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Phobia…
People had it against everything… Spiders, snakes, small rooms, rapist, darkness and everything in between… And the easiest way to get away from your phobia was avoiding it at all costs. If you saw a spider you ran away if you are afraid of small rooms to stay out of small rooms.
But how do you do when your biggest phobia is food?
You stare at it for as long as possible and hope that it will just disappear into the unknown. He had stared at the bowl of mac and cheese for more then half an hour maybe more. It was harder then it sounded to start eating. The war that was going on in his body was far from over.
He had taken one bite of the small portion of food then he just couldn't handle it. He knew how mush butter and cheese it was in it and both butter and cheese was plenty of fat, and they probably stuffed more in his so he would gain weight. He pushed the bowl away and got up slowly he walks into his room and sees Chad standing there.
How the hell did he get in here?!
"Chad…" He smiles and walks over to his friend with painful steps. "When did you get here? I should've seen you if you walked through the dining room." He says shocked and hugs his friends warm body. He felt Chad's arm snake around his thin waist. "Please don't…" He says and takes a step back looking down on his feet.
His confidence was certainly not back.
"Sorry… Forgot how you felt about your self…" Chad mumbles.
"Its okay… Its just… I am trying I really am but its gonna take a long time Chad…" He says with a hoarse voice. Chad takes Troy's bony fingers in his and they stand there Chad looking at Troy and Troy looking at spot on the floor. Carefully he tilts his head upwards and look into his friend warm and patient eyes. He felt his heart beat faster inside of his chest his breathing got stuck in the back of his throat his stomach turned in anticipation.
Both teenage by leans in and their lips meet in the middle kissing softly, Troy savoured the sweet taste of chocolate and peanut and a small hint of coffee. The kiss ended to soon for Troy's liking, Chad rest his forehead against Troy's
"I love you Troy.. And I mean more then as a friend." He whispers, in case anyone else could hear him talk.
The words hit Troy like a ton of bricks, couldn't he have confessed this a bit earlier? "Not now Chad, I can't… I have to focus on getting out of here…" He says trying not to hurt Chad in any form sense he was easily bruised when it came to emotions.
"Yeah I know I just wanted to say that…" Chad says trying to hide his hurt emotions.
"It's not that I don't feel the same way because I do but I can't be involved with anyone now… I am really trying to get better and out of here…" Troy says and looks at him with pleading eyes wishing he would understand the choice he did now.
"I will help you get better…" Chad says softly and looks at Troy with those warm eyes he carried, Troy felt a lonely tear make its way down his face.
Chad was truly his best friend… Even when he tried as hard as he could to shut him out of his life he still stayed, unable to move like mountain!
"After everything I've done to you… How can you wanna help me?" Troy's trembling voice asks. Chad thumbs were doing soft motions over the back of Troy's hand.
"You do everything for your best friend…" Chad states simply and place a soft kiss on Troy's cheek. The two boys stood in silence for a long time just looking at each other. They stood in their own world no one could break the walls they had around them. Troy wanted to taste his friend's lips again but he couldn't bring him self to lean in… Because he didn't wanna use Chad… And he wasn't gonna do it.
"Will you wait for me when I get out?" Troy whispers softly, fear was flashing in his eyes as he waited for the dreaded answer his friend would soon spill to him. The answer that could give him a good reason to get out of here or get out of this hospital in a black body bag… Like Emma.
"You promise you will get out of here?" He asks back and the answer meant everything to Troy. He crashed his lips over Chad's again tasting the sweet taste of chocolate and peanut and that small hint of coffee.
"If I get the chance to be with you when I get out?" Chad nods. "Then yes I will get out of here…" He promise and Chad smiles widely at his best friend - now his future boyfriend's words. Their lips was soon moving against each others again.
"Troy why hav---" The voice was shocked by the sight in front of him. Two teenage boys were kissing. It is not something you see everyday in a children hospital. Who ever the person was who stood there walked out of the room because he or she didn't wanna disturb this moment, who knows how cranky Troy can be then?
The boys break apart and they both smile happily at each other of course Chad had to bring them down. "I haft to go home… Make some last homework before summer…" He says sadly. Troy nods knowing he couldn't keep him here the whole time he would get better.
"I understand Chad… I do… Just wish I wouldn't have gotten my self into this mess… Its easier to get in then it is to get out of it..." He explains to him and Chad nods showing he had understood what he said. Chad pressed his soft lips against Troy's forehead before they exchange their good byes and Chad leaves.
Troy sat down on the bed feeling exhausted after everything that had just happened. Now he was more focused then ever to get the hell out of here, the war inside his body just needed to realise that and he really needed a new therapist, but who should he tell that he needed a new therapist? With out any laughing at his reason to change. He sighs deeply and lays down on the bed, he needed to rest he was exhausted… He couldn't do mush these days with out being exhausted after a few minutes of activity.
