Chapter 79

I was walking home. I do every last day of school. I was walking. And I made it under our streetlight when there was a car pulling up behind me. I stopped and turned. He parked on the curb and got out of his car. "You told me to pick you up a half hour late." He said smiling. "And I find you walking home. You had me scared to death."

I laughed. And he moved his arms around my waist kissing me. "I love you," He said softly agaisnt my lips.

I smiled looking at him. "I love you so much." I said.

He pushed hair out of my face. Adn he looked up. "This is where it all started huh?" He said.

"When you're a big rockstar will you remember this streetlight?" I asked. He looekd at me smiling. He kissed me again. And I moved my hands into his hair. And obvious yes.

He looked at me. Adn he was quiet. And I jsut looked back at him. I couldn't help but feeling so much love towards him. I had been so mistaken when I had thought I had loved Dave. This was love. I've loved Bennett since March 19. And I'll probably never stop. You can never let go of your first love.

I understand everything Rainie has ever said about Paul. I understand the word love. And there is no feeling in the world I'd rather trade for this. I am in love.

Bennett Williams was alwyas there in my yearbooks. Smiling. The first picutre of a baseball guy like he had always said he had been. But there was a sudden transformation. He turned into the person I can never let go of or live without. I fell in love with an "emo faggot" undenreath this streetlight. And in my seat in English. And at a Death Cab for Cutie show. And over Catcher in the Rye. And the night he brought back two people that belonged together.

Those people he saved brought us back together. Rainie still will never forgive herself. But we will keep forgiving her as long as we have to. I think it makes her feel better to see us like this. When we are perfect copies of them. But so different at the same time. so youngto this and new. We've been in love for a short while, but we're almost a year behind them when it comes to the amount og love we have for eahc other. But we're quickly gaining. Because every second of everyday I spend awake, asleep, alone, with him, without him, listening to Sunday Drive, or the radio. I'm falling even more in love. And the same is happening to him.

I went from being a shy silent nobody to the person I was always held back from. By my mother and people like Dave. But all I needed was one. To breathe life in to me and make me who I am.

I owe him everythign for that.

It's summer. And we spent the first few breathes of it under a streetlight we remember perfectly from a night in the middle of November. Cold. November. Whatever the world throws at us now I hope we can survive. Because if we can survive ourselves and the winter and Kerrington we can probably face the world.

I don't knwo what fate has in store for us, or if fate even exists anymore. Because if the universe was lay out to any plan I'm not sure if this is always a part of it. There are probably moments here in there where there is a glitch. And we make the paths we take. I think that's what brought me to Bennett. because with all that happened, I have a feeling the world had a plan for me to fall in lvoe with someone else. But Bennett was the one that found me. Or I found him. Anyways, we found each other.

And I jsut hope that this love that we found in each other and for each other, lasts.

But we jsut stood there silent in a silent world. Not saying anything, but saying it all.

I had found everything that made me this person who stands there in love, with meaning, purpose and a future, in the last place I would have ever looked. That's the secret to everything. The universe isn't controlled by anything. You just need to allow yourself to stumble upon whatever is in you path. Because you might find all you are waiting for in the last place you look.


A/N: Thank you to everyone who reviewed to much. And read these 79 chapters and almost 110,000 words. And felt and lived with me. You make this worth wild. I never thought I would reach a point like this in my writing. I'm not sure what is left in store for me. But I want you to know that there is so much left for me to do. I'm going to just say thank you again.

These two stories were an amazing expirience. I started them when I was listening to my favorite band and reason I am here's new record. I had such strong images for some of the characters but my favorites ended up being the characters I thoguht out the least. And who reflect myself the most. There will be rewrites somewhere in the future. Maybe more than that is in store who knows.

But thank you. You give me all so much hope for my future. I hope someday I'll be able to reach even more people like all of you. you have no idea how much your reviews ot views mean to me. Thankyouthankyoutankyou. I have another project underway. And I hope you guys keep reading. I won't give up on you now.

Love Always.

Jasey Ray.