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.Heaven's Gate: Princess.
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Chapter Twenty-One: The Talk.
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Sakura…
Sakura looked up and found someone with her body and her face and her hair, but not her eyes.
Haruno. She nodded at her.
I need my space back, Haruno looked at her, her face serious. Things are not going so well back in real life, it's your life and not mine.
Sakura sighed.
I know, she said, I saw everything… the conversation you guys had with the red-haired girl…
She looked at Haruno, narrowing her eyes.
Oh… Haruno looked around, guiltily. Sakura, it's not my fault. I'm just being who I am…
And he love who you are more than he love who I am… Sakura sounded desperate as she covered her eyes with her right hand.
Sakura… I seriously think what he felt for me is just a crush. He loves you more than he… loves me… Haruno hesitated, not able to really find the right word.
Sakura looked at Haruno and smiled.
That might be, she said, but he seems to love being with you more… He… doesn't need another depressed person to share his life with when he's already sort of depressed.
Haruno's eyes bulged out as her jaw slammed open.
It's your body, I'm not even a person; I'm just your other conscious!
Haruno… I'm… Sakura hesitated as she looked up at nothing. I don't want to come back.
What?!
Suddenly, Haruno was pulled by something. Sakura's eyes widened in shock at first but then she sighed, and then smiled. She waved at her.
Bye, Haruno.
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Sasuke looked at Haruno in relief as she opened her eyes.
"What on earth are you doing?!" Haruno yelled, annoyed. She pushed him and stood up, walking away from him.
"What are you doing?" Sasuke yelled back. "I had to shake you and slap you to wake you up."
"I talked to Sakura," Haruno said. "She saw everything, the conversation you had with the red-haired girl… I still can't believe she's that strong that she's actually able to see what I see."
Sasuke's eyes widened.
"What?!"
Haruno turned to him and sat herself down.
"Yes, Sasuke," she said. "She saw everything."
Sasuke turned around as he covered his face, grimacing at how stupid he was.
"What… did she say?" he asked after a while, his voice was thick.
"She…" Haruno shook her head and looked down on the ground. "She doesn't want to come back."
Sasuke shut his eyes shut as he cursed. He thought about what he thought on Sakura not opening up to him and regretted it completely. She would never come back… because she had heard everything and had been hurt by him; just like Karin's said. And for the first time in his life, he actually agreed with Karin.
He was always stuck in intersections and always made the wrong choice.
He didn't know why wasn't he glad knowing that Sakura wasn't going to come back. Ever.
He didn't know why his chest hurt and his eyes stung as he held back the tears.
He had hurt her. Badly.
Just because he spent a few hours with someone he didn't know at all. Someone who was so bold, unlike him, someone who was so… different than Sakura…
But as his brain re-read the message of Sakura staying inside Haruno's mind forever, he regretted everything he had ever thought about Sakura… all those negatives…
He would never see her smile again as Haruno had a different one. She would never touch him or kiss him with so much love and gentleness that he felt he had never been alone in the first place, that he had always had a heart ever since the beginning…
He turned to Haruno and grabbed both of her shoulders.
"Call her back!" he yelled, his eyes were wet with tears on the thought of not having her around ever again. "Please…"
Haruno looked at him and then sighed.
"It's hard…" she said. "Well, she might be able to hear you and see you right now. So I'll try to get back inside, but just in case I can't… you talk to her."
Sasuke nodded and looked at Haruno as she closed her eyes to concentrate. He smiled softly at the memory of Sakura and spoke his mind and feeling.
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Sakura was curled up in a ball, floating in the white. She cried and cried but then finally, she decided to stop and just think.
I'm being selfish… she shook her head as she hugged her knees. Mama taught me to be a good Princess that cares for others. I… am being so selfish… Why am I being selfish? All my life I thought I never care for myself, always thinking about others; such dumb thinking… Then, everyone is the ones that have always cared for me.
She closed her eyes and thought about everything that had happened.
Haruno,
Haruno gasped as she was called. She could hear her. She concentrated further and broke the wall. She saw Sakura smiled at her, her face was free of burden and pain.
Sakura?
I have decided… she smiled as Haruno came closer. Haruno nodded and listened to her tentatively.
Please don't say you don't want to come back, please don't say you don't want to come back, she hoped in her heart.
Sakura smiled again and looked up at the vast whiteness, and then found Sasuke's eyes looking at her, they were calm.
I want to come back, she smiled.
Haruno sighed in relief. And then she smiled at her.
What makes you change your mind?
I just have been thinking, she stared at Sasuke's eyes, feeling as if he could see her, I have been so selfish all this time. I didn't want to come back just because I've been hurt. But… my Mother taught me so much and I have disappointed her for being so selfish, only thinking of myself.
Haruno nodded, although she thought otherwise. She thought the Princess had given so much sacrifice all her life; even though she had not been around to watch her but judging by the way people respected her and loved her, she must've done such a great job on being a selfless Princess.
What shocked her most was how she could actually control her feelings. Yes, she was devastated. But after thinking things twice, she knew what seemed to be more important. She had been hurt but she decided to ignore the feeling.
So yes, I would like to have my body back, Sakura smiled.
Haruno nodded and grinned at her.
About time, too.
Sakura grinned and they laughed together.
"Sakura,"
Sakura's and Haruno's head snapped up. Sakura was shocked that Sasuke was really, actually, looking at her… or for her.
For the credit, Haruno turned to Sakura and grinned, He's actually in love with you. I told you it was just a crush.
Sakura turned to Haruno, dumbfounded.
I'll step into the next room, see ya, Haruno grinned, I'll see you again, and that's a promise. Whether here again or the next life.
Sakura nodded and waved at her. She looked at him and smiled to herself.
She closed her eyes,
And opened them.
And she saw him.
He looked at her, shocked. And then his muscle relaxed and he grinned.
"Welcome back," he said.
Sakura nodded and hugged him suddenly.
"Will you ever leave me, Sasuke-kun?" she asked, her voice was mumbled as she buried her face in his shoulder.
Sasuke's eyes tightened. But then they softened as he was finally sure of his answer.
"No," he hugged her. "I would never leave you, I promise…"
"I… really can't be sure now," she looked at him; her eyes were wet with the tears. Sasuke expected that, what he didn't expect was the sick feeling in his stomach as if someone had punched him hard. He reached out for her and kissed her.
"Please…" he begged. "Believe in me. This time, I promise… I would never leave you."
Sakura looked at him. She wiped away her tears and moved away from him. He looked at her, shocked, terrified of the space between them.
"We're in the middle of a war now," she smiled at him. "This is really no time to be talking about this."
She turned and walked away.
"Come on," she stretched out her hand toward him. He looked at her hand and took it willingly.
He looked at the red sky and sighed. He had been so dumb and selfish. And now he had to fight for her trust; back to level one.
This time, she won't fall for his words so easily.
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Man, such a crappy chapter. Sorry. I can't think of anything else. I promise the chapters after this will be so much better.
Exams are done, happiness :D
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