I'm sorry it took me so long to finish this chapter. I'm not really happy with it, but it'll have to do. I hope I'll be able to finish the next one faster.


Chapter 4

Another week passed. Haley stopped cleaning Jamie's room. Instead, she spent her days looking at her son's baby pictures, the ones from his first day of school, from his last birthday. Nathan had stopped trying to reach her. He knew he had to do something though so one afternoon, he called Lucas who agreed to come to try and talk to Haley.

"Hey Luke." Nathan greeted his brother.

"How are you holding up, man?"

"Still the same, I'm really worried about Haley."

"I'll try talking to her, but I don't think there's anything I could say to help her."

"Thanks anyway. She's in the living room."

Lucas went to see his sister-in-law and found her sitting on the couch staring at a pictures of Jamie playing with Chester, a big smile on his face and his eyes shining with happiness.

"I don't know what to say or even if there is anything to say, but know that whenever you need me I will always be here for you. I can't begin to imagine what you feel and I won't say that I know. I don't think anything I say could help you, I don't have the words to alleviate your pain, I can only offer you my presence to help you grieve.I wish I had acure to heal your broken heart." Lucas put his hand on her shoulder trying to look into her eyes, but she wasn't looking at him, she wasn't looking at anything really.

"My heart is not broken, Lucas, it just died. I can't live like that. I can't live knowing that my baby might be scared or in pain. I can't live knowing that he might be...I'm not ready to accept that this might be a reality. Sometimes at night, I hear him say my name, and when I close my eyes, I can almost see his smile." Her voice broke then, but she still didn't cry. She hadn't cry since the day she lost him.

Haley stood up and turned around to leave, bumping into Nathan on her way. He reached for her and took her elbow.

"Haley, please..."

"How can you all just carry on, how can you just move on."

"I don't want to move on, but we have to. You know, Haley you're not the only one who misses him. He was my son too! I feel so lost without him, I don't even have the words to express the length of my pain. If there were anythingI could do to bring Jamie back, I would, but he's gone, he's not coming back, he's go..."

"Don't!" She interrupted him. "Don't you dare say that! Jamie's not dea... He's not gone, he's lost, but he will be back." And with that she ran away.

"Haley!!" But she didn't look back.

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Haley went to Jamie's room and curled up on his bed.

"You are not alone Jamie, even if you think that you are, momma's here, she's waiting for you. Please come back Jamie."