Hey guys here is chapter 5! with this chapter I basically deleted the whole chapter and rewrote it. there is some similarities but overall it is completely new! went from 2,000 words to 4,000 words!

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WARNING: THIS IS RATED M FOR LANGUAGE AND SEXUAL CONTENT THIS IS YAOI!

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Naomi ^_^


Roy stepped into the shower after the water heated up. He got in and stood under the steamy water. 'How did this happen? How did Edward think I only wanted him for sex? I told him numerous time that I loved him.' Roy thought back to all the times he told Edward that he loved him.

-'I love you Edward?'

'Really? It was not a one night stand?'

'Of course I mean it. And no it was not a one night stand. Plus the sex was too good to go back to one night stands.'

-"Yeah. I have had feeling for you for a long time. I had inappropriate thoughts way before you became of age and so I didn't do something stupid and get court marshalled, I used girls to get my mind off of you and that perk little bottom you have."

-"I can see you are tired. It is okay you can go back home and get some rest."

Edwards eyes got a fraction size bigger. "No Roy it is okay I am fine."

"You do not seem fine. Go home."

"No you wanted sex right! I can do that." With that Edward walked closer to Roy and started kissing him. Roy let it go on for a few minutes. He always loved Edwards kisses. He only stopped when he felt a shaky hand reaching towards his flaccid member. He knew Edward was well enough to do anything so he slowly pulled Edwards hand away.

"Listen Edward I did not pull your hand away because I didn't want sex with you. You know I always love to have sex with you-"

"Because it's the best sex you have ever had."

"Exactly! So trust me when I say I didn't not want to have sex with you. Hell I even suggest it, but I know we have been having it a lot and last night I know I wore you out. When I offered it I noticed that you seemed tired so I thought we could take a break today so you rest up. I am sorry if I offended you."

"So you don't want sex today? Can you handle going a day without sex?"

"No sex with you, probably not. That being said if I wear you out too much then we might have to go longer without sex and that would be a problem." Roy said the last part in a joking manor, but Ed took it literally. Ed just smiled. "Besides you made my night so much easier, you brought me coffee! Best boyfriend ever!"'

After thinking back at all the times he has shared affection toward the boy, Roy finally felt like an idiot. Every time he told Edward that he loved him, he always incorporated it with sex. He didn't mean for it to happen that way, he was just awful at expressing his feeling… well not any more Roy Mustang was determined to change that. He was going to do everything possible to prove to his one true lover that he really loves him and that it is not just about sex. Even if that means he is going to have to not have it for a few weeks or maybe even months…

'Sigh months without sex… can I do it? Well I am going to have to, to prove to Ed that he is not a sex toy.' Roy looked down at his right hand. 'Well buddy I guess you are going to have a new work out soon. I wonder if Edward is okay with at least sharing a bed and cuddling. I don't think I can hand not cuddling with him.' With that Roy finally stepped out of the stream of water and washed his hair and body.

By the time he got out of the shower, he had finished all his problems. He took his towel and dried off. After he made sure all the droplets were off his body he looked down and realized that he forgot his uniform. He wrapped the towel around his waist and started walking towards his room. He was hoping that Edward was still in the bathroom because now he started to feel really awkward being naked in front of him. He really did not want to scare or make Edward nervous. Although they have seen each other naked before, Roy wasn't sure if Edward was okay with being around him while he had no clothes on. He knows Edward said it was okay to take a shower together, but Roy wasn't sure if Edward just said that or if he really meant it. Besides even though Edward said Roy did not rape him, Roy still does not feel entirely clean. He still cannot accept that fact that for the past months, they whole time they have been dating, Edward has been regretting and hating the sex they were having. What Roy thought was the most amazing thing in his life was a nightmare to the person he loves. How could he not realize that Edward was not enjoying it? He should have guessed. Edward never participated in the acts of sex. The farthest he would go was kissing. Was the kissing they had done against Edwards will? How much did he force Edward to do?

It was killing Roy now that he knew the truth. Does he wish he never knew? No, he is happy he knows, because now he can fix his mistake. Now all he has to do is get in his room get his clothes and get out before Edward gets out of shower. He is not ready to talk to him. He doesn't know what he would say.

Luck was not on his side for when he went into his room there Edward was sitting on the bed waiting.

Edward looked up when he heard the door open. Roy was taking quite a long shower so it startled Edward when the door finally did open. He expected Roy to have clothes on so when Roy walked in with towel it kind of startled him even more. Although he wasn't comfortable with sex, he still had to admit Roy had a beautiful body… A body he could stare at all day.

