Jacob Have I Loved

Chapter 12

On the way home from First Beach, I can't help but smile from ear to ear. Jake is driving me home in the black Ford he has obviously borrowed from someone. I roll down the passenger side window, letting the cool, crisp breeze gently kiss my reddened cheeks. I take in a deep breath to relish in the fact that I've just given myself to Jake, someone who makes my whole heart beam with happiness each time I am with him.

Glancing over at my beloved in the driver's seat, I now notice that an ample grin adorns his beautiful face. Jake laughs quietly to himself and then peers fleetingly in my direction. His eyes adoringly smile at me, causing my heart to swell with never-ending contentment. He dotingly reaches over and takes my left hand into his right. Our fingers instantly lock together, and he brings my hand up to his lips to give it a small kiss. A stream of extreme elation rushes from my fingers all the way to my feet; I can easily picture myself with him for the rest of my life. Just call me "Mrs. Jacob Black" from now on.

"Technically, I'm not supposed to be driving without my dad with me." Jake breaks the silence, his hand still knotted with mine. "I only have a permit."

"I think you'll be fine. I won't tell." I tighten my grasp of his hand, enjoying the feel of his skin on mine. "Where did Billy get this car from anyway?"

"From Harry Clearwater. We sold Bella's dad, Charlie, our old truck." Jake grunts, gazing steadily at the road before him. Bella—oh, God, he still remembers her! DAMN!

"Oh, it's a nice ride." I confess, shifting slightly in my seat. Damn, I've got sand in my ass, and it's growing very uncomfortable. I attempt to adjust my panties without him noticing, struggling unsuccessfully with the seatbelt.

"I saw her today, by the way, with him." Jake's words cut me deep, making me disregard the plight with my underwear. I can't believe he's thinking about her. But I try to calm down. He's just slept with me. Twice. He's mine now. I don a wicked grin, cackling within the chambers of my mind. I won, bi-atch!

"By him, you mean Edward Cullen?" I speak the words from behind my smile, happily pondering the notion that Bella has a boyfriend despite my pure hatred for her. And a sexy one at that.

"Yeah." It's his only response. He seems sad in a way, but then peers back at me with a broad grin. For a brief moment, I almost consider the notion that he might be using me. That he might be using me to compensate for his unreturned affection for her.

Suddenly, my cell phone starts to buzz in my jean pocket. I forget my insecurities and retrieve the phone from my jeans.

"It's Steph." I inform Jake, glancing at the tiny screen. "Wonder what she wants."

"I can only guess." His expression transforms into a smirk, and he titters as if he is still thinking about our blissful moments in the cave.

I flip open the phone, pressing it to my right ear. "Hey, Steph."

"WOMAN! Where have you been?" Uh-oh! She's pissed at me. "I've tried calling you like all day!"

"Sorry, Steph, I was helping my mom at the market today." My revelation is not the entire truth, but it should pacify her for now.

"Oh, sorry. I forgot about that." Steph's voice has lowered in intensity, and I realize that we are now only a few houses down from mine. "So, what happened, you know, with Jake last night? Did you enjoy your walk home?"

"Yes, I did. Thank you." I teasingly tell her as Jake pulls the car over to the curb and shifts the gear into park.

"DETAILS! NOW!" She shouts into the phone; I can almost feel her breath emanating from the earpiece.

I glance over at Jake, who is now unhooking his seatbelt and looking at me hungrily. Oh, God, I seriously want to pounce him again, but I've got to get rid of Steph. "Nothing happened."

"What the . . . you mean, nothing at all?" As Steph's shocked words enter my ear, I feel the warmth of Jake's lips on my neck. I start to breathe deeply, almost winded.

"Uh . . . no." Damn! I try to sound disappointed, but I'm so distracted. His lips now brush the skin along my collarbone, leaving me completely lightheaded.

"You're so beautiful." Jake's whisper tickles my left ear. "Every part of you tastes so good."

I struggle to catch my breath as my lips form wide smile. Attempting to control the urges pouring through my body, I faintly hear Steph's reply: "I'm sorry, Jess. He must really like that Bella girl."

