Dear Roy… Sincerely, Riza
-Little Miss Clueless-
A continuation…
Yes another fic inspired by another song…
Music: Dear Jamie, Sincerely Me
Artist: Hellogoodbye
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And to all those who favorite-d/alerted/read the first chapter.
Dear Roy… Sincerely Riza
-Riza Hawkeye-
Should I tell him how I am? Should I tell him that I'm running away?
I gazed at Black Hayate looking for answers in his cute eyes. Unfortunately, there's nothing. All he could do was be cute and make me smile but he can't give me solutions to problems he'll never experience.
Roy called my hometown for some reason.
People from around here did not like my father but they sure do adore 'his charming daughter' and Roy knew that. He asked about me, if I was here and of course the kind people of my neighborhood would not lie about my whereabouts.
They told me he wanted to know if I was doing fine, when I'll return to central, and other stuff that I didn't wanna hear anymore coz' I'll just over read it again.
I stared back at the empty paper on my desk. I'm gonna write everything I feel and send it to him, that way I could start over without feeling all that pain when I remember him.
"I can't do this" I sighed.
Black Hayate barked at me as if encouraging me that I could.
I sat the tip of my fountain pen on the paper.
Dear Roy, I wrote.
I wanted to say I million things but I had to start with something simple.
I know I didn't say goodbye properly but I had very little time to do so…. No! No! No!...
I crumpled the paper and threw it away.
Okay okay… I'm gonna do it right this time.
To Roy,
I know I should've said goodbye but it hurt.
I crumpled another paper… No this isn't right at all.
Around 3 hours passed and I saw a mountain of crumpled paper beside Black Hayate, I sure am wasting a lot of paper and ink for someone I'll forget.
Okay, this time I'm not gonna throw away this paper even if it's a whole load of crap.
Dear Roy,
I'm sorry for not saying goodbye properly. I just wanted to have some time to think, a little time for me to relax. I know it wasn't right for me to just quit like that but I have no use there anymore. I have killed too many people in Ishbal and helping you was the only way I could clear my conscience. Killing more would murder me, I hope you understand that.
I want to say a few things to clear my head. I don't wanna disrupt anything in your life nor confuse you, I just wanna start over and letting all this pain go is the only way I could do that. Roy Mustang, ever since my eyes met your form, I was in love with you. I don't wanna sound like those romance books but, you've truly brought back the smile in me, you did not ruin my trust in you, you fulfilled your promise, and you never disappointed me . When you got married I wanted to pull you out of there, but I couldn't coz' you were happy, if being with her made you happy then I would never want to pull you away. I know my letter's going no where since there's just a lot I want to tell you and writing it isn't enough.
I want you to understand why I can't see you anymore, why I can't be in the Military, and why I want to start over. All I want you to do is not look for me .
I'm sorry… I fell in love with you.
Sincerely,
Riza
I folded the letter in two and inserted it in an envelope, I sealed it up and hid it in my black romance book.
I'm gonna send it when I'm off to another country, far from where I stood before and where I stand now.
A place where I could be whoever I want to be and no one will remind me of the pain I've caused and the pain I'm going to leave behind.
I hope that was enough for the 2nd chapter… the 3rd chapter will revolve around the song "How Do You Sleep" by Jesse Mcartney… Please review if you find any error or you find it good...
