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That first week Troy lost nearly five pounds, he had hoped for more but he just had to work harder this week, not wait too long before throwing up. He had to do anything in his power so he would lose even more weight, so he wouldn't be the fat kid anymore. He knew his goals and now he had to achieve them. But these weren't ordinary goals, not for a well fit guy like him. He sat in the living room watching TV, Gabriella had called his cell phone several times but he didn't answer simply because he wanted to have some private life and didn't wanna be with her this moment.

"Gabriella hasn't been here for a while…" Anne said while she give the flowers water.

"Neither has mom…" He shot back at her.

"Have you broken up?" She asked and sat down next to Troy; he continued to look in front of him.

"No but ever since we went all the way she has been glued to me! Giving me all this bullshit that I am cheating on her with everyone else, and the other day Jason and Zeke wanted me and Chad to kiss and we did and she is hung up on that, saying if there weren't people in the room we would have sex!" He said to Anne that was listing to his words, the only one that actually listened to him.

"Maybe she is scared that you just used her…" Anne said in a soft tone.

"I used her?! I think it should be the other way around I am the fucking basketball captain and believe me if she used me she wouldn't be the first!" He muttered.

"Troy, aren't you a little negative right now… Gabriella loves you…" Anne rubbed his shoulder and looked at him.

"Maybe that is the problem, she loves me to much while my feelings are changing, and I think I am falling for Chad but I can't say it to him! Not now, not ever!" He said and felt like breaking out and just cry.

"And why not? If you really like Chad maybe you should give you two a try?" Anne said gently.

I can't be close to anyone at the moment Anne! I need to lose weight and having him around won't help! He thought. "He had a really bad break up and I don't wanna ruin our friendship, I mean we have known each other since we could barely walk!" He sighs. "This is all Jason's fault I promise!" He says and feels annoyed. He had always had self control and knew where he stood with everybody! But now he was so confused! He loved Gabriella but as a friend and Chad well he felt more than just the brother love they had shared for several years.

"How is his fault if you two choose to kiss each other?" Anne was confused and looked at Troy.

"He was the one with all the shit that he wanted to see two guys kiss, and we did it so he would shut the fuck up!" He groaned his stomach grumbled, and he was pretty sure Anne heard it.

"Are you hungry Troy? You ate an hour ago." She said and looked at Troy shocked.

"No my stomach just makes sounds... I have no idea why! It just does! I am still full after lunch!" He said lying; lying became natural since he decided not to eat. Lying was a part of him now.

"Okay…" Anne found it hard to shake it off but tried her best to do so. "I am gonna go clean the bathrooms… I don't get paid for talking to you..." She smiled and he chuckled softly at her, she left him alone in the big and empty living-room. Troy turned the TV off, he enjoyed the silence, hearing the soft and calming sound of Anne cleaning, his own breaths then there was a car pulling up in the drive, assuming it was his dad. He sighed; he really wanted to be alone right now. But he made no effort of getting up from the white couch, he just laid there thinking about his life and his life before all this mess with his mom became a big international business owner. And why didn't he say anything to her? He didn't wanna be the one breaking her dream. He hoped that his dad would take that position instead.

"Hey son!" His father sounded cheerful. He sat down in the matching white arm chair that was positioned on the left of the couch.

"What do you want?" He asked annoyed, not really liking the company his dad was giving him.

"You sound grumpy!" He said. Yeah I haven't eaten for a week! How would you feel? Troy was mentally bullying his dad. Troy gave him a glare. "Anyways I was thinking you and I could do something while your mother is gone…" He said enthusiastic, a little too enthusiastic for Troy's liking.

"Mom said you should do things with me this month didn't she? So she wouldn't feel so bad about herself while she is gone?" Troy said and didn't look on his dad.

"No... Is it a crime for a father to wanting to spend time with his only child?!" He said almost accusing.

"Yeah because both, you and I know it's what mom wanted so she would feel better about going away again!" He shouted, then, in a graceful motion, he got up from the couch and walked with heavy steps to his room.

He hated his life; he sighed and turns up the music on his stereo locking all other sounds out. Maybe his dad stood on the other side screaming for him to turn the volume down, but what did he care! Yet did he know he would be the one that would walk out that door apologizing to his dad. He didn't knew why it always was like that, like it was an unwritten rule in the Bolton household, the parents were never gonna apologize for anything! It was only Troy who apologized!

Then he realized it.

He was not gonna apologize this time! He hadn't done anything wrong so why would he apologize? His thoughts were disturbed when his phone rang once again.