"Oh sorry Edward I forgot my clothes before I went to the bathroom. I will get dressed real quick."

"uh-"

With that Roy grabbed his clothes and was in the bathroom with the door shut before Edward could process what had been said.

'Why did he run into the bathroom? It is his room. Plus it is not like I haven't seen his body before. Besides he didn't have to apologize. Is Roy going to act like we started over and have never had sex before? Oh crap then maybe I won't be able to sleep on my side of the bed anymore… if it is still considered my side of the bed. Maybe I should start calling it the right side of the bed.'

Edward mind would have still wandered if Roy wouldn't have stepped out of the bathroom. Edward looked up at Roy and they just remained there in silence. The silence was not comfortable either. It was very strained and awkward.

Roy finally got the nerve to break it. "So I guess we should go. Are you ready?"

"Uh yeah I am ready."

Edward went to stand next to Roy and he felt Roy awkwardly put his hand on the back of Edward's back then take it off. It was a natural reaction for Roy to do. Ed used to love the feel of Roy's hand on his back. It made him feel safe. It made him feel wanted. It made him feel loved. Instead, they walked down the stairs side by side with a few inches in between and Roy slightly behind Edward. When they got down stairs which to Ed felt like the longest staircase he has ever walked, he noticed the time.

"Shit Roy look at the time."

"Huh, oh damn you are right we aren't going to be able to go to eat. I guess we are going to have to cancel. I guess we can go tomorrow or some other day."

"Oh okay." They walked out the door and said goodbye, still never touching. It was the most platonic goodbye he has ever given. They both started walking away. Edward stopped mid walk and started thinking. 'If we don't make a date tonight we won't see each other again until tomorrow. I want to talk to him again today. Maybe we could make it less awkward.' "Hey Roy!"

Roy turned around to look at Edward. "What is up?"

Edward ran up to Roy so he would not have to yell. "Since we cannot have a breakfast date why don't we go out for dinner?"

"Hmm I supposed we could do that."

"Good I am glad."

"Good I will pick you up at 5pm sharp." They stood there again for a few seconds not knowing what to do. Eventually Roy leaned and gave Edward a one arm hug and then left for work, again saying his goodbye.

Edward sighed and was depressed that he didn't get his goodbye kiss again, but he guessed he deserved it. After watching Roy disappear, Edward left to go back to his apartment to wait for 5pm. 'Today is going to be a long day.'

Roy sat at his desk checking his clock every five minutes. He was glad that he was getting a second chance with Ed, however he still did not know how he was going to go about it. He did not know what he could do or could not do with Edward anymore. What did Edward like? What did Edward think was acceptable? He did not want Edward to regret giving him a chance. He was going to make this the most special date ever. He hoped after tonight or soon, Edward would never think again that he only loved him for sex. 'I got to make sure Edward is prepared before I pick him up.' All though that was Roy's excuse to call Ed the real reason was so he could hear his voice.

After three rings Edward finally picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hey Edward it is me."

"Oh hey Roy what is up?"

"I just wanted to call to remind you that I am picking you up at 5pm and make sure you are wearing something nice."

"Like a suit?"

Roy couldn't help but laugh because of the distain in Edward's voice when thinking about having to wear a suit. "No Edward you don't have to wear a suit if you don't want however please try to wear something normal people would consider nice."

"Are you saying I am not normal?"

"No I am not! Sorry I did not mean for it to come out that way. I was just saying- I mean what I meant to say was…-"

"Hey Roy it's okay. I wasn't angry. I was just joke arguing with you like I normally do."

"Oh sorry I wasn't sure if you were actually mad or not. I officially realized I'm not really good at reading you."

"Don't say that. You can read me better than anyone."

"No I can't. I couldn't even tell that you were having a miserable time this whole time."

"Roy I wasn't-"

Roy cut Edward off. "Anyway so as I was saying, wear something nice. Don't wear your leather pants and red jacket."

"Okay I won't wear them, but just so you know I wear them because they are comfy and they don't get in my way of fighting."

"Well you won't be fighting were we are going. I just want to take you somewhere nice tonight for dinner. After dinner for the rest of the date you can change into something more comfy I promise."

"Sigh okay fair enough. I will wear something 'Fancy.' But don't expect too much."

"Okay well I got to get back to work."

"Okay. Oh and Roy."

"Yes?"

"This whole time I wasn't miserable. I loved being with you all these months."

