I know I am late with this but our dog that we had for 12.5 years passed away this weekend and it was heavy... So I am been in a bad mood these past day hope you understand!

No I DON'T own HSM!


The soft lips was pressed against his neck searching for his soft spot, a moan escaped his mouth when he found it. Hands roaming over each other even though clothes was still on, when Chad was tugging at the hem of his t-shirt he just push the hands away refusing to let him see him in his current condition. But his hands was soon there again trying to get it of.

"Stop it…" He says against Chad's soft lips kissing him deeper. Chad refused to take no for an answer and was under his t-shirt feeling his body.

"NO!" Troy sat up in the bed, sweaty breathing heavy. His chest was heaving up and down and his body was covered in sweat to max. He heard the heavy footsteps of his father coming towards his room. He must have woken him.

"Are you okay Troy?" He asks when he burst through the door looking worried at his son.

"Yeah…" Takes a deep breath. "Just a nightmare nothing to worry about go back to sleep…" He says and his father nods and leaves him sitting in the bed. Troy lays down on the soft pillows again. He felt on his neck he wished that Chad had been kissing him like that, taking control… But it was just a dream.

He sighs and turns his head falls in a deep sleep.

But when he woke up at 03.42 and found it impossible to go to sleep again he pushed his duvet of his body, then he took his pillow and the duvet and went to the living room turning on the TV to se if there was anything that might interest him.

But he ends watching reruns of Scrubs. He laughed to him self when Turk and JD was fooling around like they always did, in someway they reminded him of him and Chad, best friends no matter what… But now he was pushing everyone away. It scared him that he might stand alone…

"Don't worry you have me…" A comforting voice said inside his head. And he can't help but relax a bit more when he hears it and makes him self comfortable in the couch, his whole body relaxed and he fell a sleep…

He woke up to the voices of two people…

"Hi sweetie…" Fuck! It was his mom.

"Hi mom… I thought you wouldn't be home for an other two weeks.." He says and sits up in the couch.

"Yeah but your father says you don't eat and ignore him…" She says in a soft tone.

"I eat and I don't ignore him! He is just never home to see when I eat! So stop trying so dam hard!" Troy mutters angrily and walks up from the couch leaving his mother in complete shock at her sons' outburst.

He locked him self in his room ignoring the voices telling him it was breakfast time.. Like he could eat when his fucking mom was there. Then the doorbell rang and there was happy voices. He peaked out his door and saw it was the Danforth family, quickly he dressed him self in a pair of jeans and a white t-shirt. He saw that it actually sat a little lose on his body and he smiles at that and walks to the kitchen.

"Hi Troy!" Leslie greats him.

"Hi Leslie and Daniel!" He smiles and nods to Chad, knowing they don't need words with each other.

"How are you Troy… You haven't been around our house for a couple a weeks…" Daniel says warmly.

"I was there Daniel you was just asleep when I came!" He says and sits down next to Chad with a smile on his lips. Their parents stated talking about his mom had it in Japan, he listened at her words, it had been fantastic and she would love to go there again soon but as a family vacation of course!

Chad looked at Troy and the left the dinning room and went down to the basement to be alone. "Is it just me or is my mom and dad sucking up to their best friends like never before?" Troy asks annoyed when they arrive in the small room.

"Oh come on my parents are acting the same way!" Chad chuckles.

"No they don't they are them selves smiling and talking to their friends sense collage!" He says.

There was a silence over the room neither of the boys knew what to say… "I don't wanna go to the party tonight…." Troy says random.

"Me neither should we skip?" Chad asks and Troy nods. They make them self more comfortable in the couch and Troy turns it on and they start flipping around.

"Chad?" Troy asks.

"Hmmm?"

"Do you think I did the right thing breaking up with Gabriella?" He asks.

"Yeah… I mean you were being honest with both of you and even if she hates you now it will pass because she knows you did the right thing…" He says in a warm tone to his friend.. Troy smiles and leans back more in the couch.

"How come you always know what to say Chad? You always seem to have the right answers…" Troy says and looks up at his big haired friend.

"Spend tons of time with girls and you will to!" Chad smirks. Then they both laugh. Then they lean back in the couch unconsciously Troy rests his head on Chad's shoulder and Chad rest his head on top of Troy's head.

