Sorry it took soooo long... but i promise to make it better.... this one is a lot longer than the others and it contains some lemon goodness :) ... forgive me yet???
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Chapter Six : United
As we ran, we talked and as we talked we laughed. It felt like he had never left. The distance that had grown over the years between us immediately closed. He stopped looking up towards the tall over cast mucky mountains.
"Edward?" I whispered, not really wanting to disturb him. He had this childish yet ecstatic look on his face. The look a five year old has Christmas morning when they first see all the shiny boxes filled with surprises.
"Come with me" he said gently tugging on my hand that he already held. We ran - no where near as fast this time - towards to top of the mountain. We stood at its highest peek, slightly above the low rising mist that covered the ground beneath us. If I had ever felt like I was truly in heaven it was now. I was with him. It felt like I was standing on a cloud. Heaven.
"Look" he whispered not wanting to ruin the atmosphere I suspected. He pointed towards the setting sun as it bruised the surrounding sky, letting the last few rays burn.
It was beyond beautiful… no words to describe the perfectness of everything in that moment. I was positive there was nothing in this world that could make this moment better.
I was wrong
One of the final rays skated across the mountains finally hitting us, I had seen Edward glitter before. I knew of how this suited him, how I wished life was simpler so that the whole world could see this, that they could see the beautiful real side of Edward he hid away so often. It was more breath taken this time though, for the first time I had the chance to really see him without the blurred vision in the way. Heaven.
His expression caught my attention as he stared at me completely in shock. He didn't say anything, he just stared.
"Edward?" I barely whispered.
"Shh" he replied instantly and just continued to stare. And so I let him. As he stared I stared until the ray finally disappeared and the two of us stood in darkness. "Perfect" he spoke softly as he place a hand on my cheek and dropped his head to kiss me. Slowly and cautiously he kissed my lips before throwing his entire body into it. The cautiousness disappeared and all that was left was his urgent need for me. We fell to the floor, my legs wrapping around him and pulling him towards me, tighter. As I pulled him tighter, he kissed me harder. Finally leaving my lips to explore my jaw line and my ear. "Perfect" he growled seductively into my ear again and that did it. The bottled up emotions from the twenty years of being a vampire plus the few months I knew him as a human tore out of me and I turned him until he was beneath me.
This time I explored him. There was nothing to stop me. No restraint needed. Nothing. Just me and him. Yet these clothes were in the way - irritating - I wanted to finally feel him. As I pulled my top off over my head I leant down to undo his shirt but his hands grasped my wrists and his breathing faltered. I froze. He didn't want me.
"Bella" he began but it was enough for me to want to run and hide. I pushed away from him but he didn't let go. "If we do this, I cant lose you… ever" he said softly not meeting my eyes. That is what this was about? He thought he'd lose me.
I lunged my body towards his and he flipped me over on my back, still holding my hands he pushed them to the ground above. His kisses came fiercer and stronger. I didn't want to undo the buttons on his shirt and so I tore at it till it tore off him.
He kissed down my body, exploring every inch with his tongue. This was nothing that I had ever felt before. His hands flew to my waist band of my jeans and in one swift movement he unbuttoned and unzipped them, slowly pulling them down while pulling my pants down with them. He moaned as he pulled them completely off and started kissing up my leg, following it closely with his tongue.
I couldn't help but moan his name and as I did he seemed to get even more into it. Shivers attacked my spine the closer he got towards my center and so I threaded my hands through his hair as he got nearer.
"mmmm Edwa-----rdddd" I let out as his tongue ran up the opening towards my core. Beginning slowly he flicked his tongue back and forth making the strangest of feelings pass through my body. He started getting faster and faster making me moan louder and pant. He introduced his long fingers into the equation and before I knew it my whole body started doing small spasms, my head arched back and my back lifted from the floor. How was he so perfect at it the first time. My hands gripped the floor as I dug my nails into the dirt for something to keep me grounded.
He started to kiss slowly up past my navel towards my chest as I gathered the pieces of my mind back together and as soon as I did I rolled him onto his back. He let out a shaky laugh as I bit his lower lip before dragging my tongue down his body softly flicking the skin as I went.
Slowly watching his face carefully I undone each button, and with each button he moaned a little bit deep from his chest - his perfect rock hard but somehow soft chest. In a quick movement I had his trousers down and I decided to tease him the same way he did to me. I started at his ankles, and slowly nibbled my way up his legs towards his thigh. As I reached the top of his thigh I finally allowed myself to take notice of erection. I had never seen one in person but I was sure that it was beyond perfect just like the rest of him. I tried to think back to the many in-depth conversation, or well more of story telling that Xafner had put me through, the constant flow of details of what she had done to men time and time again.
