Anime/Manga » -Man » The Curse of LifeB s : A A AAuthor: Addictedreader091. A petal wilts2. A flower rebornRated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Reviews: 21 - Published: 09-25-08 - Updated: 01-16-09id:4559035
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hi again! this is my newest story and i hope you will all enjoy it
Lavi and Kanda are my new favorite pairing so i had to write a story about them
you all know the disclaimer...and i will be taking a lot of liberties
LOL I realize i totally forgot to add levelier's name the entire time so....here's the revised version-ish
lol srry for those of you who were like WTF is she smoking
Kanda pulled roughly away from the kiss again. He glared coldly at Lavi. As much as he wanted this, he was not cold enough to hurt Lavi, which is what would happen when he found out about the lotus. He needed more time to think about how he felt about Lavi and all this was happening a little to suddenly for his taste.
"Yuu, I already told you I'd love you no matter what. Don't tell me you still don't like me?" Lavi said, circling his hand around the other's slender wrist. "I thought we were over that hurdle when you came to see me off."
Kanda gaped for a moment then found his voice again. "Do not make assumptions about me," he hissed. Lavi only shrugged and leaned in closer and whispered, "If I don't make assumptions about you, I'd never be able to get near you." Kanda stared at him in confusion. "I get close to you all the time because I assume you don't have any desire to actually kill me. Just like now." With that, Lavi leaned in and placed another gentle kiss on Kanda's cheek.
This time Kanda made no move to push him away. Lavi pulled back startled. He looked at the other man carefully. "Yuu, is something wrong?" He received no reply, only a distant stare. "Yuu?" Lavi called worriedly, "I'm sorry, I didn't think the kiss was that bad, was it?"
"Why?"
"Huh?" was the automatic response from Lavi. He looked down at Kanda who was staring at the ground.
"Why? Why do you like me? Why do you love me? Why do you keep trying?" Kanda shouted, pulling out of Lavi's grasp and stepped back. He looked up at the redhead. "Why are you always there? Why, why, WHY?!" the last part came out as a strangled cry. Kanda swayed and Lavi lurched forward to grab him and the both of them sank to their knees. Kanda shoulders were shaking and Lavi realized he was crying. He held the other boy gently. Kanda buried his face the front of Lavi's shirt. Lavi softly began rubbing gentle circles to soothe the other boy.
"It is not fair," came the quiet murmur, Lavi barely caught it.
"What's not fair Yuu?"
"You, me, all this," Kanda said hoarsely, "Lavi, I only have one petal left." There was strangled silence. Lavi's thoughts were racing a mile a minute. He had hoped this scenario would never happen, yet it had.
"I don't care," Lavi finally replied, "it doesn't matter, it never will." He picked Kanda up again. "Let's go inside."
He carried Kanda back into the Order. Kanda had not moved or spoken the entire time. They stopped in front of Kanda's door and the other man looked at him.
"Do you want to stay here tonight?" Lavi asked, "You can stay with me instead." Kanda slid out of Lavi's hold and moved slowly toward his door. His hand rested on the handle and Lavi could see it was shaking slightly. Behind the door was Kanda's last grasp on life. Lavi could sense his trepidation so he made Kanda's decision for him.
"You're staying in my room tonight," Lavi said firmly, ignoring the embarrassed flush suddenly coursing through him. Kanda must have seen it though because he gave a slight smirk and offered no resistance. Kanda decided to walk so Lavi stayed close behind him in case he fell. They reached his door with very few problems or stops. Kanda stepped back to allow Lavi to open the door.
Lavi opened the door and allowed Kanda to step in. As he was shutting the door, a hand grabbed his shoulder and he was slammed roughly against the wall. Heated lips found his and a strangled moan escaped him. Kanda's heated form was pressed tightly against him. Any coherent thought Lavi had left in a rush. Finally, Kanda relinquished his hold on Lavi so they both could breath.
"Yuu-chan?" Lavi queried softly.
"Do you want me?" the other boy whispered softly. Any words Lavi might have used died on his lips at the seductive tone Kanda employed. Kanda looked at him through half-lidded eyes. What changed the mood, wondered Lavi. Kanda moved closer and whispered delicately into Lavi's ear.