This was a position Troy could stay in forever…

The next morning both of them woke up with aching necks but they just laughed it of and went out for a run with Chad who noticed how hard Troy pushed him self in this and in a few weeks the worries will only be bigger then they already were!

The week's passes and Troy lose more weight after a month he is down to 145 pounds and he is still not satisfied. Now he was sitting in the cafeteria forcing down the lunch.

"Are you not eating more then that?" Zeke asks and looks at the small sandwich Troy was calling lunch.

"I am not very hungry… I had a big breakfast" Says lying to everyone, he hadn't even eaten breakfast for the last month and a half! Yet everyone believed his lie and he wasn't complaining sense they knew about Troy's temper these days.

"Okay if you say so…" Zeke mutters not fully convinced by his friend but took his word.

"Don't worry Zeke, okay? I am fine!" Troy assures his friend and the others that was staring at him, he takes small bites of the sandwich and wash it down with the orange juice Annie sent with him. He felt his friends worried looks and it was the almost black orbs he was worried about the most… If he looked into them he would surrender at once.

"So what are you doing tonight?" Sharpay asks and leans on Zeke's shoulder.

"Baby sitting…" Taylor mumbled.

"Date with Henry…" Gabriella says.

"Running from my sister and boyfriend…" Ryan says in a innocent tone.

"Me and Jase are going to a musical!" Kelsi says excited.

"Me and Troy are having family dinner…" Chad says and smiles and gives Troy a quick glance.

"Yeah my mom seriously believes that the friendship bond needs to be discovered again!" Troy says mimicking his mothers words from this morning. His friends was laughing at his words. Troy puts his half eaten sandwich in the brown paper-bag.

The bell rang and they left the cafeteria to leave for separate lessons. Troy tried to focus on the talking man, but several times he has to look away and regain the focus before it turns all into a huge blur. He rubbed his eyes adjusting his eyes to the distance.

"Something wrong Troy?" The teacher asks.

"No, just migraine…" He lies and put on a fake smile.

"You wanna go and rest?" The teacher asks in a gentle tone.

"No I am fine.." Troy says assuring. The teacher goes back to talk what ever he was talking about. It was a relief when the bell finally rang and he could escape the classes. He ditched the two last periods and took a drive around the city, to their old house to be exact.

He could still remember when his dad and put him in his lap and showed him different stars at night, how his mother always came out with cookies to Troy and Chad who was playing in the front yard. All those memories he had in this house, he drove away as he saw a little boy coming running out from the front door.

He knew that his mom wouldn't be home and Anne wouldn't bother to give him a lecture about staying in school. He drove home and walked straight in still feeling dizzy.

"Troy?" His mother was home…

"Yeah its me…" He mumbles. "I thought you were at work.." He ads still not happy to see his mom.

"No I took the day of, and may I ask you why you are home already?" Her voice was surprised and firm.

"I ditched!" He says and starts walking to his room.

"You ditched?! Troy!" She put a hand on his bony shoulder and is surprised by the thinness of it. "Have you lost weight Troy?" She asks worried about her son, Troy is not turning around.

"Don't touch me!" He says in a low and dark voice and shakes the hand of his shoulder and walks to his room but his mother was fallowing him.

"Troy don't you dare to walk out when I am talking to you!" She says.

"Looks like I just did mom! And you never cared before about my body so why start now!" He says still in a low and dark tone.

"I am you mother and I care about your well being!" She says. "I always have." She answers in a sad tone, not wanting to believe what his son was saying to her.

"Mom when you say well being do you mean how you can buy my love with material things? Because seriously I am thinking about moving in with Chad! At least Leslie and Daniel care!" He says then he shuts the door and slides down, feeling the tears inside his eyes. He hated to hurt the people he loved… He let out a shaky sob and tried to regain control over his body. He stood up and pulled of his clothes so he was standing in his black boxers with Homer Simpson on them.

If you looked from a normal persons view you would see how under weight he was, it started at his ankles, the bone stuck out then the knee caps looked to big for his thin legs, the higher you got you saw his hipbones stand out half an inch from his body and you could almost count the ribs on the side his spine was standing out where you could also almost count each bone and his shoulders was like a girls shoulder.

Yet to Troy… It wasn't thin enough… He wanted to be thinner. He knew he could be thinner because he still had plenty of flesh on his body, still plenty to take of… And wasn't that what his father always said? Keep working until you reach your goal!

