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To the love of my Life,
Renesmee Carlie Cullen, Yesterday you left my life, for what seems like forever. I can assure you that my life will no longer be filled with sunny days, with dewy,green grass and bright blue skies... They all went away the moment your father commanded his orders and your family took you away from me. I can't begin to even tell you why i love you so much, i don't even know why im even trying to write it down. They are just words.
All i want to do is hold you in my arms, and be able to get that tiny little peice of me back. The tiny piece that is you, because without it, i cannot opperate properally. I can not function. I Need you to live Renesmee. I can still Smell your incredible scent, like no other, i can still feel your long copper brown locks between my fingers, i can still see your chocolate eyes locked to mine, I can still taste your lips. I've broke down so many times already, and its only been a day.. I honestly don't think i'm going to be able to stay alive. Of course, you will never realise this, as i won't be sending these letters to you. I just hope, wherever you have gone in the world, you are thinking of me, And i PROMISE with all my heart,body and soul that i will keep to my word Nessie, I Promise i WILL wait for you. However Long it takes. My Deepest Love Always, Jacob Xxx

To my Beautiful Nessie, I Wonder what you are thinking of, I miss the touch of your hand on my cheek as you communicate your thoughts to me. I think thats one of the things i miss more than anything about you. Our way of communication. You would just have to place your perfectly pale hand onto my face, and you would reasure me of everything, and remind me of how much you loved me so, which only made me love you even more, if ever that be possible. Did you know that it has been exactly 1 month and 11 days since i last saw you? thats right sweetheart, its Wednesday the 18th November, i can hardly believe it myself, it feels like it has been years. I Hope you realise that it still pains me now as it did the day your arms left mine.. All i do is forever replay our memories in my mind.. To be quite honest the pack are getting sick of it now, having to see me mourn for you as if your dead..Leah said you might as well be because i will never see you again. I attacked her as soon as the words rolled out of her mouth.. she was badly injured, but of course healed straight away.. unfortantly.. but doing that to her only reminded me of the day you left more.. and the fight with your father... Well anything to piss off Leah eh? I miss you terribly, forever and always, Come on Ness, I'm waiting for you like i promised.. and your not here, why are your family doing this to me? to us?? i just wish i had some way of communicating with you... something to compensate the fact of me not seeing your beautiful face everyday.. It's funny though, Sometimes in my head i can hear you as clear as day..But thats never really enough. I NEED you Nessie. Waiting Forever, My Deepest Love Always,
Jacob Xxx

My Beautiful Nessie,
Today feels like a better day, and no, not because the pain of you has disapeared, not at all, that still weighs heavy on this heart of mine, It was because i was sleeping, and your voice screamed at me. Odd i know, but even your screams are beautiful, it's like you was actually here with me. I was really disapointed when you was not there. I had to bring myself not to cry.. (Obviously i wouldn't admit this to my pack, You know how macho i get - Real men don't cry) But if my tears are shed for you, then yes, i will cry. You are the only person worth crying over. who knew that you screaming "WHAT!" at me in my dreams could be so amazing! I'm hoping that is a sign, either a sign of a good day or an AMAZING sign that i am some how willing to speak with you in some way shape or form. Now i am dreaming Huh? GOD! why does this have to be so hard Ness?! I'm glad you won't actually read all these letters, because in alot of them, i plot revenge on your father.. He enjoys my pain i think... I Still wonder where you are, and hope everyday for your return. Sleep tight my love, Rest well, and above all, Try your hardest to remember me.. Because i love you darling, and we will be together, and do not forget, you are my fiance.. which means we are bound to be together. Remember our day at La Push's first beach? the day your dad went the MADDEST over your thoughts? Well.. I think about that alot. You looked perfect. You ARE perfect my beautiful princess. My Deepest Love Always,
Jacob Xxxx