Chapter 15

Bella's POV

"Jake you ready?" I shouted upstairs

"Yep" he walked down stairs with our luggage and smiled

"Hang on, let me say goodbye to Tanya"

"Hurry darling?" he smiled

"I will" smiling back. Me and Jake connected more on this trip and I was glad we did. I felt like we were on our honeymoon again.

"Tanya, just came to say goodbye"

"Ok Bells, you seem better than you arrived" she mentioned hugging me

"I am thank you, and thanks for helping me with everything" I told her sincerely

"No problem"


BACK HOME

Jacob had helped me out of the car by my hand I smiled appreciatively at him

"You look tired" he cooed

"So do you" I stroked his face. He hugged me and kissed my shoulder I breathed in his scent, he smelt just the same as always but he was missing something.

"Bella" we turned to see Emmett coming to us with Edward I felt my breath hitch "Glad your finally back, you want me to help?" Emmett offered

"Sure thanks, just grap that suitcase yes"

"No prob, hey Bells"

"Hey Emmett" I chuckled when Jake and Emmett disappeared into the house I looked at Edward to see he was already looking at me

"You look beautiful" he smiled. I blushed against my better judgment

"Hey Bells, Emmett just said it would be great if we had a BBQ here, his family is coming back so how about it?"

"That sounds great" I knew Jake wanted to spend some time with the boys

"Great we better go get some stuff"

"I'll unpack" I kissed Jacob and I could practically see Edward wince. I walked inside and I heard the car pull away. I set the clothes in the wardrobe and put my shoes and socks away. I heard footsteps come up the stairs and I thought it was Jake

"Hey" Edward was standing at the door smiling softly at me

"Hey" I replied, with a tiny awkward smile

"I've missed you" he walked up to me and took my hands in his "What's wrong?" he asked

"We need to talk Edward" I sighed, I had to do it now, I couldn't hold this anymore I had to tell him the truth

"Ok" he nodded

"Edward, while I was away I've been thinking about our situation…and em…I don't think it's going to work"

he looked shocked "No, No, No, No" he shook his head "No Bella please don't break this off please don't" he plead he held my face in his hands

"It's not fair Edward, I can't cheat on him"

Edward's eyes started to fill with tears "Bella did I do something, I mean look I realize your married Bella but I wish you weren't because this isn't just a fling this isn't because your married Bella…it's…Bella it's because…Bella I…"

"We're back"

I gasped Jake was back if he saw me and Edward like this he would freak

"Edward you have to go now"

"No Bella I can't let you go like this no"

"Edward don't" I wept

"Bella I care for you"

"What we are Edward is lust nothing more" liar Bella my head thought you know full well your heart, soul and mind is focused on Edward as well. You know you love him Bella do you really want to spend your life with Jacob living a lie?

"No we're not" he stated firmly "Bella, was I too rough on you? Because I can be whatever man you want me to be"

"Edward it isn't that" I didn't get a chance to finish Edward had walked out and left me there. I sat on my bed and sighed.


LATER THAT NIGHT

I had set the food on the table and everyone started to eat

"I wonder what was wrong with Edward, he was fine this morning, excited even" Emmett said shrugging

"I hope he's ok, when I asked if I could come into his room earlier he said no and to go away, I think he was crying"

I flinched as I drank my drink.


I lay in bed awake, Jacob had gone to sleep as soon as his head hit the pillow. I felt something buzz on the night stand I got it and saw a text from Edward

TO BELLA

FROM EDWARD

Bella, between me and Jacob, who do you feel like your cheating on?

I thought for a moment. I felt like I was cheating on Jacob. But after we had sex back at home I felt like I was cheating on Edward.

TO EDWARD

FROM BELLA

It's late Edward go to sleep

I put my phone on the night stand and tried to sleep. My life was now with Jacob, so why did I have a sicky feeling in my stomach?

Edward's POV

You woman Edward begging like a girl be a man. I looked at the text she sent me

It's late Edward go to sleep. That means she's not sure I needed to show her I wasn't just this 'dom' person that I could be loving. The hardest thing was I hadn't been showing love to her. I was disrespecting her Bella deserved to be loved and I was going to prove to her how much I loved her. I am not going to give her up.

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