I scream into the night for you

Don't make it true, don't jump

The lights will not guide you trough

They're deceiving you, don't jump

Gabriella 3

It stood across the screen also with a picture of her sitting in his lap with her arms secure around his neck and his arms was secure around her waist, he ignored the call he didn't wanna talk to her.

Sometime Troy thought that for a girl smart as her she was quite stupid! If people don't answer the phone then maybe they don't wanna talk right now! He put the phone in the drawer of his bed table. Trying to ignore the song that his cell phone was playing. If he let it ring maybe she thought he forgot it at home or something and he prayed that she would give up soon.

There were hard knockings on the door. Couldn't people just leave him the fuck alone? Was that so much to ask for these days?! - Apparently. "TROY OPEN THE DOOR!" Jack Bolton was screaming on the other side of the dark oak door. Troy simply ignored him. "I SAID OPEN THE DOOR!" He shouted.

Troy knew that there was no point of getting on his father's bad side, so with a heavy sigh he got up from the soft bed and opened the door. "What!?" He asked probably harsher then he should but he didn't seem to have any personal life anymore.

"What is wrong with you? This last week you have shut everyone out! Have you and Gabriella broken up?" He asked his son, worried.

"No dad! I am fine, me and Gabriella are fine! I just want to be alone is that too much to ask for these days!?" He shut the door in his father's face and returned to his bed laying there not knowing what to do. He turned the music off and still "Don't jump" was heard from the bed table, he opened it and answered.

"Hi baby…" He said cheerfully.

"Hi, why haven't you answered?" The worry was clear in her voice.

"Oh I am sorry but me and my dad played some ball and I left the cell inside… I didn't mean to worry you…" Could she get anymore possessive of Troy?

"Well I was wondering if you wanted to come over here and we could watch a movie or something." She asked, and he knew what that or something was, she wanted to have sex but it sounded better if she invited him for a movie.

"Yeah sure that sounds great... I'll be over in 20 minutes…" He said and smiled.

"Yeah see you soon... Love you Troy…" Her voice sounded so innocent and pure.

"Yeah see you soon… Love you too Gabriella..." He shut his phone and sighed, he needed to break up with her before she could become even more attached with him. He turned the music off and went out of his room. "I am going to Gabriella's; I won't be home for dinner!" He shouted on his way out to the car.

He drove over to Gabriella, not really wanting to get there. He sighed as he pulled up on the familiar driveway he had driven up many times before. He walked out and locked the car then he walked up on the porch and knocked on the door. He heard a muffled 'Come in' and he helped himself in, he wasn't shocked when the whole room was dark and candles were all over the room.

"What is the special occasion?" He asked his girlfriend, who was standing in the doorway to the kitchen with a pair of short shorts and a tube top.

"Nothing… I just wanted to see you..." She smiled and walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him softly on the lips.

"Gabriella I actually wanted to talk to you about something…" He said breaking from the kiss. He looked down at her. He would break her but this was necessarily if he wanted to keep his secret a secret.

"What?" She asked scared.

"I am doing this to be fair to both of us… But the thing is… I wanna break up…" He said looking her in the eyes.

"It's Chad isn't it?" She asked hurt and upset.

"Chad has nothing to do with this! Neither has any other person on this planet! Why has it always been someone else when something is wrong? My feelings for you have changed! That's it! Nothing else! My feelings changed and I think it's most fair to both of us if I break it of" He said. "I thought you always wanted the truth and here you have it!"

"Just get out Troy!" She mumbled and he obeyed. He didn't wanna hurt her more than it was necessary.

He went to the car and decided to go To Chad's since he was the only one free today. Zeke was busy with Sharpay, surprise surprise, and Jason was visiting his cousins over the weekend. So here he was standing outside his best friend's house where he usually just walked in and shouted 'I am home' or something like that, he had spent many nights here with his best friend talking about serious stuff like the future and fears and everything else that comes with growing older. Yet he hesitated, not sure if he should open the door or not.

He took a deep breath and then he walked in. "Chad!?" He shouted. He walked to the kitchen where his mother stood. "Hey Leslie, is Chad around?" He asked the dark woman who was baking.

"Yeah he is up in his room playing his video games!" She smiled warmly. Troy nodded and headed up to Chad's room. He walked in and saw his friends being captured in the world of killing monsters.

"So this is how you welcome your team captain?" He asked and laughed slightly and sat down next to Chad.

"You are looking down, something wrong?" Chad asked noticing his friend's depressing look.

