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Thursday, 3rd December. 11:22AM

Dear Diary,
Christmas is coming up, and i usually love this time of year, but I hate it now.2 Years 2 months 4 days i have spent without Jacob, My personal angel. I begged to the the most my willpower could let me to be able to see Jacob this christmas, and of course, my request was rejected. Even considering this was the second time that i have talked sinced being here in England. I could not understand why dad would not allow it, there would be no school anyway, as it would be the christmas holidays. I think the only good thing about moving to England was the fact that i had made friends at the dump of a High school i had been enrolled in. It was called Waseley High and the two people i had become friends with where called Katie and Abbie. Fortunatly, People at Waseley where very welcoming and i didn't have to try much to gain friends..

*FLASHBACK*
I walked into the crowded reception area of the school with half of my family.(Apart from Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper, They had been enrolled to Newman college not far away.) We made our way through to the desk where a young woman was standing, Helping out other students and giving them maps and planners. My mother and Edward where acting as Sixth formers, which was Year 12 over in England,Alice was acting as a year 11 student, and i was suppost to be year 10. Yay for me and Alice, i sighed. We had ridiculous uniforms in which we had to walk around in. Not only that but light blue shirts, blue and yellow ties, with black skirts, knee high socks and black dolly shoes. Great, i wasn't very impressed to put it lightly. Mom and Edward got to wear there own clothes. Suckish. They get all the Luck, But then again, how embarressing would it have been to see my parents in school uniform?! How annoying was it anyway that i was going to have to pretend that my parents and aunty where actually my brother and sisters? What was with that?! God damn highschool, and everything it represented!!

"Hello, We are Dr. and Mrs. Cullen's foster children, We were wondering if we could have our Lesson plans?" Edward asked Calmly, Obviously he had been through this routine a thousand times before. "Uhmm.. Yes.. Hang.. Hang on one minute please!" the woman stuttered and stammered from the otherside. She was obviously 'Dazzled' as my mother put it, but Edward's beauty, and probably wondering how a group of small people could be so physically attractive. Ha, if only she knew.

We waited for a couple of minutes before the woman at the desk returned with our year plans and maps of the school. Edward handed the pieces of paper out to Mother and Alice, Then gave mine to me last. I think that my ignorance towards him was getting on his final nerve now, and he decided to play the game back at me. "Mmm" i grunted before turning around and analysing the sheet in front of me. German first, with in L3. I Looked at the Map, Where the Hell was that?! Alice leaned over my shoulder and pointed the way, and she walked the same direction as me for a few seconds, before turning off at a corner. "Catch you later Ness," she smiled and winked, dancing off towards where her first lesson was. Every boy in that hall that past her seemed to also have a serious case of 'Dazzlement'.

I sighed and walked down the hall, then up a flight of stairs, and into a narrow corridor, flooded by hormal teenagers, chatting and laughing loudly. I scrunched my face up. This was probably going to be worse than i feared. i tried looking at the door numbers, looking for L3, but my sight was only to be blocked by more teenagers. This was almost infuriating. I scanned the faces of each and every human body in the room for a second or so, trying to look for the most innocent face i could find, And then i found her. She looked about my age, and she was standing with her back to me. I gently tapper her on the shoulder, and she spun around sending her straight brown hair flying everywhere, close enough to hit me in the face.

"Yes?" she asked, her face and voice full of question, yet it was not a harsh tone, and i considered this to be a good sign.

"Erm.. Hi, i was wondering if you could tell me where to find L3?" I asked, slightly nervously. She returned my nervous glance for a smile.

"Yeah! i have that lesson right now, Don't worrry your in the right place! You can sit with me and my friend if you like" She was so friendly that i could not help but return her smile. I was hoping that i could find a friend in this girl, maybe it would make things in England a tiny bit easier.

"I'm Abbie Lee, Whats your name?" she said, taking my hand.

"I'm Renesmee, But friends call me Nessie" i replied.

"Oh yeah, i knew it was something fancy, Your with the new kids right?" she asked eagerly.. Oh no, I didn't like this, i hoped it wouldn't be the topic route of all conversations for today, or any other day, for that matter. "Yeah.." i shrugged. Her smile turned into a huge grin

"Oh, My, GOD!" she squeeked "That guy, Your foster brother? Edward i think his name is.. IS SO HOT!!" She got abit excited and jumped around on the spot for abit, and my nose wrinkled at the fact she had just called my brother hot. Ew. Double Ew. i did not want to hear her fantasizing about my dad. She looked at the girl stood next to her, who i had not noticed before and Shoved her, "Don't you think so, Katie?" She gushed, while i tried to hide the traumatasization in my eyes. Katie Shrugged whilst her cheeks flushed red. "No." she replied to Abbie, before turned back to look at me. "I'm Katie Barns" she smiled "excuse Abbie, i think she has a few mental problems.." She whispered, but loud enough for her friend to hear. Abbie nudged her and giggled. I giggled and smiled too. Having these people to communicate with didn't seem too bad after all, And for a small amount of time, they made the hole in my heart a little bit smaller, But it still didn't close the Gap that longed for Jacob.
*END OF FLASHBACK*

These people that i had now called my friends made me feel a tiny bit better about myself, and i cherrished that alot. It was Christmas in 22 days, and i was praying to God - If there was any God at all - That I would be flown to Forks, And i would be home for christmas - That i would see Jacob.

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Saturday, 27th December.

Dear diary,
I hope to NEVER see another christmas again. Not unless I am in Jacobs arms. It was uninventful, tiring, deafening and boring. Being in a household full of vampires, They did not seem to bother with holidays like this, there was no Christmas spirit at all. Unlike Spending time down in La Push, with the packs all together, Having a Christmas meal, spending time with My grandfather Charlie, And spending time with Billy, and obviously the best thing of them all, Jacob. Only the La Push wolves can make Christmas interesting. I Was so enraged when i knew for certain that i would not be spending christmas in forks. URGH. They didn't even have to come with me if they didn't want to, they could have sent me on a plane by myself.

They could have just gave me a week, no not even that, A Day! A Day of happiness!! What did they think i was going to do?! run away with Jacob again?? Yeah right like i would even try it, Like i would put myself through that heartache again. They make me sick. Not even my mother stood up for me. "maybe it's for the best Nessie,Darling" she would go on, siding with father. In fact everyone did. I couldn't even run to Roaslie this time, who ALWAYS stood up for me. Well Forget this!! I'm going out to see my friends, at least they give a fuck about me.