"Is it a no or yes?" he asked, licking the curve of Lavi's ear. Lavi attempted to suppress a moan.
"Why the sudden change Yuu?"
Kanda gave a slight shrug of his delicate shoulders and turned away. He walked over to the bed and shed the kimono so that he was dressed only in the thin hospital gown. He slid onto the bed and leaned against the wall. Lavi was still by the door, utterly stunned. However, his mind was starting to return and with it the feeling of lust and arousal.
Kanda was arrayed quite nicely on his bed and Lavi swept his eyes up and down the other's body. If he ignored the current injuries, Kanda looked gorgeous. Long and lean, Kanda was nearly all legs, which were nearly all revealed as the hospital gown slid upward. Lavi moved forward in a trance. Lavi feverishly thanked whatever gods had decided to change Kanda's mind. He placed a hand on Kanda's thigh and caressed upward. He stopped at the hem of the gown.
Kanda stared at Lavi through half-lidded eyes. He knew he was probably making a huge mistake but standing in front of his room had brought along a sense of need and longing. The lotus had had too much of an influence in his life. He just wanted to let go and Lavi was more than willing to offer him the freedom he desired. He had nothing left to lose anymore and Lavi was a Bookman, they didn't get broken hearts or so he hoped.
He pushed himself up and kissed Lavi fully and thoroughly. Lavi moaned against him and suddenly Kanda felt himself being pulled forward and settled on Lavi's lap. Lavi was kissing back in full force and his hands caressed up and down Kanda's body. Kanda let out a soft sigh and pressed up against Lavi.
"Hey Yuu, you're not going to regret this are you?"
"Oh, do you never shut up?" snapped Kanda, exasperatedly. "I won't regret this I promise." Kanda's voice softened as he spoke. Lavi grinned and began to kiss Kanda in earnest. His mouth moved slowly down Kanda's body, trailing along his neck and shoulder. Kanda shivered slightly at the warm feeling Lavi was eliciting through his ministrations. Lavi's hands were now trailing along his side, making their way to his back and the strings that held together his gown. As soon as the ties were removed Kanda slid out of the them and began to tug at Lavi's clothes. Lavi grinned and quickly shed his clothes, tossing them somewhere off the bed.
Kanda circled his arms around Lavi's neck and bit him gently on the ear. "Lavi, I need you now," he hissed. Lavi smirked then slid a hand down between Kanda's legs, and stroked his erection. Kanda gasped, arcing into Lavi's touch. It didn't take long for Kanda to come under Lavi's firm ministration.
"God, Yuu, you're so fucking hot," Lavi panted harshly, looking at the body sprawled below him. Kanda looked up at him through hazy eyes. He watched as Lavi licked a finger covered in cum and he could feel himself hardening again. The site of Lavi's toned body hovering over was a rather erotic vision.
"Lay down Yuu," Lavi whispered. Kanda complied and lay back on the mound of pillows Lavi had. Lavi grinned and crawled over Kanda. He lowered himself over the other boy and claimed his lips. One hand snaked between Kanda's legs and he slipped a finger into tight heat. Kanda let out a breathless moan as Lavi began to stretch him.
"God Yuu, you're so…" Lavi choked as he slid deep into the other man. Kanda gasped his hands clutched Lavi's arms tightly. Lavi stilled, waiting for Yuu to adjust to the intrusion. Kanda bucked upward slightly, causing Lavi to move. At first Lavi attempted to keep the pace slow and sensual but the overwhelming urge to pound into the tight heat below him took over. The pace became erratic and Kanda's nails dug painfully into Lavi's back at a particularly hard thrust. The pain was ignored when Kanda arched against him and screamed his name.
Kanda could feel himself reaching his peak and when Lavi reached between them to stroke his erection, Kanda was gone. The rush of his orgasm was intense and distantly he realized that Lavi was chanting his name as he came too, filling Kanda with his seed. Lavi slumped forward slightly on his elbows as not to crush Kanda, his forehead was pressed against Kanda's and a bright green eye stared down into coal black ones.
"I love you," he murmured. There was no reply but slender ivory arms tightened around him. They both slipped into a deep comforting sleep.