"I had a fight with my dad before I left to see Gabriella and I broke up with her…" Troy said and sighed. "Apart from that I am fine…" He smiled a crooked smile.

"I thought you and Gabriella were fine, what happened?" Chad asked putting away the joystick.

"I don't know… I mean after we had sex she was like glue to me! She was like a little girl with her new toy. She wouldn't let anyone touch it but her!" He sighed. "And that was not the girl I feel in love with seven months ago!" He said and looked at his friend.

"I am sorry man…" Was all Chad could say.

"Don't be… Kinda nice to know I am a free man!" He laughed softly.

"So what did you and your dad argue about this time?" Chad asked.

"Oh you know the usual, he give me all this bullshit that he wants to spend time with his only son, but we both know its moms order so she will feel better about herself when she is going away on her fucking business trips." He said with venom in his voice. "Do you know what I would give to have the old life back? You know when we were like any other family in the world? - I was completely happy with it… " He looked into the almost black eyes that his friend had.

"Pretty much since you are unhappy with this whole new life you and your parents are living. Troy you are always welcome here if it gets too lonely at your house… My parents love you like their own and you know that… I swear they wouldn't care if you came here drunk in the middle of the night…" Chad smiled and Troy smiled as well, his friend could always make him feel better about everything.

"My parents love you to… They just have a weird way of showing it…" Troy chuckled and looked into those beautiful eyes his friend carried. He was jealous of them he wanted eyes like that.

"I've got something in my face?" Chad asked touching his chin and cheek.

Nice going Troy really! He screamed inside his head. How could he fuck up so bad with his best friend? "No… I was just... eh I was just..." His mind was racing. "I noticed that your afro has become bigger!" He finally got out.

"I cut it the other day…" Chad said and looked weird at Troy. Troy had no idea what to say.

"Well I didn't notice!" He said with a smile on his lips, he hoped dearly that the earth would open up and swallow him. But it never happened, much to his disappointment.

"Are you sure you are all right Troy? You are very off at the moment!" Chad said, looking at Troy who was mentally beating himself up. "I know that look Troy!" He said warning.

"What look?" He asked innocently and smiled like a little boy and put his head a little over to the side. "I have no look…" He said and started laughing. "I guess I just have a lot on my mind at the moment. Nothing you need to worry about Chad!" He assured his friend. His stomach grumbled.

"Are you hungry?" Chad asked and looked at Troy.

"No it's just my stomach that makes sounds out of nothing! I ate like two hours ago!" Troy said fast. - Too fast. He didn't want his friend to suspect anything about his new habits.

"It never has before why is that sudden change?" Chad asked.

"Chad I am not a doctor how am I suppose to know! Just leave it, okay? It's nothing for you to worry about I swear!" Troy said in a comforting tone to his friend.

I scream into the night for you

Don't make it true, don't jump

The lights will not guide you trough

They're deceiving you, don't jump

"Its mom…" He said and slid his phone open. "Hello?" He said waiting for his mother to speak.

"Hi sweetie!" Her voice was happy. "What are you doing?" She asked happily.

"Oh you know hanging with Chad… How is Japan?" He asked not wanting his mother to feel guilt of not being there.

"Oh well, are you having fun?" She asked.

"Yeah we are playing some video games and talk, you know the usual… But I asked how Japan was…" He said again.

"Oh yeah, Japan is fantastic we should go here for family vacation some time!" She said happily.

"Yeah raw fish and short people, sounds fantastic!"(Author: No offense to Japan!) He said and they talked a bit more. "Mom, Chad is looking bored so I think I need to give him some attention… See you in a month?"

"Yes we do... Bye baby I love you…" Her voice was warm but sounded upset that her son had chosen his friend over her but he didn't wanna talk to her right now.

"Yeah bye mom, love you to…" He said and shut the phone. "Why is she going if she knows she is gonna feel bad about it?" He asked.

"This is her dream Troy…" Chad began.

"You know what she always said to me when I was younger?" Chad shook his head. "She said she would do anything for me to be happy… Because she always wanted a family and she had it, I wonder if she remembers that…" Troy felt a tear make its way down his cheek. Quickly he wiped it away, hoping that Chad didn't see it. "Can I adopt myself in this family?" He asked with a smile on his lips.

"Yeah sure… I mean I have to check up with my parents first but I am quite sure they will accept!" Chad smiled. He went over to Troy. "You really miss your old life don't you?" Chad asked softly.