"Yeah but it wasn't very enjoyable either. Goodbye Edward. See you at 5pm. With that Roy hung up.

With that Roy hung up the phone and started working on his papers. His phone conversation went okay, but it still was awkward. He hopes that dinner will help fix the awkwardness that was happening between them. With that thought it mind, he was looking forward to the dinner date with Edward. That is until Hawkeye walked in.

"Good afternoon sir. I have more papers that have to be signed by the time you leave today."

"Wait, what? No! I have a date with Edward tonight and it is really important that I go."

"Then you can go after you finish the papers."

"I can't be late and I told Ed I would pick him up at 5!"

"Well you better get to it. You have 4 hours to finish."

"No I don't! I still have to get ready!"

"Then hurry up!" With that Hawkeye left Roy to get working on his papers.

Roy tried calling Ed but got his answering machine. He left a quick message and went back to work. He could not ruin this date. It had to be perfect. This was the first date that they are going to have without any mishaps between them.

At least that is what Roy had thought.

'It is 5:45pm and Roy is still not here. Where is he? I even went out and bought this monstrosity.' Edward looked down at the awful full black tuxedo he bought today after Roy had called him. After having to get it fitted and tailored he thought he was going to be late, but it turned out it didn't matter if he was late or not seeing as Roy hadn't shown up yet.

Ed started to worry that Roy canceled on him. He didn't know what to do. Should he call and ask what was wrong or would that make him sound obsessive. He has stayed away from the phone since he got home. He would only answer it if Roy called him and so far he hasn't. Tell call didn't end the way Edward had hoped it would so every time he got near a phone, he really wanted to pick it up and apologize to Roy. It is his fault to ruining their relationship. If he wouldn't have cried like a baby and over analyzed everything then none of this would have happened.

At 6pm Edward gave up. He pulled the tie loose from him chest and started walking up the stairs to go get undressed. When he got half way he heard the doorbell ring. At first he thought he imagined it but after a few minutes they doorbell rang 5 times repeatedly.

"Okay, okay I am coming."

He went down stairs, walked to the door and threw it open. Only then did he actually realize that Roy came and he was out of breath.

Roy on the other hand was stunned to see his lover in a suit. He took Edwards appearance in. looking him up and down. He snapped out of it when he noticed the tear stain marks on Ed's face.

"Shit. Listen Edward I am so so so sorry that I am late. Around 1pm after I hung with you, Hawkeye came in to my office with a huge stack of paper telling me they needed to be signed before I left today. I tried to beg and tell her I had a date with you and that it was important that I wasn't late, but she didn't believe me. Only around 4:45 did she finally come in and let me go. I tried to rush here as fast as I could, but I my suit wasn't back from the dry cleaner so I had to go and buy a new one because I didn't want wear my work clothes to our date. I am so sorry Edward please forgive me and please don't cry."

Edward listened to every word. After a few moments he broke out into laughter. "And here I thought my day sucked because I had to go buy a tux. I guess I am glad I ended up buying one seeing as all that you did for me."

"Oh Edward I am so sorry" Roy said again.

"Quit apologizing Roy. I forgive you plus you showed up. Let us go." Edward was just happy that it was less awkward.

After they both fixed themselves up in Edwards apartment. They left and went to the fanciest restaurant Edward has ever seen. The prices of the food were ridiculous. Roy kept telling Ed not to worry, but he was still freaking out. He tried to find the cheapest thing but it was impossible. Everything just looked too expensive. Eventually Roy just ordered for him.

Besides Edward worrying about the prices, he had a wonderful time. After they ate and Roy paid for dinner they left.

They were walking down the street, again looking more like friends instead of lovers. Roy didn't know if they should go back to his apartment for a little longer or if Edward would just want to go home. The dinner turned out excellent and he didn't want to ruin it by doing something Edward didn't want.

"So Edward, do you want to go home or go back to my house for a little while. I am okay with either one. I promise if you decide to go back to my house I won't do anything. We will strictly watch tv or play a game or even just talk."

"I don't mind going back to your house for a little while."

"Okay sounds good." They passed Edward's apartment and headed to Roy's house.

Once they got to his house, this would normally be the time where they went to Roy's room and made love until morning, but Ed knew this was different. He believed that Roy was going to keep his promise… Even if that meant Ed didn't get his side of the bed anymore.

"Hey go sit on the couch. I was thinking we watch a movie and drink some spiked hot chocolate."

"Okay sounds good."