"Yeah, he's really hung up on her alright." I barely manage to say as Jake's left hand moves slowly up my inner thigh, setting ablaze the fire in between my legs. Stop, I motion with my mouth at Jake, but he doesn't see me. In response, I slap his hand away. This only causes him to sneer at me, and he relentlessly returns his hand to my thigh.

"I want you. NOW!" He speaks aloud. It must thrill him to be doing this while I'm on the phone with Steph. That sadistic little freak! I must have unleashed the beast in him. It kind of excites me, too, in a way.

"Where are you, Jess? You're not at Quil's are you?" Steph seems alarmed.

"Oh, God, no! You know me better than that!" I scream at her into the phone. "I'm, um, watching TV!" I can hardly think as Jake's tongue traces my collarbone. Goose bumps responsively rush over my entire body, igniting me further with desire.

"Whew, thank God. Oh, guess what happened with Embry?" Her elated voice can only make me wonder. "I got to second base with him in the car!"

I smile, almost smirking, and close my eyes. Well, Steph, I slid all the way into home with Jake today. Actually, I hit two homers, baby! I fiendishly chuckle out loud, my chest beaming with pride. "That's wonderful, Steph. Congratulations." Jake's hands are now on my breasts, and I'm about to explode with a hunger to feel him inside me again. It's almost maddening.

"Thanks." She replies, sighing. "Well, you know, Embry said the guys are thinking about having a big bonfire down on the beach this Friday . . ."

"Yes." I'm not answering Steph; I'm responding to Jake as he pinches my hardening nipples underneath my bra.

"I might, you know, ask him to walk down the beach, and . . . do you think I should bring protect--"

"Look, Steph, I'm sorry, but I have to go. My mom's calling me!" I rudely interrupt her, snapping my phone shut and throwing it haphazardly to the floor of the cab.

Lunging at Jake, I grab the back of his neck and urgently bring my lips to his. Jake vigorously kisses me back, pulling me to him with both brawny arms.

He then stops briefly to suggest, "Let's go to my house. My dad's at Harry's, so we'll have the place to ourselves."

No, let's go right here. In the backseat. I want him right here, right now. I don't care who's watching. But then, I realize. It's almost seven, and I promised my mom I would be home by then. My wide smile falters to a frown.

"I can't Jake. My mom's expecting me, and I still have homework to do." DAMN IT ALL TO HELL!

A clear look of disappointment flashes across his beautiful face. "Oh, yeah, right. Sorry." He pulls away from me. I instantly feel the emptiness taking me over. "Call me later."

"Definitely." I lean over and plant one last kiss on his lips. Damn, I want him! I have to force myself not to reach my hand over and shove it down his pants.

As I begin to exit the passenger door, Jake grasps my left hand as if he doesn't want to let it go. "I don't want you to go."

"I don't want to go either." The expression on his face makes me feel like I've broken his heart. "But you don't want me to be grounded, do you?"

"No, definitely not." Jake looks down to the tan, leather seat and then peers longingly back up at me. "Come to my house after school tomorrow. Please. My dad won't be there."

"Ok, I will." I give him a lasting smile, retrieving my phone from the floor and shutting the door behind me, as I leave the warmth of the cab. As he pulls away from the curb, we both exchange parting waves. My heart throbs with happiness that I was with him today, but also with sadness now that he's gone.

I hurriedly jog the last few yards to my house, running straight for the front door. Once inside the house, I call to my mother, who I know is waiting in the kitchen, as I fly up the single flight of stairs. "Mom, I'm taking a shower!"

I don't even listen for her reply as I enter my butterfly-themed bathroom and rip my clothes from my body. Immediately turning on the shower, I step into the tub and pull back the curtains to shut out the world.

As the heat from the water streams its way over my body, I close my eyes and press my right middle finger in between my legs. I'm a little sore from the two rounds of lovemaking in the cave, but I'm in need of an immediate release. Beginning to pleasure myself, I vividly fantasize that Jake is now joining me in the shower.

Attn: In case you haven't realized, this is the same Sunday that Bella plays baseball with the Cullens and James's pursuit begins. The day before was everyone's favorite meadow scene between Bella & Edward. I guess, Jake & Jess had their own blissful "cave scene." LMAO! Please review and thanks for reading. :D