The next morning, Lavi woke to an empty bed. He looked around questioningly, concern and fear etched his once calm face. Kanda should not be out of bed, especially not after what they had been doing last night. He quickly grabbed some clothes and rushed out. He decided to check the cafeteria first. It was already quite late and there was no one in the cafeteria for breakfast except for one short white-haired teen stuffing his face.
"Morning Allen," Lavi said cheerfully.
Allen looked up a bit startled and smiled. He beckoned the other man to join him and pushed away the dozen or so plates in front of him.
Lavi chuckled but shook his head. "Sorry Allen, I can't. I'm actually looking for Yuu-chan. Have you seen him?"
Allen's face clouded over for a moment. "He was sent out again," Allen said, a hint of anger could be heard in his tone.
Lavi swiveled around and ran out of the cafeteria. He could hear Allen calling after him but he could not bother himself to reply. He needed to figure out what was going on. How could they send Kanda out like that? He was not well and he still had injuries. There were plenty of other Exorcists in the Order currently. Lavi made his way up to Komui's office. The winding staircases were taken at breathtaking speed and Lavi pushed door open, not even bothering to knock.
"What the hell are you guys thinking?" he shouted. Komui, Reever, and Linali all looked up startled. Lavi stormed up to Komui and roughly grabbed his collar, pulling him up in the process. Linali gave a small shriek.
"Who gave the order?"
"What order?" choked out Komui.
"Who sent out Kanda in his condition? He's neither healthy nor stable at the moment! He could die!" Lavi bellowed.
Komui and the others still looked at him bewilderedly. "No one sent him out. He offered to go. He said he was fine and needed to test something and as a general, he can do whatever he wants almost," Linali murmured softly, "we tried to stop him but he wouldn't listen."
Lavi stepped back from Komui, letting the other man slump in his seat. Lavi stared at them in surprise and guilt.
"Sorry," he said sheepishly to Komui.
"It's all right," Komui said grinning, "does mean you and Kanda are…you know." He wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.
Lavi flushed darkly and glared but there was really no hiding it, especially from the Lee siblings. Linali had already suspected something awhile back. Even Reever was struggling to hide his grin. Lavi muttered something about general duties and paper work. He bowed himself out, and quickly rushed out of the room. He needed to see what had happened.
The first place he went to check was Kanda's room. The door was usually unlocked since no one wanted to risk a painful death if Kanda ever found out they ever entered his room. Lavi slid through the open door and stopped short. There glowing brightly in the gloom of Kanda's room was a perfectly well formed lotus with all thirteen petals. Lavi took a step closer, no there was fourteen petals now. Lavi sat down heavily on Kanda's bed. What was going on?
Was Kanda back to his original self? Was the healing back? Why had he left without saying anything? Why? Why? Why? Lavi's thoughts were a mess and he was utterly lost, a state generally unknown to the Bookman in training. He needed to go to the library to do some research. Mainly with that book he had recently acquired from India. That book held some information concerning Mugen and he would find out what. For now all he could do was hope Kanda was okay.
Kanda did not return for a month and during that time strange rumors began to spread about the beautiful Oriental mystery. It seemed like Kanda was using his new found health to the extreme. In that month Kanda had removed nearly three dozen level 4 akuma and many other lower level ones. He had acquired nearly fifteen new innocence and was creating quite a stir. Because of Kanda, Lavi and Allen were stuck in the Order and were not required to leave.
Lavi used his given free time well and unlike most of the other generals (Cross and co.) Lavi had no desire to leave the Order library at the moment. He felt he was nearing the heart of the secret about Mugen and the cursed lotus and at any given time of the day he could found pouring over the millions of books and tomes in the Order library. Everyone noticed his slight obsession with staying in the library but no one questioned it, they simply assumed it was a Bookman thing.
However, the Bookman was worried about his apprentice. Lavi's general status did not excuse him from bookman duties but lately Lavi simply was not focused on anything but the secret research he was doing. Bookman had his suspicions but refrained from voicing them. He would see how this played out. After all it was his duty to record history, not interfere with it.
By now Kanda had been out for a month and Lavi had heard no word from him. Lavi really wasn't expecting anything but he was still worried about the length of time Kanda was out. Then it happened, Kanda returned. No one knew he was returning, one day he just showed up at the Order gate and was let in. Lavi had been tearing voraciously through another tome when an excited Linali bounced in.