While Roy went to the kitchen to prepare the hot chocolate, Edward went and looked at the couch. 'Where should I sit on the couch? Do I sit in the middle like I am suspecting Roy wants to cuddle or do I sit at the end farther away from the other side?' After a little thinking Edward decided to sit in between the two choices.

As soon as he sat down Roy walked in, handed Edward the hot chocolates and then he went over to the T.V and put Edward's favorite movie in. He turned around and looked over at where Edward was sitting on the couch. He didn't want to make feel Edward awkward so he decided to walk over and sit in the same place Edward had, just on the other side of the couch.

Edward, on the other hand just felt even more awkward. He knew Roy was doing all this for him, he just wished that they were acting more like a couple instead of friends, but Edward knew it was all his fault. If he didn't have so many issues they would be cuddling and making out right now, not actually watching a movie. Ed knows that Roy picked the movie because it was his favorite movie, however right now it is turning into his least favorite movie.

By the time the movie finally ended, it was really late. Roy took both cups and went to wash them in the sink. When he came back he noticed Ed standing in the middle of the hall toward the door and the couch.

"Uh I guess I should go home…"

"Huh?"

"Well I was just thinking because after all that has happened I should probably head home."

"But it is really late."

"Yeah, but where would I sleep?"

Roy thinking Edward didn't want to sleep in the same bed started thinking of ways to keep Edward at his house. He wanted Edward to be happy; however he didn't want Edward to go home. "Well you could sleep in the guest bedroom, or you could sleep in my room."

Edward relieved Roy suggested that he could sleep in Roy's room, he chose that option thinking they were going to be sleeping together.

Once they got upstairs and changed he realized he was dead wrong. After getting changed Roy grabbed his work clothes and started heading towards the door.

"Where are you going?"

"The guest bedroom."

"Why?"

"So I can sleep. I don't plan on sleeping on the couch silly."

"You aren't going to sleep in your own room?"

"Didn't you say you wanted to sleep here?"

"Well yeah but-"

"Don't worry about it. I don't mind sleeping in the guest bedroom. Both beds are similar. The guest bed is just a bit smaller. Anyway I will see you tomorrow morning. Goodnight Edward."

"Yeah, goodnight." Edward stood there staring at the retreating form of the man he called his lover. After a moment or two he walked to the lights, turned them off and crawled into bed. He laid, tossing and turning there for what felt like hours which in reality it was only 30 minutes. It felt wrong to be sleeping in the bed without Roy. It didn't feel right. If he knew Roy wasn't going to sleep with him he would have insisted on going home or at least he would have slept on the guest bed. He was technically the guest.

Edward's illogical mind kept telling him that it is only because he didn't want to have sex. It kept telling him that Roy really didn't like him. He just didn't want Edward to believe he could be so heartless. His illogical mind kept telling him that Roy would keep treating him like this until Edward finally broke up with him. Roy was waiting for Edward to breakup with him so people wouldn't realize Roy was such an ass.

However the logical part of Edward's mind was telling him that what he was thinking was stupid. That Roy loved him and just didn't want to hurt him. Roy wanted to go Edward's pace. It kept telling Edward that if Edward went to the guest bedroom and he asked Roy if they could sleep together Roy would say yes.

After moments of thinking Edward decided he would follow his logical mind and see if Roy would let him sleep in the same bed. If Roy said no, Edward decided he would leave and just go home. With that plan in mind he got out of bed and walked to the guest bedroom.

He gave the door a slight knock and Stuck his head in the door. "Uh Roy."

"Hm."

"Are you awake?"

Roy rose into a sitting position on the bed. "Yeah, what is wrong Ed?"

"Nothing… it is just wondering… its just your bed isn't the same without you in it and I was wondering… well if it is okay with you that is… can I sleep with you."

Roy sat there for a moment trying to process what Edward was asking. Edward said it really quietly and Roy wasn't sure if he heard correctly.

However, Edward took Roy's silence as a negative. "Oh never mind. Um I am going to go now." Edward started to close the door.

"Edward wait!" once Edward stopped closing the door and stuck his head back in, Roy continued. "I would be delighted if you would come and sleep with me. I was just surprised that you came in. Please come, nothing would make me more happy."

Edward stood there for a moment then slowly shuffled to the other side of the bed and got in. Once he was in he laid facing Roy. "Thanks."

Roy smiled leaned over and kissed Edward's forehead. "Don't thank me. I am happy you are sleeping beside me as well." Roy grabbed Edward's hand and then ended up both drifting off to sleep.


There is the revised chapter 5! I hope you enjoyed!

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