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For he past days Troy have locked him self in his room, only to come out when necessary, witch meant going to school and work out. They could stand outside his door begging him to eat, but it was no longer a secret that Troy Bolton didn't eat in the house so why put up with the charade?
He walked down the corridor of the familiar school, only wearing his back pack, because today he forgot his lunch. He sits down by the table and his friends.
"No lunch?" Chad asks worriedly. He was terrified that the same incident that happed last Friday would happen again.
"Nope!" Troy answers simply and starts talking to everybody around him ignoring his best friend worried look. He talks to Gabriella about her latest date with Henry, and they seem to be going strong. "Henry is kinda cute…" Troy smiles and gets a slap on his small bicep from Gabriella.
"Back of Troy! He is mine!" She giggles.
"Yeah I know and by the way I have my eyes on someone else…" He says confident! And Gabriella's eyes are filled with surprise. Her body language tried to force him to tell who the new love interest was. "Not telling you yet…" He smiles and folds his arms and put them on the table and rests his head on them.
"Someone I know?!" Gabriella asks impatiently.
"I am not telling you Gabriella… When the time is right I'll tell you okay?" He promises his friend. The bell rings signalling that lunch is over.
It was hard to ignore everyone's looks during the days, it wasn't hard to see that Troy had lost a huge amount of weight and sense his picture was in the paper everyone had their own ideas of why he had been in the hospital during the weekend. Reasons that was completely untrue and unrealistic and reasons he didn't care about!
The constant sharp pain in his stomach was getting unbearable right now, it was like someone had made a huge knot out of his stomach and now they tried to get it up by using razor sharps knifes. It hurt and sometimes it was the only thing Troy could think about and when you only think about your hurting stomach your grades falls and that was exactly what his was doing right now and he was happy that it was the last weeks in school. But at the same time not! Because everybody was wearing short and t-shirts and he was wearing long-sleeved shirts and pants no matter what and that just added more curious looks on him.
"Troy?" The voice sounded uncertain almost scared of what he might do if he says the wrong thing to the young teenage boy.
"What Chad?!" He asks sharply and turns around looking at his best friend.
"What are you doing to your self?! Its just stupid!" He says and steps closer to the thin boy. He wasn't the same Troy Bolton he knew and loved.
"I am not doing anything its just you and everybody else that think I am!" He snaps at his best friend.
"So fainting is something you do everyday then?! Because as I recall everybody was scared to death for your sake Troy!" Chad says and stares right into the piercing blue eyes he could easily get lost in if he looked to deep, but something was different about them now, like someone had rolled down a blind so no one could see into his hurting soul not even Chad.
"It was a mistake I did… A mistake that will not repeat it self!" He says. There was a silence between the two young men.
"Troy…?" Chad asks breaking the tension between them
"What?" Troy look into his best friends eyes waiting for his question that he was pretty sure he already knew.
"When was the last time you ate something?" Chad asks searching for his best friends eye. Troy looked anywhere but in Chad's eyes. He swallowed some saliva that he had in his mouth then he answered.
"This morning?" He question knowing he hadn't eaten in weeks, except from the times he had to. Like at dinner but it didn't stay down for long.
"No you didn't!" Chad almost shouts back knowing his friend was lying straight to his face
"Chad I already have my dad here so back off!" Troy growls and leave his best friend standing there. Hanging, wanting more answers from Troy. But he can't get side tracked now! Just because his emotions were messing around with him it didn't mean that they actually accepted him because he was fat!
He looks down on the white rubber on the converse he was wearing, his clothes hung loosely on his thin body, that is why people is staring on him.
They were worried about their strong leader, a leader how given them championships in basketball for the first time in years!
Was he getting weak?
He shook everything of and continued to gym class. He waited to last to change and then he walked out to the class and his father pulled him at side.
"Troy I don't want you to work out…" His father state simply.
"And I don't wanna have school but we can't have what we want…" Troy says and smiles innocent.
"Troy this is not the time for jokes! What happened last Friday is something that can't repeat it self and I don't wanna se you get seriously hurt, you was lucky this time, but what if its happen again and you fall into the pool and drown?" His father was worried about him he knew that, he just didn't care.
"Then I fall into the pool and drown!" Troy says like it was no big deal.
Troy walks away from his father and goes to sit on the bleachers waiting for the class to start, his fathers eye was on him constantly.
Troy continues to ignore everyone for the rest of the day like he always does it wasn't until he was on his way home Chad confronted him again.
"What the fuck are you doing!?" He says to his best friend.
"I am putting the books in my bag so I can do my homework?" Troy question Chad making fun of his friend.
"I know what you are doing right now! But what is up with this none-eating, working out until you collapse thingy?!" He says his usually almost black eyes was now completely black and Troy's usually crystal blue eyes was grey lifeless hoping that he would get though each day.
"I eat… I work out because I want to…" Troy answers as lifeless as he felt. He shut his locker and looked at his friend. "Nothing to worry about I am fine so stop acting like there is a huge problem with me okay?!" Troy says and starts walking away.
"I won't stop worrying until you gain the weight you have lost!" Chad shouts after him. Troy laugh to him self and walks out of the school the sun shining more then usual. It made him happier, because sun meant warmer times and summer! The wonderful summer!! Troy had always been a summer guy. He listens to the singing birds, his cell started to vibrate and he took it up and saw his mom face. He sighs and answer.
"Hello…" He says.