"Lavi, Kanda is back!" she said joyously. Lavi quirked an eyebrow at her. Why she was happy he did not know but he followed her out of the library anyways. They were walking in the wrong direction though.
"Linali, why are we going this way? Shouldn't we be heading to your brother's office?"
Linali paused for a moment and turned back to Lavi. "They said he went to the infirmary."
A cold trickle went down Lavi's spine. What was wrong with Yuu? He quickened his step leaving Linali to catch up. He burst through the infirmary doors and ignored the reprimands given to him by the nurses. He immediately headed to the back bunks where Kanda would always stay. He found the dark-haired exorcist sitting on one of the beds with three nurses around him. Allen, Komui and Link were also there. Lavi frowned, why was Link here? Ever since Allen had become a general Link rarely hung around.
They all must have heard the footsteps because they all turned to look at the same time. The effect was unnerving. However, Kanda's coal black eyes were the ones Lavi focused on most. The other exorcist looked exhausted, there were dark bags around his eyes and his previously pale skin was now luminescent. He also appeared sickly and seemed to have lost weight. Lavi made a move to get closer but Kanda shot him a deadly look and Lavi belatedly realized Kanda did not want to make their relationship public.
"So what's wrong with Yuu-chan?" Lavi asked casually, adopting a Bookman persona. Kanda gave him a death glare but did not respond. It was Link who spoke.
"We do not know yet. That is why we are having the diagnostics taken and physical check up is in order."
Lavi turned to Kanda. "Yuu, what happened? Why'd they send you back?"
"Che," Kanda muttered, not responding. Instead he turned away to face the window. From the corner of his eye he saw Allen make a motion with his head. Allen quietly got up and Lavi waited an appropriate amount of time and made small talk with Komui before also exiting. Lavi felt Kanda's gaze on him as he was leaving but he ignored it. Outside the infirmary Allen was leaning against the wall looking extremely tired.
"You and Kanda are a couple aren't you?"
Lavi was startled by the question. Generally, Allen lived in an ignorant bliss or so it appeared and at this moment Lavi had to wonder how much the teen knew. Suddenly Allen laughed and Lavi stared at him bewilderedly.
"Oh come on Lavi. I'm seventeen not an infant, besides as soon as I saw you and Kanda together for the first time I knew there was something there. You can't tell me that that's not true."
"Well, I guess you smarter than you look," Lavi said ruefully.
"So it is true?" Lavi nodded. "Uh, don't tell anyone though because I don't want whatever this relationship is to die an early death, okay."
Allen chuckled, "all right, I won't tell anyone. I promise." They both grinned but as quickly as the cheer came it left.
"They can't figure out what's wrong with Kanda. All they know is starting the beginning of this week Kanda started to vomit every morning and he wasn't eating right or eating at all apparently. The Finders also sad Kanda seemed kind of sluggish off the battlefield (heaven forbid he be sluggish on the battlefield)."
"Is that all?" Lavi asked a bit confused, it did not seem to serious, it could be the flu or something, he thought.
"No, that's not all actually," Allen began hesitantly.
"What, what else is wrong with Yuu?" Lavi demanded, a feeling dread creeping up on him.
"Mugen won't activate on beck and call anymore and Kanda had a few fainting spells yesterday, which is why they brought him in."
Lavi slid down to sit against the wall. What the hell was going on? He had to get back to the library to see what he could find. This was serious. But first he wanted to talk to Yuu privately without the prying eyes of that annoying bastard, Link. Belatedly, he realized Allen was speaking again.
"Sorry, what was that?" he asked sheepishly.
"They plan on taking Kanda to go see Hevlaska after the checkup."
"Why?" Lavi asked looking up at the white-haired teen, Bookman curiosity was now rearing its scraggly head.
"Since Mugen isn't activating correctly anymore, the higher ups want to see Kanda synch rate."
"Oh." After that there was an audible silence in which Lavi took the time to go through his fountain of vast knowledge to see if he could understand what was going on but there was nothing. If only he could finish that book. He needed to get back to the library but he needed to see how Kanda was doing. Right now Kanda was first and foremost in his mind.
