"You told me to wake you an hour before the cameras come," I say.
"What?" he says.
"Your idea," I insist.
He seems to remember. "Why am I all wet?"
"I couldn't shake you awake," I say. "Look, if you wanted to be babied, you should have asked Peeta."
"Asked me what?" Just the sound of his voice twists my stomach into a knot of unpleasant emotions like guilt, sadness and fear. And longing. I might as well admit there's some of that, too. Only it has too much competition to ever win out.
Once more, Katniss's grasp on the book is loosened to the point it falls out of her hand. She's frozen for a moment—again, the whole room is, we in the innermost circle all know how closely she holds her cards to her chest and how securely she locks up her heart. Then she turns to face me… study me. Her face gives away nothing, though I know from her eyes that she's trying to envisage a Games environment that allows her to survive, with me. She's clearly calculating what it would take for her to convince the Capitol she's as in love with me as I am with her, to the point her best friend has to become her 'cousin' and he believes it to the point of anger—even before it's happened. What would it take in the Games to leave her longing for me? AND admit it? Especially admit it. At least to herself.
Prim breaks the staring match in her sweet, gentle way. "I can see it, I can see it!" she softly sings with an all-knowing expression.
I watch as Peeta crosses to the table, the sunlight from the window picking up the glint of fresh snow in his blond hair. He looks strong and healthy, so different from the sick, starving boy I knew in the arena, and you can barely even notice his limp now.
Limp? What limp? What happened in the arena? And I'm so training when we get out of here. I've got five months, at least; that's when the next reaping is… and the letter I read before we started implied it would be this year—next at the latest. And by training, I don't just mean physical conditioning. I mean that plus sneaking out into the woods with Katniss once a week minimum to learn her survival skills… Hawthorne's too, I suppose.
He sets a loaf of fresh-baked bread on the table and holds out his hand to Haymitch.
"Asked you to wake me without giving me pneumonia," says Haymitch, passing over his knife. He pulls off his filthy shirt, revealing an equally spoiled undershirt, and rubs himself down with the dry part.
Peeta smiles and douses Haymitch's knife in white liquor from a bottle on the floor. He wipes the blade clean on his shirt tail and slices the bread. Peeta keeps all of us in fresh baked goods. I hunt. He bakes. Haymitch drinks. We have our own ways to stay busy, to keep thoughts of our time as contestants in the Hunger Games at bay.
I should teach Katniss the only thing I know which could possibly help me survive—given the right conditions. The one thing I do best in the family bakery. Paint. Well, technically I'm best in the family at decorative icing. But in the context it could serve as a useful skill to hide—I could use my skills and eye to create a camouflage and let the others battle it out; survive. Just simply survive without getting involved in the savagery and brutality. And maybe, just maybe, she could do it too if she can't get her hands on a bow, wire for snares, or even a knife.
It's not until he's handed Haymitch the heel that he even looks at me for the first time. "Would you like a piece?"
"No, I ate at the Hob," I say. "But thank you." My voice doesn't sound like my own, it's so formal. Just as it's been every time I've spoken to Peeta since the cameras finished filming our happy homecoming and we returned to our real lives.
"You're welcome," he says back stiffly.
Haymitch tosses his shirt somewhere into the mess. "Brrr. You two have got a lot of warming up to do before showtime."
He's right, of course. The audience will be expecting the pair of lovebirds who won the Hunger Games. Not two people who can barely look each other in the eye. But all I say is, "Take a bath, Haymitch." Then I swing out of the window, drop to the ground, and head across the green to my house.
The snow has begun to stick and I leave a trail of footprints behind me. At the front door, I pause to knock the wet stuff from my shoes before I go in. My mother's been working day and night to make everything perfect for the cameras, so it's no time to be tracking up her shiny floors. I've barely stepped inside when she's there, holding my arm as if to stop me.
"Don't worry, I'm taking them off here," I say, leaving my shoes on the mat.
My mother gives an odd, breathy laugh and removes the game bag loaded with supplies from my shoulder. "It's just snow. Did you have a nice walk?"
"Walk?" She knows I've been in the woods half the night. Then I see the man standing behind her in the kitchen doorway. One look at his tailored suit and surgically perfected features and I know he's from the Capitol. Something is wrong. "It was more like skating. It's really getting slippery out there."
"Someone's here to see you," says my mother.
I have a bad feeling about our beloved president paying her a personal visit and message.
Her face is too pale and I can hear the anxiety she's trying to hide.
Definitely Snow. Has to be.
"I thought they weren't due until noon," I pretend not to notice her state. "Did Cinna come early to help me get ready?"
"No, Katniss, it's—" my mother begins.
"This way, please, Miss Everdeen," says the man. He gestures down the hallway. It's weird to be ushered around your own home, but I know better than to comment on it.
As I go, I give my mother a reassuring smile over my shoulder. "Probably more instructions for the tour." They've been sending me all kinds of stuff about my itinerary and what protocol will be observed in each district. But as I walk towards the door of the study, a door I have never even seen closed until this moment, I can feel my mind begin to race. Who is here? What do they want? Why is my mother so pale?
Snow. No doubt about it now.
"Go right in," says the Capitol man, who had followed me down the hallway.
I twist the brass knob and step inside. My nose registers the conflicting scents of roses and blood.
That confirms it. Snow is paying Katniss a visit. This. Can. Not. Be. Good.
A small, white-haired man who seems vaguely familiar is reading a book. He holds up a finger as if to say, "Give me a moment." Then he turns and my heart skips a beat.
I'm staring into the snakelike eyes of President Snow.
I just knew it! Shit is about to go down!
