Even though the part written below was written a while back, I'm still keeping it on this chapter because it truly meant a lot to me to write it down for you guys. It's something I wanted to share with all of you who read my stories.
First of all I wanna share something with you guys… My mom brought me some Asian food to eat (No dah, TeeHee) When I opened my Fortune Cookie, the little paper said "Sweet Memories are The Paradise of Your Mind." That sentence went right into my heart because I felt like I could really relate to its saying. It automatically made me think of my Dad and all the memories I have of him, of our time together. (No he's not dead, he's just way too far from my reach.) He and my mom divorced when I was a year old or less, but my brother and I would still visit him during the summer. (That stopped when he remarried, which was when I was around 8-10 years old.) Now I am nearly 18 (July 09, 08 is My 18th Birthday) and I only get to see my dad once or twice a year, sometimes not at all for about 2-3 years. When he does visit, it's only for a week, most of the time less than that. So far I haven't seen him at all since my High School Graduation (May 31, 08) and it was only for a couple of hours. I doubt I'll be able to see him until next year (2010) if not on January then on March but only for 2 days. Anyways what I'm trying to say is that, this fortune I received is exactly how I feel about the memories I have created with my Dad… those memories are 120% the Paradise of my Mind. So for those of you, who have your dads always by your side, cherish every single moment you share. Never forget to tell them and show them how much you Love them, because you may never know what 'Destiny and Fate' will bring you tomorrow.
I know I'm a bit late with this but, Happy Father's Day, everyone. I actually made my Dad cry, because I send him a Card and added a lot of my thoughts in it… Then on Monday I called him and we both cried on the phone. He regretted not being there for me as I grew up (and for my brother) and he wishes with all his heart to turn back time and start all over again, create better memories, create a Happier Family. But time has now passed and neither I nor my brother, are children anymore I'm already turning 18 (and my brother 20). He asked me in tears to forgive him, and I did. (I intended on saying that there was nothing to forgive, but I learned one good lesson on never saying that when someone is talking from the heart.) He then asked me for a favor after all the crying and apologies, he asked me if there was a possibility that when I had my own children, if he could be there watching and helping them grow, do everything that he couldn't do with me, if he could do it with My Children. I gladly accepted, because no matter how much pain there is in my heart, I always think of my Dad as the Best Dad any girl could ask for. Always!
Alright, for those of you who actually read what's above, THANK YOU! It really means a lot to me to be able to share my emotions, my feelings and my thought with all of you guys. Okie-Dokie, I'll start the Story NOW!
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"You know its not that I didn't want to do it with you, I love you and without a second thought I would gladly loose my virginity to you." She paused, I guessed she was waiting for my reply but I wasn't able to give her any, so she continued. "I don't want to do it with you when all I'm able to see in your eyes is Lust... Hikaru, I'm your Fiancée, not your Sex-Toy, if…" She paused again, this time taking in some air. "If Sex is all you truly want from me, then I don't think we're meant for each other after all." She opened the door and left, not even allowing me to reply as I saw the door close.
I intended on running after her, but stopped myself from re-opening the door. I walked over to my desk, slamming my palms onto it, furious at my own actions. "DAMN IT!" I threw the pile of stacked papers off my desk and they scattered all over the floor. I let myself fall back on my chair, turning my head downwards and slamming, this time my right fist, onto the desk, my left hand clenching onto my pocket.
I left my room once I had somewhat cooled down, ordering a couple of my maids to re-organize the papers, no questions asked. I left the house, going out for a walk was well too needed at the moment. "Haruhi, I'm sorry." In my left hand I held the small object that had been hidden inside my pocket. It was a silver necklace, ornamented by a silver moon with a shining star shaped diamond at the tip. "Haruhi wasn't this, what I meant to give you? Then why did it turn like that?" I placed the necklace back into my pocket, taking a long and cooling walk.