The door opened and Kanda walked through swiftly, followed by the others. Kanda appeared perfectly calm but Lavi could tell that underneath it all he was seething. They were heading down to Hevlaska. Allen and Lavi followed them. It was quiet walking down into the deep reaches of the Order. No one said anything in fear of breaking the fragile silence. Lavi moved up to keep in pace with Kanda. Kanda was tense and Lavi wished he could somehow make this situation better.
Before reaching Hevlaska Levelier arrived. His sneering face showed no signs of concern that the Order might lose another Exorcist. Lavi felt his annoyance creep up, especially when Link made his sniveling little way over to Levelier. Lavi could stand Link, however he hated Levelier with a passion rivaling no other. Many of the others despised him too but Lavi just knew how to hide it better. A chilling draft struck them as they entered Hevlaska's chamber. Hevlaska towered over them but her focus was Kanda. It seemed she could sense there was something wrong. Suddenly a glow became visible in the recesses of Hevlaska's frame.
"An innocence is activating," she intoned. There were multitudes of incredulous shocks and gasps.
"Preposterous," Levelier said sharply, "there are no possible candidates here and Exorcists cannot have two innocences."
"An innocence is activating," Hevlaska repeated firmly.
Kanda stepped forward, his step creating an echo, which silenced the incessant chatter.
"I didn't come here to hear about innocences activating. I came here to see my synch rate and to see what the hell is wrong with my innocence."
Hevlaska reached out to Kanda. He stood unflinching as her tentacle/ hand reached out to touch him. He could feel her power as she delved into his own power source-Mugen. Mere seconds seem to stretch into eternity as she examined him. Finally she released him and turned to the others. Her voice held a hint of curiosity but also fear and apprehension.
"I cannot determine his synch rate. It is there but not there," she murmured confusedly, "the innocence is still attached and responding to Kanda."
Everyone breathed a mental sigh of relief but Hevlaska continued.
"I have discovered the new host of the activated innocence." Kanda looked up at her sharply. This did not bode well for him.
"The host resides within Kanda."
'Shit' Kanda thought darkly, 'what the hell does that mean?' Everyone had turned to stare at him. The only face he was focused on was Lavi's. The expression on his face was curious scrutiny. Kanda wondered if he knew what was going on.
Levelier began to speak again, "what do you mean the host resides within the boy? That's impossible."
"Not unless he was pregnant," came the thoughtful reply from Allen. A silence permeated the group as they all digested what Allen had just said.
Kanda shook out his stupor first. "Don't be stupid moyashi. Men cannot be pregnant." Kanda was angry but also slightly fearful, there had to be another explanation for the innocence activating. Men could not be pregnant. There must be some sort of parasite in his body causing the innocence to activate. Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder and nearly drew Mugen until he realized it was Komui.
"I think we need to get you back to the infirmary," Komui said kindly. He turned to Hevlaska, "the innocence can wait until we get this all figured out right?"
Hevlaska nodded. Levelier was whispering something to Link then they both quickly left. Kanda watched this all with detached interest. Why did all this idiotic crap have to happen to him? Hadn't the lotus been enough? His worst fear was that he wouldn't be an Exorcist anymore. He had been one nearly all his life, he couldn't stop now. It pained him to say it but there was nothing he could return to if he could not be an exorcist.
One by one, everyone began to leave Hevlaska's chamber. Only Komui and Lavi were left. Lavi reached out and put an arm around Kanda. To his surprise Kanda did not shrug it off. "It'll be okay Yuu, you'll see." There was no response but Kanda allowed himself to be led back to the infirmary.
That night Lavi once again immersed himself in his books. He was getting close to the secret of Mugen and the lotus, he could feel it. However, thoughts of Kanda kept flitting back into his mind. The last he had seen of the other boy was the curtains in the infirmary closing as the nurses converged to do there examination. Lavi sighed deeply and made a decision. He would need the Bookman's help on this. He knew that by now Bookman would have heard all about Kanda's situation as would the rest of the Order.
Just as he was about to get up the door opened and Bookman stepped in slowly. Lavi watched apprehensively as the Bookman stepped closer. When the Bookman got close enough, Lavi could see a bundle of papers in his hand.
