Hey guys so I just started my third year of college! Yay me... not really my classes suck and a week in and they are already kicking my ass and taking all my time up. I am excited for two of my classes though. I have one class all about gangs and one class on Family Violence. Both are intense, high level classes, but both are also extremely interesting so I hope I do good in them :)

Anyway this chapter is still pretty short. I added a good bit, but it is still a necessary chapter to get to the good part :)

Please enjoy!


It was not a long trip from the Hughes house to Mustangs. It was actually just a block over so Edward really did not have much time to think about what he was going to say. He now understood that he wasn't mad at Roy anymore. Hearing about his parents helped out a lot. Knowing that Roy risked his parent's rejection just to go out with him really put everything in a new perspective.

By the time he got to Mustang's house he still did not have a clue as to what he was going to say. He just took a leap of faith that once he saw Mustang everything would come to him. He reached up to the door and knocked. He waited for a little bit and knocked again. When the door finally opened he was slightly surprised to see Hawkeye on the other side.

"Ah hello Edward, welcome. Come on in."

"Uh hey 1st Lieutenant is Mustang around?"

"Yes sorry we got back about 10 minutes ago and when Roy got back, he kind of had a mini panic attack so I put him to bed. He just went to sleep. If you want to wake him up you can."

"Nah it is fine. I will let him sleep for a little while longer."

"Okay well if you don't mind since you are here I am going to head back to headquarters. I don't trust the guys to actually be doing work."

"Okay I don't mind at all." Edward was actually really happy to hear that. He really did not want to talk to Roy with company. He felt like it would be too embarrassing.

"Okay Edward then I guess I will see you guys later. Just please watch out for him. He really has missed you this past week."

Edward really did not say anything to that he just nodded and then shut the door when she left. Even if he did plan on responding to her, he did not know how he would have went about it. He didn't know how much Hawkeye knew and really did not want to tell her anything that happened. In his opinion it was his and Roy's business alone. He hated how nosey everyone was. They act like gossiping old ladies. He also did not want to talk to Hawkeye because honesty he didn't know how this conversation is going to go. It might turn out that Roy is mad at Edward and never wants to see him again or when Edward sees Roy he realizes he is still angry at Roy and leaves.

Edward knew that was not true though. Once he got to Roy's bedroom and saw him lying there he completely shut down. He did not realize how much he actually missed Roy. He slowly walked closer to Roy and noticed how tired the man looked. Even in his sleep Roy did not look peaceful. Edward remembered when they used to sleep together how relaxed Roy looked when he was sleeping. He remembered how young the man looked. The man sleeping in front of him right now looked like a man who just came back from war. He did not like that the reason Roy looked that way was because of him.

Edward sat down on the bed carefully so he would not wake Roy up. Edward sat there for almost 45 minutes in silence. He sat there with tears streaming down his face. All the pain he was trying to keep inside finally started to pour out of him. When he finally stopped crying he went to the bathroom and rinsed his face with cold water. He went back to the bed once he noticed it that his eyes weren't puffy anymore. He sat back down and noticed that Roy was still asleep.

He reached his hand over and placed it on Roy's cheek. "I am sorry" he whispered very quietly. Edward noticed that Roy's head leaned into his hand.

"Ed." Roy's sleeping face instantly went peaceful. Roy looked like the Roy Edward remembered. Edward felt like he was going to cry again but was happy when no tears came out.

Edward noticed that Roy was getting restless which meant he was starting to wake up. Edward pulled his hand away thinking it would cause Roy to go back to sleep. He was not sure if he was ready to physically talk to Roy without breaking down.

However taking his hand away did the opposite. Roy blinked his eyes and rolled over to have his face smothered into the pillow. "Hawkeye go home I do not need you babysitting me anymore. I am not going to have another panic attack, I promise."

Ed took a deep breath. Hearing Roy's morning voice sounded like music to his ears. Hearing Roy confirm he was having panic attacks actually made Ed feel bad. He always knew Roy as the bad ass, cocky, bastard. He always assumed Roy was this perfect man who would never freak out or have panic attacks. Seeing the real Roy has really put things into perspective. He feels like he finally knows the real Roy. It makes him even slightly happier. Once he finally got his voice back, he whispered "she already left."

It took Roy a moment to comprehend the words that were spoken and the voice that they were spoken from, but when he did his eyes shot open and he took his arms and lifted his head up. He ended up staring into the Golden eyes he was dreaming of.

"Edward?" Edward noticed the hesitancy in Roy's voice. Roy finally got into a sitting position and Edward noticed Roy's hand twitch. It was like he wanted to touch Edward to make sure he was real, but was too afraid that if he touched him he would either disappear or Edward would reject the touch.

Seeing the confliction is Roy's eyes and movement Ed decided that Roy was going to be useless for the time being. "Yes Roy it is me."