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Chapter 2; Fun, Beauty and a New Memory
06/23/09 – 08/19/09
-Haruhi's P.O.V-
I was headed towards Tama-Kun's house, Aisawa had agreed on giving me a ride. I wasn't paying much attention to what he was saying; no instead I was looking out the window wondering why Hikaru had acted that way. 'That was the first time I saw Hikaru with those eyes that showed pure lust.'
"Yo' Baby Doll, are you okay?" Aisawa questioned, regaining back my attention.
"Yeah I'm fine, why do you ask?" I turned, giving him an innocent smile, which he absolutely did NOT buy.
"Haru-Chan come on, you suck at lying. I can tell right away that something is bothering you… you've been out of it the whole drive."
"I have not!"
"Really, then would you mind explaining me why you haven't noticed that we have arrived?" I looked around, realizing that the car had come to a stop and we were now parked in front of what seemed to be Tamaki's place.
"Hehehe… yeah, about that…" I rapidly opened the door and got out "gotta go, can't be late, bye!" I knocked on the gate and a maid opened right away, not even giving Aisawa any time to get off his car. 'Aah, seriously where's my head?' I followed the maid into the house. 'Uh, Tamaki once said that I would be surprise by the size of his house and the amount of maids, but truthfully, the Main House is way larger than this one and the amount of maids seem to exceed the amount in this house.'
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"Miss, you may go in." The maid said sliding open the door in front of me, bringing me back to reality, again.
"Hehe, thank you very much." I walked into the room only to see everyone already waiting for me. They where all sitting around a 'what's that table called? Damn I have it at the tip of my tongue…' I finally remembered "Ah, it's a Kotatsu!" Everyone just looked at me in confusion then in a second they began to laugh at me, at that moment I realized that I had thought it out loud. (A/n; NuNnaLiE18: Something just came to mind, is it "Out Loud" or "Aloud"?? Hey people I'm still wondering about this!!)
"Haru-Chan, we were waiting for you, what took ya' so long?" Chun-Kun questioned as he munched down a couple of cookies.
"Sorry, I had to deal with some family business before coming over." Of course I lied; I couldn't possibly tell them about Hikaru and Me.
"Oh, is everything OK? Are you sure you can be here?" Nunna-Chan questioned with concern in her voice.
"Yeah, yeah, no worries…" I couldn't say that everything was settled because it obviously wasn't, I wanted to stay and talk with Hikaru but at that time it was best for me to just let him be. "I'll settle things when I get back… we needed a break anyways." Tamaki looked at me confused and curious about whom I was referring to, but it seemed best to not ask.
"Alright since its Haru-Chan's personal problems we should not concern ourselves with it." He looked at me, giving me a smile. "Haru-Chan come, don't just stand there, sit, sit." He patted the empty spot besides him and as I was told I took a seat.
"Haruhi, we all brought lots of things for you to see, when we placed everything together it created five huge piles of memories. Right before you walked in we were talking about making this Party into a Sleep Over, so we want to hear your opinion." Taku-Kun said he was sitting perpendicular to me.
"I…" but as I was about to answer, my phone began to ring. "Sorry, I outta take this outside, be right back." I left the room and walked a bit away from the door as I answered. "Hello?"
"Haruhi, you need to come home right away!" It was Hikaru, he sounded out of it, as if he just called me without any idea of what to say.
"Why?" I simply questioned, no emotion registered in my voice
"Because, I need you… I need to talk to you… I need to… I need to…" He was making no sense what so ever.
"Look, Hikaru what you need to do is cool off." I took in a deep breath and let it out. "I'm sorry to say this but both of us need some time alone. I'm staying over at Tamaki's with everyone else."
"Wait, no you can't! Haruhi…" Argh, his voice, the tone of it, it sounded so controlling, so impatient. What was his deal, what on Earth was going through his mind at the moment?