"That boy must leave. He's no longer safe here. They will use him and it will be your fault."
Lavi gave a gasp of outrage. "What are you talking about Jiji?"
The bundle was tossed at him. "Read those and plan what you will do. You are not allowed to leave though; you are still a Bookman in training no matter what you have done. I don't have time to train anyone else."
Lavi looked down at the bundle of papers and was about to ask another question but the door was already closing in the Bookman's wake. He quickly skimmed through the notes and realized these all came out the book he had been reading. When had the old Panda read the book and take notes? These would definitely help him to figure out what was going on with Kanda. The pages were full of facts and historical information about Mugen, curses and lotuses. A few words on the bottom of the last page stopped him though.
Bookman had written four words, four, simple words of warning and reproach.
"You cannot love him."
In the infirmary, Kanda was tossing and turning on his cot. There was a sliver of moonlight that shone through the window, illuminating the quiet room. Kanda sighed and stared up at the ceiling. The nurses had refused to tell him the results of their various testing. He rubbed his arm absently where a couple of needles had gone in. They had tested him for nearly everything, starting at malnutrition but Kanda knew it wasn't that. He ate what he could but nothing stayed down properly.
This was all probably a result of that god dammed lotus. When he had woken up after the night spent with Lavi, Kanda had been thoroughly surprised to find that all his wounds were healed and he felt perfectly fine. He had slipped out of Lavi's room to head to his. Inside his room he found the lotus in full bloom with all its petals. Needless to say he had been stunned and hadn't bothered to figure out how this blessing had occurred. He internally rejoiced and immediately requested to leave. He had been discharged instantly as the higher ups had simply assumed he'd be doing his last mission.
Well, now I might just have just done my last mission, Kanda thought dourly. He flinched slightly and placed a hand on his stomach. It hurt and he was hungry. Those thoughts caused Allen's words to flash through his mind. 'Not unless he's pregnant.'
Kanda shuddered; he would kill himself before any such humiliation happened. The idea was unfathomable anyways. He was sure the doctors would find out what was wrong with him and Komui would discover the source Mugen's difficulties. Kanda turned over again. He had never handled stress and the unknown very well, hence he was generally grumpy when things occurred. His stomach gave another slight pang and Kanda clenched his teeth. He needed to distract himself or else he'd go crazy. He once again turned and faced the ceiling.
His thoughts drifted to Lavi. The other man didn't seem upset that he had left without any sort of letter but then again Lavi wasn't some frail girl who needed to be coddled. No, he definitely wasn't, Kanda's thoughts drifted into rather depraved memories that left him a little more than flushed. He shook his head and pushed his thoughts to a more comfortable zone. Lavi's concern today had been genuine, which actually worried Kanda because Lavi was a Bookman and who knew how long he'd stay in the Order. Kanda frowned; these contemplations were leading to one question he hadn't bothered to address. What were he and Lavi? Their "relationship" was anything but that. Kanda wondered what Lavi would think if he realized that Kanda didn't see them in a relationship or anything close to that.
Kanda decided he'd done enough contemplating and needed to work off excess energy. He quickly grabbed Mugen and crept out of the infirmary. The Order was silent and for some reason Kanda still felt compelled to sneak around and be overly cautious. As he kept moving toward the exit, voices appeared from his left. He saw it was Levelier, Link and a few of the "leader ppl". Where they were headed, Kanda had no idea but he really didn't care at the moment. He waited until they were gone and kept moving. Once outside, he breathed a sigh of relief. This was where he should be. Not cooped up in a dank tower. He went to his favorite spot and settled into practice mode. Everything slid to the back of his mind save the flawless movement of Mugen and the patterns swordplay he had learned as a child.
Lavi glanced up once again as he was interrupted from his reading. In his doorway stood Levelier, Link and Levelier soldiers.
"To what do I owe this pleasure?" he asked sardonically.
"It has come to our attention that you may know more than you let on about Kanda Yuu and his current predicament," Levelier said leeringly.
"What makes you think I know anything?" Lavi said casually.
"There is one really only one reason," Levelier replied immperturbably. Lavi raised an eyebrow. "You're the only one crazy enough to sleep with him."
Lavi shot straight up. "Who told you?" he demanded.
