I own none of the characters of Angel
"Angel I got a vision." Cordy told me walking in my office.
"What did you see?"
"There are five vamps in a subway train attacking the passengers. They are in car C of train 54 that is leaving from the Burke Street at 5:57." I glanced at my watch and saw that it was 5:15 so I should have just enough time to get to the station before the train leaves.
"We need to leave now so we can get there on time." I stood walked around my desk and headed to the weapons cabinet, yelling for Gunn and Wes as I went.
"Hey Cor the three of us can handle this. Why don't you head on home and get ready for tonight?" We were having Connor, Ashley and Ryan over for dinner. Since the wedding Connor had been seriously dating and he was happy and Cordy and I have been making the effort to get to know Ashley and Ryan.
"Are you sure?" She asked as I took the ax out of her hand.
"Yeah. We'll be fine." I leaned forward and kissed her. "Go on."
"Be careful."
"I always am. Love you babe."
"I love you too." She quickly kissed me again and left. I gathered Gunn and Wes and we headed to the subway station to kill some vampires.
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Cordelia and I have been married for six months and most of those six months have been perfect marital bliss. We spent two amazing weeks in Italy on our honeymoon. I had been to Italy before, when I was Angelus but I never saw the beautiful city during the day. We did all of the regular tourist things, went on tours of the city, went shopping or more accurately Cordelia went shopping and drug me with her to carry her bags. The best thing was making out on the Gondola rides we took on the canals every night which led to amazing sex.
Once we got home we returned to our daily lives things between Cordy and I just got better at least for the first month. Things never actually got bad between us but every month that went by that Cordy wasn't pregnant she was miserable for a week and every month it just got worse to the point that I was tempted to stay at the hotel when I knew she was due for her period but I knew she needed me. She was angry, she was sad, she yelled and she cried and there was nothing I could do but hold her.
Cordy was desperate to have a baby and when it didn't happen right away she made an appointment for me to have my sperm checked. After hours of arguing with her I finally relented and went to have the test done and thankfully my sperm is perfectly healthy. After my successful appointment she made an appointment for herself and her doctor told her that she was fine and she just needed to relax which didn't happen. For three months we had to have sex when her temperature was elevated or she was ovulating. Sex with Cordelia was always amazing but it kind of took some of the fun out of making love when we were only having sex to conceive a baby, not because we wanted to.
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"Hey Cor. I'm home." I knew that something wasn't right because when I pulled into the driveway Connor's car wasn't there and he should have been here already.
I walked into the house and there were no lights on, no smell of dinner cooking, and the only sound was from the TV. When I walked into the living room and saw my sweet Cordelia lying on the couch, wrapped up in a blanket surrounded by used tissues. Right then I knew that she had gotten her period.
"I cancelled with Connor and Ashley." She mumbled tearfully.
"Cordy I'm sorry." I whispered squatting next to her.
"It's not fair." She said sitting up. "I've been impregnated twice by demons but when I really want to get pregnant I can't." She got up from the couch and ran into our room, slamming the door behind her. Sighing I stood up and followed her.
"Oh Cordelia." She was on the bed sobbing. Slipping off my shoes I crawled into bed next to her, pulled her into my arms and held her tightly while rubbing my fingers through her hair in an attempt to soothe her.
"Besides you I have never wanted anything so badly so why can't I get pregnant?" She sobbed into my chest.
"The doctor said that it could take awhile because you have been on the pill for years and Cordy you're way too stressed out about getting pregnant."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" She snapped pulling herself out of my arms glaring at me.
"Cordelia I know how badly you want you want a baby but it's all you think about."
"What is wrong with thinking about wanting a piece of you and me in the world?"
"Sweetheart there is nothing wrong with thinking about it but honestly you're doing more then thinking about it. You're obsessing about it and it's no wonder why you can't get pregnant." I told her gently but she still got pissed.
"What they hell is that supposed to mean? Are you blaming me for not getting pregnant?" She shouted at me.
"Of course not Cor."
"Then what are you trying to say?"
"The doctor said you need to relax. You are so uptight. We don't make love anymore Cordy."
"Are you crazy? What do you call what we've been doing practically every day since we got married?"
"When we first got married we made love but now we have sex with the sole purpose of getting pregnant."
"What's the difference?"
"Sex is an act; something that we have to do. Making love is about…well love; sharing our feelings towards each other with words, touches and kissing. Lately I feel like all you want me for is my sperm." With those words she burst into tears. "Dammit Cordy. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like it sounded."
