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Chapter 10
Motherly Advice
BPOV
I spend the rest of Saturday in a constant state of euphoria. Edward Cullen sent ME flowers. I had resigned myself into believing that he was my unicorn, my unattainable ideal. After the heart break I went through with James, I am not sure if I will be able to let the wall down completely that I have built up around my heart. But for the first time since I met Edward, I realize that I do not have the strength to stay away from him any longer. I am afraid of getting hurt again, but I am more afraid of not giving this man a chance. No matter the outcome.
I get dressed and head over to Renee's I want to mess around in the barn and ride Phoenix. I have a lot of thinking to do. Just being around Phoenix always helps clear my head. I walk out to the barn, she is waiting in her stall, I open the door placing the halter on her so that I can tie her up in the wash-racks while I strip down her old bedding and replace it with new.
As I am busying myself with mucking out the stall, my mind drifts to Jake and how I need to figure out how to let him down easily tomorrow. He really is a great guy, just not the guy for me. He has helped me in so many ways and for that I am thankful. I know that there is a good chance that after tomorrow he will not want to speak to me again, I hope that will not be the case.
The longer I work the sweatier I become…The damn Arizona heat is almost brutal.
Hmmm, I wonder what Edward would look like covered in sweat. His muscles glistening with every pearl that runs down his toned chest, continuing further down to his well defined abs. I want to lick every drop as it makes it way down below the top of his jeans. I bet he tastes just as good as he smells.
Just as I am finishing up I hear Renee come into the barn, "Bella, I didn't know you were out here. Did you girls have fun last night?"
I tell Renee the details of Alice and her WWE Monday Night Raw impersonation. She is in tears from laughing so hard when I finish and can barely talk between gasps. "Damn I wish I could have seen that! I bet your cousin was fit to be tied! So...Edward Cullen was there with Jessica?"
"Yeah, but I think it was a one time occurrence." I try not to sound interested, the last thing I need is for my mom to pick up that I am attracted to Edward Cullen. She worries way too much about me ever since my divorce. I know she wants me to find someone to fill the void that Phoenix can't fill. Renee is just as scared as I am that I will get hurt again, I have had enough hurt to last a lifetime.
"A one time occurrence huh? I sure hope so. That girl has a reputation a mile long. I would hate for the good doc's son to get involved with that. From what I hear about him he is very good looking and a gentleman to boot. He needs a nice a girl…Didn't you say you met him when you took Phoenix to the clinic at the beginning of the summer?" She tilts her head towards me, waiting on my response.
"Uh…yes I met him. He was really a charming guy…very handsome." I leave it at that hoping she does not want to pursue this line of questioning.
"So Bells, what is up with you and Jacob Black?"
Why does she want to have all of these difficult conversations today? I have enough on my mind as it is. I was just starting to decompress!
"Things are complicated with Jake…I mean…well….I am breaking things off with him tomorrow when he gets back. It is only fair. I do not feel about him the way he does for me and besides I am kind of interested in someone else. "Propping my rake against the wall, I remove my gloves and shove them into the back pockets of my jeans.
"Well Bella, I think you are doing the right thing. I have seen you with Jake and there always seems to be something off about you too. You guys act more like brother and sister then boyfriend and girlfriend. A mother always knows." She smirks at me. "So tell me about this other guy that has piqued your interest? "
I immediately start blushing and biting my lip. "He actually sent me roses this morning. You know Mom, I have never gotten flowers delivered to my house before. It was kind of nice." I internally sigh to myself.
"Really? Roses huh? Wow, who is this guy?" Renee is all ears now; I am sure she sees right through the mask I am trying to put up. I should know better. She knows me better then I know myself.
I let out the breath I know I have been holding for five minutes, "This guy is different. Don't ask me how I know I just do. For the first time in a long time I want to let someone in to my life. I am just scared to death!"
Renee walks over and hugs me, "I know you are sweetie, but truthfully, no one ever got anywhere in life without taking chances. Isabella I do believe that it is time for you to take a chance. Pull down that wall and let this guy in. It is time sweetheart. Although…….you still have not told me his name." She glances down inquisitively at me.
"Mom, it is Edward Cullen." I sigh looking down at my rubber muck boots.
And then my mother did something I have never heard her do in all of my twenty five years…she squealed and not just a regular squeal but a high pitched almost Alice squeal. I sincerely did not think she had it in her.
