I Don't Own Anything sadly, Do you think I'm Stephenie Meyer you must be crazy!! (btw No vamps in this story atleast not yet I might throw some in whop knows lol)
oh btw THANK YOU Moon-in-the-twilight your amazing!! Part about the glasses was hers shes so helpful thank you!!
EDWARD CULLEN POV:
The rain quietly pattered outside the bedroom window Bella fell asleep in my arms, I listen to her soft breathing next to me, I couldn't help but repeat in my head that Bella was mine. Bella's mine I thought.
Then realization hit me. This was why I got beaten up the first time. Someone at school also wanted Bella. I had to keep our relationship on the down low. Knowing my luck it would be the new gossip of the school. I could hear it now.
'Hey the blind freak is dating Bella.'
'Can you believe the gull of him to take her away'
'what a freak.'
NO WHAT ARE YOU THINKING. I yelled at myself. I was having an internal battle. I didn't want to have a pity party it wasn't part of the plan. Bella stirred next to me.
"Edward." She whispered.
"Yes Bella?" I tried to look at her.
"What's wrong?" She was concerned it spread through out her voice.
"Nothing." I lied rolling over in my bed. I couldn't tell her what happened the first time I was beaten up. I don't even know who the jerk was that did it. I didn't tell my family either. I didn't want Bella to blame herself for this or the family to blame themselves.
"Whatever it is you can tell me." I had to think of a lie very fast.
"I'm just a little sad we have to go back to school tomorrow." She must have believed me, her arms wrapped around my waist. I smirked. "I thought it was the boys job to hold his girlfriend."
Bella laughed. "Well, I'm gonna take over for a little bit."
Bella and I snuggled the rest of Sunday away only going down stairs for drinks or food. Bella had to leave at 7 because Charlie asked her to be home around that time. I was so bummed.
I stumbled around a bit trying to get to my piano room. I actually fell down the stairs, well I was distracted. That's for sure. I got up my back hurt.
"Edward are you okay?!" Alice squealed next to me making me jump.
"Yeah, Alice. I'm well not exactly all here at the moment." Alice giggled just like Alice.
"Miss Bella?" I shook my head yes. "Here let me help you."
Alice's hand wound around my arm helping me stand up, "Don't worry you'll see her tomorrow. Oh and by the way, the piano is in the attic not here."
I scowled. "Alice, your mean."
Laughter was behind me. I walked up to the attic, I sat myself at the bench. What to play, what to play? I just kept thinking I wanted something to keep me busy.
I know the idea finally popped into my head, Flight of the Bumblebee by Nikolai Rimsky-Korsakov, the song was fast enough hopefully to get my mind off Bella for that second. Faster faster I kept telling myself. I'm sure I looked like a lunatic, bobbing back and forth. My eyes fluttered closed, I didn't need them open anyways. I just let the music flow through my body. Note after note everything felt so natural. I finally finished I was about to play it again when several people we clapping behind me.
"Wow Edward." Rosalie laughed.
"You look like a mad man when you play the piano Edward." Emmett boomed, Then I heard a slapping noise. "Owww, My shoulder."
"Emmett don't make fun of your brother." Esme warned.
"Edward, I think you have perfected that song." Carlisle grabbed my shoulder giving it a squeeze of support.
"Thanks." I sighed, running my hand through my hair. "Why are you guys all up here?"
"Well, it's not everyday someone can play such a complicated song." Carlisle answered.
"Gotcha." I smiled.
"Edward, you really need to clean this room up." Esme sighed. "You have music all over the floor."
"I know." I answered, "But I know where it all is."
"I don't believe you." She patted across the floor
"You should test him." Emmett and Jasper laughed. I was about to protest when, Esme took my hand and lead me to the corner farthest away from my piano I think.
"What's in this corner Edward?" She tested.
"I'm pretty sure I'm in the farthest corner from the piano correct?" I asked politely.
"Yes, dear." She was smiling. I could tell.
"Well this corner contains Beethoven pieces, Correct?"
Esme sighed next to me. "Yes. What about the corner on the same wall in front of you?"
"Well, My personal compositions and such." I was worried about that one. I hadn't been in that corner for awhile nothing new to type down.
"Wrong." Jasper laughed.
"No wait hold on wrong corner." I sighed.
"You gave the wrong answer." Alice laughed.
"I got mixed up there are four corners here and the corner closet to the piano has Personal, that corner contains Giovanni Gabrieli." Please let this be the corner I'm thinking of.
"Yup." Thank god.
"Are we done?" I asked Esme turning to face her.
"What's in the last corner?" she laughed.
"Random things." She kept laughing "okay I'll leave you alone about the personal hygiene of this room."
I laughed. "Thanks."
"Okay, Eddie it's time for Dinner." We walked in single file down to the table we all ate in pleasant conversation nothing was brought up about my new relationship with Bella, thank god. Everyone left, Esme and me were the only ones left in the kitchen.
"Esme, wouild you like help?" I asked grabbing plates off the table.
"Only if you would like to dear." I smiled.
"Of course." Esme grabbed my hand and took me to the sink. I couldn't remember all the times I helped Esme with dishes. I would always rinse them and out them in the drying rack.
"You know, Dear?" Esme always to started the conversation.
"What??" I asked sincerely.
"I can't believe my little boys grown up." She said and laughed gently. "You've grown so confident."
"How?" I asked. I really didn't see how I had become more confident.
"You stopped wearing those glasses. I never liked them. You have such pretty eyes." She said and I blushed.
