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chapter 4

never say never

Edward POV

The next day, I went into the prison with Bella and Jasper. We applied as the executioners, and got the positions. The guard that was pacing while I was reading Kathrynn's thoughts was there, and he recognized me. That didn't matter though, by showing my college degrees and all, I got the position of executioner with Bella and Jasper. Carlisle also became the physician.

Bella, Jasper, Carlisle and I felt very awkward in this situation. We all supported each other.. Since Embry became so anxious to see his imprint, he applied and got a job as a guard. He was only going to be the guard until after the execution; after the execution he would quit claiming he didn't like the job. Jasper, Bella, Carlisle and I also would quit our execution positions stating that we didn't want to deal with killing people. This was a great but very awkward plan.

Kathrynn POV

That night and the night afterward, I had dreams filled with the flashbacks. The dreams were so clear, they played like an HD movie. How much I missed HD movies. I really wish I could watch real HD movies, and I wasn't stuck in this place.

It was now about seven days until my execution. One week, one week until I would be dead. My heart would never beat again. I wouldn't live on this earth any longer. The positives, I wouldn't have to deal with the aloof guards or this terribly small and damp jail any longer. The negatives, I wouldn't be able to enjoy life any longer. I would never get a music degree. I know I can request a book to read in my last 24 hours before my execution, and I will probably request some type of book on music and choir if I can get one. I really wish I could live a normal life.

There are many things I miss. I miss being able to go on the internet, being able to write and then record my compositions. Most of all, I missed my dream of going to college. The dream that I would live a great life, and get the job I have wanted for so long. It has been so long that I have wanted a job in the field of music. It is apparent that I will not ever get that. I will never step foot into a college; there are many things I will never do. It is so sad.

As I was thinking those thoughts, I suddenly heard footsteps. Its probably another one of those cold and aloof guards coming to give me food or something. I heard the footsteps get closer to my cell. I prepared for the terror of another guard.

As I expected, I heard a key in my door. A guard came in, and handed me a plate of some weird stew stuff with a spoon. I looked into the guard's eyes, and somehow, I felt love and complete compassion for this person. What the heck was going on with me? Why would I love a guard. Unexpectedly and suddenly, the guard interrupted my thoughts by speaking.

"How do you live in these conditions?" he asked me while putting my plate down on the bed. "I could never live in such conditions. I feel bad." I knew the guard was being sarcastic, so I just nodded my head. I didn't feel like having another guard call me a sissy because I "couldn't handle the conditions I lived in." Yes, that was something the guards did do on a daily basis. It hurt for some reason, but I knew it shouldn't be such a sissy and let it hurt me. The guards are right, I am a sissy. I just can't stop being who I am.

As these thoughts were going through my mind, I suddenly heard the guard's voice again. I jumped.

"Are you okay," he asked me. "You don't seem all right," he said stating the obvious. Suddenly, I just felt like bursting. That is in fact what I did.

"Its like Christmas. I am the happiest damn person in the entire world. I mean, who wouldn't be happy when they are in death row going to be executed for a crime they didn't commit? I am jolly like Santa on Christmas day. I can just go sing and dance because I am not loved, and I am going to be killed in seven days." By the end of my ramble, I realized tears were streaming down my face. The guard suddenly started shaking, and I flinched back. He then did something I didn't expect; he sat down on the bed and lifted my face so I was looking straight into his eyes. I tried to pull away, but his huge warm hands held my face in a tight grasp. Then he spoke.

"I know a all of the guards you have talked to can be very cold toward you, but I am not like that. I just want you to know that I think you are a very strong, and good person." I looked in his eyes, and I felt as if I could always trust this guard. My answer to his question came out by instinct. I was lost in his eyes.

"Thanks. All of the guards here are like, I don't know. They are like monsters, like they remind me of big, bad wild wolves." I then pictured big wolves guarding the prison, and a chuckle escaped. I was no longer crying. I thought I heard the guard chuckle also.

"Yes, they treat you horribly. I am sorry that you have to live in these conditions."

"There's nothing you can do about it," I mumbled back.

