Miley lay in the bed next to her best friend as Lilly told her what Jake did and tried to do to Amber. She told the brown haired girl the details she read in the journal and the encounter in the gym. Lilly had told Miley some of the examples of physical abuse Amber and the child Natalie suffered at the hands of the Goth girl's aunt and uncle, but she kept her promise to Amber and did not mention anything of how the girl's uncle raped her almost nightly. Miley listened to the story of Jake and when Lilly was done she jumped of the bed and started pacing and cursing under her breath. Lilly lay on the bed and listened to Miley curse as her eyes followed the girl pacing back and forth. She could not make out what Miley was saying and she was waiting for her friend to accuse her or Amber of making the story up. Lilly knew Miley loved Jake and would not believe what she was told. Lilly sighed and then held her breath and waited for the yelling to start when Miley stopped her pacing and turned to her.
"That son of a bitch! I knew he saw other girls when I was away…and I did not care…but to do this…he…he raped her! That bastard! I am going to kill the fucker! I swear, Lilly, I am going to kill him! That…that son of a bitch! And…and poor Amber…that poor girl…to…to be subjected to her home life and then this at school…it…it…that poor girl!" Miley was so angry she was almost crying.
Lilly looked at her friend in disbelief, "You…you believe me?" She asked and Miley sat on the bed and put her hand on Lilly's knee.
"Of course I believe you. You never lied to me, Lilly, never. And…well…I know Jake and this sounds just like him. Hell, he does it to me. I mean…I never want to do that to him and he makes me…he gets off on it. That is classic Jake. That fucking prick! He is so dead!"
Lilly smiled, sat up, and rubbed Miley's back. "I took care of it, Miles, he'll never bother her again…I…I just wanted you to know. I did not know he did those things to you also. If I did I would have kicked his ass that day in the gym. Why did you date him, honey, if he did those things to you? Hell…I thought you loved him."
Miley chuckled, "Love him…hell I can't stand when he touches me. I mean…we are friends…or used to be before this…but I never loved him. I just acted like it to make dad…umm…well…never mind that. He is coming here tonight and I can't wait to confront him. I swear I want to kill him!"
"Shhh…don't say that. I could not stand visiting you in jail...to see you locked up would break my heart…I mean, hell Miles, who's clothes and nice silk pajama's would I steal if you got locked up?" Lilly said with a smile.
Miley laughed, "Yeah I knew you loved me just for the clothes. I was going to give you my new bathing suit but the top would be too small for your abnormal sized boobs!"
Lilly laughed and dropped back on the bed, "Hey…you're just jealous I have great breasts! Don't be a hater, Miles!" Miley dropped on her back next to her friend laughing.
The girls discussed various ways to cut off Jake's penis for a while and soon Miley's dad knocked on the door.
"Miles, Jake's here…are you ready yet?"
"Yeah, dad, I am so ready…I'll be down in a sec." Miley turned to Lilly, "Care to watch the show?"
Lilly smiled, "Just don't do anything stupid…but if you castrate him let me cut one of his balls off." Miley laughed as she got off the bed and walked to the door. Lilly followed behind her.
Jake was sitting on the couch laughing at a joke Robby Ray told and Miley cringed. She knew Jakes fake laugh and hated it. He could not even be honest with her dad. Miley cleared her throat and Jake stood and turned and frowned. He was dressed in nice slacks, a designer dress shirt and tie, and a blue blazer.
"Miley, I thought you were ready? Jake said the two of you were going out for a nice dinner." Robby Ray asked as he saw Miley was still dressed in a pair of red shorts and a tee shirt.
Miley ignored her father and walked straight to Jake and slapped his face hard enough to leave a red hand imprint. Everyone stood in shock, including Lilly, except for Miley. She stood in front of the boy with glaring hate in her eyes.
"How dare you! How dare you do that! Doing it to me is one thing…I thought it was normal and expected of me since we were dating, but to do it to a girl who…who…to do it to her like that is rape, you shit! How many other girls did you force to suck your pathetic dick? How many, Jake?" Miley screamed.
"Miley…what the hell are you doing?" Robby Ray asked.
Miley turned to her dad, "Stay out of this, dad! This is between Jake and me!"
Jake grinned his charming smile that girls swooned over and tried to put his arms around Miley, "Miles, honey, what are you talking about? Lets forget dinner and go for a walk on the beach and you can calm down and we'll talk about what you heard."
Miley stepped back, "Don't fucking touch me! Never touch me again! You…you made me suck your prick for the last time! Just leave, Jake…get the fuck out of my house! You make me sick!"