"Yes…you…did." She said between sobs. "And you're…right. I just want a baby…your baby so badly."
"It will happen Cor. We just need to relax and let nature take its course." She let herself relax in my arms, crying softly.
"But what if it doesn't happen? What if I never get to be a mom?"
"There is more then one way to become a mom and if it comes down to it we can look into in vitro, adoption or surrogacy but only if we have to but I don't think that we will need those options."
"Really?"
"If we just relax and return to what it used to be like without thinking about getting pregnant I think that it will happen." She pulled herself into my lap, wrapped her arms around my neck and buried her face in my neck.
"I'm sorry Angel. I don't what has gotten into me. Do you still love me?" She mumbled and I laughed softly and wrapped my arms around her waist.
"Of course I still love you. I will always love you."
"Even if I can't give you a child?"
"Don't think like that Cordy. Think positive."
"I'll try."
"Promise?"
"I promise."
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"Thanks." I said taking the cartons of Chinese food from the delivery guy. "Cordy dinner's ready." I hollered.
"You mean that dinner has been delivered." She said grinning as she joined me in the dining room.
"What the hell?" I asked her. She was wearing her oldest rattiest robe.
"I just want to be comfy." I rolled my eyes as she reached across the table for her carton of Lo Mien. "Since when are you the fashion police?" She asked with a grin. Something was going on with her. She seemed almost giddy.
"Not saying I am. You just never eat dinner in your robe."
"I just want to try something different. Is that okay?"
"Whatever you want babe." We ate our dinner while talking about anything and everything. Cordy and I always had such great conversations. I told her things that I have never told anyone before and she did the same with me.
"Are you ready for dessert?"
"We don't have anything for dessert."
"Oh I think we do." She came over, stood in front of me, untied her robe and slipped it from her shoulders reveling a very skimpy negligee that covered practically nothing.
"Now this is my kind of dessert." Grinning she swung her leg over mine and straddled me.
"I love you." She told me with tears in her eyes before her lips descended on mine. I wrapped one arm around her waist and I placed my other hand on the back of her neck, holding her face in place. As our kiss intensified she began to grind herself over my erection that was trapped under my pants.
"Cor…" I groaned and she increased her grinding. Gripping her waist with both hands I stood from my chair and she wrapped her legs around me. I wanted her so bad and I knew that I wouldn't be able to make it upstairs so I cleared off the Chinese cartons by pushing them to the floor, some empty, some still filled with food, something that I knew that I would pay for later but I was more then willing to accept my punishment.
"Angel you made a mess." She mumbled as I sat her on the table.
"I'll clean it up." I told her ripping my shirt off and pulling my pants down to my ankles. "Now it's time to get our dessert." As I lay her back on the dining room table I tried to gently remove her underwear but I was too impatient to get inside of her so I ripped them right off of her, pulled her to the end of the table and with a groan of delight I slid inside of her.
"Cordy." I grunted as she wrapped her legs around me and I began to thrust inside of her.
"God…Angel…" She moaned. With every powerful thrust I saw her breasts bouncing and I had the strongest desire to put my hands or mouth or both on the luscious tissue but they were barely covered by the damn black negligee that she was wearing. So to fix that problem I ripped away the flimsy material and exposed her breasts. "Angel." She gasped as my mouth attacked her nipples. "Harder…faster…please." She begged.
I placed my hands on the table, one on either side of her so I had better leverage and I did as she requested. I thrust into her harder and as fast as I could until Cordelia was screaming out my name was trembling from the force of her orgasm. As soon as she stopped quaking I was exploding inside of her.
"That was…" I was so breathless I could hardly talk. "Amazing."
"I'll second that." She said as she wearily pulled herself into a sitting position with her legs still wrapped around me. "I love you."
"Oh sweetheart I love you too."
"How about we take this upstairs to our bed for a more comfortable second helping of dessert?"
"Cordelia Doyle you're so horny."
"I'm just in a celebrating mood." I panicked for a minute. I thought that I had forgotten an important anniversary but I couldn't think of anything.
"What are we celebrating?" I asked tentatively, waiting for her to rip me a new one for forgetting something that I shouldn't have.
"I'm pregnant Angel." She whispered so softly that I barely heard her.
"Excuse me?"
"We did it Angel. We're pregnant." I placed my hand on her flat belly.