"Hikaru… I love you, but we both need sometime… you need it more than I do. I promise that once I get back home tomorrow I'll go directly to see you, but when I do, I beg of you to have made those eyes full of lust disappear. Please, don't do anything stupid just go take a cold shower, finish grading your papers and go to sleep. I truly love you, remember that." (A/n; NuNnaLiE18: Damn I wrote too many 'I love you'… Seriously was I in love when I wrote this or something? I'm so dumb, LOl)
"Haruhi, I'm sorry…" His voice sounded calm now, relaxed as well. Was he having mood swings, how could his tone change so fast?
"I know."
"I'll see you tomorrow; I'll wait for your return." I could finally hear the old Hikaru in his voice, not the one that had called my name while doing those things to me.
"Get some rest, okay? Bye."
"K-Bye" I hanged up, walking back to the room, but at the doorway I saw Tamaki.
"… H-hey what's up?" I looked at the cell phone in my hand 'Did he hear? Could it be possible that he heard everything?' I turned my gaze back to Tamaki who was just looking at me, no expression shown on his face.
"Nothing much, I'm just going to the kitchen, ask my chef to make more tea and snacks since Chun finished them all and left none for you." He gave me a smile, which still made me wonder if he knew about me and Hikaru or not. "Hey, so who was the call from?"
"Oh it was… just Aisawa. I sort of got out the car without even a good-bye. Seems he got a bit hurt by that, he really cares for me, he treats me like the little sister he never had. He's actually an old friend of mine. Kaoru, he and I are really close, so anyways, that was just Aisawa saying that he wanted me to make it up to him." I returned his smile hoping that he had bought that lame excuse of a story.
"Oh, ok… well make sure to make it up to him then. Alright, I gotta go to the kitchen now. See you in a second."
"Sure, I'll be in here…" I said as I opened the door and entered the room, relaxing a bit since it seemed that he knew not about Hikaru. (A/n; NuNnaLiE18: Or so she thought.)
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-Tamaki's P.O.V-
I walked out the room just seconds after Haruhi with the excuse of going to the kitchen for more tea and snacks. Her voice sounded irritated but not mad as she walked a few feet away from my room. I heard her say Hitachiin-Sensei's name and that they both needed some time alone. 'Wait so is Hitachiin-Sensei and Haruhi really…' but as I was about to think the word 'together' she spoke up the word 'love'.
"Hikaru… I love you, but we both need sometime… you need it more than I do. I promise that once I get back home tomorrow I'll go directly to see you, but when I do, I beg of you to have made those eyes full of lust disappear. Please, don't do anything stupid just go take a cold shower, finish grading your papers and go to sleep. I truly love you, remember that." She said it in such a calm voice; I couldn't believe that they were together! I confessed what I felt to her, yet she was already with him! Then… then why'd she kiss me? No, I couldn't think badly of Haruhi, she wasn't like that… There had to be some logical explanation to the relationship they had.
Even if that was the case, I had promised to myself that I wasn't gonna let Hitachiin-Sensei have Haruhi, and I was keeping my promise.
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-Haruhi's P.O.V-
I walked back into the room and saw everyone just staring at me, again. "Yes, how may I help you?" I asked in order to get them to say something.
"Have you decided on staying over, or not?" Kiara-Chan questioned, since no one else said anything
"Actually yeah, and well I have bad news for you all… Unfortunately there's gonna be less room since I WILL be staying over." I smiled at everyone as Nunna-Chan and Kiara-Chan jumped from their places in order to come and give me a hug.
"WeeHee, that's great! We get to have a sleep over with Haru-Chan!" Nunna-Chan squealed as she jumped up and down.
"Yes, yes I'm so glad!" Kiara-Chan did the same
"Can't… breathe… Taku-Kun… Chun-Kun… I need… help… please."
"Alright, alright you two we want Haruhi in one piece. Come on, come on separate." Taku-Kun said as he pulled both girls off of me, while Chun-Kun made them take back their seats.