"I don't know about that but thank you."
"Oh don't give me that Bologna, they are."
"But your my mother, your suppose to say those things." I laughed, and she smacked me on the arm.
"Why don't you think they are?" She asked seriously, putting another dish in my sink.
"I don't know from what the doctors have told me, is that they have a gross sort of film over them, and there dull. How amazing can they be?"
I heard Esme sigh next to me. "don't listen to them."
"Esme, they aren't lying. I mean if they were someone would have stopped them." it was my turn to sigh.
"Edward, you really need to think on the bright side of things." More dishes in the sink.
"My eyes they don't work Esme. My side is brighter than most, well not really. Darkness covers everything, but I hope you get what I'm saying. I try not to worry about it you know, but now that I have Bella,..." I stopped.
"Now that you have Bella what?" Esme asked. I shook my head no.
"Edward tell me." Esme turned me toward her. My eyes stared into the darkness.
"No, I don't want to." Esme grabbed my hands and placed them on her shoulders.
"Edward, you better tell me." I felt a tear land on my hand, my mother the worry wart.
"Please don't cry." I moved my hand to wipe the tears from her cheeks.
ESME CULLEN POV:
Edward's clumsy hands wiped the tears off my face. His face was closed in expressions, his eyes looked over my head.
"If you don't want me to cry, I need to know what you were going to say." Edward sighed, His eyes blinked. His head went down, bronze hair flew in front of his face like a curtain.
"I'm scared to lose her, I'm not a whole." He whispered. He had tears falling out of his eyes, my heart hurt. Pain. My son thought he wasn't a whole person, just because he was blind. More tears ran down my face. I took Edwards hand and guided him to the porch and sat him in a chair I kneeled in front of him.
"Edward, darling. What do you mean your not whole?" I questioned. I'm pretty sure I knew the answer.
"I'm not a whole person." He quivered. I was furious, not at Edward. But how could he think this. The thoughts made me furious
"Why do you say that?" I asked calmly.
"Most guys can take there girlfriend on dates by driving her there, they can tell her how beautiful she is, sit and watch a movie with her." Edwards breath escaped shakily. "They can look at her, anyone whole can just look at her and do those things. There normal, I'm not"
"Edward, your wrong. Your normal" He looked up at me. His eyes gazing over my shoulders.
"No mom, I think your wrong." I grabbed his hand.
"Dear, you are one of the kindest souls I have ever met. You care more about others than you do your self. You always keep everyone in check." I laughed trying to lighten the mood, Edward was having none of that. "Bella, is totally in love with you. She wouldn't have cared if you were blind, deaf and missing your legs. She loves you for you and you need to realize. Also the Edward I know is all there. He's the best little baby boy I know." Edward had stopped crying.
"I don't fully agree, but thanks mom." His hand landed on my cheek. His kissed my other cheek, and hugged me. My dear Edward always the mama's boy. We sat there for a few moments, his head laid on my shoulder. I was wondering after 10 minutes what was going on, then I realized Edward's breathing was steady he had fallen asleep. I looked over and there was Carlisle standing in the doorway, I had known he was there, but Edward hadn't. He was to preoccupied.
"Can you help me?" I whispered, he was starting to get a little heavy.
"Yeah." Carlisle picked him up. "Man he weighs a lot more than he did when he was seven."
I laughed quietly. "That's for sure."
We walked inside the other kids were yelling in the living room, Edward started squirming. "Shhhhh!" Carlisle whispered.
Everyone looked over at Carlisle carrying Edward upstairs. "Awwww." Rosalie whispered along with Alice.
"Such a man." Emmett quietly chuckled. I glared at my son. He shook his head.
Carlisle was bounding down the stairs. "Goodnight kids."
"Oh come on Carlisle." Emmett whined.
"It's 11:30, you can go to bed." Everyone of our children filed up the stairs.
"Goodnight, Esme, Carlisle." Jasper called down the stairs.
"Good night Jasper." I called back along with Carlisle.
"We need to talk about you know." Carlisle pulled me swiftly into the bed room. He shut the door. "How can he think so lowly of himself?"
"I really don't know dear." I replied.
"I mean we didn't raise him any different from the rest," He was getting aggravated. "OK maybe a little different with the braille learning and everything, but other than that nothing."
"Darling, I know." I rushed to his side. "he's just going through this weird part in his life right now."
"I just don't want Edward to think he's not whole. He's perfectly healthy, a wonderful student, a great son, an amazing brother, and I'm guessing a nice boyfriend." Carlisle laughed.
"It's his first girlfriend, I'm sure he was just worried." I hugged my husband.
"I know, but god our son is worried about his wholeness. How can you tell a blind boy to take a look at himself and see he's perfect in everything he does?" Carlisle asked again sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I know what you mean, but maybe you could tell him to listen to himself. Figure it out from there?" Carlisle was rubbing circles in my back.
"Or we could have the other kids gang up on him." He laughed.
"Oh perfect Idea." I replied. "He would be so confused he have to plug his ears, it would also probably be to loud for him to handle."
"Maybe he should see somebody?" Carlisle took his shoes off.
"Maybe." I replied safely. "Let's stop worrying right now and let's get some shut eye."
"I agree." Carlisle laid down next to me. I dreamt of nothing other than Edward crying, poor baby.
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p.s I hope everyone knows this is not a filler chap it's serious thoughts from Edward that Esme needed to hear wanted to throw some Esme and Edward Son mother stuff okay!!