Jake looked at Lilly, "What did she tell you, Miley? What lies did she tell you? Don't believe that cunt, Miles. She is just jealous of us. I love you and she is jealous that you love me. Lilly is a lying lesbian whore and don't…umph!" Jake doubled over in agony as Miley kicked him in the testicles. The brown haired girl then started hitting Jake with her small fists on his back.
"Never…never call her that again! You never call Lilly names like that ever again you son of a bitch! Never again!" Lilly never saw Miley as mad as she was at that moment and she felt a great deal of love for her friend who defended her. Miley was pulled off Jake by Robby Ray and as he picked her up and pulled her away she was kicking out trying to connect her foot with the boy and screaming over and over never to call Lilly names. When her dad put her down she tried to run back to Jake and hit him some more but Lilly ran down and held her friend back and tried to calm her down.
"Shhh…calm down, baby, shhh…he is not worth it." Lilly noticed Miley was crying with anger. She calmed down and wrapped her arms around Lilly.
"No one calls you things like that…no one!" Miley sobbed as she put her head on Lilly's shoulder. The blonde girl stroked her hair and whispered soothing words to her friend.
"Miley…we can talk about this…we need to talk about this." Jake said as he stood back up, "I…I don't know what lies you were told…but they are not true."
Miley lifted her head and looked around Lilly, "Get out! Get the fuck out of my house! Lilly does not lie to me! She has never lied to me!"
Robby Ray walked over to Jake and grabbed his arm, "You had better leave, son, and if you ever make my daughter do something against her will or touch her again or Lilly; I'll kick your ass!" Robby Ray forcefully escorted Jake from his house. The man shut the door and turned to the girls. "Lilly, you had better leave. I need to talk to Miley alone."
Lilly noticed the tone of the man's voice and nodded. She was surprised and pleased the man stood up for her along with his daughter, "Yes, sir. I'll go get my things." Lilly let go of Miley and started to walk up the stairs when she heard Miley's voice.
"No, dad. Lilly is spending the night with me." Miley turned to her friend, "Lilly, go to my room and I'll be up in a minute. I…I need to talk to my father."
Lilly nodded and went to Miley's room and waited. She never heard Miley use such a forceful tone before.
When Miley and Robby Ray heard the door shut the man broke the silence, "Bud, she should leave…we need to talk about things that concern family."
Miley smiled, "Lilly is family…she is like my sister." The girl sighed, "Daddy…I love you…I love you so damn much. You are a great dad and even have been a friend when I needed one and even a mom when I needed one, but…dad it has to stop. I have done everything you asked of me. I am a good girl, daddy. You don't see Hannah Montana's name in the tabloids telling stories of drug abuse, partying, photos of no underwear, driving drunk, or getting into trouble with the police. As Miley I don't do drugs and only drink on occasion at parties and never drive home even after one small drink. I am a good person, Daddy…you have to trust me. I…I never been with a boy except when Jake made me…well…made me do that one thing. I have done everything you asked of me. I perform the songs you write and don't argue when you won't let me sing the ones I wrote because you think they are inappropriate for someone my age. I do not dance when I perform the way I would like to because you thought it was not appropriate and I never complained. Yeah, I want my music to be more mature and attract an older audience but I…I don't because you don't want me to and I don't say a word. I…I even told Lilly I did not want to date her anymore when you found out her and I were sleeping together…and I made it look as if I wanted to date Jake so she would end it. And…and I was so lucky she wanted to stay my friend. I even dated Jake for you, daddy…not me. I never liked him that way." Miley paused and wiped her eyes.
"Daddy…God I love you so much, but there is no way in this world I am going to lose Lilly. Please do not ask me that. Don't make me choose her over you. I will…I swear I will. I would still love you with all my heart, but I would leave this house and never come back. I would take all my money and be Hannah on my own. I would probably fall flat on my face without you…but I would try if you take Lilly from me. Lilly means that much to me…she is like my sister and at one time you thought of her as another daughter…I know you did. Daddy, she had always been there for me…always! She never complained when I got her into messes or asked her to do things that embarrassed her. When I was gone filming the movie or when I go on tour, she never complained or told me she could not be my friend. She always stuck by me, daddy, and I love her for that. I have not been there when she needed me at times and she never said a word." Miley pointed to her room, "Daddy, I would die for that girl in my room and she would do the same for me. Please, I…I am begging you. Do not make me give up Lilly because we did things I was curious about and it did not sit well with you. I know you hated it and blame her…but don't. I was involved to and she did not force me to do anything I did not want to do. So…Please, daddy…I need her…I need her so bad in my life. Don't take her away from me." Miley was crying now and Robby Ray put his arms around her and hugged her tight.