Starting at the tip all I did was simply blow on it, immediately his hands tore into the ground as mine had before. He reached up almost as if to tell me I didn't have to but was he insane, in this moment there was nothing I wanted more than to taste him. I watched as the first drops of liquid came out and just knew instantly that I wanted to know exactly what that tasted of and so I wrapped my tongue around the top slowly and softly and couldn't help but smile when I heard him moan my name.
Perfect.
I let my mouth slowly engulf him and began moving up and down, with each movement he moaned louder and louder.
"Bella…don..t…ohhhhh….bell….la……don't…….aaahhh…sto…p…" and I had no intention of it. His hands moved from the ground into my hair as he pulled it back so he could see exactly what I was doing. Almost as if he was studying me. The moaning continued.
I could feel him twitching as his hips rocked back and forth with me. His hands moved suddenly from my hair down to my shoulders and before I realized what was happening, I was lying flat on my back with him between my legs. I could feel him at my entrance as he kissed me fiercely and so I decided to wrap my legs tightly around him. As I did this he pushed slowly into me. I felt my hands dig into his back as his hand held harder onto my head. Slowly he began moving and then faster until he was going at a perfect speed. I felt him twitch inside me again and heard him moan as he exploded inside me.
I let my hips drop to the floor certain that meant it was over but I was wrong. He started slowly again and after a few moments I felt him stiffen again and I couldn't help but want to be on top. We rolled until I was on top and I pushed up so that I was sitting on him, his hands gripped my hips and he began moving me up and down as I rocked faster. I started to feel it building again and knew I was close, although this time it felt different. This time it felt more powerful already. Our moaning was in-sync as we both gained closer to climax.
"To..ge..ther..r" he moaned and I nodded. I felt the twitching and pulsing begin from him which told me he was ready and so just as I was about to reach it I nodded down at him to signal.
As his hips hit the floor, my whole body flopped to his chest. I lid there, panting. His arms encircled me and I couldn't believe what had just happened.
"I love you" I heard him whisper through his ragged breaths.
"I love you" I barely got out as I tried to control my breathing.
We stayed like that for what could have been an eternity but I was certain it was only moments before he rolled us both on our sides and began stroking my face.
"This is like a dream" he commented as he kissed the tip of my nose.
"I don't ever want to wake up" I responded as he leant his forehead against mine.
Eventually we got up and got dressed with what remained of our clothing but everything was different now. There was this feeling, this urge. It reminded me of the urge to drink blood… it wasn't a want it was a need… and I was in need of more. I knew I had to learn to control it and so I concentrated extremely hard to. Unfortunately this meant I wasn't speaking and so I kept getting that look from Edward. The same one I had received off of him a hundred times in the past.
"Is there any chance that if I asked you what you were thinking you would actually tell me?" he finally asked pulling me to a stop. The sun was already beginning to rise and I didn't want this particular perfect night to end.
I smiled at him and shook a No.
"Please Bella…" he begged taking my face in both his hands.
"Well…" this was going to be embarrassing. "You know that instant need for blood…" I spoke not meeting his eyes and so when he finished my sentence I was surprised.
"This is the same. I know… I agree…" he said as he kissed my forehead. "I was hoping you would distract me long enough to get my mind from it but then you went silent and now…" he was barely talking above a whisper and I could hear the want in every word.
"So what do we do?" I said finally looking into his deep black eyes.
"Learn to control it I guess" I said as he licked his bottom lip. That did it. I pushed him to the ground, kissing him and sucking on that button lip before speaking again. His hands roamed up my back and into my hair only letting me barely separate from his mouth.
"Please tell me learning comes later?" I laughed shakily as I raised an eyebrow at him. He nodded furiously and pulled me closer to him as we began to devour each other.
At this rate we were never going to make it across state lines.
Later came all too fast and it was clear that neither of us wanted to actually get up but we did.
Control, control, control, control, control. I said over and over again to myself hoping it would work. It didn't and so I tried a conversation.
"So what has everyone been up to?" I couldn't look at him, looking at him only gave me ideas and from the way he kept his eyes from me I was guessing he had the same problem.
"Ohh… erm… Alice is studying fashion… as if she needs too, its all she seems to do these days, that and mope… erm Jasper is doing a History course. He was something new and seen as he lived through it pretty much, he thought it would be easier, he's not really around that often. It kept them busy between searching for you. Errr Rosalie and Emmett, well… things haven't been great there for awhile. Shortly after… umm…" his expression made it all too clear what he meant. "… they went on another holiday but returned less than a week later not talking."