"Yeah… and they say I have everything!" He laughed silently to himself. "If everyone only knew that the façade of Troy Bolton was breaking…" He sighed. "I think you are the only one who knows the real me Chad… Of six billion people on the planet you are the only one who knows the real me!" He said.

"Troy… There are many people who know you…" Chad began.

"The Troy Bolton or just Troy Bolton?" Troy asked looking into those dark orbs his friend carried.

"Okay I get your point…" Chad smiled slightly. "But you have friends that got your back and you know it… So don't even try to deny that!" Chad said.

"Never did!" Troy chuckled and looked down at his feet. "What do you say about watching a movie?" He asked and Chad agreed. They went down to the living room and put in the first movie they found.

"You boys wants cookies?" Leslie came inside the living room with a plate of fresh-made cookies, it smelled fantastic, the chocolate was filling Troy's mind with fantasies with eating those cookies.

"Yeah sure mom…" Chad said and Leslie placed the plate on the white living-room table. Troy liked Chad's house more than his own for two reasons: it was more cosy and many family memories were up on the walls, from both Chad and Michel and other relatives. It made it simply and made it feel like a home. And the second was that it was the perfect size! You didn't have to call the police if you wanted to look for someone in the house.

"Your mom should open a bakery!" Troy smiled and looked at the cookies.

"Yeah she and Anne, that would be death for everyone!" Chad chuckled and put a brownie in his mouth eating it happily. "You don't want one?" Chad asked and held up the plate. Troy knew he had to eat it, otherwise Chad would suspect something was wrong!

"Yeah of course!" Troy said and ate the brownie. He felt the cookie go down his throat and he just wanted to spit it out, it could ruin everything! What if he lost his control? What if he started to gain weight again? The fear took over him. He put everything in his mouth forcing it down even if it felt dry and it was stuck along his throat.

"Jeez isn't Anne feeding you anymore?" Chad asked jokingly.

"I wanted a brownie all day long!" Troy smiled to his friend.

"Troy are you staying for dinner?" Leslie asked looking out from the kitchen.

"No my dad had some idea about having some pizza night and watch some movies! But thanks anyway Leslie!" He said happily. - This was easy. Everyone bought his lies, no one suspected one thing, was it really this easy? Apparently!

"Oh okay!" Leslie said and walked back into the kitchen and continued with whatever she was doing in there.

"Your mom loves to cook don't she?" Troy asked softly when he heard the comforting sound of the frying and chopping in the kitchen.

"She lives for it!" Chad smiled. "She is actually trying to teach me, believe it or not!" He laughed and looked at Troy, they started laughing.

"You in the kitchen?!" Troy asked between his laughs. "I gotta film that sometime and send it to AFV!" He laughed and tried to calm himself down. "That wasn't funny..." He said and burst out laughing again.

"Unlike you! I can actually do the basics! My mom thinks I am a natural at it!" Chad said and started laughing to.

"Yeah sure you are! I believe you when I actually see it!" Troy said feeling himself calming down. "I think I need to head home before dad actually calls the police!" He said. "But I'll see you tomorrow at school!" He said and Troy left the Danforth's house.

He took a longer road home than necessary, but when he was in the middle of nowhere he pulled over and made sure no one as watching and went to a bush. His fingers went down his throat and the brownie came up. He searched through his pockets and found a packet of gum. He made sure that he always had gum with him these days, so when he threw up at school he could get rid of the horrible after taste and smell. He got into the car once again and drove home.

He opened the door and slammed it. "I'm home!" He shouted to an empty house. He went to the kitchen and saw his dad had left him a note.

Went out with some friends!

I'll be home around 11!

Dinner is in the fridge if you are hungry

Love Dad!

That made it clear; no one listened to him in this house! He had clearly said he wasn't gonna be home for dinner! That is the same thing as he won't need any dinner today! He lived with idiots!

He sighed and left the note on the table. He walked out of the kitchen and into his room. Anne had been there cleaning up on his room like always! She was the only reason his room was in order. And truth to be told, he hated it! He hated when he couldn't find things! His mind lost it he pulled every box he had out and threw it on the floor! He needed things organized his way! He started to pick up random things and tried to figure out how he was gonna organize the things he had. He turned on the stereo on the highest it could go. He didn't care if the neighbours complained, he could only focus with music playing!

He organized every CD he owned in alphabetical order, standing exactly on a straight line. Every sock was placed in different colures in perfect rows and every photo was sorted by the persons he liked the most and pictures with him were placed in the bottom of a box not wanting to show the world his old self. - They would see a new improved Troy! A Troy who was strong and knew what he had to do!