"I love you, bud, and that was a wonderful speech. I…I do care for her and like her…but I can't accept you being gay."
Miley hugged her father back just as tight, "Daddy…I don't know if I am or not or what I am…I do know and can tell you Lilly and I are not lovers anymore and will never be again…I wish we were a lot of times. I would wait for her for ever to be again if she wanted it…but she has moved on and now she is my best friend who I love dearly and I am so lucky she is. I…please, daddy…please don't make me stop being her friend. I can't take that."
"I won't, baby…I won't. She cares for you too…I see that and she is welcome here anytime. But…if you well…if you get involved with her again or any girl…please talk to me first…I need time to process it."
Miley whispered her thanks and kissed her father's cheek and ran to her room to find Lilly going through her CD collection. Her Hannah Montana CD's. Miley wiped her eyes before Lilly could turn around.
"Everything cool?" Lilly asked.
Miley smiled, "Yeah…I think it will be better now. What are you doing?"
Lilly smiled and handed Miley a Hannah CD and a sharpie marker. "Sign this for me…sign it to Natalie. She loves Hannah and I thought it could…well…make her happy."
Miley smiled, "Anything for you, Lils. Plus I liked the girl…she is very adorable. She is going to break some hearts when she gets older." Miley signed the CD and handed it back to Lilly. Lilly smiled at the words. "Natalie…hang ten, dude, and keep surfing! I heard you were a natural, love Hannah Montana!" "She will love it! Thanks, Miles."
Miley smiled, "I'll sign a tee shirt for her as well. So what now…it got pretty intense in here, huh?"
Lilly laughed, "Yeah…just a little. I am pretty tired and…ummm…I am going shopping with Amber and Natalie tomorrow…" Lilly paused to see Miley's reaction. Her friend smiled.
"Cool…we can hook up later maybe at the beach or here…but right now I want to gorge on some junk food, have dad make us some Loco Hot Coco, and watch some scary movies while I lay next to my best friend as I fall asleep. How's that sound?"
Lilly grinned, "Sounds wonderful!"
After some snacks, hot chocolate, and two scary movies Miley fell asleep and Lilly yawned as she curled up next to her friend. She pressed herself against Miley and put her arm around the girl, "I love you too Miles…and I would die for you as well." Lilly never told Miley she eavesdropped on the girl's conversation with her father and heard the last part of Miley's speech when the girl told her dad she would die for her.
Lilly left the Stewart house the next morning, went home and changed clothes and drove to Rico's. She was early and decided to wait there for Amber and Natalie to arrive. The blonde hoped the good Amber would show up and she was not disappointed. When Amber and Natalie arrived, Natalie ran and gave her a tight hug as Amber walked behind the girl. Lilly smiled at Amber's outfit.
"Damn, Amber…we are just going shopping? I did not know we were going to have tea with the queen or somebody?" Amber was dressed in a red and black plaid sleeveless dress that came about an inch above her knees. The top of the dress came straight across her chest about two inches below her neck line and covered what little cleavage the girl may have. Around her waist she wore a wide black belt with a silver buckle. She wore white thigh high stockings and shiny black two inch heels. Lilly noticed Amber wore a matching plaid ribbon tied to her neck like a choker and from the ribbon dangled a small silver heart. She stuck out her tongue at Lilly and was careful to stay on the wooden walkway to avoid the sand. The dress was very form fitting and Lilly admired the girls small shapely body as she walked toward her. Lilly walked to her holding Natalie's hand and Amber kissed her cheek.
"You look…wow…you look great…wow…so sexy…but umm…maybe a little over dressed for shopping. Those shoes are going to kill your feet before the day is over." Lilly said with a grin.
Amber smiled, "Don't be silly. I am used to heels and wanted to look nice for you today. So shall we?"
The three girls spent the morning shopping and Amber brought Natalie three dresses and two pair of shoes. She allowed Lilly and Natalie to drag her into a surf shop by the beach front and frowned when Natalie begged her to buy her a pair of jean Capri pants and a tee shirt; both made by a famous surf company. Amber had to tell the girl no because she did not have enough money and Lilly offered to buy them.
"I can't let you do that, Lilly. That is sweet of you…but no." Amber said as Natalie went to try on more surf clothes.
Lilly smiled, "Sure you can. I did not get her a birthday present this year." She walked to the dressing room, "Natalie, when's your birthday?" Natalie stuck her head out the door.
