It was only a few moments until Near arrived which was surprising since SPK headquarters were 15 minutes away.

"How did you-?" Matt began.

"Ducati." Near replied quickly. "What's going on?"

"It's Todd. He's trying to kill himself and I don't know what to do. You're the only person I can think of that he'll listen to. I'll only make things worse." Matt looked down in a moment of self-pity.

Near knelt in front of the door. "Todd?" He said softly but loud enough that Todd could hear. "Are you ok?"

They could here Todd laugh softly from behind the door. "I'm perfectly ok. I can't feel shit right now and pretty some I'll be better than ever."

"Todd, please come out." Near pleaded.

"You think I'll come out just because you said please? Don't insult me. I really like you, don't change that now." Todd was silent for a second. "Near, can you do me a favor?"

"Of course." The white-haired genius replied.

"I know you care for Matt as much as me so could you watch out for him in case Mello decides he wants to act stupid again?"

"No." Near said. "You're Matt's best friend. You understand him like no other. You need to be there for him not me. No matter how much I wish I could." Near turned to Matt and whispered so Todd couldn't hear. "I think it's best if you leave now. There's nothing more you can do here."

"I'm not leaving him alone." Matt said loud enough for Todd to hear.

"Just leave Matt." Todd said. "We're done here. Besides, you were going to leave me anyway. Either way it doesn't matter now."

"Just go." Near told him. "I'll get you if I need you."

With a dejected look, the red-head rose to his feet. His footsteps were heavy as he made his way to the apartment he shared with Mello to try and get comfort from the one person he had left. Instead of making all the way there Matt collapsed in the middle of the hall, curled in a ball, and cried.

"Shit." He cursed fiercely under his breath. "Damn you Todd. Why did you have to do this to me?" He leaned back against the wall and wiped the tears from his eyes.

"Matt?"

Matt looked up to see Mello staring at him with concern. "Todd's trying to kill himself." He told the blonde sadly.

"Why aren't you with him?" Mello asked. "Do you need me to do anything?"

Matt shook his head. "Near's with him. He's doing it because of me." Matt's eyes welled with tears all over again.

Mello sat next to him and wrapped his arm around the red-head. "It'll be ok. I'm sure Todd will be just fine. You have nothing to worry about."

"You don't get it." Matt shrugged Mello's arm off. "It's all because of me. I should never have left him alone. This never would have happened if I hadn't left him alone."

"This is not your fau-" Mello was interrupted by shouts coming from down the hall.

Matt leapt to his feet at the sight of the paramedics pushing a gurney. He raced down the hall after it, his footsteps echoing in his ears. He reached the door the just seconds behind the paramedics. Mello was right behind him.

"Get the fuck out my way." Matt yelled when on off the men prevented him from going any farther. He caught a glimpse of snow white hair and waved wildly until he got Near's attention. The genius made his way toward Matt while trying not to get in the paramedics way.

"What the hell happened?" Matt asked as Near pulled him further out into the hall.

"We were talking and he suddenly stopped talking only a second a go. I had already called my emergency team though so they were able to get here soon enough. Now all we have to do is hope he didn't take too enough to kill him before I can get him back to SPK headquarters…. Watch out." He pulled Matt out of the way as the paramedics loaded a semi-conscious Todd onto the gurney and wheeled him out the apartment. Racing for the elevator.

Near went after them with Matt and Mello following close behind.

"There isn't enough room in the ambulance for all us." Near spoke as he ran.

"I'm sure as hell not going to leave him." Matt growled.

"Come on, Matt." Mello said. "We can follow in your car."

"Besides, I'll be there with him." Near said.

With a reluctant nod Matt nodded and followed Mello to the stairwell. Near took the crowded elevator with the paramedics. Mello ran down the stairway slightly ahead of Matt to the red muscle car he had purchased for Matt some time ago. Mello jumped into the driver's seat just a second before Matt slipped into the passenger's seat.

"Drive faster dammit." Matt was drumming his fingers on the dashboard anxiously.

"I'm already going as fast as I can." Mello replied patiently. He reached over to hold Matt's hand. "Don't worry."

"I can't do that." Matt pulled his hand away to bury his head in his hands. "Why is everything so fucked up? Why does shit always happen?" Matt let loose every curse he could think of in one breath.

Mello parked the car abruptly. "Get out." He said.

"What?" Matt looked at the blonde quizzically.

"We're here. Hurry up and get out so you can see Todd." Mello stared at the steering wheel in front of him.

"Aren't you coming?" Asked Matt.

"I don't think Todd would appreciate seeing me. I think it would be better if it was only you there." The blonde responded.

Matt got out of the car and walked around to the driver's side to open the door. "Let's go." He grabbed Mello hand and dragged him out the car.

"But, Matt, I don't think this is a good idea." Mello walked quickly to avoid being dragged along the ground.

"I'm sorry Todd did what he did. I'm sorry I left him alone for all that time. We are friends, brothers almost, but cannot be anything more. And I'll be damned if I'll let anything come between you and me again. We are going together whether you like it or not." Matt spoke passionately as he led Mello through the glass doors, flicked off the guards, and traveled through halls to the medical wing of the building.

Mello stopped suddenly nearly bringing Matt off his balance.

"What?!" Matt yelled.

"Do you mean it? All that mushy shit I just heard you say that you swore you'd never say."

"Of course I meant it." Matt blushed slightly.

"That's great because I have some potentially upsetting news." Mello winced as he spoke.

"For fuck's sake! What the hell now?" Matt groaned.

"It's nothing we need to talk about now. Just go see Todd first. We can talk later." Mello pushed Matt down the hall, right into Near.

"Oh, Matt. I'm so sorry." Near said quietly.

A/N - Sorry I've been slow in updating. My mom just had her baby YAY!!!!!!!!! Anyway that means not much time for writing...sorry for you guys T_T