As I said last update/scene, there will be drama. Like, the DUN DUN DUNNN drama. Not the lovey-dovey drama. Get that in your head right now. ^^;;
Second of all, I'm going to be gone from tomorrow to Sunday, since it's going to be Fourth of July. And you guys all recall that I live in America, right? I like going out and watching fireworks… It's fun, too, to go have fun wherever I am to watch the fireworks. This time, I'm going into the mountains. :D
Yep, there's going to be trees. No snow, though. It's summer. D:
Hope there's going to be fireworks. :]
And I'm thinking of doing an omake for fireworks, but I don't think Japanese people really do fireworks for the independence of a country on the other side of the Pacific Ocean. Maybe I'll do one for New Years or something, when it comes around in the story. Yeah, I am lazy. :]
If I forget and New Years is coming, make sure to remind me if you guys remember~! xD
Oh, and also, since I'm going to be gone, I'm going to update more than one scene. Ah, that reminds me. If I were updating one scene per day, then I should be at scene 98. And here we are, barely into the seventies. Which means I should be splitting up the 101 pileup. And posting a little more for this. :]
Two per day to catch up sounds pretty nice, right? Yeah, I'll try and do that. If I remember. xD
Well, then I'll do a few chapters, and I'll catch up later. After I get back. And I'll be working on that omake too.
Oh yeah, and Soto. He's going to come back, I promise. If he doesn't anytime soon, he's going to be back at least after the Millifore Arc. And no, he is NOT going to be killed while Tsuna and co. are gone. Nobody's really going to be killed, not yet. =.=
Anyway, I think it'd be best if I don't keep you readers from reading the update. So…
Happy Reading, everyone, and please, uber please, review!!
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"Reborn, for some reason, when I got back from the…hospital… I don't have any money. So, I can't buy any food to eat or anything, so, can you call my mom, or Soto, or Jasmine, to send me some money?" Kaia brightly asked. "I bet that once kaa-san has her job, she'll be able to send me some more, right? I don't have credit cards, you know."
"Did you try calling her? I know you know her cell phone number," suggested Reborn.
"Well, for some reason, it doesn't work. I've tried, but it always rings, then it hangs up on me. So, Reborn, can you ask for me?" shrugged Kaia, her sparkling eyes smiling at Reborn.
"Sure."
They walked on in absolute silence. Kaia looked as if she wanted to say something, but she didn't voice this. Reborn, however, had a foreboding feeling, and didn't dare read her mind. He thought that the fear he had had been stamped out long ago, when he was training to be a Mafioso. But it seems that it merely laid in slumber, waiting for its chance to come back. Kaia couldn't hold it in anymore; she broke the fragile barrier of silence.
"Ever since I got here in Namimori, why have there been…things happening around me?" Behind Kaia's nervous, shifting eyes, there was a dormant volcano of anger, frustration, disappointment, betrayal, lying, and deception.
"Things always happen around any one person."
"But, why did I even move here in the first place?" Her eyes slightly narrowed.
"Your mother didn't have her job anymore and couldn't support an apartment in Kokyou anymore."
"No…I think you're not telling me completely everything. There's something big you're covering up, right?" Her eyes were searching, accusing, blaming, suspecting. Suspicious of the world.
"No. You're just…biologically fragile."
"Do you think that's going to explain how much school I've missed?! How come I feel so tired all the time, why I get to skip PE, and why, sometimes, don't I even remember living through certain days?! Like how I entirely skipped last Wednesday and Thursday?" Kaia's eyes burned with anger and frustration, and the single question she daren't speak.
Why don't you ever tell me anything?!
"You know, too. The concussion knocked you completely off-balance."
"Off-balance how?!"
"Post-Traumatic Disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder. Those were both caused by that-"
"How could a hit in the head cause personality disorders?! When did that become possible?! And-"
"Post-Traumatic Disorder is a disorder that sometimes leads to other problems. For you, it was Borderline Personality Disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder, or BPD, is characterized by various personality and temperament changes. The changes occur every few days, at most a week, and range from anxiety, depression-like symptoms such as sadness and hopelessness, anger, frustration, and paranoia. Patients might also yearn for company and not to be left alone, think suicidal thoughts, and constantly be on edge. Borderline Personality Disorder is basically the random alternation of different mental states of stress, and therefore drain one of their energy."
