Wow sry bout the late update, school has got me all distracted. Ugghh it is just so hard to focuse with your teachers talking about stuff and your head is caught in some story of your own. So I had to push Seth, Mason, and Kate to the back of my head. Well untill last night when I was listening to music and looking through an old journal and got inspired. With that said please enjoy

Disclaimer: I don't own the amazing story of Twilight

Seth's POV

Old Memories

I felt like a total idiot. Wait, no, I knew I was an idiot. I had, had the perfect chance to tell Kate exactly how I felt and what do I do, I say, "I don't remember." When she ask me what I was going to say. Sine when did I become such a scaredy cat? Gezz Seth! I mentally slapped myself; Kate probably thinks I'm mad at her. Which I wasn't, quite the opposite really, I'm madly and uncontrollably in love with her. Man, I need some insight, but from who? My best friend is helping Elliot with Chick problems and Jake is her father. Who else is left? Bella? No. What about Drew? Ha! I don't think a teenager could do much good.

So after several hours of internally arguing with myself I decided I had to make a promise to myself first. I pulled out a sheet of paper from my journal and grabbed a pen.

I Seth Clearwater will tell Kassie Black how I feel before the end of the year or suffer the consequences of having to tell Jacob Black. I finished my little pact and sat down at my desk. I flipped through the dog eared journal and smiled at all the memories it held. Song lyrics scribbled across the page caught my eye and I read them aloud before moving to the next, "I'm not going to take this life for granted like I used to do, I'm ready to love somebody like you." I smiled at the irony, the lyrics were written right under where I had written my pledge. Then I skipped to the next, "I'm gonna be somebody some day, one of these days I'm gonna break these chains." I remembered writing this one; it was right after Dad died. I promised him I would make something of myself; I wish he could see me now. I skipped a few pages and found a song of my own. One I had written when I came home late one night and was still wide awake at one am. It was written right under the lines "I just hope for the best, plan for the worse if lightening doesn't strike me first. Who knows what's going to happen in the end…" Then I looked at my own lyrics, "I'm in a crowed room, people everywhere. But I'm isolated and all alone. Till you show up, in your shinning armor. You chase away the fears and know what I want- what I need. I don't know how you do it, your too perfect for me…" I had never finished it, but I planned to. I would make it about Kate- not that it wasn't already. I picked up my pencil but then I spotted another one of my creations. This time it was more a poem I guess but I still read it, "Has it ever crossed your mind that we could be more than friends and that this could never end, you holding me. You keep my head above water, my heart from breaking, whenever I see your sweet face. And not a moment passes by that I don't think about what we could be, what we should be, but who am I kidding? You'll never feel that same way about me. But I will wait and just give it some time, I'll wait till is crosses your mind, and this moment could never end." I thought about that one for a moment and I figure it really was a song, not a poem. I scanned for more of my lyrics and was about to close the journal when I found what I had been looking for, the only complete song I had ever written, "I regret a lot of things… Lying, cheating, losing, weeping, but the one thing I can look back at is falling in love with you, not listening to what they said about it not lasting and how I saved every second that passed.

'Cause your strong and steady like a rock, your love sways like the ocean but never stops, smooth and steady, always ready to listen. Our love is more than a summer fling, it was all I ever wanted- I'll I ever needed. And that's why you wear my ring, that's why your father walks you down the isle. Why I stand by the priest and the choir sings. Why everyone stars some with tears and some not, and why the cans on the back of the limousine ring, waiting for us to run. Cause it was more than a summer fling, and I don't regret a thing, because it all lead me to you- I found a women I adore, who could ask for anything more?" I sat the journal down and stared at my work. That is what I wanted. Someone who would be my happily ever after, I needed Katie.

Then the journal was blank, well except for some scattered dates and events. I closed the book and put it back still thinking about the songs. I had the tunes for all of them in my head and began to think of lines for the first song, but didn't bother to right it down.

I laid down on my bed and noticed what a sap I have become. I shook my head and stood up; I wanted to check on her before I went to sleep myself. I walked out of my door and walked around the corner and down the hall to her open door. I peaked inside and she was sitting on her bed fully awake.

"Hey," She said with a smile and I was surprised our awkward day hadn't bothered her. Or maybe it had. "What'cha doing?"

"Came to say hi." I said and walked inside taking a seat across from her.

"Well hi," She smiled and I had to do the same, "I was just looking through an old yearbook."

I got up and walked over to see the page she was open to. It was a picture of me smiling in one of my high school football jerseys, and was a nice picture. "I don't think it does you justice." She said and looked up at me with pretty blue green eyes.

I didn't have anything to say though, so I just flipped the page. It was a picture of her hugging Lyle and I had a burning feeling in my heart. She flipped the page and I relaxed a little, where had that come from?

"Now, there is a nice picture." I smiled at our class pictures and she was in the top right. She was smiling in the picture and it was so beautiful it would melt your heart.

"Well goodnight." I assumed that she was fine. I walked out and I could have sworn she said "I love you." But then again I was daydreaming of her saying that at the same time.

So I hoped you liked it. Please review and don't steal the songs in here. The ones I wrote that is, I had actaully wrote them a while ago and just changed it to a dude's point of view. Please review, thanks again!