"So Harry, how are you?" Harry didn't give him a response. "Harry dear?" Mr. Skirrder waved his hand in front of Harry, who still didn't move.
He worriedly grabbed Harry by the shoulders and shook him. Harry moved back from his professor, causing his chair to fall backwards, and Harry with it. Harry's hands clutched at his body, especially his lower regions. "Harry? Whats the matter?" Professor Skirrder asked with extreme concern.
Harry slowly stopped grabbing at himself and stood up. He picked up his bag and went towards the door. "I'm sorry. I have to go."'
"Harry wait your time isn't-" The door slammed shut with a resounding thud. Professor Skirrder ran to the door to see Harry running with a bit of a limp. He closed the door and leaned against the back. "Damn it. Draco might be right." Professor Skirrder wiped at his eyes, catching the tears before they fell.
Harry sat up against his pillows. He had the curtain closed around him and was writing in his diary.
Dear Journal,
It happened again. I went out to fly on Ron's broom. Everything was fine. It felt so nice to be up in the air again. I had to sit on my invisibility cloak. It still hurt too much from Uncle Vernon's last rape. But everything was fine. Up until I felt someone tackle me to the ground.
I felt like I was dying with how much pain that was going through me. Harry had to pause for a second, as tears began to flow from his eyes. He swiped at them, and a few of the stray tears fell to the pages of the journal. After a while I tried to fight but he was so much stronger.
I begged him. But he wouldn't stop. He ripped off by bottoms and well you know. I can't bring myself to write it. Why does this keep happening to me? I know it's my fault that Sirius and Cedric are dead. But no one deserves to be raped like I have. If this is what making love feels like thanI want to be alone for the rest of my life.
Sincerely,
Harry James Potter
Harry slipped his journal in his bag and headed towards Divination. Harry decided it was time to somewhat forgive Hermione and Ron. He would never completely forgive them but he really need his friends. When dinner came he sat with them. "I've decided to stop with this row. But I don't think I can ever forgive you guys. Okay?"
"Yeah that would be fine Harry. But we are sorry."
"I know."
After taking a few bites Harry grabbed his bag and told everyone that he was going to go sit by the lake for a while. Everyone offered to come. But he said he really wanted to be by himself.
Harry sat against one of the trees and took off his shoes and socks. He scooted forward a bit and put his feet into the lake. Soon after he could feel the nibble of tiny fish upon his feet.
He had always loved that feeling. When he was too young to stay home by himself the Dursleys would take him to their yearly lake trip. But once he turned 10 they stopped. He had made a plan the if he lived through this war he would go there again with all his friends. They now had an amusement more a few miles away. He laughed at the idea of getting Ron on a roller coaster. Harry laid back on the ground.
He really missed days like this. Where the sun shone bright over the trees and the birds flew from tree to tree chasing each other.Days like this helped him to forget the complexities of his life.
Harry sat up and pulled his feet out of the water. He had to head to the library, he had an essay due for Potions. Harry got on his socks and shoes and headed towards the library. But unbeknownst to him he dropped his little blue journal.
His journal that held all the secrets he kept, all the pain he went through. And that journal was now in the hands of a certain teenage veela wizard.
Well there's the next chapter. I'm planning on getting as much in before I start school on September 8th. Sorry about it all being bunched up. It was late when I got it back and I didn't check it. Thank you all for the reviews. You all are just so wonderful. Thank you!! Now here are a few of my favorite reviews:
Soffe Malfoy: oh, poor harry! but poor!harry makes good reading. love this story, can't wait for the next update. It's been awhile since I read a story that I so desperately needed an update from, but I can just reread it to keep myself satisfied for now. keep up the awesome work!
XxSqueaky7xX: klkl. im not usually into these stories... but this one seems different :)
Actofwill15: i love prof skirrder
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