But when would he reach his goal?

When he heard his father down stairs he quickly got dressed, in case his father wanted to see him. Even though his jeans nearly fell of his bony legs he managed to keep them up when ever anyone was around.

"TROY!" His father walked straight into his sons room,

"Its called knocking dad!" Troy mutters when he sees the furious face of his father.

"Your mother told me you ditched school!" He continues ignoring his sons comment.

"Yeah dad I ditched! So what?!" Troy mutters and looks out his window.

"Why!?" Jack demands to know. Troy just stood there quiet and looked out the window, standing completely still, knowing that not answering his father will make him even more frustrated then shouting back. "I asked you a question Troy and I want an answer!" His father says.

Still no answer. He turned around and walked past his dad though the corridor and out the front door and stated to walk home to the Danforth family. He walked right in knowing that Leslie would be there to listen to him.

"Hi Troy.. Aren't you supposed to be in school?" She asks warmly.

"Yeah but I ditched…" He simply answers. "Can you answer me honestly Les on one thing?" He ask looking into to her dark eyes.

"Of course Troy…" She put down the knife she was cutting with and looks at her second son that she would do almost anything for.

"Has mom and dad changed mush sense mom became famous or is it just me over reacting?" He asks sadly looking at the elder woman in front of him.

"Yes they have changed pretty mush but they are still the same persons if you understand what I mean…" She says softly and smiles. Troy nods.

"I liked them better when we were a normal family… And mom wasn't some big time company owner…." He sighs. "But when I graduate I am out of here!" He says and Leslie just looks at him with a weak smile.

"That is your choice… But wanna help me prepare the dinner for tonight?" She asks with a warm smile and Troy nods. They talk and laugh while preparing, this was something he always loved about being with Leslie she could make him forget about problems just like his son could, even though at the moment her son was a problem!

"So how is school otherwise?" She asks.

"Oh you know… Everybody wants to be my friend… I have good grades… Team is going good!" He says and smiles. With out thinking he put a piece of paprika in his mouth and chewed on it for a long time tasting it, if you could have an orgasm of eating food Troy was having one right now!

"Hungry?" She asks when she sees him chewing on the small paprika piece.

"Yeah a little…" He says weakly. She makes him a sandwich and he eats it slowly, feeling nervous when she was looking at him when he ate, was he eating to mush? He asks him self. He smiles when Chad walks in the house.

"You disappeared!" He says.

"Yeah I ditched and I came here…" He smiles.

"Oh well you live here every now and then so…" Chad smiles and Troy fallows him up to his room and lays down on Chad's bed realising how exhausted his body is.

"So how was the last hours of school?" He asks looking at Chad's shirtless body, he was beautiful. He thought. Chad put on a white dress up shirt to his dark washed jeans he rolled up the arms to the elbows.

"It was boring as usual…" He smiles. "Are you gonna change? You can barrow clothes from me…" He says and starts pulling out a pair of light jeans and a black button up shirt he tosses it to him and Troy catch it and decide to go to the bathroom. He change quickly and then walks out to Chad again, he realise that tonight a weak sentence of Chad will linger on his body.

"Thanks for the lone…" He smiles and he as well rolls up the arms.

"Anytime… So why did you ditch school today?" He asks slowly.

"I didn't feel like staying in the school that's all.." He says. "I will be there next week I swear…" He smiles and looks shyly at Chad. They walk down stairs when they hear that Troy's parents has arrived. He feels his mothers worried looks on when she sees his thin underarms.

His mom was dressed up as usual in one of her many business suits and high heals, his father was wearing jeans and shirt like the teenager and so was Daniel and Leslie was wearing a simple skirt and t-shirt.

"It was a long time we did this…" Lucille says and smiles and soon the adults talk on about old times. Troy and Chad just sits down at the dining table and waits for Leslie serving the dinner, Troy drank on his water slowly suddenly remember that he never through up the sandwich and he knew he couldn't do it now!

"Have fallen out boy?" Daniel ask Troy.

"No Daniel I haven't!" Troy smiles.

"You look thinner to me…" Daniel says.

"Well then maybe you should get new glasses because I gained the weight the doctor told me I needed to gain!" He smiles and he feels his parent's looks on him worriedly thinking the exact same things as Daniel. Troy took a deep breath feeling that the dizziness hasn't left him alone.