"The doctor came immediately to us to tell us the results of Mr. Kanda's tests," Levelier replied coolly, "the results were rather interesting. Apparently Allen guessed right and Hevlaska was right that there was host within Kanda."
The feeling of dread coursed through Lavi's veins. He created an impassive mask to hide his encroaching fear as Leveliercontinued to speak. "The results were quite interesting and caused a stir. Do you want to know what the results of that test were Bookman?"
Lavi gritted his teeth but kept up the careless façade. "Yes, I'm dying to know what you have to tell me."
Levelier smirked, "Mr. Kanda is the first case of male pregnancy to be recorded." Lavi's heart sunk, it was true. "We will probably begin running tests tomorrow and as Bookman in training, I thought you might want a front row seat to this historical event."
"Of course I do," Lavi said, "seeing you've implicated me as the father. I would like to see how my children grow up." Internally Lavi was trying to determine a plausible plan to remove Yuu from the Order premises and somewhere safe. The door opened again and Allen, Komui and Bookman filed in.
"What was so urgent you needed all of us to come here?" Komui asked sleepily, it was after midnight after all. Allen seemed just as tired. Only Bookman seemed to retain all his senses and was perfectly aware of his surroundings.
Lavi was not pleased with the sudden gathering of people; he did not need the situation to be publicized. However, now that Allen was here perhaps he could get the other boy to help him warn Kanda. He caught Allen's gaze across the room. Allen's bright blue eyes narrowed and he inched his way toward Lavi while the others continued to talk.
"I need your help," Lavi hissed quietly, keeping a watchful eye on Levelier, Link, and Komui. Bookman was a detached entity, merely observing the situation. "I need you to find Kanda and tell him to leave and I'll find him as soon as possible."
"What?" Allen whispered, shocked.
"There have been some rather tremulous discoveries made about Kanda that will reduce him to more than a guinea pig for the science department and the Order. He needs to leave now for his own safety."
"Okay, but why?" Allen asked warily, his suspicions were rising and Lavi's actions were not serving to alleviate his problem.
"You were right."
"What are you talking about, Lavi?" Allen asked a bit exasperatedly. He wished people wouldn't try to hide their words in strange codes.
"Kanda is pregnant or something along those lines," Lavi replied. " Levelierplans to use Kanda as some sort of test subject for his own gains and curiosity. That's what he's probably talking to Komui about."
Allen stared incredulously at Lavi. "That's impossible unless Kanda's a woman." He paused. "Is he a woman?" he shrieked.
"Shhhhhh," Lavi hissed, "they don't need to hear. This is why I need your help." Allen leaned closer to hear what Lavi what saying. "I need you to find Kanda and give him these." Here Lavi shoved the packet of papers the Bookman had given him at Allen.
"What is this?" Allen asked quizzically. He flipped through some of the papers but Lavi stopped him.
"We don't have time for this. I need you to go now and get Kanda out of here. These papers will explain everything to him so you don't have to, okay?" Lavi said urgently. "I'll tell you everything you want to know if you get Kanda to safety."
Allen nodded and began to make his way out. His progress was unhindered as the conversation between Levelier, Link, and Komui got louder. The conversation was still indistinct but moments after Allen left the group turned toward him. Komui looked livid but so did Levelier and Link. Lavi was uneasy about what they had to say to him. It was Komui who spoke first.
"Lavi do you know how such a thing could have happened? Did you know what would happen when you-when you-you know…" he trailed off miserably a slight flush was present on his face. Lavi grinned internally but he answered seriously.
"No, I didn't know anything about this when Kanda and I had sex. Kanda is a man and as far as I know, was one when we were enjoying ourselves a month ago." He left the innuendo hanging; he wasn't going to make this situation easier especially since any time he bought would bring Kanda closer to safety. He just hoped the other man would not return to find him or seek more answers.
"So this was all unplanned? You knew nothing about Mr. Kanda's situation? The books you hoard say differently," Levelier said sneering. "You do realize you have just removed an Exorcist from commission and a general at that." Levelier did not look too bothered by this fact though. Lavi watched him carefully tightlipped. Levelier didn't care that Kanda wasn't able to fight; he had another test subject to create a better weapon.
