E L E V E N
I slid on my favorite soft, black button shirt over my jean skirt. Tonight was the official rehearsal before the talent show tomorrow and Miley insisted I wear something other than jeans. But she said nothing about shoes so I put on my black converse and quickly brushed my hair. The nerves were staring to pile up inside of me, ready to explode with a scream. What if I forgot the lyrics? Or what if I trip onstage? Or what if Shane doesn't show up at all?! I inhaled dizzily and rushed downstairs.
Maybe if I got tonight over with, the worse of tomorrow would pass faster.
"Aw Mitch, you look great!" Alex smiled as we strolled down the hallway. I grinned back sheepishly. Attention was always something I preferred Shane to have. He used to make sure I never felt embarrassed or insecure. I inwardly groaned and lifted the rubber band on my wrist and released it with a loud smacking sound. Whenever my thoughts traveled to old memories I agreed to slap myself with a rubber band.
"Nervous?" Miley nudged me. I bit my lip and nodded sharply. They laughed and opened the doubled doors. Isn't it awesome that Shane and I get to practice alone for 2 hours in the auditorium?
"Well suck it up, girl! Good luck." Alex giggled and shut the door. I sighed annoyed and sauntered to the stage where Shane was lying on his stomach, scribbling furiously into a red notebook. I quietly slipped behind him and peeked over his shoulder.
Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me
I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know
"Woah." I breathed. Shane tensed and my hand flew over my mouth. Great going Mitchie! He whirled around to face me with inflamed cheeks. Wow, I never noticed that Shane looks . . . gorgeous especially blushing.
"What the hell!" He growled. I couldn't help but laugh. He looked so embarrassed it was really funny. By his flushed cheeks and panic swishing in his eyes, I could tell it was something I wasn't suppose to read.
"That was really good! Are we gonna sing that song?" Shane rolled his eyes and slammed the notebook closed, sealing all his emotional songs away from me. It was so tempting to just snatch the book away and read about all the things I had missed. I sighed and snapped the band against my wrist again.
"No. Now let's write something else." He mumbled and slumped down.
My eyes puckered in confusion. "What happened to the song we already wrote?" Shane sighed and dug out a crumbled piece of paper from the back pocket of his adorable jeans. I mean just jeans.
"It's just not what I want to sing. So. . um please? I mean." Shane paused to clear his throat and stood up towering over me. Oh yeah that's really terrifying. "We're doing a different song, kid." I rolled my eyes and took out my songbook. I decided to bring the clean one instead of the book with misery written from cover to cover.
I settled myself next to Shane and could feel the awkwardness floating through the air. Miley was definitely going to pay for this. "So what type of song do you wanna write?" I asked tapping my pencil up and down. I was in the mood for an emotional break-up song.
"Uh, how about a tragical song. Like 2 people have to leave each other, with so many things left unsaid." I glanced up at Shane to see the trouble in his eyes.
Me leaving cut him deeper than I'd known. I think I finally understood the anger. He was mad at me for moving but not for the obvious reason. "Y-you got hurt when I was gone didn't you?" I whispered. Shane's eyes widened with panic. He tried to keep composure, but I was spot on.
"I don't know what the hell you're talking about." He murmured and turned away from me. I felt the sympathy washing over me.
"What Shane? What happened when I left? Don't lie to me. I know you better than that." Shane whipped back to me with tears clouding his eyes.
"How many times do I have to say YOU DON'T KNOW ME ANY MORE! I'm different Mitchie!! I'm not the stupid little kid anymore!" I stood up glaring into his face.
"That stupid little kid was my best friend!" Shane laughed humorlessly and smirked at me. No, this wasn't my Shane at all.
"Guess what Mitchie? He doesn't exist anymore!" Joe swerved on his heel and sprinted towards the exit. Ugh, why couldn't we just be friends again? I know he's in pain but he shouldn't push me away when I can be there for him now.
His hand gripped the handle, yanking it with increasing effort. I jogged to his side and tried to open the door as well. "Oh this is wonderful, we're stuck it here!!" Shane shouted to the ceiling, flinging his hands up melodramatically. I groaned in frustration and marched back to the stage. Shane raised his foot and started slamming it into the door. I rolled my eyes.
"It's not going to open, smarty!" Shane grinded his teeth together and stomped over too. I smirked as he sat down reluctantly.
"Let's just write the damn song."
I sighed and started brainstorming some words together. After a few attempts I gave up and flung my pencil. Shane lifted my book up and read it over, his lips curling up lightly. He picked up my pencil and began to scribble. "Here." I took the book back and smiled after reading it as well. It was beautiful.
"Sing it with me?" He glanced over for my reply and I smiled.
I didn't wanna say, I'm sorry, for breaking us apart.
I didn't wanna say, it was my fault, even though I knew it was.
I didn't wanna call, you back, 'cuz I knew that I was wrong.
Yeah I knew, I was wrong.
One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn't lie.
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.
Listen baby.
Never would've said forever, if I knew we'd end so fast.
Why did you say, "I love you", if you knew that it wouldn't last?
Baby I just can't hear what you're saying.
The line is breaking up.
Or is that, just us?
Or is that just us?!
One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn't lie.
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.
Try to call again and get in your mailbox.
Like a letter left unread.
Apologies are often open ended,
but this one's better left unsaid.
One in the same, never to change.
Our love was beautiful.
We got it all, destined to fall.
Our love was tragical.
Wanted to call, no need to fight.
You know I wouldn't lie.
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line.
We'll leave it on the line.
(Yeah, oh yeah)
We'll leave it on the line tonight
I checked my watch, 9:47pm. We had sat in here for over 3 hours and I was freakin starving. Shane was mostly quiet and the awkwardness droned on. "This is ridiculous! They were supposed to come in already." I yelled and picked at my black nail polish. Shane just hummed quietly to himself.
"You know, I thought it'd be nice spending some time with you. But all you do is whine. Maybe I should have brought ear plugs instead of a notebook." I scowled and slapped him across his head. Shane laughed and I softly giggled. At least this was better than fighting. I guess if we have to stay here until morning, than I'm glad it was with Shane.
Of course, I'd never say that out loud.