"Really?" She nodded and tears fell from her eyes.
"My period was due a couple of days ago and it never came. I tried to wait to take the test but I was too anxious and the positive sign came up right away. I didn't believe it so I took another one that was just as positive."
"We're having a baby?" Even though we had been trying for seven months for this I was still surprised.
"We're having a baby." She reaffirmed. "Are you okay with this?"
"Am I okay with this? Are you really asking me that?" She nodded. "We've been wanting this since we got married. I am absolutely fine with this. In fact I am thrilled. You're going to make a wonderful mom Cordelia."
"You're already a great dad to Connor and I know you'll be a great father to our baby."
"I love you Cordy. You make me so happy." I told her tearfully.
"I love you Angel." I lifted her off of the table, pressed my lips to hers and carried her upstairs to our room where we made love slowly and tenderly, celebrating the new life that our love created.
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"Hmm. This is interesting." Cordy's OB Dr. Hunter said.
"Interesting good or bad?" Cordy asked anxiously. We were at her first appointment since we found out that she was pregnant. So far things have been going well for her. She wasn't having any morning sickness but she was tired. The first change that I noticed was her breasts were already getting bigger, something I rather liked and she was already gaining weight in her belly.
"Why don't you have a listen?" I watched as Dr. Hunter hit a few buttons and suddenly the room was filled with the sound of our child's heartbeat. "Do you hear that?" Cordy and I nodded. "Good. Now listen to this." I watched as she moved the microphone thing to the other side of Cordy's belly and we heard the heartbeat again.
"I don't understand. Is something wrong with our baby's heartbeat?" I asked.
"No. Both heartbeats are beating exactly as they should be."
"Both?" I managed to croak out.
"Congratulations. You're having twins."
The doctor finished her exam, answered all of our questions, scheduled our next appointment and sent us on our way. There was a smile on Cordelia's face that wasn't going anywhere. I don't think I have ever seen her so happy.
"Two babies. Twins. We're going to have two babies." Cordy was saying. "I wonder if we're going to have girls, boys or one of each. What do you want Angel?" I opened my mouth to respond but she just kept talking. "I wonder if they will be fraternal or identical. If we have two girls or two boys they don't necessarily have to be identical. They could be fraternal but identical twins would be fun too wouldn't they? Oh Angel the mall is up on the left. There is a really nice baby store in the mall. Let's stop there and look around."
"Cordelia you're barely pregnant. Isn't it a little too early to be shopping?"
"I don't want to buy anything. I just want to do some window shopping to see what our options are." I cracked a smile as I pulled into the mall. Cordy is famous for just "window shopping" and coming home with numerous bags and I knew that today would be no different.
Two and a half hours later we walked out of the baby store the proud owners of two cribs, two bassinets, two dressers, two changing tables, two high chairs, one stroller with two seats and two car seats that would be delivered in a week.
"Oh I can't wait for the baby stuff to get here." We were standing in what would be one of the twins' rooms. "I think that we should put the crib here against the wall and the dresser in front of the window." She walked through the empty room. "Or maybe the crib should go on the other wall. What do you think?"
"I think that we should wait until the stuff gets here before we make any decisions."
"Do you want to find out the sexes of the babies before they are born?" It was like I wasn't even there. She would ask me questions but not wait for my answers. "I think that we should so we could decorate the rooms accordingly and get some clothes. They have the cutest clothes for babies anymore. I can't wait to start buying our babies clothes. I wanted to breast feed because I have read that breast milk is better for the child's immune system but I don't know if I'll be able to breast feed twins. Maybe I can pump enough breast milk for both babies. That should be good enough and that way-"
"Cordy."
"You can bond with-"
"Cordelia."
"The twins by feeding-"
"Cordy." I shouted and she jumped in surprise.
"What?" I put my arm around her shoulder and led her out of the room.
"I know how excited you are and so am I but we don't have to answer all of these questions right now. We have seven months to figure every thing out." She sighed.
"You're right. I'm just so excited."
"I know one way to get rid of some of that excited energy." I told her raising my eyebrows in what I hoped was a seductive way. I reached out and began unbuttoning her shirt. "You know once these babies come we aren't going to be able to make love nearly as often as we do now." I slipped her shirt from her body and reached behind her to unclasp her blue bra. "I think that we need to do it as much as we can before they are born. What do you say?" I asked her as I lifted her into my arms and placed her on our bed.