"Huh? I didn't hear you, Lilly."
Amber frowned, "We don't say 'huh', Natalie. We say 'excuse me' or 'pardon me' or sometimes 'what' will be acceptable." Lilly giggled as Natalie rolled her eyes. "Her birthday is June fourth and don't roll your eyes, young lady." Amber looked at Lilly, "God, hanging out with you has erased all the manners I have been trying to teach her. You are such a bad influence." Lilly stuck her tongue out at Amber and the Goth girl giggled. She stopped giggling when she saw Natalie had tears in her eyes. Amber walked quickly over to the girl and bent down so she was eye level with the child.
"Baby, what's wrong?"
Natalie smiled, "Nothing…just happy you remembered my birthday."
Amber smiled, "Of course I did…you told me and I remembered. I always remember important things like that."
Natalie hugged Amber, "Mommy and daddy never remember. Since you remember maybe I will get a birthday cake when I turn nine. I would like a birthday cake…and to blow out the candles. I never got to do that before." Amber hugged the girl tighter and promised her a cake for her birthday.
Lilly watched the scene and felt sudden sadness for this eight year old girl that never had a birthday party or cake. She took the jeans and shirt Natalie wanted, added a surfing beaded bracelet from a counter, and walked to the cashier. She told the clerk to put them in a gift box. As she handed the cashier her credit card her mom gave her for emergencies. Amber walked up and whispered in her ear.
"Lilly…I can't let you, baby."
Lilly turned and had a determined look on her face. "Fuck that, Amber, that little girl is going to get a birthday present from me even if it is months late or months early. And…and we are leaving here and going to go have lunch at a place that will give her a fucking birthday cake and some fucking candles so she can fucking blow them out and make a fucking wish! My treat!" Lilly wiped some tears from her eyes and felt Amber's lips brush hers gently.
"Lilly Truscott, you are one of the sweetest girls I have ever met. I…thank you Lilly…I love you so much. Let's just work on your language through."
Lilly giggled, "I also have another surprise for her as well in my trunk."
"What? Lilly you've done so much already. I mean everything…from the first day you forced yourself in my life." Amber said with a wink.
Lilly laughed, "Hush and go distract her while I get these things wrapped for her."
Amber nodded and gave Lilly another brief kiss and walked back to the dressing room to wait for Natalie. Lilly drove them to a pizza place that catered to children which had a huge game room. As Amber and Natalie sat at the table Lilly went to the counter and ordered the cake and joined them. As the three were eating a group of waitress came to the table along with a person in a kangaroo suit. They told Natalie it was her special day and sang happy birthday while they presented her with a cake with candles and a cup full of game tokens. Natalie cried in happiness as she made a wish and blew out the candles. She hugged Amber in thanks and the brunette girl told her it was Lilly's idea and she ran around the table and hugged Lilly.
"I am so glad you and Amber are friends. I love both of you so much!" She shouted and sat back down to eat her cake.
Lilly smiled, "Did you make a wish?" Natalie nodded with a mouth full of cake.
"I wished for…" Natalie began after she swallowed her cake and Lilly held her hand up.
"No, baby, don't tell me. It won't come true of you tell anyone."
Natalie nodded and took a big bite of her cake and got icing all over her chin and around her lips. Amber took a napkin and wiped the girls lips gently, "It's ok, little peep, you can tell her. Wishes and dreams never come true anyway." Natalie frowned and Lilly gave her a cold look that the Goth girl ignored.
"One more thing, Natalie, on your birthday you get presents." Lilly opened a brown paper bag and handed Natalie three wrapped boxes and the girl grinned and ripped them open and shouted in pleasure as she lifted the surfer jeans, tee shirt, and bracelet up for Amber to see. Amber helped her attach the bracelet and Lilly then gave her another bag.
"This is a special one from someone." Natalie opened the bag and screamed in joy. She pulled out a CD and tee shirt. Both signed by Hannah Montana.
"Lilly! Oh God! How…ohhhh…Hannah Montana really signed these? This is the best day ever!" Natalie held the CD and tee shirt up for Amber to look at and then held them tight to her chest. She laid them carefully on the table and asked if she could go play. Amber nodded.
"I'll come play with you in a moment…I love video games. I have to talk to Amber for a moment." Lilly said. When the little girl left Lilly turned to Amber.
"Why did you tell her about wishes for? That was uncalled for and mean!" Lilly said harshly.
