Sunday 31st January 2011

Dear Diary,

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!

OHMYGODOHMYGODOHMYGOD!! Do You realise what date it is???!?!?! today is the BEST day EVER!!

Reason: I'm going back to Forks, TOMORROW!! I'm being reunited with the love of my life, for the first time in what seems like forever!
Okay, so i cannot lie, i have quite enjoyed the time that i spent in England. It was a new experience, and i had made some really great friends in that process. I couldn't really imagine weekdays now without Katie and Abbie in them. Laughing and crying too, having great days out to the cinema or the mall... It was going to be wierd leaving them behind. Thats what confused me. I didn't know weather to tell them about me leaving or not. I could just leave them.. It will be easier in the long run if i cut all ties now, I would hate to keep in touch with them for years and meet up with them one day and have them suspicious of me, Because of course, i wasn't really going to age anymore than i had.

Oh Damn It!!! I'm crying... I Wish the human side of me would shut down right now!! I had waited for so long to go back to my true home, and now it was coming up, i didn't know how good of an idea it would be to go back there. Of course their was Jacob, the pack, Charlie and Sue, Billy, along with everything else amazing about forks, but here i had experienced the way humans live, Without hanging out with Full on Vampires or werewolves every other five minutes. I had become close and dependant on my two new friends, And i wanted to be friends with them forever. They said that we are friends forever too. Obviously they do not realise that when i say 'forever' it really means 'forever', for an enternity. Damn It.

Urgh. Right, i'm not going to let these thoughts get to me right now. All i want is to see Jacob. Love conquers all right? Therefore, if it is a choice that i have to make, Then Jacob comes first... Maybe i will see them Later On. Not to tell them i'm leaving, but to make my last time with them amazing. I'll treat them to something amazing! We'll have an great time, and then, they will not remember me as the heartless bitch that couldn't be bothered to tell her friends that she was moving, but the friend that did nice things for the people she cared about. Yes, that sounds appropriate. I Hope when i'm gone they do not think bad of me.
Right Better Phone Katie, and make arrangements.

Sunday 31st January 2011 22:00

Dear Diary,
I Cannot sleep!! i'm so excited!! i will be leaving for forks extremely soon! We are leaving here at approxamately half past midnight. I've Already Packed and unpacked 10 times, just to make sure i am surely satisfied with the way i have packed it. I am restless! I Wish i was tierd!! i could have some sleep and that would make the time go quicker. That's all it is now that is keeping me from my love - Time. Urgh. Stupid time!

I Did go and see Abbie and Katie earlier on. We went to the Cinemas,Bowling and then i treated them both to a meal too. We had a really good time and a great laugh and i cannot think of a better way to remember them by, both happy, both smiling, both free.

I could not just leave it at that though, i couldn't just leave this and not tell them i was leaving, to never return... There was too much emotion in this to do that, i loved them so much, i loved them like i love Alice or Rosalie. They where like support machines for me, they made up for my loss of Jacob not being here.

I told them i was going on holiday for a little bit, and they wern't really suprised at this, They already think my family love to get away anyway, What with all the 'camping trips' we have. Ahh.

Abbie smiled wide and told me that i better get her a red sugar dummy for when i return and i squeemed at this. She laughed at me, assuming that i didn't like them, and ruffled my long, silky hair,like she was patting i dog, i pushed her and playfully stuck my tongue out. Ha, i was going to miss this fooling around.
When it was almost time to return back to the Cullen'S English household i got a picture of us together to remember us by. I think i will send them that, Hopefully they will apprieciate it. I wish i could explain my situation to them a little better. But i would never share with them the secret world that my life held, that my life was. Life would be 10000 times easier for them if they were clueless and it was going to stay that way. So while we all smiled, laughed and cheered, i couldn't help but cry a little inside. I was clever to hide it, hopefully they didn't notice any sadness in my eyes... They always gave me away. Katie simply asked when i was coming home and i couldn't even look at her when i answered, and just replied 'i'm not sure yet, the family want to make it a long trip, you know.' Don't worry, i'll write to you'. Urgh. I hated lying, So thats when i decided to leave them, and we shared hugs and 'i miss yous', Me clinging on to the words 'we'll miss you' more than ever and replaying them in my head as i walked home..

So that is that for Katie and Abbie, unless fates somehow brought the Cullens back to England, Which i highly doubt. Now it is time for the present, time for Jacob, Time for Jacob and Me! God, that sounded so amazing to my ears. Jacob,Me,TOGETHER. I truely cannot wait. Has he kept his promise to me? Has he truely waited for me, instead of being with another? I Hope so, but then again, i know him. He deffinatly wouldn't go back on his promise. I Knew him too well. I can feel colour flush through my cheeks, thinking about our reunion. All that i need to do now is have a couple of hours on a plane. GOD!! Words can really not describe this feeling, this incredible yet impatient feeling in the pit of my stomach right now. Amazing. Hmm.. Father and Mother are calling, Mother is coming up the stairs gracefully as she does.. I can't believe that in her human life she was so Clumsy as father recalled.. Not for a second... Seems i've been summoned for a hunt before the plane journey! Eeek!! Not long to go now!! Hopefully next time i write in here i will be in Forks!! I cannot wait!.

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**NPOV**

I closed the dairy and put it into the hand luggage bag that i was taking with me. I Smiled as i looked up at my door frame to see my mothers eyes shining brightly at me, instantly followed by my fathers. "Nessie Darling, Your father and I are going to do a quick hunt before we leave for Forks, Fancy joining us?" Mother smiled. "I heard that you couldn't sleep" Father chuckled. I grinned back at him. Father and Me, Finally back on to the great terms we had once been on, Especially now we where going home. "Is this for Real Dad?" I asked honestly.
"Are we really returning to Forks?"
He searched my eyes for a second, instantly at my side. He held out his arms to embrace me into a hug, and Mother joined. i felt warm and fuzzy. "This is for real, Renesmee. We ARE going back to Forks.. We are going home" he barely whispered. A large smile stretched across my face, and i took my father's hand in my left hand, and my mother's in the right, and we gracefully glided toward to front entrance of the house. In a few hours time. Jacob will once again be mine.