*cries*
IM SO SORRY I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO UP DATE! My mom fried our computer, our ac went out, i got sick, and i fell down a flight of stairs. NOT TO MENTION this happened on my birthday...TTT . TTT ...
I decided to re write this chappie... DONT BE BORED WITH ME PLEASE I KNOW ITS THE SAME KINDA BUT PLEASE! *cries...again*
Waking up sucks. And especially when you wake up and someone is staring at you. Yup, you guessed right. Gin Ichimaru, the man who just happened to drag me here. (Not to mention I still love him…Ughh) " Zaraki-chan- I'm going to show you to your permanent room," Gin said, his smile fading. "Uh Huh," I said. "Where's Hikari?"
"She already left and found her room. She told me not to wake you." He said a smirk on his face.
"Yay. Good girl Hikari." I mumbled, standing. Gin walked over to me, and told me to follow him. We walked out of the vastly over dramatic doors, and through a set of hallways. We went up about I don't know, ten flights of stairs, through another hallway and to the thirteenth door to the left. Gin pushed open the doors to reveal a beautiful, huge white room. It had a large day bed under a huge window, a small table with two chairs, a couch, and bookshelf with all my favorite books on it.
"This is my room?!" I said, astonished.
"Yeah. Aizen told me to find you and your friend nice rooms. He was against me bringing you guys here but I guess he changed his mind." He said musing.
"Wait- Aizen? I thought he was dead." I said.
"It was all an illusion from his Zanpakuto. Oh yeah. Here," He handed me a white ribbon with a black onyx pendant on it. I attempted to tie it around my neck, but failed. "Here, Let me," I handed him the necklace, and walked a few feet back so he could be behind me. He put the ribbon on my neck and adjusted it. I felt him trying to be as gentle as he could, and finally he tied the knot securely. Gin led me into the room and to the window. "About how high up are we?"I asked.
"Check for yourself." He said. I walked over to the window and looked down. "H-Holy cow! Were at least sixty stories up!" He laughed. "This isn't even the highest place." I went and sat down on my bed. Why was he so gentle with me? He let his guard down around me, I could tell that. He seemed so comfortable around me. I was a normally abnormal girl. I wasn't that pretty. I was just- dull. I needed to lie down. I crashed onto my pillow and stared out the window at the crescent moon. I sat up for some reason and I noticed that Gin was sitting next to me. He was staring into space, his chin cupped in his hand. His eyes were faraway, like he was in deep thought. He looked so beautiful. So… amazing. I wanted him so much. I think my crush had gone from a simple, innocent like to a pure, mysterious love. What was I going to do if he rejected me? I would suppose I would question my self worth…
Bu honestly, what am I worth?
I laid my head back down on my pillow and felt the bittersweet poison of sleep flow through my body. Ugh...not now. Not while he's here...
"Mama...!"
"Hoshi, baby, everythings ok! Just stay there! Mama's gonna protect you!" I was five years old.
Some men from the Kusajishi district had raided our poor excuse for a shack hoping to find somehing good to steal while my dad was away. I peeked through a hole in the door and saw my mom pushed into a wall. the men turned around and my mom crawled towards the room i was hiding in. one she got inside, she picked me up and ran out the back door. She ran until she began to wheez and cough relentlesly. She slumped againts a tree and closed her eyes.
"Mama!" I had said, looking at her face.
"Its...ok...baby...im...just...tired" She had told me inbetween shallow breaths. Thats when she began to cough up blood. She started crying. She held me closer.
"Everythings... gonna be ok," She told me, struggling for breath. "I...Love you...Hoshi. I love you...So Much, Baby...girl. Remeber...that... I love you... Stay strong... It's...ok..." She coughed up blood again and it landed on my kimono and in my hair, leaving all the white bright red. "I...Love...Y-" Her arms went limp around me and she stopped breathing.
"Mama...?"
"Mama wake up."
"Mama!?"
"MAMA! NO...!"
"NO!
"No..." My eyes fluttered open. "Mama." I sat up in my new bed. Not again.
I cried. I criied for my mother. I cried for Hikari. I cried for everything that has ever happened.
I cried.
Did it suck...? i bet it sucked. please give me an opinion. Remember, Review!!!!