Amber picked up the CD and looked at it for a moment, "So…who signed these for you? It is just like the wish thing. It is not real. She needs to know how the real world is. She needs to know there is no such thing as dreams or wishes or that people like Hannah Montana do not take time out of her life to sign CDs and tee shirts for a little girl she never met. Natalie needs to know the world is a cruel and evil place and days like today do not come along often. She needs to know people are evil and will do and say anything to take advantage of her. She needs to learn to protect herself from those people and not believe in wishes and dreams that never come true." Amber said sternly as she looked at the CD for a moment and then tossed it on the table.
Lilly stood up, "Well for your fucking information, Amber, that is Hannah's real signature! She did sign that CD and shirt! Miley's dad used to be a big shot performer and still writes songs and he wrote some for Hannah Montana and she was in the area at a recording studio! Miley had her dad go see her and sign those for Natalie. You are so wrong, Amber. So fucking wrong! I know life gave you a fucked up hand of cards and it breaks my heart to know those things…it breaks my heart more than you know, but that does not mean Natalie has to sit at the table and play the hand you got dealt. Let her be a child for God's sake! Let her enjoy her childhood!"
Amber looked up and her eyes blazed anger, "Enjoy childhood! Lilly you have no damn idea what that girl's childhood has been like! Sure you read things about her and me…but reading it is not living it, Lilly Truscott! You have no idea what it is like to walk into a home and be terrified of a mother who is so drunk or drugged up you have no idea how she will react to your mere presence! So terrified that you are afraid to even walk to your room or you may make a noise she will not like and get punished! So afraid of a mother who is supposed to love you and care for you and take care of you unconditionally but all she does is hurt you for the slightest mistake you make! To be afraid of getting older because when you do you know your own father…a man you are suppose to look up to and respect and love…is going to come into your room at night and…and…do things to you! That is that girl's childhood, Lilly! Is that what she is supposed to enjoy? Do not tell me about playing a poor hand of cards. She needs to know that friends and lovers who you loved so much die and never come back! Live my life or Natalie's life for a day and then tell me if blowing fucking candles out on a damn cake can change your fucking life and make things better! Do that, Lilly Truscott, and tell me she should enjoy her childhood!"
Amber stood and walked quickly to the bathroom and Lilly stared at her. She sighed and sat down. She knew she was right…Natalie needs to be a child and try to enjoy the good in her childhood, but she also knew Amber had a valid point. Lilly could listen and read and know in her mind what Amber and Natalie endured at home, but she could never fully understand it. She could never truly know what those girls lived with on a daily basis. She felt a hand on her shoulder.
"Lilly, is Ams alright? She is not sick again is she?" Lilly turned and saw Natalie standing next to her. Lilly smiled.
"No, baby, we just had a small fight. She'll be ok." Lilly stood and picked Natalie up and swung her around and the girl giggled, "So let's go play those video games and I'll show you how a pro plays!" Lilly said as she stopped swinging Natalie and held her in her arms.
Natalie smiled and touched Lilly's cheek with her hand, "Lilly…wishes do come true. I made a wish one time and it came true."
"You did…and what was that wish, baby?"
Natalie buried her head in Lilly's neck and hugged her tight, "I wished that Amber would find someone to be her friend and protect her…and she did. She has you now. Promise me, Lilly, promise me you will help Amber and protect her and stop her from getting hurt. I…I'm scared of something"
Lilly put the girl down and she wanted to cry but held her tears so the girl would not be scared, "What are you afraid of, honey?"
Natalie looked into Lilly's kind eyes, "I'm scared mommy will kill Amber one day if she keeps trying to protect me. My wish when I blew out the candles was to be as brave as Amber is so I can make mommy hurt me to protect Amber…like Ams does for me. I know it won't come true now that I told you, but I did not believe that one would ever be true anyway. I could never be as brave as her."
Lilly hugged Natalie, "You love her don't you, baby. You love Amber a great deal, huh?"
"Of course, I love her more than anything in the world. I…I love her so much it hurts me when mommy punishes her. Do you love her, Lilly?"
"I love her a great deal…and…I'll try to protect her…but I don't know how, baby."
Natalie pulled back and smiled, "You'll think of something…I know you will. I trust you, Lilly. Can we go play now?"
Lilly ruffed the girl's hair, "Sure, sweetie, let's go play." She took Natalie's hand and the two girls walked to the play area.
