chapter 4 coming right at you!

warnings for this chapter: self harm


Truth or Dare?

Naruto's Confession

The sun was rising which meant that a new day was arriving and soon Sasuke would wake up and realise he had been stripped to his boxers but for now Sasuke lay on Naruto's bed still asleep.

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I walked into the bathroom and found it full of steam. As the steam cleared, it revealed a soaking wet, toned and tanned upper body of Naruto Uzumaki. His hair was dripping wet and the bangs were at the side of his face giving him a god-like glow that caused an unusual sensation in my err cough lower regions.

"Ah! Sorry I didn't think you would still be in here", I said extremely flushed as I looked away and closed my eyes, but even though I had closed my eyes, I could still see the dripping wet body in front of me, luckily for me, Naruto didn't know that.

"Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry" I slowly backed up towards the door in an attempt to exit the room before anything else could happen.

'Damn I'm such an Idiot!' I mentally slapped myself.

"Err. Sasuke, are you alright?"

"Yea, I'm err…fine… dobe", 'hmm smooth Uchiha…NOT!'

Naruto placed a hand on my shoulder and helped me out of the bathroom without me making a bigger fool of myself. As I recomposed myself i decided that i had to get out of here before anything else goes wrong and left without a word.

"hey Sasuke where are you going? Naruto hasn't even come out yet!" said Kakashi looking away from Sakura apparently having been in a deep conversation.

"yea! We were just discussing how we're going to get information out of him about why he's so late today!!" Sakura looked up gleefully.

"you can tickle him if you want, and we'll hold him down" the only part of Kakashi you could see was his eye and right now it was in a 'u' shape which meant that he was smiling.

"C'mon it's gong to be fun" the door slammed shut.

I ran from the apartment tears threatening to come down my face.

'I'm such an idiot. Who the hell goes into a bathroom without checking if someone is in there first? I've made a complete idiot of myself too many times. Why is it always me that looks like a fool and ends up on my own? Well not anymore!'

I ran home and went to the bathroom cabinet and left again, I didn't know where I was going now. My feet took me into the forest and through the trees. As I came to a clearing I thought 'perfect'.

I sat down at the edge of the cliff I had just reached the top of. I took the pills and a kunai out of my pocket. As I thought about what I was going to do I felt a pain in my heart, in my stomach and in my head. But I had to do this, before the Uchihas are remembered as laughing stocks. Before everyone knows of my feelings for the same sex, before I am tempted to leave again and hurt the people who have become my family.

'And what about how they feel when they find you dead and lifeless? Don't you think that they will be hurt? Don't you think that they will cry for you?'

'Since when did you get so deep? Why would they cry for a pathetic Uchiha like me?' they wouldn't.

'Well I always have been I just chose to annoy you instead, it's more fun. But right now, I'm being serious; this is a pretty fucking serious matter! Why are you doing it eh? Because you made a mistake and went into the bathroom while Naruto was in there? Big whoop! Who cares?! It doesn't matter!'

'not everyone is as understanding as Naruto, not everyone will accept me being gay, I'll be laughed at, made fun of-'

'And so what? I know someone who has been laughed at and made fun of all their life, not because they were gay but because of something even worse. They haven't killed themselves, their alive and living life to the full; they are working their ass off to be accepted to be recognised as an equal. And I'm damn sure they don't want you to do this.'

'Your talking about Naruto aren't you'

'Damn straight I am. Look how much he has faced his entire life; everyone always underestimates him, mucks about with him in serious battles and ignores him when he's just looking for something to do. He has been insulted so many times, been pushed down, been called a monster, do you have any idea what that could do to your confidence? I'm telling you this mate, he is one of the strongest people out there, and anyone else in his position would have given up years ago, taken their own life like you're about to now. But although he is hated by many, there are also those who love him and who he wakes up for in the morning, and he can't wake up for you if you're dead.'