Then it went black for him and he grips the table cloth trying to keep him self up on the chair when he falls down on the floor the last he was hearing "OMG Troy!"

He woke up in the hospital. Dr William Hepburn was standing in the room looking at Troy.

"Do you know why you are in here Troy?" He ask looking at the pale boy. Troy doesn't answer him. "Lack of vital nutrient, and those numbers was perfect just two and ha half month ago! What happened?" He asks sounding deeply worried about his patient.

"Nothing has changed…" Troy answers simply.

"Then why have you lost nearly 30 pounds? Troy you are a good kid don't do anything stupid." William warns.

"Who is the judge of what's stupid or not?" Troy asks.

"I can be the judge of that… Not eating is a stupid thing! Especially when you had a good weight and eating habits and training schedule!" William says.

"Who says I am not eating?" Troy asks looking at William who just shakes his head and walks out the door and soon his parents and the Danforth are in the room looking worried on Troy.

"Troy what happened?" His mother asks worried and touch his thin arm.

"Don't touch me!" He snaps and pull his arm away from his mother. "Nothing is wrong with me! Okay!? So stop looking at me like I am a freak!" He continues getting angry.

"Don't snap at your mother!" Jack says.

"Then stop trying to get involved in my life we all know that you two couldn't care less!" He says.

"You know we care about you Troy! You are our son!" His mother says and looks into his eyes.

"Am I? I have started to doubt these last years!" He says and he sees his mother eyes getting tear-filled of her son words, he doubts their love for him.

"Troy---" She begins.

"Just get out I wanna be alone!" He says and looks away not wanting them to see his own tears to fall, everyone leaves besides Chad. "Why are you still here?" He asks still looking away.

"Because I care about you and I don't want you to do anything stupid while you are in here so stay and keep you company…" Chad simply answers and looks at his broken friend.

"Why do you care? I mean I try everything to push everyone away and yet you are like a rock impossible to move!" Troy says looking at his friend with his eyes filled of tears.

"Because I promised you long time ago I would never let you go… And I am not backing out on that now…" Chad says softly and takes a chair and sits down next to him and takes his bony hand in his.

"Chad please let go…" Troy whispers.

"Never Troy…" Chad says again and caresses the back of his hand with his thumb. They look at each other for a long time in complete silence and at some point Troy stops worrying about Chad holding his hand… He just let it be feeling the softness of Chad skin on his.

"I ruined the night didn't I?" He asks chuckling.

"Yeah and my mom favourite dinner plates… But you are more important to her then some plates…" He smiles to Troy.

"I had a fight with my mom today and I told her that Leslie and Daniel cared more about me the they did…" He says slowly.

"Troy come on you know it's not true…" Chad says.

"Do I? Chad… Last time we had a family dinner out was one of her many business dinners were every girl tries to flirt with me… its just frustrating you now…" He says and sighs.

"Yeah I get it sense girl have a bad habit of flirting with me to.." He says weakly and they both laugh quietly.

"What would I do with out you Chad?" Troy asks serious.

"Probably making more stupid mistakes in your life then you already are doing… and what is it with this not eating thing its just stupid Troy you had a hot body…" Chad says and blush softly as he realise what he said.

"I have?" Troy asks and looks at Chad who nods carefully. Then there was silence over the room and soon Troy fell asleep again Chad watching over him the whole night.

The next day he could go home and when the Bolton family and Chad is on their way out of the hospital there is a million paparazzi outside trying to get a photo of the biggest companies owners son when he walks out the hospital and Troy reaction his to hide in his fathers chest witch he does and Jack put and protective arm around his son.

"What's wrong with your son Lucille?"

"Why did he spend the night?"

"Does he has cancer?!"

Different questions was shouted out as they made it to the family car.

"You promised that I would never be involved in this!" Troy says to his mom. Hurt by her betrayal.

"Troy I am really sorry I didn't know…" She says sadly. Not daring to see her sons hurt eyes, that she knew so well.

"You don't care…" Troy says with anger building up inside of his body.

"Stop saying that I don't care Troy!!!" Lucille snaps.

"Do you?! What is most important me or work?!" He shouts and she was silence and that was all Troy needed. "I love you to mom…" He says and looks out the window. A silence that Lucille dearly regretted.


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