Amber stayed at herself on the mirror of the bathroom while she touched up her makeup. Lilly was so wrong. Life was not full of wishes and dreams. Life was nothing but curses and nightmares and Natalie needed to know that if she was going to survive. She had to learn the world was cruel and hateful if she was going to be able to protect herself. Natalie needed to know that people you love die in car accidents, she needed to know that a best friend you love so unconditionally you would die for her gets sick and dies in a hospital while you are taking care of them, she needs to know brothers you love and who took care of you get killed in war, and she needed to know someone so beautiful and you loved with you whole heart gets shot and killed while she just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Amber frowned in the mirror; the girl needed to know men will use and abuse her for their own lusts…even ones who are supposed to love you. She needed to know woman and girls can be cruel and beat you until you beg them to let you die. Amber knew Lilly was wrong and Natalie needed to learn how cruel and heartless the world was and stupid wishes and dreams don't mean shit in the world.
Amber walked back to their table and sat down and watched Lilly and Natalie play and she smiled. She suddenly thought maybe, just maybe, there was some good in the world but then she heard the voices tell her that was not true. The voices told her what she saw was a farce and Lilly would soon leave her to be with someone else if she did not act soon. The voices told her Lilly would abandon her and Natalie, and Lilly would mock her as she kissed and made love to her knew lover, a girl she loved more than her, if she did not do what she had to do. Amber's smile vanished from her lips as she saw the White Lady standing behind Natalie as the girl laughed and played a video game with Lilly. The White Lady smiled at the Goth girl and then looked down at the eight year old girl and frowned. Amber put her head down, closed her eyes, and rubbed her temples with her forefinger and thumb of her right hand. Please…go away…she is a good person…she loves me and there is kindness in the world. You are wrong…all of you…tell them, mommy, tell them there is good in the world and Lilly loves me and is not going to leave me! And please, mommy…please make the Lady leave Natalie alone! She is here for me not her! She is too young and too precious for the Lady! Please, mommy…make them all go away! They used to love me so much but they are so cruel to me now and talk of hate…make them love me again, mommy…please! Tell them I cannot be with them until Natalie is safe…make them understand, mommy...please, mommy! You are the only one who still loves me…they will listen to you! Amber begged in her head and the voices stopped as suddenly as the came, but they left doubts in the Goth girl's head. Amber looked up and saw Lilly and Natalie standing over her. She smiled up at them.
"Ams…are you ok…I…I got worried you got sick again."
"I'm fine, baby, just a little head ache. Are you done playing?" Amber looked at her watch and was surprised they had been in the restaurant that long. She got up and gave Lilly a tight smile.
"So…umm we have a little more time…any idea what we can do before we have to go back?" She asked the blonde.
Lilly gave her a curious look and shrugged, "Whatever…maybe we could hang out at Rico's or something."
Amber nodded, "Sure. If Miley is not doing anything you can call her and have her meet us. I would like to thank her and her father for the CD and tee shirt. That was very kind of her." She turned to Natalie, "Little peep, do you need to go to the restroom before we leave?"
Natalie smiled, "Yeah…I have to pee…bad!" The girl said loudly.
Amber rolled her eyes, "Shhh…when in public young ladies have to powder their noses…not go pee."
"Yes, m'am." Natalie said in an exasperated voice and Lilly grinned. Natalie walked quickly to the bathroom and Lilly gently grabbed Amber's arm.
"Hey…you ok, baby? You like phased out for about twenty minutes or so."
Amber smiled, "Yes...Lilly…I'm sorry for what I said earlier…I…I just want Natalie to know the world can be an evil place. But when she sees you all she sees is the good in the world. For that I want to thank you…you show her how life can be and how love should be. You are very kind to us and I love you for that. You were right. She does deserve a happy childhood and you give her that part…if just for a few moments a week. All I ever show her is the evilness in the world and how cruel it can be. I…I'm sorry I yelled at you."
Lilly reached out and caressed Amber's cheek, "It's ok, baby…and you are wrong, Amber…so wrong about yourself. That girl looks up to you a great deal and she loves you more than anything or anyone she has ever loved before. She knows what love is because of you not me. In me she sees a fun friend she loves a little to play with and teach her to surf and play video games. But in you she sees a girl to look up to, to be proud of, and who loves her in a way she had never known before. If I walked out of her life today she would be sad for a while but she would recover, but if you did she would be heart broken for the rest of her life. Show her the good in life Amber…I know you have seen it. She loves you, baby, a great deal and you do show her love and kindness and the goodness in the world. To her…you are that good in the world."
Amber smiled and turned as she heard Natalie running back to them, "For a while, Lilly, for a while…but you will also see how the world can hurt, love, and for that I am so sorry…I never wanted it to happen you." Amber said under her breath as Natalie jumped in her arms.
