When It All Goes Wrong

One Tree Hill Lucas/Peyton post 6.16 based on the 6.17 promos

Author's note: Safe to say we're all probably fairly upset by the newest 6.17 promo and Hilarie's "goodbye" vlog. (I can't seem to stop watching either over and over again) Inspired by my brief heart attack, anxiety, disbelief, anxiousness, annoyance, frustration and whatever the hell else I felt watching them I decided to write a fic. I don't know where it's going to go or how long it's gonna be....but I need to get this off my chest. I don't know exactly what's gonna happen the rest of the season or season 7 'cause I don't share Mark's brain . . . but we'll see March 16th. Don't own One Tree Hill (if I did this promo wouldn't exist and Chad & Hilarie wouldn't be leaving) or its characters. With that said . . . read on my dedicated Leyton fans.

When had it all gone wrong?

Peyton Sawyer rested her elbows on the back of the chair, one of her hands on her head and the other hand around her arm. She stared out the window of the nursery Lucas had just decorated at all the happy people in the neighborhood. There was a woman kissing who was assumed to be her husband as he put his briefcase in the car and got in. As he drove away, the woman blew a kiss and waved. It was then that the woman briefly rest her hand on her stomach and the blonde cringed.

It hadn't been too long ago when Peyton had been doing the same thing. In the day before everyone knew she was pregnant she was constantly finding every fleeting moment she could when she thought no one was looking to feel where there was new life growing inside of her . . . the life that she and Lucas had created together. Of course she hadn't stopped doing that when everyone found out. They all thought it was cute, lightly teasing her about it.

She was about four or five months along now . . . just barely with her stick-thin figure showing a very slight baby bump.

Baby.

A tear slid down her cheek. This wasn't supposed to be like this. She was supposed to be happy. Luke was supposed to be happy. They were supposed to be celebrating becoming parents. They weren't supposed to have to make a choice like this. Or actually, as the doctor had put it, she had to make the choice because it was her body.

Why did bad things always have to happen to her? People leave, they die, they pretend to be someone they're not . . . She'd lost too many people already . . .

She didn't think she could handle losing a child.

Lucas was angry with her because she was willing to risk her life for the baby . . . and even though the baby was his too . . . he just couldn't understand what she was going through. He hadn't been carrying new life for over four months. He wasn't there the day she'd found out she was pregnant instead of having cancer. The doctor ruled it out and told her she was just pregnant. Why had he missed this though?

Placental abruption.

Ever since her senior year of high school she'd been dreading any thought of caner. She knew that because her birth mother, Ellie, had died of breast cancer there was a chance she could get it . . . but she never thought it would something else that would theaten her..

They hadn't told anyone yet . . . about what was threatening her and the baby. So far just she, Lucas, and the doctor (a different one than who'd told her she was pregnant) knew. They were still trying to deal with it themselves. She just couldn't understand how Lucas could "get rid" of their baby so easily. It was their baby, their child, a new little piece of them . . . how could she just let that go?

More tears made their way down her face as she felt a presence in the room and heard her fiance's shuffling feet.

Flashback begins

It wasn't long after they got home from the doctors they both found themselves seperated. She lay on their bed on her side, crying her eyes out in her pillow. Lucas had tried to comfort her but she pushed him away. She couldn't handle this . . . it was just too much and she needed to be alone.

The day had started out with wonder and a little bit of annoyance. She woke up to find that her fiancé had never come to bed. The first two thoughts that entered her mind were, A: Why hadn't he come to bed? And B: What the hell was he doing? She'd looked over at the door and saw her insomniac fiancé standing in the doorway, leavning against the wall, staring at her. She'd teased him mercilessly about not coming to bed and he came over to the bed and pulled off the blankets, saying it was time to get up.

He'd led her down the hall out of their bedroom and down the hall. They'd stopped at the door to his old bedroom. "You're really going to feel bad when you see my surprise."

"Oh yeah?" She challenged, teasing him again, "Is that surprise the reason you didn't come to bed last night . . ."

"Maybe," He looked down at her, smiling. "Ready to have your world rocked?"

Her face scrunched in pain as her stomach felt like it was on fire and someone was ripping it apart. "Ow . . ." She fell back, but Lucas caught her. "Ow!!!!"

"Peyton . . ." There was serious concern in his voice as she leaned against his arm down on the floor.

"Oh god, not again . . ." Peyton was finding it really hard to breathe now as the pain increased.

"Is this like the pain you felt the day before you found out you were pregnant?" Lucas asked her.

Peyton shook her head, taking huge deep breaths, "N-no . . . worse . . ."