"Well, I think you should eat," the guard said. "Do you want me to get you anything, like a book or something?" I answered sarcastically.

"Yeah, I want to go on the internet," I said laughing. He seemed to think for a minute, and then he ran out of the cell locking the door and leaving me to eat my food.

Embry POV

I knew Kathrynn was being sarcastic when she said she wanted to go on the internet, but I would let her use the computer. At least she was the only one on death row for now, and i was the only guard at the moment. I ran out of the prison really quickly, and got my computer and my air card from my car. (A/N: An air card is basically a card that plugs into a computer and lets you go on the internet anywhere in the country.) Then, I ran back to the prison.

Kathrynn POV

I ate my food in about 5 minutes. I was actually pretty hungry. The food did fill me up somehow though. After I ate, I laid down on the bed and began to think.

Suddenly, my thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my door opening. I looked up, and I couldn't believe my eyes. The guard I had just been talking to had a laptop computer in his hands, and was entering my cell.

"You can go on the internet, just don't tell anyone I did this for you. I will have to stay here and monitor you." I never was comfortable with someone staring over my shoulder while I was on the internet, but I accepted the offer. This was a guard being nice and trying his best to give me something I wanted.

The guard logged into the computer, and gave it to me. As he was logging in, I looked at his badge and saw his name on it. His name was Embry. For some reason, that name had an unusual ring to it.

"You have a really cool name," I complimented him. He chuckled.

"Thank you," he said handing me the computer. Once I got the computer, I found the web browser, and typed google into the address bar. Then, I searched the one thing I really needed to know about. I typed in, "lethal injection."

"Why are you looking that up?" the guard asked looking over my shoulder once the result page was up.

"Well, I am going to die by lethal injection, so I think I should know about it."

"I can't have you looking that stuff up," he said. "The internet gives a lot of false information about that topic. You will know exactly what it i about a few hours before the execution.

"Why can't I look that up?" I asked. This was the first time I had ever questioned a prison guard, and I felt terrible for doing it once the words were out of my mouth. He didn't seem to mind though.

"You will just get false information that will scare you," he said. I decided not to question it any further, and I instead attempted to go to a music website. Once I was on the site though, a pop up ad made me cry.

"Want to get a master's degree in music? Click the link below." I couldn't take it anymore at that point, and I began to cry.

"What's wrong?" the guard asked sounding concerned. He gently took the computer and put it on the ground, closing it over. Then, he held my face up again so I was again looking into his eyes. Why not just tell him everything? Its not like it matters.

"Well, I have always wanted to go to college and get a degree in music. I just saw a pop up that was advertising colleges to get music education. I know I will never get an education, so it just made me emotional. It just sent me over the edge," I explained.

"You can never say never," the guard said.

"What do you mean?" I asked. "I am going to die. Of course I can say never because it is true. I will NEVER get an education."

Embry then tensed for a second, and then spoke quickly.

"It is true though, you can never say never. I have to go, the next guard is coming in ten minutes. Sorry," he said walking out the door.

"Its okay," I said back. "Thanks for being so nice,"

"Like I said, I am not like those other guards you know," Embry responded as he locked the door. Then, I heard his footsteps slowly disappear.

Once he was gone, I laid in my bed under the blanket and closed my eyes. I fell asleep, and dreamed of Embry. Him telling me I could never say never kept echoing in my mind for some reason.

Embry POV

After locking Kathrynn's door, I ran at a blur and put my laptop in the car. Then, I went back into the prison, and paced as I was supposed to until the next guard came for his shift. Once he was settled and pacing like he was supposed to, I signed out of the prison, and drove home. As I drove, the only thing I could think about was Kathrynn.

When I got home, I parked the car. Then, I took off my clothes and phased. I ran around for a while near the Cullen home only thinking about Kathrynn. I felt the presence of other people in my pack in my mind, but they ignored my thoughts. After running for a while, I phased back to my human form, got into my clothes, and ran home. The only thing I dreamed about and thought about that night was Kathrynn. I was so glad we were going to save her from her execution. She didn't know it yet, but she would actually be able to go to college and study music, just like she wanted too.

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