"Then again these circumstances have provided us with a new Exorcist, albeit a useless one for a time." Lavi stiffened at those words. Levelier must have caught his sudden movements because his grin suddenly turned feral. "Bookman-in-training that is your child growing inside of Mr. Kanda." He paused for a moment. "I have a proposition for you. If I understand correctly, Bookmen do not have children because they are unnecessary attachments. However, you already have an attachment in the form the lovely Mr. Kanda. I will allow you continue your relationship with another Exorcist if you sever any ties and renounce the child carrying the innocence."
Lavi suffered a sudden bout of all consuming rage before the red faded and he was able to think through the absurd proposition. How dare he make him chose between Kanda and his own flesh and blood? What gave him such rights to do such a thing? There were no rules forbidding relationships between Exorcists. What could Levelier be possibly thinking? Lavi was furious and the urges to slam his hammer into Levelier thick skull.
Levelier moved close to Lavi and bent down to whisper harshly in his ear, "I think you will agree to decision because if you don't I will revoke your General status and remove you and Bookman from the Order. This means you won't be able to see your lover and your child anyways." He leaned back to look at Lavi but on the boy's face was cold, impassive look. His gaze was not focused and it seemed far away.
Lavi's mind for the first time in his life paused. This was an unexpected turn of events, although Kanda would be out of Levelier's reach anyways. His gaze fell on Bookman. The man's face remained calm and slightly bored. Lavi weighed his options. Kanda would not be here at any rate so the only one left to protect was Jiji and if he did refuse he wouldn't see Kanda or the child. There was really only one sound option to make sure everyone was slightly happy. However, actually accepting the agreement seemed very inhumane to Lavi but he allowed the Bookman persona to take control.
"I accept your conditions. The child is yours as long as Kanda remains untouched."
"Agreed," said Levelier unperturbedly. He backed swiftly away from Lavi and turned toward Link. "Find Mr. Kanda and bring him to my office." Everyone exited the library and the only people left were Bookman and Lavi. Bookman looked as though he wanted to reprimand Lavi but he had had enough.
"I'm sorry Jiji but I'm a little tired tonight. Can we talk tomorrow?"
Before Bookman could respond, Lavi had swept out of the room.
In the shadows of the corridor a pale young man waited until Lavi had left and then Bookman left. Kanda stepped into the library. He was hurt, although he would never admit it. He had arrived as Levelier made his proposition to Lavi. At first he had been shocked to realize he was indeed pregnant but the initial shock wore off into fury when Lavi accepted the deal. Clearly Bookman duties overruled everything in Lavi's life. Kanda was a fool to have trusted him.
Kanda placed a hand gently on his stomach. He may be a cold hearted bastard but he would die before they could take his child away from him. He had to leave but first he needed a little more information. In his rush, Kanda had noticed Lavi had not taken anything out of the library so here was his chance to make some discoveries. Kanda rifled through the books and papers littering the desks in the library but his search turned up nothing. Where could the stuff possibly be? I'm sure Lavi was in here researching about me. Another search found nothing and Kanda knew he should be leaving soon before they discovered he was missing.
Suddenly the door burst open and Kanda immediately drew Mugen. It was the Moyahsi, looking utterly out of breath and panting like a dog.
"Moyashi?" asked Kanda cautiously. Had he been sent to retrieve him?
Allen looked up startle then his expression changed to one of gratefulness. "Oh, thank god you're here," he said breathlessly, "I've been looking all over for you."
"Why?" Kanda asked dangerously, raising Mugen a bit higher.
"Because you're in endanger stupid. You need to leave now before Levelier and Link find you. Come on let's go."
"Wait, I need to find information about-" he was cut off by an exasperated Allen.
"No, I have the information here," Allen held up the papers, "we have to go now!"
Kanda lowered Mugen and walked over to Allen to grab the papers. "Thanks Moyashi," he muttered and swept out of the room.
"Hey," Allen cried outraged, "do you even know where you're going to go? Why don't I go get Lavi or something?" Kanda froze and swiftly Allen found Mugen at his throat. "If you tell that bastard anything I will have you drawn and quartered, understand?" Allen nodded fearfully and Kanda left the Order and never looked back.
so the next chapter will continue the flashback
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