"Violent Delights, Have Violent Ends. &+ In There Triumph, Die."
Nothing can be more foolish or reckless than a 17-year-old girl in high school. Now that I look back at it I realize how clueless I was. I was head over heels for the high school jackass. Not only did he use girls for sex, but he used them to impress his stupid guy friends. Did I mention? I was his best friend since the fourth grade? Yeah, and I was the stupid ass friend who stood by him no matter what. I knew the moment we went into high school things were going to change, but I was never prepared for what really happened.
"Edward this year is going to be the best!" I screamed before we got out of the car. His mother, Emse, always let me carpool with them. My mom worked night shift and wasn't home till ten in the morning. Needless to say, she was a walking zombie when she got home, so Emse was generous enough to give me a ride every day. It wasn't a big deal, he only lived down the street from me.
"I know! We're going to rule the whole damn school!" Edward screamed along with me.
"Edward! Watch your mouth!" Emse yelled at us through the review mirror.
Edward chuckled and stuck his tongue out at her. Then we did out secret handshake and hopped out of the car to our teenage future. It looked like hundreds of people were everywhere at the entrance of the school. Some hanging out, some talking, some even smoking. I was so excited. Not only was I walking next to a very gorgeous guy, but I went up two full bra sizes last year! Ah, things were so simple back then, huh? I started falling in love with Edward in 6th grade. It was only until four years ago that I realized my best friend was completely inhumanly sexy. His skin was normal, tan from the summer. His green, emerald eyes that just. . . sparkle. He spent all summer working out, and I went to the gym with him to shed a couple pounds, so he was definitely built. He was deffinatley something every girl wanted a piece of. And here I am, walking next to him into high school! It's going to be like this every day! Girls are going to envy me!
"Are you nervous?" Edward asked, interrupting my thoughts. I looked up at him, he was smiling down at me. I noticed some people looking our way. I was overwhelmed with confidence with him by my side.
"A little, but every teenager feels that way on their first day of high school, right?" I giggled.
"So I'm not the only one." He blushed. I blushed along with him. Only because he looked so amazingly cute when he blushed, "You look very nice today." I almost froze like a robot during a rainy day. My face was probably as red as a tomato too. How embarrassing.
"Uh, heh, thanks I guess. You look nice. . too." I giggled, like a little girl.
"Did you put make-up on?" He asked, innocently. Why is he doing this to me!?
"Um, yeah why does it look bad?" I mumbled, trying to pull out my mirror to see.
"No, no!" He smiled, then he stopped me. I looked up at him, he was starring at my face intensely, "Your eyes look hazel." He said.
"Yeah, um, this eye shadow is suppose to make my eyes pop. Well, that's what the girl at the counter said." I kept rambled on.
"Oh that's just great. The hormonal teenage boys are going to be all over you, Bella. Just great." He said, putting his hands on his hips. I laughed at him, and he raised one eyebrow filled with confusion.
"Ha, ha! I don't think so! All those hormonal girls are going to be all over you!" I joked, flicking his nose. He smiled warmly. I wrapped my arms around his arm and we kept on walking. I heard whispers around me, mostly about how hot Edward was. They have no idea. He's beautiful inside and out. It's almost like he's inhumanly perfect. It amazes me.
There they were. The doors to my future. Will it be good or bad? I didn't know at the time. I looked up at Edward, and he smiled down at me.
"Ready?" He asked. I grinned, and nodded. "Before we go, promise me one thing." He whispered, as people walked by us, into the school. The bell already rang.
"What?" I asked, in a hurry almost. I did NOT want to be late my first day.
"Don't change." He whispered. I looked up at him, and starred into his eyes, man, they looked like green gems. I nodded slightly.
"Promise."
Then he opened the doors and we walked into the unknown.
It didn't happen right away. Things went on normally for about 6 months. We were still best friends, and no one could break that. It was the the last week of the next month, that things REALLY started changing. Edward went away on a camping trip every year with his family so I didn't see him for three weeks. But three days after he came back, he called me at midnight one night, and he sounded like he was going to explode.
"Edward, what's wrong?" I asked, panicking.
"Bella, it's my fucking parents. There fighting again. This time it's gone too far." He said, like he was out of breath, "There getting a divorce."
"Oh Edward! I'm so sorry! Want me to come get you?"
"Yeah, please."
I hung up, and grabbed my new jacket my mom bought me. It was leather, my favorite. I have a leather fetish. Anyway, I put that on and didn't bother changing out of black tank-top and black and gray plaid pajamas. It was just Edward.
I live downstairs, so I didn't have to sneak out the front door. I can sneak out the back door! High five.
I made my mom change the downstairs into my room because it was huge and almost like an apartment. I had a door separating my room, and I had a little living room with a couch, a TV and my little kitchen. It was so cute! Edward always sneaks over and we stay up all night watching Disney movies. I loved when we watched The Little Mermaid because Edward knew EVERY single world to ALL the songs. And he'd just break out and use a hair brush as a microphone. Can you imagine a grown man singing 'Part Of Your World'? Impossible I know. Even though his singing was horrible, he would crack me up. I'd have stomach ache for a whole week because of that. Yeap, we had amazing memories together. . .
I walked out the door and went to the front yard and jogged down the street. Edward's house was the biggest on the block. He was swimming in cash. His father was a doctor and his mother a veterinarian. Needless to say, they got the big bucks.
I waited in front of their house, and soon Edward walked out of the backyard and over to me. He walked over to me quickly and wrapped his arms around me tightly. Usually he was cold, but tonight he was warm with heat. I sunk into him, his aroma was intoxicating. Cologne? When did he get this? He pulled away suddenly and looked in my eyes.
