Just a warning, you might feel meagerly pissed off at Bella in this chapter.

Chapter 14

Bella's POV

I briefly saw Edward as me and Jacob drove away from our house and went to arrive at the airport.

I had packed a couple of clothes all of them being black.

"Are you going to be ok with this" he asked holding my hand and looking at me seriously. We had just arrived at the airport. And were now just waiting for our plane

"Yes, I will be" I replied nodding. I felt so different I knew I couldn't prolong the confession any longer to Jacob, I had to tell him soon, but not now, I had to concentrate and burying my dad.


Edward's POV

"How can you kill my dog?" o nice Edward, I get the fact you wanted to distract your sister from getting the topic off Bella to something else so she wouldn't cause suspicion my be but bloody hell why didn't you ask something else. God life was so complicated.

I just hoped everything would be alright with Bella.


Bella's POV

The funeral was perfect. Charlie was buried in a mahogany coffin and was surrounded by his friends and family. I wept on Jacob's shoulder while he hugged me tight and allowed a few tears fall from his eyes. The coffin started to lower and that was when I felt my heart clench the most. This was the bit where it felt real. I pursed my lips trying to control my sobs but it wouldn't work. Jacob just kept on saying soothing words of comfort in my ears. We all placed roses on the coffin as it was lowered. Myself, I went last.

The ceremony was over and we all went to the after party. People saying how lovely of a man he was. I nodded and wept. I needed a distraction. I couldn't cope with having the thought of my father dead. I closed my eyes.

I went upstairs to have some privacy for myself, not wanting to be disturbed. I walked into my old room and put on my distraction. Marilyn Manson Coma White. I heard people start to leave and I was grateful for that, I didn't want to speak to anyone at the moment. I stripped off my dress and decided on what to wear. A knock came to the door.

"Bells it's me"

"Come in Jake"

He came in shyly, I smiled he reminded me so much of when we were in high school when he acted like that. The song started to begin and I felt different. I bit my lip. Jake stood there for a moment before speaking

"You alright"

I nodded walking up to him, I tip toed and kissed him he replied to the kiss but he gave me a gentle kiss, putting his hands on my waist.

There,s something cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile

"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today today to run away"

I started to slip down his blazer.

"What you doing Bells"

"I need you Jacob" those were the last words from both of us

(WARNING IF YOU DO NOT LIKE A JACOB/BELLA SMUT SKIP THIS BIT, SCROLL DOWN)

He unclipped my bra from the front and trailed his hands down my body. I got his tied and shirt off feeling the muscles of his body made me turned on more. He mved us backwards until my back hit the bed.

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

I unbuttoned his pants and stripped them off with my toes. Jacob started to kiss my neck and nip at it occasionally. He slid my panties down and roughly set us up right on the bed. I felt a gush of wind leave my system. He was straddling me and he looked at me with dark hooded eyes and stripped his boxers off. I looked down and saw him fully erect.

Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls

I bit my lip in anticipation I bucked towards him and he growled. I had never seen this side of him before.

"I need you now" I whimpered. He nodded and went into my bedside cabinet to get some condoms. Luckily there was some there. He ripped the packet and slid it on. He hovered over me now, his hand either side of my head. He parted my legs and settled himself between them. he kissed me once before entering me. I rolled my eyes ands gave out a satisfied moan.

"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

He moved back and then in again. My eyes were still rolled to the back of my head but I could feel his eyes on me. I moved my hands to the back of his back and clawed him. He moaned and growled. He started to pound into me forcefully, this was what I needed, I needed to feel something other than hurt.

A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself

He buried his head in the crook of my neck and bit my neck harshly. I screamed as my release came from that bite. I could feel he was close. I moved one of my hands from, his back and to his balls and started to massage them. he screamed my name and collapsed on top of me.

(JACOB AND BELLA SMUT OVER, YOU CAN LOOK NOW)

Jacob rolled to his side and brought me with him. The song had ended and turned to another one. Jacob didn't like Marilyn Manson so he got up and switched it to another CD.

Globus-La Coronacion. I smiled. So did he, he knew I liked this song.

He climbed back into the bed with me and cradled me to his side again.

"Are you alright?" he asked kissing my forehad. I closed my eyes.

"I will be, it just doesn't seem really Jake, I know its silly but you expect parents to live forever" I chukled ta my own joke

"It's not silly, I expected Billy to live forever Bells" he chukled also. A few tears escaped our eyes.

"We have each other Bella, that's all that matters"

I nodded. But cringedf mentally. I couldn't do this to Jacob. I couldn't go on deceiving him like this. I had two options. And I knew which one of them two I was about to do. I looked at Jacob to see he was asleep. The song had finished and I went to sleep.


Please remember to review this chapter

I know your all hating Bella, but don't jugde her too harshly you have to understand, Jacob is her husband and no matter what if she had an affair with Edward she needs Jacob as her friend and partner.

But which one of the Two options had she chosen?

See in nect chapter which will be up soon I promise

Twilighterheart xxxx