Hidden Behind Lies

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha!

A/N: Really now, I am losing altogether inspiration for this story because I only have 1 review people, 1! So I don't really know if anyone actually likes it, that's what the reviews are for, so if you don't like it, I don't want to continue with it. Just putting that out there that I might discontinue this story.

-With Kagome-

I lay there in my bed, with my arms clamped over my stomach. I don't know what I was thinking Wednesday at school, but now I feel so impure. But I suppose that all girls feel like that after their first time. That is unless they did it with someone they loved but mine was with someone I barely knew.

And Inuyasha avoided me for the rest of the day, he wouldn't talk to me but he would occasionally glance my way and glare hurtfully at me. We didn't even go out yesterday like we were supposed to because he never said anything to me at school, and never called or showed up to my house.

And I became scared that Kouga told him, but why would he do that. And I have to keep telling myself, "Kagome, you didn't even know the dude, how would you know if talking about you guys doing the 'Do' in the janitors closet would be something he wouldn't do?"

And I didn't know, and it scared me. I know I'm not supposed to give a shit about anything anymore, but I'm still young, and I can still get scared. You would think nothing would scare me, but lots of things did.

And I didn't have my mom to confess my fears to. I mean, I could, but she couldn't help nor hear me most likely. The only one there was my aunt and I hated her. Ever since my mother and she were little, Keina always thought she was better. This is funny because, my Grandpa stayed with my mom and often complained about how haughty my aunt acted, like she was better than the rest of the family because she lived in Paris.

And Mom would always say, 'Well she's not better than us, and she may feel like she has it better than me and her life is perfect, but I have family here, my father, and a beautiful son and daughter, and she will never be better than me in my eyes.' And she would always smile and Souta would mutter something like, 'Yeah and she's old and bitter and alone.'

He would never get away with saying that, but he didn't care. Souta. How tainted am I in his eyes now, if there really is a Heaven and he's peering down at me? How dirty am I in his eyes? As dirty as I feel? If so, I feel even more miserable than I did.

I got up and looked out my window. There was some loud shouting and hooting outside my window and I looked out to see the group of guys…and Inuyasha. "Hey, baby!" Kouga called up to me, cupping his hands around his mouth for better clarity. "Wanna hang out?"

I shook my head. "How the hell am I supposed to sneak out with French Toast in the next room?" I whispered sharply. He grinned. Inuyasha was standing off to the side, away from the rest with his arms crossed.

"You can, babe, I know you can! Just swing those sexy legs of yours out the window,"

"We all know you've seen plenty of her sexy legs, Kouga!" Miroku shouted and laughed. Kouga chuckled a little, he did tell them, obviously. So that must be why Inuyasha isn't talking to me, but he shouldn't be angry, my sex life is my sex life and we weren't dating, he's not my boyfriend so he needs to chill.

And I'm going to have fun. "And I will catch you if you fall but I'm sure you can scale that wall just fine, honey." He added. I smirked and nodded.

"Okay let me put some clothes on first." I said. I was wearing a black tank top and dark purple boy shorts. The boys started whispering and laughing, they are so immature.

"And let me come up there first!" Miroku shouted. I chuckled sarcastically and pushed down on the edge of my window to shut it. Turning away from the window, I brought my index finger to the dimple on my right cheek and bit my bottom lip, contemplating what to wear. How do people dress when they sneak out? How does a girl dress when she's sneaking out for the first time with a group of rebel boys?

The movies say all black but none of the guys were wearing all black. Maybe they weren't sneaking out, maybe they were allowed out, I don't know but I need to find something hot and quick.

I scurried over to my closet; my feet silent as their sound was drown out by the thick carpet. I snatched up a hot midnight blue tank top and some black stretchy skinnies. My special custom blue air walks with the black broken heart design running along the side, that I forced my Aunt to buy me, would go perfect with this outfit!

I quickly put it on and my hair looked effortlessly fine, I just slipped it out of my ponytail and fluffed it with my hands. I grabbed my Karma cell and shoved it in my back pocket and slipped one arm into my three-quarter black sweater. I inserted the other arm as I walked back over to the window.

Getting out wasn't so easy. I slipped my legs out and over the window's edge and slid so that I was sitting on my outside windowsill. The boys were all looking up at me but Kouga was standing right under my window with his fists at his hips grinning up at me. If I were wearing a skirt that would be so awkward.

'Not that he hasn't seen everything already, Kagome.' A voice in the back of my head spoke. I grumbled and shrugged it off as I slid off the windowsill and gripped the edge of the small ramp roof beneath my escape route. I went over that carefully and gripped onto the indent between the first few bricks that covered the side of my crappy old house.

I climbed down a few and my foot faltered and I gripped tighter onto the bricks. 'This is going to fuckin' ruin my custom air walks, dammit!' I thought to myself. I sighed in frustration and scaled the rest of the wall and hopped down into Kouga's awaiting arms since it was obvious he wasn't going to allow my feet to land on the ground for some reason.