"I love you, Ams." Natalie said and Amber kissed the girl's face all over making her giggle and beg for the Goth girl to stop.
Lilly called Miley while she drove back to the beach and Rico's and Miley told her she would meet them there. Lilly wished she could think of somewhere else to go, but she was still a little mad at Amber for there small fight earlier and thought Miley would be a good distraction until she calmed down completely. She glanced at Amber and gave the girl a worried look. Natalie was in the back singing along with her new Hannah Montana CD she begged Lilly to play while Amber was being quiet and staring out the window. Lilly wished she could read her girlfriend's mind and try to understand what she thought about when she phased into her dark time. By the time they got to the beach, Amber was back to herself and walked hand in hand with Natalie to Rico's while Lilly walked a little behind carrying Natalie's new dresses and shoes. They saw Miley was already waiting for them and arguing with Jackson about something or another. The tall brown haired girl smiled at them and waved. Miley stared at Amber and the way she was dressed and thought the girl looked absolutely beautiful. She mentally kicked herself for a thought she briefly had towards Lilly's new girlfriend.
Natalie smiled at Miley and begged Amber to let her try on new dresses to show Miley, Jackson, and Rico. Amber gave her the bags and told her to go into the back and change but to be careful not to spill anything on them.
The three girls moved to a table to wait for Natalie's small fashion show. "Amber…I…umm…I like your dress. It is so pretty and you look great in it. I wish I could wear something like that. Where did you get it?"
Amber smiled, "Thank you. I got it back home…God…last year sometime. It is old, bit one of my favorites." She took Miley's hand in hers and Miley gave a little jump, "Miley, I want to thank you and your father for the CD and the tee shirt. That was so very kind of you and him. Please tell him I said thank you. Natalie loved them and she is a huge fan of Hannah Montana."
Miley smiled, "No problem…dad said she was happy to do it. She loves her fans. I…ummm…so she likes Hannah more than you do I guess."
Amber blushed and pulled her hands away from Miley's. Amber could not help but notice Miley seemed reluctant for her to let go. "Ohhh…damn…I am so sorry I said that. I did not mean to say…well…just because her music is not to my liking does not mean she is not talented…I mean…she is…but umm…I did not know your dad…" Miley laughed.
"Hey, no problem, Amber, not everyone likes her…and I agree…her songs can cater to a younger crowd. I think she is planning on being more adult when she turns eighteen." Miley looked at Lilly and grinned. Lilly laughed. She calmed down and was glad Miley was being nice and it seemed so far her best friend and girlfriend were getting along.
Natalie soon came out wearing the pink sundress Amber brought her and the white Mary Jane shoes. She modeled for the three girls and two boys and they all told her how lovely she looked. She then modeled the light sky blue dress that enhanced her eyes and then the light green one and matching green shoes. When she came out the fourth time she was wearing the new Capri jeans and surf shirt. The jeans were low cut and Amber frowned at that but it was a gift from Lilly so she decided to let the girl have them. Natalie turned and smiled at Miley when she commented on how nice they were.
"Makes my butt look hot, huh Miley?" Natalie asked the girl.
"Natalie Elizabeth!" Amber exclaimed and everyone else giggled or laughed. Natalie looked at her feet and placed her hands behind her back and shifted back and forth.
"Well…Lilly said they did." The girl muttered as she bit her lower lip.
"Lilly Truscott! She is too young to have a hot butt! God…I swear I am going to stop allowing her to hang out with you! There is no telling what else you have been telling her! Here I am trying to teach her to be a lady and you are under minding everything I try to do!" Lilly and Miley laughed louder and Jackson and Rico started whistling at Natalie. The small girl started blushing and giggling. Amber crossed her arms and leaned back in her chair with a small smile and defeated look on her face.
Miley, still laughing, asked Natalie to try on her autographed tee shirt.
"No…I can't do that, Miley. That is signed by Hannah Montana and I could never risk ruining it. I am going to protect it so it never gets damaged."
Amber smiled at Miley and mouthed her thanks once again for the CD and shirt and Miley smiled back. Miley held out her arms and motioned for Natalie to come to her and the tall girl picked her up and placed her in her lap. She tickled Natalie and told her she was a beautiful girl. Amber looked at her watch.
"Natalie…go change, baby, your dad will be here shortly."
Natalie stopped giggling and nodded, "Yes, m'am." She said sadly, climbed off Miley, and walked into the back of the shop to change.
"She is so beautiful, Amber. And don't worry about her manners or being a lady…you can tell she has already learned so much from you about how to act and be a lady."