"I'm sorry." He said. He looked different. His eyes were darker than usual, it almost made me pull away from him. He's never looked at me like this before.
"No, it's okay. Are you. . . okay?" I asked, worried.
"Yeah I'm perfectly fine. Let's go to your place." He said, grabbing my hand and pulling me down the street.
When we got to my house we had to sneak in the back door which was normal. When we walked in I took his coat away from him and hung it up in the little closet, along with mine. This is normal, again. I walked over to the little kitchen-et I had in the corner and put a tea-pot over the little stove.
"Want co-co?" I asked.
"No, I'm okay." He said, sitting on my couch. I turned the stove off, and forgot about the whole get-warmed-up-with-coco plan.
I went and sat down Indian style, next to Edward. I was facing him, studying his face. He wasn't looking at me, just starring off into space, thinking.
"Edward." I said, breaking his concentration. He looked over at me.
"What?" He asked.
"Do you. . . want to talk about it?" I asked, touching his shoulder. He looked at my hand on him, and then at my face.
"No." He mumbled, "Can you shut the light off? It's hurting my eyes."
"Yeah sure. Turn on the TV so I don't fall, ha ha." I mumbled, getting up and shutting the light off. He turned the TV on like I asked him, but still wasn't relaxing. I sat down next to him, and sighed. Because he isn't relaxing, I'm not.
"Bella?" Edward whispered, muting the TV. I looked up at him.
"Mh?"
"I've been thinking. . ." He whispered, "about us lately."
I felt like someone electrocuted me. Suddenly the air around me intensified. What is he talking about? I didn't answer, I was stiff with goose bumps. But he continued anyway.
"And. . . I feel like. . ." He whispered, suddenly leaning forward. I felt like I couldn't breathe, and the closer he got the more suffocated I felt. He's never done this before. Why is he moving so close. I was starting to lean the opposite direction he was leaning. I felt myself almost laying down. He was almost on top me too. That wasn't the only thing taking my breath away at the moment. His eyes. . . they were completely black. His beautiful emerald eyes were black with. . . lust? The feeling that overcame my body was something I never felt before. It was strange, and amazing at the same time.
"We should. . . move on. . ." He breathed, inches from my lips, ". . .from that. . ."
It was my first kiss, and yet, it felt like my lips went completely numb. His lips were on fire, so warm they almost burned me. It felt so unbelievably amazing. He didn't really, waste any time. He was completely over me, and I was completely under him. I didn't really know what do to, so I just moved my lips along with his. How the hell does he know any of this stuff? Can this really be happening? My cute little awkward best friend Edward is actually kissing me? Suddenly I felt his tongue against my closed mouth, banging against it for entrance. I didn't know what to do, so I gently parted my lips and he barged his way in there. I kind of jumped at the sensation the moment our tongues met. It was so. . . thrilling? You can't really explain it. But whatever it was. . . it was nice.
"Edward." I breathed. He didn't answer, I just felt a low growl rumbling from his chest. I wrapped my legs around his waist, and just relaxed, and let the chips fall where they may. The thought of that made me nervous. I mean, if I'm going to go. . . there. . . I want to lose it to someone special and Edward is very special to me. . . but am I ready?
"Edward. . . stop." I breathed in-between kisses. His lips stopped moving.
"What?" He said, almost in disgust, "You want to. . .stop? Why?"
"Why are you doing this?"
"What do you mean why am I doing this? Because I wanted to?"
"I mean you kiss me out of nowhere, I guess I'm a little curious. Why now?"
He sighed loudly, his sweet-smelling breath was a cloud around me, "Listen, I'm a little stressed out right now, and I'm sick of pretending I'm not attracted to you. I want you, and I want you now." He breathed, his eyes still black with intensity.
"Excuse me? You tell me that like I'm some piece of shit." I argued.
"Take it as a compliment. I think your beautiful. I just want to show you what your missing."
"And you know what I'm missing?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.
"Don't you trust me?"
"More than anything."
"Than just relax. I know what I'm doing."
"Since when!? A week ago you were asking me why girls wear bras and now you know everything about sex." I asked, irritating fluttering around in my stomach. He almost chuckled.
"Let's just say one of Emmett's collage girlfriends came on our little trip and showed me a thing or too. Trust me, it will be everything you ever dreamed of."
"Where the hell is this coming from?"
He didn't answer me, he just started kissing me again. It wasn't like before. Before it was magical, not it was just dirty. I was SO not doing this. I pushed him off me, a little too hard. He fell onto the floor.
"What the hell Bella!!!" He yelled, getting up.
"Get out." I said simply, getting up myself.
"What do you mean, 'Get out?'"
"Exactly what I said, GET OUT." I said loudly, "Do you honestly think you can take advantage of me? I don't know where this is coming from but I do NOT like it. So get the fuck out of my house." I walked over to the closet and got his jacket out. I threw it at him and opened the backdoor for him. He just stared at me, and shook his head.
"Fuck you." He said, walking out. I stood there in shock. Did he actually just say that to me? I slammed the door and locked it. I started breathing heavily, as the realization of what just happened sunk in. Was that Edward? Was that just a huge nightmare? I didn't realize but tears were falling down my cheeks. Edward's never treated me this way before. He's never. . . he's like a completely different person! It's like I don't know who he is anymore! My sobs got louder as I got up and shut the TV off. I walked in my room and buried myself in my bed. This cannot. . . be happening to me.
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