Tears had started to roll down my face as a part of me realised what he was saying was true and I didn't know anymore what to do. I wanted to end it before I could be hurt more before I could make a fool of myself and run my family name in the dirt, but as much as I didn't want to see Naruto I also wanted to see him so badly. All I did was cry. I cried and cried and cried until night fell. And I still cried as a figure sat beside me, I didn't take notice of who had found me in this state, I made no attempt to hide the objects in my hand. I simply sat there sobbing. The figure placed an arm around me and I looked up into those blue pure eyes as tears continued to flow down my own, dead, black ones.

'you found me'

When Naruto looked down at me he didn't put on his everything-is-going-to-be-alright smile, he kept a straight face and looked into my bloodshot black eyes that were aching so much. We sat there for a moment simply looking into each others eyes, and then Naruto turned away and looked out onto the village.

"You know i'm here if you need to chat" said the blonde who seemed to be taller than me, the boy his arm was wrapped around. I kept on looking at the blonde, "so do you want to tell me what's wrong?"

I looked down towards the bottom of the cliff 'I can't tell you, you'll think I'm pathetic, especially seeing as you have much worse problems' I let out a weak "no".

"Okay, but if you do then you know where I am." He looked at me and gave a smile. "Would you like me to stay here with you?"

I looked up at my friend and nodded; I looked back out towards the village and felt a hand gently push my head onto the shoulder of the arm around me. I rested my head and closed my eyes as they wouldn't stay open due to the stinging I felt from crying so much 'this feels nice. I like it.' Naruto's hand went and gently stroked my jaw line in a soothing manner.

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Sasuke stirred in his sleep remembering his dream as he pushed himself up in his – no it wasn't his bed, it was…Naruto's?! 'How did this happen?' he thought to himself, 'where's Naruto?' he looked down at himself, 'WHERE ARE THE REST OF MY CLOTHES?!' he looked around the room and found them on a chair by the door. He got up and dressed as he realised that the dream he had just had, was again not a dream. 'I must have fallen asleep on his shoulder and because he couldn't get into my house, he brought me here.'

He walked out of the bedroom to find Naruto sleeping on the pull out bed on the couch. He looked so peaceful. He went round and pulled the sheet up gently covering up Naruto dressed in a tight, black, long sleeved top. As he gently stroked the bangs out of his face (they do that a lot don't they ), he turned and found his kunai and pills on the table beside him. His eyes widened as he realised that Naruto, having become the mature adult he is, would most definitely want to talk to Sasuke about these objects and what they were doing with him while he was crying at the top of cliff. He picked them up careful to not have the pills moving about too much in the container and wake up the sleeping blonde. But alas to no avail. The blonde stirred in his sleep.

"Sasuke?" the blonde squinted his eyes as they adjusted to the light and focussed on the raven above him, he stretched his arms and placed his hands behind his head and smiled up at Sasuke. When he had noticed Sasuke had the kunai in his pocket and the pills in his hands his smile faded and was replaced with a worried frown. "Sasuke what's wrong? Please tell me." He sat up on the sofa-bed and a hand reached out to Sasuke's own gently pulling him into the space beside him.

Sasuke looked down at the pills in his hand, "it doesn't matter, don't worry about it."

"now see, you can't say that to me." Naruto took the pills and put them on the table, "One, I found you crying your eyes out last night and two, these were in your hands when you were at the top of a cliff, I can always see through you Sasuke, so quit hiding and tell me what's wrong, or if you won't tell me that will you tell me why you felt the temptation to kill yourself?"

"…" Sasuke said nothing and felt heat around his neck from shame.

"Sasuke, I know life can be a little rough sometimes…well more than a little but still, you have to look at the good things. And anyway… self harm and …and suicide is…no good way to d-deal with your p-problems. Trust me. Heh" he gave Sasuke a small smile "I know."

Sasuke's eyes widened. "You mean you –"

Naruto looked down ashamed, clearly he had told no-one about this before, and clearly he hasn't needed to before.

"Why? When?"