"Hi sweetie… I was wondering if you wanted to come with us to the business dinner they have on Friday night?" She says. He knew he had to say yes because obviously other families would have their children with them and she needed to show everybody who her son was.
"Yeah sure… What ever!" He mumbles.
"Great! maybe you want to bring Chad or someone?" She asks.
"Mom I think they have better things to do then sitting on one of your business dinners on a Friday night!" He growls to his mother.
"If you say so.. See you when you get home!" He hung up and opened his car and got in and turned the music up loud and it was Everybody's fool by Evanescence.
Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
The words seem to fit on him except the fact. 'Perfect by nature' if he was perfect by nature he wouldn't be losing weight at the moment right? The burning hunger made its self known, and it had been doing so for weeks. It was easier to ignore it now then it had been in the beginning. He turned left and continued to listen to the song.
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled
He was fooling everyone he knew that, but he wished that someone would notice and help him. He knew that he was out on thin ice… But he didn't have the strength to ask for help by him self… People would have to force on help on him sense he refused to take help even is he needed it!
Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
That what was people did when he walked the corridors of east high. Like he was a king that everybody wanted to be! But it was an act… He was good at acting! Other wise he wouldn't play in the musicals that they had… Acting was something he learned him self in a early stage. Never show emotions that can be connected to weakness!
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
He was at his driveway. He grabbed his bag and walked out of the car and into the big house. He walked past one of those big mirrors and a fat boy was staring back at him. He sighs knowing it will take longer then planned! Mush longer then planned!
"Hi mom…" He mumbles when he walks past the couch were his mother was sitting doing crosswords.
"Hi sweetie do you want anything to eat?" She asks.
"No!" He says sharply and walks to his room. He throw him self on the large bed and looks at the ceiling. "How the hell did this happen?" He question him self. He put one of the white and fluffy pillows over his head and screams of his frustrations.
Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie
It was dark. The moonlight was shining in to his room. He had been laying there for hours and hours letting his mind work by it self, he didn't really know how he could make things right again… He wanted someone to help him… He really did but he couldn't. Because that made him weak and Troy Jack Anthony Bolton was not used to put him self in a weak place.
I know the truth now
I know who you are
and I don't love you anymore
He stood in front of the mirror. It looked liked if you would touch him to hard he would break. Yet that made Troy wanna continue this idea of losing weight if he worked hard enough he would lose it. Then he could love him self again. He knew that. Just coming down to the right weight and he could love him self like everybody else loved him!
It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled
It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool
He just had to keep everyone out of his way while he did this so no one would interfere with his ideas.
His thoughts was interrupted when he heard the door bell he looked out his door and saw his father and Chad standing there.
"Coach?" Chad says not knowing what he would say to him.
"What's up Chad?" Jack's voice was warm and gentle like it always was when he talked to someone he cared about. And Chad was like second son to him and he would do anything for him and his family.
"I am worried about Troy…" He says looking into his eyes his voice trembling a little by the nervousness this caused
"And why is that?" Thinking that Troy was on his way back to eating again.
"I haven't seen him eating anything for the last days and months and I am really worried. Since he is my best friend and I care about him I thought I should tell you!" He informs his second father and he nods slowly.
"I talk to him Chad, thanks for telling me…" Jack says and then Chad leaves. Jack closes the door behind him and starts walking to his son's room. Troy quickly snuck inside again pretending that he hadn't heard the conversation moments earlier.
Jack knocked on his son's room. "Troy?" He asks through the thick wooden door. "Can I come in?" He asks.
"Yeah dad…" Troy says and Jack steps into the room looking his son that sat by his desk doing his homework. "What is it?" He asks.
"What are you doing to your self Troy?" His father asks and sits down on the made bed.
"I am not doing anything to my self dad… I am fine…" Troy says looking at his math books. He waited for the second his father would asks him to look at him when he talked.
"Look at me Troy… You are not eating and you push your self to hard when it comes to working out! I am really worried.." Jack confess to his son.
"Its nothing to worry about dad! I swear! I am fine!" Troy says and then there was the silence only the breathing of the male Bolton's was heard. "I need to finish my home work…" Troy mumbles and starts working on the math that was due to tomorrow!
Jack sighs and leaves his son to his school work never hearing the silent sobs of his hurting and breaking son.
He walked to the office and sat down in his big black leather chair and on the left side bottom drawer, he pulled out photos when Troy was younger. He smiles weakly when he sees them. It was a picture in front of their old house Troy was eight and he had a huge gap between his front teeth but yet he smiled so brightly the hair falling down bellow his eyes. His body small yet seem so strong for his young age. In the background you could see his wife smiling happily at her son.
A tear fell down his cheek. Times when they had been a real family, before Troy went cold against them. It had stared when he was twelve when he started to shut them out. He put the pictures down and rested his head in his hands and let the tears fall.
What if he never was gonna get his baby boy back?
Troy took out a picture when Troy had been eleven and he and his father was holding each other after playing a game of basketball and they had won against Chad and Daniel. Troy's teeth was covered in metal, a first step against his perfect teeth. He was already having formed biceps nothing huge but they were forming. And he held his father around the waist and his father held him around the shoulders also smiling brightly.
He missed those times. He wipes his tears away but they are soon replaced with new ones. He cried just because he feel like crying right now… He just had to let it all out!
He changed into his pyjamas pants and slips under the covers and falls into a dreamless sleep….