I huffed. "That was nerve wrecking, really." I gasped. He smirked and allowed me to slide from his arms, but not before he groped something. My face heated and it felt like the once calm, cool biting air was now over one hundred degrees. I walked ahead some. "So why are you guys out, anyways?" I stuttered, trying to cover up my obvious embarrassment.

"Just taking a walk, sweet thighs." Miroku said, sliding up next to me. I laughed and rolled my eyes. I've only been hanging out with this group; minus one who avoids me, for a few days and I already have their personalities down. This was so common.

Miroku was the handsome, outgoing pervert with the sheepish grin. Kouga was the egoistical conceited hottie with the extremely sexy body and intoxicating smile. Bankotsu was the laid back athlete who even though he loved sports, he stayed off of school teams because he doesn't like taking direction from anyone but Kouga, for some reason.

Naraku was the kind of guy that scared you nonetheless. He could be hiding back in the shadows not saying a word, just creeping you out with his red eyes, or he could be talking and his deep and dangerous voice could scare a shiver down your spine. And Inuyasha is the guy I just can't seem to keep my eyes off of even though he's oblivious to me now.

He was funny, could be funny at any given time except the guys in his group treat him like shit and yet he sticks around when he obviously doesn't enjoy it. So because of them, he hides in this shell, under this protective cover. He only acted the least bit normal around me, and then he completely shuts down and barely says or does anything of great interest or importance around them.

'And now, me too, because I slept with Kouga. God, I'm so stupid!' I thought to myself. I grinned then, pulling a façade over myself like a thin shield meant to keep me safe. My utter confusion should not affect anyone else. "So where are we going?" I inquired quietly.

"Nowhere really, just walking trying to find something to do, the usual stuff I guess." Kouga shrugged nonchalantly and shoved his hands in his pockets. His long legs shuffled on underneath his baggy jeans, I remembered what they looked like when we were in the janitors' closet. It was one of those "Everything Off" kinds of situations. But I'm not going to gross you out with the nasty details.

But as I looked at him up and down without him noticing as we walked on, I felt nothing for him. When he smiled at me, or talked to me, or complimented me in his perverted way of complimenting girls, I didn't have any out-of-the-ordinary feelings for him. I didn't like him that way; I guess he was just a hot good time, because there was nothing else there but heat between us.

When I looked at Inuyasha though, there was that pain, that ping when you know you like someone very badly, but they don't give you the time of day. And then there was the pain of the knowledge that he would be paying attention to me if I wasn't such a dirty skank.

Yeah Souta, look at your big sister now, look at the class president, valedictorian sister that you were supposed to look up to. As soon as you're gone I become a slut who sleeps with a guy she doesn't even know inside of a janitor's closet at her school. I hope I made you proud, little brother.

My breath caught in my throat and I was battling the tear works. My walking paused and the others looked at me curiously. I cleared my throat and shook away my hateful thoughts and continued walking on.

"Are you okay, Kagome?" Miroku asked. I nodded and gulped down the last of my rising morbid agony. But my smile I used to try and play it off was broken and sad, most likely as twisted as the conflicting emotions I felt that probably shown through.

"Yeah just thinking about something, I'm fine."

"What's on your mind, babe?" Kouga mused as he wrapped his ripped arm around my shoulders. I shook my head quickly and backed out of his hold.

"Nothing I said, I'm fine." Kouga looked at me strangely and looked as if he was going to further the obviously avoided subject, but then the others suddenly made a large outburst.

"Yo, MIROKU! You're stinkin' up the whole fuckin' street, yo!" Bankotsu shouted. Naraku laughed.

"You faggot!" Kouga yelled. My eyes widened at what he called Miroku.

"Hey, Pepe Le Pew, keep your stank to yourself!" Bankotsu continued.

Naraku chuckled. "Flatulence." I stared in terror. These guys were beyond immature and disgusting.

"Hey! Don't call HIM that, if anything, you should be calling mutt over there that. Yo, you smell like wet dog, Pepe Le Pew!" Kouga howled and everyone laughed.

"Or Pepe Le Bark!" Miroku skidded into a laughing fit.

"Or Pepe My Foot Up Your Ass." Inuyasha muttered, sounding extremely annoyed. The others continued laughing and we walked on. My eyes closed in annoyance and I shook my head. Suddenly Kouga spoke in a rushed angry tone.

"Bank, Roku, Rock, those mother fuckers are on our turf again."

"Who is where?" I asked quickly.

"Oh hell no!" Bankotsu pulled a gun out from his pocket and I jumped back in shock.

"What the hell are you doing with that!?" I screamed and Kouga covered my mouth.

"Calm down baby, it's fine. They are just an adversary gang, alright? Hey mutt, watch Kagome and don't you let anything happen to her or I'll feed you to the rivals." All I could think was 'They were a gang?!'

"Whatever." Inuyasha muttered and grabbed my arm tightly and yanked me away towards the bushes. The last thing I saw before I was pulled into the shrubs was Miroku taking out a gun, and Kouga and Naraku flicking open pocket knives as a group of guys got out of a car.

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