"You're here, in the house?"

"Yes I am." Ed did not miss that Roy did not call it his house.

"And you here, sitting on the bed?"

"Again yes Roy it is me in your house and on your bed."

"It has not been my house or my bed since you left me."

Ed really had no comment to that.

"Even before that it wasn't my house or my bed. It was our house and our bed…"

Again Edward was speechless. Luckily Roy got his brain back and was able to talk without sounding stupid.

"Ed I am so sorry about everything. I know I should have stood up for you when Aviana was harassing you and I know I should not have yelled at you. It was just that I have not seen her since I broke up with her and she was my only girlfriend and she shocked me. I never planned on ever seeing her again. And she always-"

"Roy it is okay, I understand. I am sorry too I never gave you a chance to stick up for me. I did just blow up."

"Still I should have said something."

Ed gave a quick little smile. It wasn't even a smile really. It looked more like a twitch of his left mouth. Roy looked down and started fidgeting with his hands. He still did not feel like he had any right to touch Edward even though he was dying to. They sat there in a really awkward silence, neither knowing what to say.

Edward was happy that Roy apologized about the Aviana thing. It was one less thing for him to think about, but he still had the bar scene running through his mind. Even though Hughes said that it was not true, he really wanted to talk to Roy about it, but was still too nervous. How was he supposed to bring something like that up?

Luckily he did not have to figure it out. "What is on your mind right now?"

"Nothing." 'Damn that was my chance.'

"I know it is not nothing. Please tell me. I really want to try and get passed all this, but I know we can't if you are holding stuff in."

Sigh, " You are right. Okay…"

Roy wanted to be patient with Edward because he could tell that whatever it is, it is the thing that it creating a huge space between them. He gave Edward what hoped was a reassuring smile.

"Okay… so… sigh… the day of our argument, I went to the house to wait for you to come find me. When I finally realized that you weren't coming to find me I left to go sit somewhere where I would not be able to think. I went to a bar… the same bar you were at… and I sat next to you…"

It took a moment for Roy to figure out where Edward was going with his speech. Once Roy thought back to that night, it clicked on what Edward was trying to say. Roy felt like an idiot. He did not know what to say, and Edward just continued.

"And you did not r-recognize me. You were too d-drunk. You started to stay stuff… to me, about me." Edward could hear the sadness in his voice.

And so did Roy, and Roy wanted to squash that sadness. "Edward. God Edward I did not mean any of what I said to you. Trust me, I woke up with a serious hangover and sadly remembered everything I said to you. I just did not remember who I said it too. I never just wanted you for sex. I really did love you. I still do love you more than anyone else in the world. If I just wanted you for sex I would have left you or cheated on you the moment we stopped and seeing as I never did either one, it proves that I really do love you. The thing is, when I think about my life without you, I realize that I do not ever want to know that ache again. I did not know that I was incomplete before you, but I do now. I feel like with you in my life Edward I am a better man. If you can honestly tell me you do not feel the same way, I know I will have to accept that and let you go. But if you feel as I do, I believe we owe it to one another to give our relationship another chance and I promise to try to never do this again."

"Do what again, be a sap."

Roy knew that Edward was joking and he was glad that he was but he still decided to answer. "No I will be a sap whenever the time comes, but only for you. What I meant was I will never betray you and not stick up for you. And I will quit getting drunk if you will have me back."

Edward was touched to the bottom of his heart. He really trusted Roy. Probably more than he should. "Okay, and I promise to try and not over react in public if you take me back."

"Deal." Both smiled.

Edward noticed that Roy was still awkwardly holding himself back. He could see Roy was craving his touch, and if Edward was honest with himself he was craving Roy's. Edward held his arms out giving Roy the invitation he was waiting for.

Roy slowly leaned in and wrapped his arms around Edward. Both felt all the muscles in their body relax. They both finally felt like they were complete again. They both felt happy… they both felt tired. They finally pulled and part and Roy scooted over and Edward laid down on the bed next to him. Roy pulled the blankets over the both of them and then wrapped his arms around Ed. He supposed he might have wrapped them around too tight but he was too happy to care. Edward was back in his arms. They were both back in their bed, and they were both about to fall asleep. The best part is that when they wake up they know that the other will still be there.

Both know that it will still be awhile before everything goes back to the way things were before, but they also know that while they are fixing the broken bond, they will be doing it together.

Both drifted off to sleep with smiles on their faces. Both feeling safe. Both feeling loved. Both feeling relaxed.


This is the third time I wrote this stupid chapter and I still don't like how it ended... I don't know how to make it perfect! Gah! I was tempted to make it more awkward for them, but I decided to give them a break... it has been a while since the last time they cuddled lol.

On to the next chapter!

see you soon.

Naomi ^_^