"Thank you Takumi!" I said as I did the same the girls had done to me, to Takumi, without the jumping part.
"Haruhi what about me, where's my thank you? I helped out too!" Chun-Kun exclaimed for his reward.
"No can do, you're taken." I said as I still held on to Takumi.
We all laughed at my comment as Chun-Kun leaned his head on Kiara-Chan's shoulder.
"Hey what's going on in here? Having fun without me… Wow keep it PG you two." Tamaki said as he walked into the room with a tray full of goodies, when he saw both Takumi and me I could sworn to have seen a hint of jealousy in his eyes but he covered it up with a joke.
"WooHoo, more snacks!" Chun-Kun cheered as Tamaki placed the tray on the table.
"Tama-Kun, I was just telling everyone that I've decided on staying the night. Eek, I need to call my dad." I grabbed my cell from my skirt's pocket and shh'ed everyone.
"Hello?" It was Kaoru who answered
"Hey Kaoru, where's Dad?" At the mentioning of Kaoru's name, I could see Nunnalie's eyes brighten.
"He went to the main house; he had something to talk to…" But I did not allowed him to speak Hikaru's name, since I knew everyone was listening
"Ok, ok well can you do me a favor?"
"Of course Haru-Chii, what is it?" Him calling me Haru-Chii caused everyone to chuckle and quietly laugh.
"Would you tell him that I'll be staying over at Tama-Kun's and not to worry because everyone else is staying as well?"
"Oh… okay, I'll give him your message when he gets back. Sleep well and I'll see you tomorrow."
"Ok, thanks Kaoru. Bye." I hanged up my phone and as soon as I did everyone just started to burst into laughter.
"Haru-Chii… He calls you Haru-Chii…" Chun-Kun barely said in between laughter.
"Might as well… call you… Haru-Pee… instead…" Tamaki too said in between laughter.
"Hey not fair, Haru-Chii has to i's not just one!" I said on my defense. 'Stupid Kaoru calling me that when I was little and now that he regained his memory he started once more.' (A/n; NuNnaLiE18:What Haruhi meant with the i's and the thing that Tamaki said about Haru-Pee is because in Japanese the word 'Chi' means 'Pee' like going to the restroom pee. )
"Okay… okay, we… we need to… stop… it, it isn't… even funny…" Takumi stated as he tried covering his mouth with his hand in order to stop his laughter.
"Really Takumi, then why are you laughing?!" I said a bit irritated. "Argh, you know what, I'm calling Aisawa to come pick me up." I was walking towards the door getting my cell phone out of my pocket for the third time when Tamaki stopped me, holding my wrist, pulling me closer.
"No, no… we're, we're sorry…" He tried to catch his breath, but what he did not notice was the fact that when he pulled me towards him, our lips ended up staying just a few inches apart.
"Tama-ki…" I figured he felt my warm breath against his lips because he soon looked at me, causing him to blush a crimson color.
He was about to make the distance between our lips disappear when a couple of coughs were heard from Chun-Kun and Taku-Kun, making us both turn the opposite direction.
"Aah… I think we should start going over some of the stuff you guys brought over." Tamaki said as he shook off what had happened just a few seconds ago.
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(A/n; NuNnaLiE18: Okie-Dokie, I really don't feel like going over everything THEY went over, so I'm just gonna summarize it here.)
We started with pictures, looking over School Festival pictures, Birthday parties, Christmas and New Years Eve with many others, it seemed to me that all their families were really close. It took use nearly 3-4 hours to finish looking at every single picture. We managed to finish soon enough for Dinner; all our stomachs began to growl loudly, which of course was somewhat embarrassing for us girls. Tamaki ordered his maids to bring the dinner up to his room, and so they did as ordered.
We ate our food while watching a couple of home movies. Most of them made me laugh, and the others made me think 'What the Hell is up with this people?' In the end it was all good, I came to learn a lot about my friends, and also came to understand them better. I felt guilty that they still knew mostly nothing about me and that I wasn't able to tell them about Hikaru and my family.