I am full out laughing now. "So Mom, I take it you approve?"
"Approve! Hell Bella, I am ready to plan the wedding right now!" She beams.
Leave it to my mom to just put it out there.
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I return home from Renee's feeling better after our talk. Alice isn't home yet, she and Jasper were going to catch a movie. I decide to cook some supper…something I haven't done in awhile. I actually miss cooking; it is one of my favorite things to do.
I decide on Shrimp Etouffee. I have always loved Cajun food. I took a Cajun cooking class when I lived in Washington, mainly it helped to pass the time while James was out whoring around. I am busying myself with preparing the etouffee, when my cell phone rings. It is not a phone number I recognize.
"Hello." I say tentatively.
"Bella? Is that you? "I nearly drop the phone when I hear that voice. The voice that is like rainbows, kittens and everything nice in the world, it is Edward.
What do I say?
"Bella are you there? This is Edward, Edward Cullen."
"Uh…yeah I am here. Sorry about that I was just in the middle of something."
Fuck, shit, damn! Why do I always feel like I am a moron every time I open my mouth to speak to this man? I know I am capable of having a one on one conversation with him! I just know it.
"If this is a bad time…..you can call me back or I can call back when it is convenient for you."
"NO! Um, I mean no Edward it is fine. I am just cooking myself some dinner. "
"Oh...Bella, I just wanted to call and apologize for last night. It was an awkward situation all the way around and I didn't want you to get the wrong impression of me." I am so excited that he was actually worried about what I thought about him I almost dropped my spoon into the etouffee sauce.
"Don't worry about it…Really. How were you to know that your date single handily gave crabs to the entire varsity football team back in high school?" I hear him chuckle on the other end of the phone.
"Well it sure would have been nice if I would have known that beforehand. I was just glad I was able to drop her off without her dragging me kicking and screaming into her house. "I giggle at the thought of Jessica dragging Edward all caveman style to her door.
"Oh Edward, I just wanted to thank you for the roses they are beautiful. You know this is actually the first time I have ever had flowers delivered to my house before. It was nice. Thanks again." I just know he can feel me blushing from here.
"It was my pleasure Bella. I find it hard to believe that some one as beautiful as you has never had flowers delivered to her before. I just really wanted you to know that YOU have made an impression on me." And just like that I am rendered speechless.
Come on Bella say something. Anything!
Remember what Renee said, put your self out there. Come on girl just do it!
"Edward, I am going to be honest with you. The first time I met you, I felt a connection, almost like a spark. I don't know if you felt it too...But it mesmerized me. Frankly I haven't been able to get you off of my mind since then."
Oh sweet baby Jesus, did I really just say that out loud? I have diarrhea of the mouth. Someone please stop me!
"Bella you have no idea how happy that makes me. I have felt the same exact way." He purrs into the phone.
Just as I am jumping up and down, Alice and Jasper walk into the kitchen. They both give me a look like I have lost my ever-loving mind. But thankfully they just shake their heads and continue walking to the living room.
"Really?" I can't help the big goofy ass grin that is spread across my face.
"Yes, Bella really! That actually brings me to the real reason for this phone call. I want to know if there is any possibility you would like to go grab some dinner with me tomorrow night?"
Fuck, fuck, fuck and double fuck! I am so fucked. Jake is coming over tomorrow night. Compose yourself Bella. Just explain to him that you have plans.
"Edward as much I would love to go to dinner with you. I have a prior engagement for tomorrow night. But we are going to see each other Monday when you come out to my mother's. Can we maybe make plans then?" I am holding my breath in waiting for his answer.
After a long pause he finally answers.
"Sure Bella that sounds great. But I won't say that I am not disappointed, I truly had my heart set on seeing you tomorrow. But I have waited this long for you. What is one more day in the scheme of things, right?"
"Edward you have no idea how true that statement really is." I reply.
"Until Monday then?" Edward croons into the receiver.
"Until Monday, Edward." I reply back, before hanging up the phone.
End Note: Okay, if you guys have not figured it out, I am from Louisiana. LOL. I had to throw in some Cajun flavor. I hope ya'll enjoyed this, next chapter EPOV and then Jacob!
Reviews make me happier then phone calls from Edward…well ok that is a lie… but they come pretty close.
