Chapter 16 – Apologise
Things had been tense since they woke up together. They hadn't really spoke about it and he was fine keeping it that way. They didn't need to analyse it. He didn't have a problem with what happened.
He probably wouldn't say no if he had the chance to do it again.
When he made rude remarks she would either snap or blush.
Was he really that unworthy that she felt that ashamed of having spent one drunken night with him?
The more he thought about it, the more he realised he did lust after her, it wasn't just a one night thing. Maybe it shouldn't have happened, they were friends and room mates, but couldn't they be friends with privileges?
That seemed like a damn good idea to him. They already lived together, got on really well, and spent all their time together. It was like a punch in the stomach when he realised he was considering a relationship with her.
She had noticed his staring too.
He just needed things to get back to normal, he tried acting normal and it didn't work. So he gave her a little space. That idea was abandoned when Miles and Jin noticed he was spending time at their place and picking up extra shifts. When he was quizzed he stormed put of their house shouting 'If you damn well don't want me here then just say'
It started to make him angry.
He hadn't done anything wrong.
He started to flirt with other women in front of her. Thinking that it would make things better. It made them worse.
They became even worse when he saw her flirting with guys. Who the hell did she think she was?
He called her on it one night, and they both screamed over each other for ten minutes. The only things he could make out that she said were something about him being a male whore, and using her until they came back.
He wasn't apologising.
He wasn't ashamed.
He had nothing to apologise for . . . .
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It had been really tense in the house since their drunken night. She hadn't brought it up, they just needed to move on. No point in an awkward conversation where she would be told once again that she wouldn't be good enough.
She would have to make sure it didn't happen again.
He would leer at her and make rude remarks, she would snap back and try not to blush.
Was he really that angry at what had happened between them that he had to make her feel that uncomfortable and small.
When she thought about it, she knew she did lust after him, but who wouldn't? He had built a career on the fact that he was that hot. Although because they lived together it wasn't just a one night stand. They had to see each other everyday. It should not have happened, but she couldn't help but fantasise about it happening again.
When she was lonely or drunk, she thought that if it happened again it couldn't cause any more damage. But it would either lead to them moving out or a relationship, where she would end up broken hearted in either case.
He would stare at her with his head cocked to one side, like a dog trying to figure something out.
She tried acting normal, but it was still tense. Maybe they needed space to process it. She started to spend time with other people around the barracks, like Amy or playing poker with the guys from work. Until they noticed she was avoiding home and called her on it. She avoided the questions but started to spend more time at home.
She started to feel mad.
She wasn't that bad that he had to hate her for it. Maybe he was worried Kate would find out when she came back and think even less of him.
He started to flirt with the other women, obviously trying to show her she didn't have a chance with him.
So she started to flirt with guys, to show him they could do what they want, and that she wasn't pining after him.
He accused her of flirting to make him angry. They yelled over each other for ten minutes. She only caught that she was a tease and couldn't wait to leave him.
Maybe they should talk about it like adults.
Get it all out in the open, but she didn't want to expose herself like that and doubted he would.
Maybe she should apologise. . . .