"Are they still together?"
"Yes, just not as close. They argue… a lot." he sighed.
"But Alice and Jasper are okay just not around a lot, right?" his expression twisted.
"Actually, when I said they weren't around a lot… I meant, they weren't around a lot together or at all. When they are… there isn't much said between them. Its horrible to be around."
"Okay, But Esme and Carlisle? I mean there still the perfect couple right?" he looked into the distance and sighed.
"When you saw Carlisle, did you see Esme?"
"No but…"
Edward just shook his head. I couldn't breathe. The whole family had fallen apart. What had happened.
"How?"
He took a deep breath before stopping all together. He pulled me over towards a fallen tree trunk and sat down guiding me on to his lap. His forehead rested against my shoulder as he began.
"Bella, when we left you, we knew it would be difficult but never dreamed… losing you felt like someone died. It was horrible. I know I didn't help the situation. I didn't want to live. I locked myself away in my room. Alice would bring me something from the hunt if she saw I was on the verge of losing control. I just didn't care. With out you my life felt plain. Dead. I didn't realize what it was doing to the others. Jasper blamed himself and every time he felt my emotions he only got worse. Every time he felt how sad Alice was he got worse at the thought of causing her so much pain. All he did was push us all away."
"But it wasn't his fault…"
"Bella we all knew that but when your angry you blame. And we did…"
"Edward" I scolded. "Poor Jasper…"
"We know… trust me, the only reason he still comes around was because we tried to make amends… me and Alice both"
"What else happened?"
"Jasper pushed us especially Alice, it got to a point where he couldn't handle her pain and started going on hunting trips by himself for days at a time. He gave in and started feeding on humans." I felt my eyes grow wide. "He didn't feel like he deserved her anymore so he waited for the day that she told him to go… of course she never did but the damage was done… his mind was set to waiting."
"Poor Jasper" I said again. "Esme?"
"She said losing you was like losing her child all over again. She couldn't just move on with her life. She took off one day. I had been so consumed with wanting death I didn't hear it and Alice was so caught with Jasper that she didn't see it. Carlisle went after her and found her on the border to Forks. She had been debating on if she just come and get you, change you and then I wouldn't have a reason to keep you away. She didn't get close enough to hear that you were missing though. Things were downhill from there, she was always busy and throwing herself into work. Carlisle did the same. Rosalie and Emmett … after we left… Emmett lost his humor from what I understand… I didn't notice to be honest. He grew angry and it didn't take much to start an argument with him. Rosalie, Alice told me, she blamed herself. She thought that maybe if she was nicer to you, if she welcomed you more that some how it would have been different. She too often thought about just coming to get you but never had the stomach to do it to me.
Me… I caused this… thinking I knew what was best."
"Edward don't… this wasn't your fault either… okay you may have decided to leave but… we knew from that first day in the meadow it would end, when I was human we were just too different."
"Maybe…" he trailed off, the sadness thick in every word.
"No maybes… I don't blame anyone… I did for a long time, but I don't anymore." when I said this he looked at me, almost shocked. "What?"
"How can you not blame me Bella… twenty years you've been alone, you had to go through all this" he gestured towards me "by yourself because of me… how can you not?" he shook his head.
"I just don't. Danger magnet remember… I would have been dead anyway if it wasn't for you" I shrugged. He went to argue but I placed my hand firmly across his mouth. "So what happened then?"
"I noticed what was going on and decided to do something. So I left…" he sighed heavily " I thought without me they would all be better off. I got a phone call begging me to meet them a few weeks or so later and I agreed. Time really stopped meaning anything to me. We all went to the Denali's but the others got there first. When Tanya returned home she brought a flyer with her…"
"The missing person flyer… Carlisle told me this bit already" I interrupted. He nodded.
"We searched everywhere, went back to Forks, befriended the wolves… just everywhere but you just weren't there. We didn't know to look for you like this so we were looking in all the wrong places. Carlisle and Esme went separate ways to find you this one time that we had a few different sighting… and after that Esme always seemed to go separate. Rosalie and Emmett went together a few times but it always ended in arguments, same with Alice and Jasper… eventually we all took off on our own to find you… its been over ten years… we check in, we talk but nothing more." I watched the pain spread deeper into his eyes, this was the same crazy look I had seen on him earlier.
"We need to fix this Edward."
"I agree but I don't know how…"
My brain went into over thinking mode and somewhere between guilt and tearless sobs I came up with a plan.
"I do. We just need…"