Lilly leaned over and kissed Amber's cheek, "Hey…be easy on her…she is going to be absolutely gorgeous when she gets older. That girl is going to be a heart breaker. I feel sorry for the boys when she starts dating."
Amber sighed but smiled at her girlfriend, "I know…that is what worries me." Lilly frowned. Only she and Amber knew what the Goth girl meant by the comment.
Before Natalie's father arrived, Amber got a new trash bag from the storage room and cut off the tags from Natalie's new clothes and placed the clothes in the bag along with the shoes. She told Lilly she was going to tell her uncle that a friend of hers has a younger sister who out grew these clothes and gave them to Natalie. Lilly thought it was a great idea. Lilly sadly watched as Natalie and Amber walked up to the road and got into the black BMW. She watched as the car drove off and Miley put her arm around her and hugged her close.
"She is really a great person, Lilly. I mean…after talking with her for a while and getting to know her…she is a great girl. I did not know she had such a good sense of humor and I love how she adores Natalie. I like her."
Lilly wiped her eyes, "Thanks, Miles…you are the best friend anyone could ever have." Lilly took a deep breath to steady her voice. "I…umm…I want to go home and be alone…ok. I don't think I am feeling too good right now."
Miley smiled and squeezed her friend gently. "Sure, honey." Miley kissed her cheek and let her go. She watched Lilly walk to her car and the suddenly the blonde girl dropped to her knees and vomited.
"Lilly! Lilly!" Miley screamed as she ran to her friend. By the time Miley got to her friend Lilly was already on her feet and wiping her mouth.
"I'm ok…just don't feel good. I think I either caught something or ate something that did not agree with me. I have cramps and feel terrible."
"Come on, Lils, I'll drive you home." Miley walked Lilly to her car and drove the girl home. Once at home, Lilly's mother took over and nursed her daughter. Lilly hated being sick, but she loved how her mother catered to her and babied her.
Miley got home and watched some television and finally went to bed. She was looking forward to going back to school after being tutored by that horrid person while on the movie set. Miley lay in bed wearing a tee shirt and panties and her thoughts drifted to her love life…or lack of one. She told her dad she did not know if she gay, straight, or bi but she knew that was a lie. Miley knew she was gay. When she dated Lilly…well they really just fooled around more than dated…she knew she may be gay then and it scared her. She was terrified how people would react to her. Then she dated Jake and when he kissed her and touched her she felt nothing at all. At first she thought it was just Jake, but when she was filming her movie she felt a deep attraction to her makeup girl. Miley wanted that girl to kiss her and touch her and make love to her. Miley knew then she was gay as her eyes often drifted to the other girls' bodies and she admired their butts or breasts while the good looking men or boys did nothing to stir her sexually. She had hopes when she came home to be with Lilly again. To work out their problems they had about dating and fall in love with her friend again, but now Lilly was dating Amber and after getting to know the girl; Miley knew she could not compete with the beautiful sexy Goth girl. She was just too damn hot and sweet. That was also another problem Miley recently discovered. She was physically attracted to Amber.
When she saw the small brunette in that dress she thought how good she looked and wanted to kiss her and even touch her and when the girl grabbed her hand so innocently Miley felt like she was struck by lightning. She wanted Amber sexually and that hurt her. How could she desire her best friend's girl friend? She loved Lilly…a great deal and even more than a friend but she lusted after Amber. Miley knew she would have to get over that quickly. The girl tossed and turned for about an hour and finally realized what she needed to get some sleep. She leaned over and opened a drawer to her night stand and pulled out a small "pocket rocket" vibrator. Miley pulled down her panties and spread her legs. She placed a finger in her already wet pussy and moaned as she twirled her finger inside herself. She twirled it for a while and then brought her finger to her lips and sucked herself off her finger. Miley then turned the vibrator on and touched her clit. She moaned louder and thought of Lilly making love to her. She thought of Lilly tasting her and sucking her nipples and playfully spanking her like she used to. Miley moaned and squealed in pleasure and then she got more aroused as her mind thought of Amber doing the things Lilly did to her. She imagined the petite brunette naked and kissing her and tasting her. Miley placed a pillow over her mouth and muffled a scream as her orgasm took control of her body and she shook in pleasure. After she calmed down she placed the vibrator in her mouth and licked it clean and then placed it back in the drawer. Miley rolled over on the bed and hugged her pillow and let the tears run down her cheeks. She begged whoever would listen for her not to have those thoughts about Amber. She pleaded not to think that way about her best friend's girlfriend. Miley drifted to sleep with guilt filling her heart.