His t-shirts hung from white to black, perfect order, a order only he understood, a order only he could fix, same with the rest of his clothes, everything in a perfect order that only Troy could see, the order had to be complicated! Because the more he could control than something else then food, the easier it would be losing weight.

"TROY!" His dad was home. He turned the music of and his father knocked on the door then walked in. "Why are you still up? You have school tomorrow…" His father said in a warning tone.

"I was looking for something and I focus better if I have music on… I was on my way to bed right now!" He said and his dad nodded and closed the door and went to bed. Troy couldn't sleep! He wasn't quite finished with his organization yet! He listened carefully and heard his dad snoring loudly in the other room. He wanted to fix the last things, then he could sleep peacefully!

He got up quietly and slowly he started to fix the last things on his desk. Then he could sleep. The pencils were laying after the length and the rubbers was laying in a pile the biggest underneath and the smaller the rubber, the higher you came in the pile. His notebooks were laying perfectly over each other, everything had to be perfect! Then he could sleep!

He looked at the digital alarm clock that stood by his bed. - 00.45 it read. He looked down in the drawer. Yeah, it was perfect, now he could sleep. He walked over to his bed and got under the covers and closed his eyes and then he drifted off into a peaceful slumber.

The next morning he was woken up by his father who had shaken him. "What the hell dad?! I am sleeping!" He said sleepily, trying to go back to his sleep.

"Time for you to get up now…" He said.

"Dad I have grown up by myself since I was 9! What makes you think that suddenly, at the age of 16, you need to wake me up?" Troy muttered and hid his face under the thick duvet again.

Jack mumbled something and then he left Troy alone. When the door slammed Troy got up from the bed and walked into the shower. He scrubbed every inch of his body, trying to get off some weight that way. He walked out of the shower and got his clothes, it was a pair of dark ripped jeans and a green t-shirt and a black hoodie over, hoods are very practical if you wanted to hide your body. He put on a pair of well worn white vans. He put his cell and iPod in his pockets, then he went down stairs.

"Don't you have any other shoes that don't have holes in them?" His father asked annoyed.

"I got but I like these, they are comfortable to walk in!" Troy muttered and grabbed himself a banana and a sandwich that lay on the counter. "Besides you are the only one who cares about it!" He said and took his brown paper bag with his lunch, leaving his breakfast forgotten.

He went to his car and drove off to the school. Words travelled fast! The whole school knew about Troy's and Gabriella's break-up, although there were different stories. One was that he had gotten another girl pregnant and needed to be by her side, another was that he was cheating with Zeke! And his personal favourite: he wasn't getting any sex and that annoyed him so he was gonna go and find a girl that would give him what he wanted!

"I heard about you and Gabs I am sorry…" It was Zeke's voice.

"Tell that to Gabriella I was the one who broke-up… My feelings changed!" He said. He didn't really care about what people said about him behind his back, that meant they needed some else's life to talk about, because they didn't have a life.

"Oh… I thought you two were all lovey-dovey!" Zeke said with a smile.

"No not really, she has been acting like a little girl with a new toy that no one else can touch and I am the toy! And she gave me all this bullshit about cheating on her!" Troy said and shut his locker after putting down all his books in his bag.

"Oh sounds harsh! Well as long as you don't feel all heartbroken, you and I can go for a pizza tonight and look for some chicks!" Zeke said confidently.

"Okay two things, first what about Sharpay? And second I really don't wanna go cheeking out chicks with you! No offense!" Troy said and looked at his dark friend.

"Me and Sharpay are just fucking buddies, I mean we give each other a few moments of pleasure but you see I like Sharpay more than a friend so I was gonna try to make her jealous!" Zeke said.

"Man you need some new ideas! First, you are under the spell of Sharpay Evans! Second, Sharpay Evans doesn't get jealous of her fucking buddy's girl! - Either forget it or admit it!" Troy said.

"So you mean I would just go straight up to her and say that I wanna be more than just fucking buddies?" Zeke asked doubting.

"Yes! What happened to the confident Zeke? - Too scared to tell the mountain lion you are in love?" Troy teased his friend who muttered something he assumed he didn't wanna hear. "I can talk to her for you if you want…" Troy finally offered.

"Would you do that?" Zeke asked happily.

"Yeah sure… I'll try to fit it in today and I call or text you right away when I know what she feels about you!" Troy said kindly and Zeke just ran away screaming "YES" in the hall wall. Troy chuckled at his friend and heard the bell ring and he was off to homeroom.