It was nearly 10 o'clock when we finished watching all the videos and we were all definitely tired. We each took turns in taking a shower, since no one had actually planned on staying over; Tamaki had to lend us some sleeping clothing. Nunnalie was the first to take a shower, after her it was my turn.
When I finished, I changed into the Shirt and Shorts that Tamaki had given me. I noticed the few markings that had been made on my neck by Hikaru, they weren't that visible just a light pink color. As I was putting the shirt on, I could smell Tamaki's scent on it. 'Aah, I'm turning into a pervert, smelling Tama-Kun's clothing.' I shook my head, getting out of the shower in order to allow Kiara-Chan to take hers. After Kiara-Chan, it was Taku-Kun's turn, then Chun-Kun's and lastly Tamaki's.
The maids were then ordered to lay six futons on the floor for us to sleep in, two lines of three. On one side laid, Taku-Kun, Chun-Kun and Kiara-Chan, on the other it was Tamaki, me and Nunna-Chan. We lay there, still talking with the lights off until none of us could hold their sleep any longer.
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I woke up to the movement of someone getting up. As I looked out the window I saw that it was still extremely dark outside, I heard the door open and gently closing. I looked over to everyone; they were still asleep, so the one that had gotten up had been 'Tamaki…' I quietly got up, succeeding on not disturbing anyone and walked after Tamaki. I saw him walking a few feet ahead of me, and I tried to follow with as much discretion as possible.
I followed him until we reached a couple of doors that led outside into the porch. He walked out, but not before looking back at me "Join me?"
'So much for being discreet, I bet he noticed me the second I walked out the room.' I thought as I walked outside with him.
"Sorry, I woke you up, didn't I?" He took a seat on the floor, signaling me to seat by his side.
"Uhm, wont deny that you did… but don't worry about it…" I sat besides him, looking out the beautiful back yard. "Wow, amazing." I said as I saw trees all over, roses planted here and there and a not so small fountain in the middle of it all. In it the moon was perfectly reflected.
"It's beautiful, isn't it?" As he said the word 'beautiful' I felt his hand hold onto mine and weirdly I didn't mind.
"Yeah…" I whispered as I turned to look at him, giving him a sweet smile.
"Haruhi… daisuki" Even if I did not understand Japanese at all I still understood some words and I knew what 'Daisuki' meant.
"Tamaki, I…" But before I could say anymore, he stopped me, pressing his lips against mine. That kiss that he wasn't able to give me back at his room, was being given to me now, under the shining stars and bright moon the only witnesses of such actions. I didn't know what was going on with me, I wasn't denying his lips, his kiss, no, I was in fact returning the kiss, making it mutual, but why was I doing this to Hikaru? (A/n; NuNnaLiE18: Damn, I just turned her into a Two-Timer. Oopz)
"Haruhi, I'll ask you once more, would you be my girlfriend?" He whispered as we parted, but I truly did not know what to say. I didn't know why I was so confused; shouldn't I say 'No' right away since I'm already Hikaru's Fiancée? Than why, why was I so confused about this, why couldn't I say that simple word 'No'.
"Tamaki… I… I'm sorry, I still don't know." An 'I don't know' was all that I could say at the moment, it was the best answer that I could come up with.
"Its okay Haruhi, I'll wait for you, in the mean time I'll help you decide faster." He held my hand tighter, while making me lean my head on his shoulder. We stayed like that for a while just looking out at the beautiful scenario. He gently caressed my arm; I was so comfortable by his side that soon after I fell asleep. Not knowing what happened after that, just calmly and relaxed dozing off into dreamland.
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End of Chapter 2!!
Chapter two has been re-written!!
Alright, so what did you think about the whole Haruhi x Tamaki thing?? Hahaha, I'm just trying to spice things up, I hope it's working out okay.
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