"I concur." Grinning she pulled my shirt up over my head. "Are you still going to love me when I fat?"
"Absolutely."
"What if I don't lose all of the baby weight after they are born? Will you still love me?"
"My sweet Cordelia, I love you for who you are not what you look like. Don't get me wrong you're beautiful but that's not why I love you. I love you because you are an amazing woman. I don't care if you end up weighing 800 pounds and you grow boils all over your body I will still love you."
"Bite you're tongue mister." She said tackling me to the bed.
"Seriously Cor, no matter what I'll always love you and nothing can ever change that."
"I love you so much Angel."
"I know it." I said smugly as I pulled her down onto my chest.
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The next few months flew by smoothly. Even though I was human I still had multiple enemies that wanted to kill me and anyone close to me so I made sure that Cordy wasn't alone. She came to work with me everyday but she was no longer fighting. She just answered the phones and did office stuff. When I went out to fight or slay vampires I always made sure that we had some slayers keeping watch over my wife and unborn children. The hovering was driving Cordy crazy but I didn't care. I wasn't taking any chances with their lives.
Cordy's pregnancy was also progressing normally. The twins were growing exactly as they should and Cordy was huge but it was all the babies. The first time I felt them kick I cried and it amazed me the she could tell what body part that I was feeling like their foot or butt. I was so jealous that she was experiencing it first hand and I couldn't. When we had the ultrasound I stared at amazement at the little girls that we had created. That's right I was going to be a father of two twin girls and honestly it scared me to death. Girls were so precious and scary at the same time and boys. God help me when they were old enough to date because I was once, a very long time ago, a teenage boy and I knew how they thought. I had no idea if I was going to be a good father to them and I think that scared me more than anything.
We were all ready for the girls to be born. Cordy had washed the thousands of clothes that we had gotten as gifts or had bought ourselves and they were all folded or hung up. Diapers had been taken out of the packages and were placed on the changing table. The only thing that we needed were the girls who were taking their sweet time. Cordy was still two weeks away from her due date but we were both so impatient and we wanted them here now. Cordy was at the uncomfortable stage of her pregnancy. Her belly was bigger then she was. She had a hard time moving around. I had to pull her out of bed or a chair. Her ankles were swollen and she couldn't fit into any of her shoes so I spent most nights massaging her poor feet.
I was in the shower one morning getting ready for work when I heard Cordy come in the bathroom. I was surprised that she had managed to get out of bed by herself. It's actually quite funny to watch her trying to roll herself out of bed. I've gotten slapped by her a couple times for laughing at her.
"Angel."
"You okay hon?"
"It's time."
"Time for what?"
"Angel my water broke."
"Holy shit." I jumped under the spray and quickly rinsed the soap off of my body. "Cordy are you okay? Are you in any pain?" I asked her as I stepped out of the shower.
"Not really. I've had a couple of contractions but nothing major."
"How long ago? Why didn't you tell me?" I was panicking. "Come on sit down." I took her hand and took her to our room and helped her sit on the bed. I threw on some clothes while keeping an eye on Cordy. "Okay babe. Let's go."
"Angel." She mumbled as I lifted her into my arms.
"It's okay. You'll be fine."
"Angel I'm not dressed." I looked down at her and realized that she was only wearing the tee shirt that she slept in last night.
"Oh right." I set her back down and found a pair of sweats and helped her get dressed. "Anything else?" She shook her head so I lifted her up again and carried her downstairs. "Are you okay?" I asked her when I reached the door.
"I'm fine." I bent down and retrieved her overnight and the diaper bag that has been packed for weeks.
"Let's go have our babies." I took her out to the garage and placed her inside of our newly purchased SUV with the car seats already installed. I buckled her in and then ran over to the driver's side and hopped in.
"Angel." She said as I started the car.
"What? Are you having a contraction?"
"Shoes dumbass. You're not wearing any." I looked down at my feet and realized she was right.
"Oh hell." I jumped out of the SUV, ran inside found my shoes. When I got back she was in the middle of a contraction. I reached for her hand and she clutched it tightly.
"Hang in there sweetheart." I begged. I hated to see her in so much pain.
"That was nothing compared to those damn visions that I used to get." She said with a weak smile.
"That's my brave girl." I sent her a wink and she wiped her tears from her face.