"So now you're blaming everything on this BPD?! Wha-" Kaia fell silent, as the realization washed over her.
Kaia stopped walking.
"I have…border…line… per…son…al…ity…dis…or…der…" she breathed. Her eyes faced forward, but they saw nothing. She was frozen with shock.
Everything makes sense now.
I was silent last week, wasn't I? And now I'm full-blown angry, aren't I. This…This is it, right? BPD?
I didn't want Soto to leave… I didn't want to be left alone.
I thought of death, the relief of it finally ending my agony, haven't I?
And all the things happening to me… Happening around me…
No. Reborn might be lying; I'll have to research this myself, or maybe ask Jasmine. No, not her either. Jasmine, she's probably going to lie too.
"Oii, Kaia. Kaia!!" Reborn repeated. He turned his head, and he slapped Kaia, hard in the cheek.
"Oww… Reborn… What was that for?" Kaia's eyes began to well up. She cringed away, rubbing her cheek painfully.
I really don't deserve to live, don't I?
I'm- I'm just some useless, foolish little girl that is nothing.
Nobody would care if I died, wouldn't they?
"Stop it, right now!!"
Kaia looked to the window, where Reborn now stood.
"Stop it, Kaia. Stop right, right now." Reborn stared intently at Kaia. "You are supposed to live, idiot. If you've got so many bodyguards around you, why would it be otherwise?! Soto cares about you, your mother, Allegra, cares about you, Jasmine cares about you. Tsuna cares, too, and if he does, you've got the support of his friends as well. Of course, if you die, it'd be a disaster to everyone."
"Everyone who? They're all friends with me so they can benefit themselves – they don't care a thing about me," she spoke as if she were on the verge of tears.
"Fine. Would you like to die then?" grinned the Arcobaleno. He pulled out a gun and aimed it at Kaia. "Would you like to feel what it is like to die, Raiahu Kaiashi?" Kaia froze, and stood up, looking at Reborn with watery, heartbreaking eyes.
"I have felt what it is like to die, I just know it. I don't know how I do, but…I've died before, I just know it. And… I have no regrets for going. I've wondered…wondered how I could escape the horrors of life… To have…them…to-to…just watch my every move…" Kaia looked away, pain flickering past her eyes, her lips pursed. She closed her eyes, so Reborn couldn't read them, and her mind.
"Fine, just-just kill me… I don't care; Ria deserves to live more than I do… I haven't a single regret, Reborn. Just kill me. Just release me from my ties to this world." Her voice was emotion-less, mechanical.
"You don't want to die, Kaia," Reborn put away his gun. His grin wasn't there anymore, once he realized the Dying Will Bullet wouldn't work on her. Not if she hasn't a single regret to dying. "Do you still want to talk to Soto, Jasmine, and Allegra?" Kaia looked at the Arcobaleno, suspicion and accusing easily read in her expression.
"No. Neither do I want to even speak to you, either. Forget everything." She reached into her bag, took out the cell phone Reborn gave her, and threw it on the ground. The phone fell apart, shattered into pieces on the tiled floor.
"I don't want to see you, or any of you weirdos anymore! You're only corrupting my life, okay?!" She bit her lip as she glared at Reborn one last time, stomped on the cell phone's remains once before taking off across the hallway, and disappearing out of sight around the turn. Tears, which had been flung into the air as Kaia left, fell to the floor and onto the remains of the Vongola's best technology on the tiled floor.
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Heh, that was pretty sad. And a little awkward, to me, in the phrasing and such. To me, overall not as good as I could have done. But still okay. :]
Oh well, I think there would be a scene that I'll post after this, and if there isn't please be patient. It will get there soon.
Still, have an awesome summer [break]!! xD
-and please review-