He took his stuffed basketball and hugs it close to him. He inhales its smell and his nose is filled with Gabriella's perfume to his dismay mixed with his cologne he sighs and let his exhausted body fall into a peaceful slumber.
Some time during this slumber his body decides to rebel against him and his stupid choices. He woke up feeling dizzy and every ounce of life power left him, he had no idea what was happing. People screaming, children screaming in panic and fear some one was bent over him. He felt pain and dead then everything was black. He hadn't any memory.
He woke up by bright lights hitting him in the eyes. "Ow" He groans when he tries to move his body. He open his eyes and sees his parents sitting there looking worriedly at him. His voice must have been low sense his parents didn't react to it. He tried sitting up and he got his parents attention.
"Baby are you alright?" His mother asks worriedly and takes his hand in hers.
"What happened?" He asks groggily, not sure of what happened.
"Your body gave up Troy… You were about to die…" His father says disappointed and hurt nobody wanted to see their only child in this state.
"You think I wanted it to happen?!" He asks with a weak and hoarse voice. "I am trying to get better I really am… But.." He coughed and his mother gave him some water so he could wet his dry throat. Then he continued "It is al lot harder then just start to eat… " He explains to his parents. "But I would really appreciate if you at least tried to help me instead of avoiding me…" A tear fell down his face by the words he had just spoken. "Please help me…" He begs his parents.
His dad on his right side and his mother on his left side, they have one of his hands in theirs. "We will help you Troy… We will do what ever it takes to make you feel better…" His father promise him. "Wont we Lucille...?" He asks sternly to his separated wife.
"Of course we will sweet heart…" His mother promise him. Her cell phone started ringing. She picked it up and looked at who was calling.
"Answer that mom and I will be fine with out you!" Troy says with his hoarse voice. She push the call away and turn it of and puts it down in her handbag and looks at Troy with a smile. "Thanks…" Troy whispers
"You are my son… You are always gonna be what's most important to me and your father…" She smiles and lift his hand up and press a sweet kiss onto his knuckles. A slight smile appears on his lips by his mother's action. "I am sorry for the way I've acted… I should never put work before family…" She whispers.
"Its okay mom… As long as you don't go back I am happy about it…" He says he leans back on the pillows, he noticed a tube going out of his body? How could he not have noticed this?! "What the fuck is this?!" He asks in panic. If it is what he thinks it is… He is screwed.
"Its like an Iv only better… Gives you all the nutrition you need… They put it in last night because of what happened…" His mother explain to him, but he stooped listened after Gives you all the nutrition you need.. Everything he had worked for was gonna be to waste. No he had to think about this. He wanted to get out of the hospital so he could be with Chad but he didn't wanna gain they weight he was required to gain…
Why was this so dam hard?!
"What's wrong Troy? It looks like you are thinking on something…?" His father interrupts his thoughts.
"I was just thinking how great its gonna be when I get home…" He lies to his parents. They nod at his words and behind his smile his mind was working overtime.
Chad was worried…
Wouldn't Troy have texted him or anything by know? It was almost lunch and he hadn't heard a word from him sense yesterday and he was getting worried about him. More then usual because he had promised he would get out of there and still he doesn't make a sign that he is alive the next day?
That worries him.
"Chad are you coming down to the gym and practice some free-throws?!" It was Zeke who was asking and Chad nods slightly. He dumps his books in the locker and starts walking towards the gym he had spent many hours in with Troy… Hours of revelling truths to each other…
Flashback!
The sweat was dripping of their still thin bodies. But they loved it. They had just finished their first practice with the Varsity team and just stayed behind to fool around a bit before heading home.
"Troy I need to tell you something…" Chad suddenly says. Troy takes the ball and looks at his friend while breathing hard.
"What's up Chad?" He asks and continues to study his friend with his blue eyes. He tries to regain his normal breathing while he waits for his friend to confession to him whatever there is he needs to tell him.
"Don't freak out or anything but.. I think I am gay!" Chad says his voice trembling slightly.
"So? Still Chad… And why would I care I am bi…" Troy says still trying to figure out why he should freak out about his best friend being gay.
"Yeah… That's probably why I told you first…" Chad smiles weakly. "I am just scared how my parents and everyone else will react when I tell them…" Chad says in a low tone, he looked into Troy's blue eyes.
"It will be okay Chad… You will always have me… And your parents are gonna accept you for who you are…" His friend says comforting and Chad tries his best to smile at his friends words. He just wished he could believe them like he did.