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"Want some ice chips Cordy?" She nodded and I fed some to her and then I moped the sweat from her face. We had been at the hospital for five hours and at last check she was eight centimeters dilated. She was given an epidural but it didn't seem to be helping her much. "How are you doing?"
"How do you think that I'm doing?"
"Is there anything that I can do?" Before she could answer Dr. Hunter walked in.
"Cordelia can I check your progress?"
"Yes please." I helped position her legs in the stirrups.
"Are you ready to start pushing Cordelia? You're ten centimeters dilated."
"Thank God."
"Mr. Doyle why don't you go change into scrubs while we get your wife ready." I really didn't want to leave her.
"Cordy I'll be right back." I kissed her head and followed the nurse out of the room.
When I returned five minutes later there were two bassinets and multiple more nurses and doctors were in the room and Dr. Hunter was between Cordy's legs.
"Cordelia it's time to start pushing. Mr. Doyle why don't you stand next to her and hold her leg back for me?"
"Yes ma'am." I reached for Cordy's left leg and held it back. "I love you Cor."
"I love you too Angel."
"Cordelia on the next contraction I want you to push." Dr. Hunter instructed.
Thirty minutes later Cordy pushed out our oldest daughter. As soon as we heard her unhappy cry tears fell from our eyes. "Congratulations it's a girl." Dr. Hunter said holding up our tiny little girl. "Mr. Doyle would like to cut the cord?" I nodded, released Cordy's hand, took the scissors from the nurse and cut where I was instructed to. "Time to get back to work. There is still one more baby to get out."
"Don't worry sir. She'll be fine. I'm just going to clean her up so she is ready." A nurse told me.
"Ahhhhhhhh." I heard Cordy scream and I went back to her side.
"Push Cordelia." Dr. Hunter said.
"Angel I'm so tired and it hurts." She moaned.
"You're halfway done sweetie. You can do it."
"I …can't…" She sobbed.
"Cordelia you need to push." Dr. Hunter repeated and Cordy shook her head.
"Cordy listen to me." I practically shouted. "You are the strongest woman I know. You are not weak so sit your ass up and push our daughter out." Shooting me a glare she pulled herself up and pushed.
"Good job. I can see the head. Give me another good push." My beautiful wife grunted and pushed again and a minute later we heard the baby cry. "Hang in there Cordelia. Here come the shoulders and then the rest is a piece of cake."
"Arghhhhhh." Cordy groaned as the shoulders came out.
"Say hello to twin B." Dr. Hunter said holding up our youngest daughter who was screaming her tiny head off. "Mr. Doyle cut the cord." Kissing Cordy I left her side and cut the cord again like I was a pro.
"Would you like to hold your daughter?" The nurse who took the first baby away asked me holding out a pink bundle towards me. I slowly reached out and my daughter was placed in my arms.
"Is she okay?" I asked staring at her.
"She perfect. 5lbs 7oz and 19 inches long."
"Hi princess. I'm you're daddy." I whispered softly. "You are the most beautiful creature that I have ever seen."
"Angel." Cordy called.
"Your mommy wants to meet you." I walked over to my wife.
"How is she?"
"Perfect and beautiful, just like her mom. Cordelia meet Chloe Elizabeth." I placed Chloe in Cordy's arms.
"Hi baby. Are you the one who was kicking the crap out of me or were you the one that was constantly on my bladder?"
"She looks just like you Cor." I told her.
"No. I can see you in her."
"Either way, she's beautiful."
"Mr. Mrs. Doyle would you like your other daughter?"
"How much does she weigh?" Cordy asked her.
"5lbs 10oz and 19 inches long like her sister." The nurse said placing the baby in my arms.
"Hi Zoey Christine. You are as beautiful as your sister."
"Let me see." Cordy demanded. I bent down and placed Zoey in Cordy's other arm.
"They are identical." I commented. I looked at their faces and I didn't see any difference between them.
"They're perfect."
As I stood next to Cordy, Chloe and Zoey I couldn't believe how lucky I was to be blessed with two perfect daughters, a son and wife who loved me. I couldn't imagine my life getting any better.
"Cordelia can you give up those girls for a few minutes while we finish up with you?" Dr. Hunter asked her.
"Here Angel. Take the girls." I sat on the chair next to Cordy and the nurses handed me the girls. As I stared at the precious creatures in my arms I was amazed that I could love two people so much that I had just met and I knew at that moment that I would give my life for them.
"I love you both so much." I whispered tearfully to my daughters.
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