"I'm taking you to the emergency room . . ." Peyton really didn't argue as Lucas picked her up, grabbed the car keys, and headed out the door.

Once at the doctors they'd been told that Peyton was having a boy and was at a serious risk for a placental abruption if she kept the baby. Their best option was to terminate the pregnancy . . .

Laying on the bed now Peyton's heart was really hurting. She didn't want to lose her babies . . . but if she kept them she could lose both herself and the baby . . .

End flashback

"Peyton?" Lucas's voice shook her from her thoughts.

She turned around and saw him with a stuffed animal in his hands. She noticed it was the Ravens bear that Nathan and Haley had given them not long ago. Whitey had given the other Scott pair one when Jamie was born and they thought that Lucas and Peyton's new little Scott should have one too.

Now who knew if there would even be another little Scott . . .

"How are you feeling?" Lucas asked her.

She wiped the tears from her eyes, "I'm fine." She winced. That came out a little harsher than she wanted it too. She could tell her harshness stung him . . . after all he was just concerned about her and all she did was give him the Ice Queen freeze-off. She stood up and went over to him, hugging his waist tight. "I'm sorry . . . I didn't mean it like that."

He, too, held on to her tight-but not too tight, "We're both upset. This is a lot for anyone to have to go through."

"I can't do this, Lucas," Her voice cracked, "I can't lose them . . ."

"Peyton . . ." Lucas started to say but she shook her head, walking away.

"No," She barely managed to breathe out in between her huffs of sudden anger. She turned back to face him. "Don't you say it, Lucas Scott. Don't you dare tell me to to—" She couldn't even say it. They both knew what she meant though. Neither of them wanted to lose their son.

"How could this happen in a month?" Lucas sounded as she felt . . . totally helpless and defeated.

"It only takes a moment, Luke," Peyton spoke softly. "Our whole lives have been based off of split second decisions that have either brought happiness or loss."

Ellie giving Peyton up for adoption. Her mother's death resulting from the decision to run a red light. His father's decision to marry Deb instead of Karen. Lucas joining the Ravens. Nathan and Haley getting married at a very young age. Lucas and Peyton seeing each other behind Brooke's back. Haley going on tour with Chris Keller and the Wreckers. Someone releasing the time capsule. Jimmy Edwards deciding to takes years of pain and bullying back. Lucas going back into the school to save Peyton and Keith going in to to save Lucas. Dan shooting his brother. Lucas ambushing Peyton with a sudden proposal. Nathan getting into a fight which resulted in 4 months of not being able to walk. Peyton and Brooke coming back to Tree Hill after 4 years away. Lucas proposing to Lindsay. Lindsay leaving Lucas at the alter. Lucas choosing to call Peyton to Las Vegas . . .

"I can't lose you . . ." It was so soft she could barely hear what he'd said.

She sighed. "I know you don't want to lose me and I don't want to lose me either . . ." She walked back up to him and his his hands up. "We can't just be thinking about ourselves anymore, Luke." She paused, letting that sink in. "We have a new little life that is depending on us now."

"The doctor said it's still early enough that in the pregnancy that if we terminate it, you will be fine," Lucas had that serious tone in his voice whenever someone he loved was hurting. "We can always have another baby later, Peyton."

"Lucas, we have a baby now," Peyton dropped his hands, gesturing with her own"We already have a baby. You saw its a heartbeat, you saw its little tiny fingers . . ."

"No! Stop it!" Lucas yelled.

"No, I'm not going to stop it!" Peyton shouted back, on the verge of tears. "Damnit Lucas, I can't let him go . . . I can't let my baby go . . ."

His eyes immediately softened and he held on to her shoulders. "You have this baby . . . you could die." He pulled her in and hugged her close. He walked them over to the dresser and they sat down on the floor, holding each other, and leaning against the hard wood. Each had a hand over their son. Peyton's other hand was on Lucas's chest and Lucas's arouther arm was around her shoulders. Lucas kissed the top of her head.

"When did it all go wrong, Luke?" Peyton whispered.

"I don't know, Peyton . . . I don't know . . ." Lucas said.

Together the two just sat there, in each other's arms, with a hand still resting over their son. Neither of them knew what the next moment would bring . . . but all they could do was be there for each other and hope for the best.

~fin~

P.S. Got the idea for placental abruption from reasearch on clues from recent eppys and I read somewhere that babyLeyton might possibly be a boy. So . . .what did you think? What are your thoughts on the rest of the season 6 and season 7? Thoughts on Chad and Hilarie leaving? Go ahead, let it out. Rant all you want. This fic was my rant so now it's your chance. Should I continue? If so what should come next? Thank you for reading!