End of flashback
"Yo Chad! Come back to reality!" Zeke's booming voice echoed outside his head he spun around and saw Zeke standing there with the basketball in his hands. He nods slowly and the boys starts to play a one on one game… Chad having a hard time focusing sense his mind was occupied by a blue eye boy that was in the hospital at the moment. "What the hell is wrong with you?!" Zeke asks harshly.
"I just got a lot on my mind right now Zeke!" Chad mutters and drops the ball to the ground and he fallow sitting on the gym floor groaning to him self.
"Something you wanna share with me?" Zeke asks and sits down next to his friend.
"What I am gonna say to you can never leave your mouth not even to the on you trust the most okay?!" Zeke nods showing he is promising to keep his mouth shut. Chad inhales a deep breath. "Okay… Troy is in the hospital for anorexia right now and yesterday I don't know we kinda promised that when he get out we will be together but usually he always text me around 8 and complain about the staff shoving food down his throat… But he hasn't texted me once today… And I am worried…" He says. Zeke looks at his friend.
"Maybe his phone have died or something?" Zeke suggests as the answer to no sign of Troy being alive question.
"We are talking about Troy, Zeke! He is obsessed with his phone! He freaks out if he has no connection!" Chad says with a groan. "I am probably overreacting about this aren't I?" Chad asks and looks at Zeke for some comforting words.
"I don't know… I don't think so… I mean I would probably react the same if Sharpay or some else I really care about is in the hospital…" Zeke says softly trying to comfort his friend.
Chad smiles thanks fully to him and Zeke nods. "I am here if you wanna vent some time…" Zeke assure him and Chad thank god or what ever there was that controlled this world to his amazing friends.
After school Chad walks home and when he comes inside the door he sees Jack and Lucille sitting there. "Something wrong?" He asks and look between them both.
"We just wanted to tell you that Troy is gonna be home this week, if you wanna say hi to him or anything like that…" Jack explains to Chad.
"Why is he home? I thought the hospital was better for him?" He asks very confused.
"They say that he need to be home for a few days sense the hospital is driving him insane… And they think he has a better chance at recovery if he gets the chance to be home…" Jack explains and a smile was twisting on Chad puffy lips.
YES! Troy was gonna be home! He could visit him easier!!
"When is he coming home?" He asks trying his best to hide the excitement his body held at this very second.
"In two days we will take him home… They are still having him on the hospital for observation after what happened yesterday…" Lucille says and shudders slightly.
"What happened yesterday?" He asks scared. Something had happened to Troy and he wasn't informed?!
"His body Gave up Chad… He was close to dying and it's a miracle he is alive!" Jack explains.
Chad was speechless.
Troy, his best friend had nearly died yesterday and nobody told him. Nobody seemed to bother by the facts if Troy died Chad's whole world would be shattered into a million pieces and no one could make him whole again. "Why didn't you tell me?" He whispers horrified.
Both Jack and Lucille was quiet. That was a part they had both forgotten.
To inform the Danforth's.
"We are sorry Chad but our only thought was to make sure Troy was okay… We are really sorry but you haft to understand… Our only son was close to death!" Jack says.
"Its okay… As long as he is fine I am glad…" Chad says and flash them a smile.
He was starring at the clock.
In less then one hour he would be in his own home. Sure only for a week but still! He would be home! Sleep in his own bed! Shower alone! Go to the bathroom with out anyone standing outside listing to what he was doing! Home was freedom at this very moment.
"Troy time will not go faster by you staring at the clock I am sorry to say that…" Nick jokes softly to the fragile teenager.
"I know! I just wanna get out of here!" He says and smiles weakly. Nick put a warm hand on his bony back and pattered him like an old friend would do. Now he wanted home even more then he wanted before. Get home and just breath in everything that smelled like home instead of the smell of disinfected liquid.
And to his big joy! He would have to have the IV thing for a week, but instead eat some pills to make sure he didn't lose the weight he had gained with that thing.
Only forty minutes left, and they would be here in ten! Then he would be on his way home!
Ten minutes is incredibly slow when you want something to happen and these ten minutes? Must have been the slowest ones in Troy's life.
Finally the clock hit 03.15. They were gonna get him home now! The voices sounded in the end of the hall way and his heart was racing in excitement and joy. He never thought he could be this happy just by going home!
An hour later Troy found him self laying on his bed. The bed he truly missed. Chad knocked o the door and snuck inside soundlessly. "I've missed you…" He whispers to the fragile boy on the bed…
"I've missed you to Chad believe me I have…" Chad sat down and Troy got up they looked at each other for second before leaning and meeting in a soft kiss. Lucille passed the open door and her heart melted at the sight in front of her. And she also knew if Troy really wanted to be with Chad he would do anything in his power to stay in this world…
