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Chapter 4 -

Pale Gold Velvet The Cullens

Marie/Bella POV

Recap - We went back to the dressing room and then knock on the door came "Come in" I said and looked at the door just as they came through it. My eyes widened as they took in who stood in front of me.

" Alice..What are you doing here" I said. And my stupid gift had to get the way and tears started to fall down my pale cheeks. Ironic isn't it im a vampire and I get the gift to cry sleep eat if I want to. Oh yeah and did I mention before that I am a mental shield. I never wanted Alice to find me not like this I have been blocking her all this time and yet here she stands. Shes not alone the rest of them are outside the door, Alice was just being well Alice. I could tell from her face and the way she was now crushing me that she had missed me" Oh bell- Marie i've missed you so much" She said and I could tell if she could cry she would be " I missed you to so much" I sobbed Damn gift.

Lucas cleared his throat and Alice pulled away to glare at Lucas

" Wanna tell me what the hell is going on Marie" He said I could hear the confusion in his voice " um Sorry Luc this is Alice and the others outside are Jasper Emmett Rosalie Esme Carlisle and Ed." I took a deep breath to say his name " Edward" Lucas stiffened. He looked at the door then back at me and in one fluid movement was at my side " You guys can come in I don;t bite " I said and the came in and I was pulled into a strong hug. I assumed Emmett " Hi Emmett I missed you too" and for once I had a proper smile on my face . Lucs relaxed rather due to Jasper or he could tell I was happy.

He stood there at the door as I hugged each and every other member of his family my could have been family. "So what you just stand there" I said and I flinched at my own words they came out sharper than I thought maybe I wanted him to feel like I have for the last four years. " Bella im so sorry" My eyes widened he just said Bella Lucas had no idea who Bella Swan was " Your Sorry. For what killing me yeah Edward(flinch) you killed my being killed my reason to live and what you say your sorry. " I basically shouted but not loud enough for the humans possibly the only one who heard was Rick and he was most likely to be busy with other bands. My fists balled up and I shoved passed him as fast as I could I ran. Seeing him made me angry though happy sad oh I don't know .I ran until I was outside and I hit in an Alley and used my mind block to block them all out . I saw them all run passed me Lucas included " Marie" Lucas called. Wait what he was still calling me Marie. He must think its what I want to be called. I didn't move as I heard them all call. " Marie Masen you put down that shield now" Lucas yelled and I cringed. I'll admit he can be scary when he yells. I just turned and left to go to my house when I saw Edward in front of me looking up and down. I stopped at a hault and his head turned to me" Bella please let me explain" He whispered pain in his voice. I hated seeing him hurt " I already know why you left" I said and moved so he could not think or guess where I stood " But Edward it hurt I don't blame you im just that hurt and scared right now that I got angry" I admitted " I slowly let down my shield and his whole body whipped around to face me his eyes locked with mine and I looked away.

"Im Sorry so sorry I never wanted to leave but I thought if I did you would have a normal life. But the thought of you running away and becoming a vampire crossed my mind. " he said as he took a step forward and I took a step back my back pressing up against the wall. I shook my head " Please im not ready Edward maybe I will be one day but im not yet." I said as more tears fell" Just know I love you" I said as I put my shield back up and he leaped forward to grab me but I had already moved and he grabbed the wall instead. I ran back to mine and Luca's house and layed on my bed thinking. I started to hum Close you eyes. It had always been my favourite because it made me feel like he was here. So I closed my eyes and his face was there in front of my eyes. But before I knew it there again in that same forest I was running being chased by the white eyes. I now called it the white eyed Demon.

A few hours later I awoke to someone shaking me " Alice" I mumbled as her small pixie like face smiled at me

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