Jacob Have I Loved

Chapter 11

"I didn't hurt you, did I?" Jake finally speaks after several minutes of holding me in his arms against his naked chest. Our uneven breathing has now returned to normal, and I feel so overwhelmingly give-out.

"No, Jake. It hurt a little at first, but then . . ." I weakly rise up and plant a tender kiss on his lips. He pulls me closer to him, returning my kiss and making me want him again. I have to distract myself. I force myself to break free from his lips. "How did it feel for you?"

"Amazing." Jake sums up exactly how it felt for me as well in one, solitary word. "I never imagined it would be that good."

"Really?" I laugh, pushing my hair out of my face, so that I can gaze into his beautiful eyes.

"Yeah. I can't believe I'm not a virgin anymore." His brown cheeks turn a severe tone of red. "It's all so surreal."

"I know. It feels strange." Well, not really. I'm completely pacified and elated to have made love to him tonight. It was the best experience of my life. "What do you think Quil would have to say about this new development?"

"He would definitely kill me for losing my virginity before he did." Jake's laughter vibrates against my bare breasts, causing me to chuckle as well. "Especially to an older woman!"

His little joke makes me feel a little uneasy. "You mean . . ."

"Yeah, he puts on a good act, but Embry and I both know he's never even kissed a girl before." Jake rolls over on top of me, laughing uncontrollably and taking my face into his palms. "But seriously, Jess, that was the best thing I've ever done. And I don't regret it."

His breath on my neck is intoxicating me once again, and I feel the exhilarating warmth of his hands as they move languidly down to my breasts. "Do you wanna, you know, do it again?" He smiles and then gently caresses my breasts with his long fingers.

"Yes, please." I whisper softly into his ear. He's left me breathless. I want to fuck you all night, Jake. I think quietly to myself.

Jake raises his body, running his hands down from my breasts to my waist. "Don't move. Let me do this, ok?" Suddenly, he massages my moistened, tingling clit and then slips his right middle finger inside me, immediately making me writhe in pleasure.

"Oh, Jake. Yes. Oh, God." I am moaning with the touch of his finger inside me. As I enjoy his foreplay, my mind starts to wander. How does he do this so well? He must be watching too much porn with Quil and Embry. I hurriedly shake away my perverse thoughts, and then I feel the returning sensation as it begins to slowly build between my legs again.

"Push all the way inside, Jake." I am hardly able to instruct him, but he hears me and thus obliges. The feeling is now paramount. Wow, orgasms are da bomb! "YES! YES! YES!" I forcibly shout between my clenched teeth, pinning his hand with my legs. My now bent knees straighten, and I force the trapped air from my lungs. "Oh, God." I relax.

"That was good, huh?" Jake smirks at me, pulling his finger out and climbing on top of me again. He kisses me openmouthed, forcing his tongue into my mouth.

"You know what would feel even better, Jake?" I ask him when he moves his lips to my chest. I almost feel like a dominatrix with what I'm about to say. I'm almost scared to say it, but I want him inside me again SO damn bad.

"What?" He searchingly peers into my eyes.

I hesitate to say the words, but then I clear my throat and just go for it. "If you would fuck me like an animal."

Jake bursts into a fit of laughter, making me cup my hands over my face in embarrassment. "Where is Jessica Burnside, and what have you done with her?"

Then, he suddenly stops laughing, pulling my hands away from my hot cheeks, and asks, "You're serious, aren't you?"

"I don't know." I shrug my shoulders, staring up at the roof of the cave. "It was just an idea."

"No, I'll try it if that's what you want." Jake sighs and rolls me over onto my stomach, coming onto his knees. Oh, God, he's actually going to do it! YES! "Bend over."

He has been watching too much porn with those dirty little boys! But I don't care; any experience is good experience as far as I'm concerned. I rise up on all fours, and I can feel Jake press his hardened member against my ass.

"Guide me in." Jake's husky voice directs me. Reaching in between my legs, I take hold of him and press him to the mouth of wetness.

"Ok, push in." I tell him, and he slowly urges his way into me. OMFG, this is heaven! Before I even know what is happening, he is pounding me harder than he did while we were flat against the ground. It is more than I can take, and I grasp the sandy carpet below, digging my fingers into the moistened dirt. The pleasure is so intense that my head drops to the sand, and my arms begin to buckle from under me. I moan loudly and then realize that I'm almost screaming.

"Damn, Jess!" Jake calls to me from behind as he hammers deeper inside me. "I want to do this all night!"

I satisfyingly grin, obviously proud of myself for suggesting it. I rise up and wrap my hands around the base of his neck, letting his lips taste my neck and my shoulders. My hair falls down in front of my face, my eyes rolling to the back of my head. Damn, this is fucking amazing!

Bracing himself with one hand firmly on my ass, Jake reaches the other up to my neck and pushes me back down into a crouched position.

"Let me fuck you." Jake's quivering voice makes the area between my legs pulsate, and he begins to thrust forcefully against my bottom once more. Oh, God, I don't want it to end—it feels so damn good!

"Damn, Jess!" He slaps my ass, causing me my whole body to jump in reflex. Is this the same boy I grew up with? It makes me chuckle to see him like this, but I like it. It turns me on even more.

"FUCK, JESSICA! OH--" He shoves himself into me even harder. "MY--" He's almost there. "GOD!" He explodes, pressing himself with all his strength into me. Jake then pulls out of me, and I land on my stomach to the sand beneath us.

"Man, that was awesome." Jake covers me with his nude body, pushing aside the hair from my neck. I can feel the rapid beating of his heart against my back as he whispers into my exposed ear, "Jess, I love you." He kisses my shoulder.

Those four words are the words I've been longing most to hear. Despite my exhausted state, I roll over, looking straight into his Quileute eyes. "I love you, too, Jake." My eyes well up with happy tears, and he smiles at me with his perfectly white teeth. Then, our lips meet again with nothing but pure bliss.