"Why? Because I was loosing it, no matter…how …hard I tried or how much…effort I put into everything that I had done… they still looked at me like a monster. Even though I have saved the village countless times, they just see it as me causing destruction to the village, destroying the village. They think that if I were to become Hokage that I would take advantage of my power and get rid of everything and everyone. I had started to break. The few friends that I have…they praise me for being strong, being able to take what is thrown at me and still stand tall, but I was falling apart, I wanted to die and… I wanted them to remember me as strong willed, so I started taking solo missions in the hope that I could die in action and they wouldn't loose faith in me when I had gone but it didn't work. Then, one day, I looked at my hands, I thought of what a monster I am…"

Sasuke would have said "no you're not a monster" but he was too stunned that this cheerful boy had ever hurt himself on purpose.

"And I wanted to kill this…this…beast. I remembered Sakura saying how there is a vein in your arm that if it cut and it isn't treated quickly…then you die. So, I got a kunai out and started cutting at my arm, trying to find that vein, that spot that would kill me."

Tears were swelling in Naruto's eyes and as Sasuke saw the boy who he thought was so strong and could withstand so much start to cry, he also felt his eyes tear up and flow.

"But I could never find it. I'd let it bleed, I wouldn't bandage it up, apart from the next morning when it had dried up and I couldn't let you all see it. But it had made me feel better, I felt like I had to suffer, like I needed punishment for holding the nine-tails inside of this pathetic excuse for a body. And it felt good, being punished, being hurt having the risk of not waking up in the morning, if I didn't wake up then that mean that I won –"

"STOP IT! SHUT UP! YOU CAN'T BE TELLING THE TRUTH!" Sasuke's voice cracked, he couldn't stand hearing his beauty talk about hurting himself, saying how he was evil and needed to be punished, to die. His voice weakened as he continued to speak; "please…say that you're lying…that it isn't true" Naruto looked down towards his legs. Sasuke sniffed trying to control his emotions, "show me your arms" he stretched a hand out reaching towards Naruto's arms. Naruto turned his head in the opposite direction to where Sasuke was and squeezed his eyes shut, he allowed Sasuke to take his hands and push up his sleeves. He received a slight pain in his arm as Sasuke's fingers ghosted across sensitive bruises caused by the cuts and scabs. Naruto heard a sob come from Sasuke's mouth as he had clearly seen Naruto's scarred arm, he checked the other arm as well and brought his lips to it, kissing each cut as tears flowed down his face feeling more pain than Naruto had felt as he inflicted each cut upon himself.

Naruto took back one of his arms and wiped away his tears as he took the other arm away and rolled down his sleeves again coving the scars.

"But now I realise that I should stop" he said still sniffling a bit, "because I realised how hurt you are and how hurt the others would be if they found out what I had done to myself, what I had been trying to do." Sasuke's head was now on the mattress; he was crying into it and pounding it with his fists. Naruto desperately tried to hold back the pain he felt seeing his distraught friend. He lifted Sasuke's head up and looked into his eyes.

"Promise – promise me that you won't do it ev-ev-ever again!" yelled Sasuke still in so much pain.

"I promise, but you have to promise that you will never think of it. If you do then remember the pain you feel right now, do you really want to be the cause of such pain? I know that after seeing you like this, I will never do it, ever again." Naruto brought Sasuke into his lap and hugged him tight as the smaller boy cried the last of his tears from the shock he had received, he was rocked in Naruto's arms in the early morning and Naruto gently shushed him like a child having woken up from a night mare. "I'm so sorry Sasuke. I never meant for you to find out, I never meant for anyone to find out. This is why it is no way to deal with your problems, you try to save the ones you love from your self and hurt them in the process."

Sasuke shook slightly in Naruto's arms. He knew he shouldn't do it, but he didn't care, he leant up and kissed Naruto on the cheek, then rested his head back into Naruto's shoulder and fell asleep having wasted ALL of his energy screaming and crying. Naruto kissed Sasuke's forehead and laid the both of them down on the sofa-bed, Naruto cradling Sasuke like a small child, and fell to sleep having already worn themselves out.


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