DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE CHARACTERS FROM TWILIGHT. THEY ALL BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER.
Tanya POV
Ugh! I hate my life!
Everyone is always out to get me!
Let me ask you this, why the hell do I have to put up with my annoyingly boring ass sisters and their crappy boyfriends. Yeah, I tried to get with them. Being honest, Felix is hot! And the fact that he's Irina's boyfriend made it even better. But Garrett, no. He's not my type, but hell, I'd screw him anyway, just to get on Kate's nerves.
I know they hate me.
And I don't care.
I'd thought that maybe if I starved myself, then people would want to get to know me, and not just for my beach looks. You know, blonde hair, blue eyes, perfect skin all that crap. Maybe people would notice me. Yeah, I did it for attention. So what? Like that's not what everyone does it for. But no, they thought that I was lying. So to prove them wrong, I went a whole week without eating a single moutfull. After that they believed me. Hah! Take that losers!
But then Daddy had to go and send me to that goddamn clinic.
I was not going without a fight. There was no way. I didn't have a problem. I didn't need to be fixed. All I wanted was a little bit of attention. Unlike everyone else in those places, I was not a freak!!
When I got there I made sure that everyone, and I mean everyone knew that I wasn't going without a fight. When I saw the guys that would take me inside with force if they had to, I told myself that I was going to make as much noise as I could. And I sure as hell did!
I kicked and screamed as though my life depended on it. And my life did depend on it! My social life was going to go straight downhill if I had to stay here. My friends would think that I was blanking them, and my boyfriends would move on to other girls. Yeah, they would come flocking back as soon as I got out, but that wasn't the point. There would be no girls here that would be pretty enough for me to even be seen with. Even if it was in a freaking hospital I still had an image to maintain. And there would definitely be no guys cute enough here for me to even consider doing anything with. Any guy who was here would be weak and pathetic and not worth me wasting my time on.
Oh, how I was wrong.
I was told that I had to go down and socialise with the other patients here. Patients! Says it all doesn't it. Load of freaks pushed together in this freaking mental house. I wouldn't have to be here long. I could just flirt my way through, just like I did with everything. Looks and charm can get you everywhere in life. If you know how to use them that is.
That was when I saw him!
He was gorgeous!
Sitting there on the sofa, all on his own. His reddy hair and high cheekbones. It was like love at first sight. Well, I wouldn't go that far, but hell, he sure was fuckable. I was going to get that as fast as I could.
There was something about him. Something that drew me in. I guessed it was just his looks, because I never got into a meaningful relationship. They were for wimps who weren't brave enough to play the field, like I was. And he would definitely be my latest conquest. Imagine the looks on my sisters faces when I told them that I had managed to get laid, even in the hospital. They would be speechless, especially when they saw the fuckable man-hunk that I had gotten some off.
He told me that his name was Edward, but I didn't like that so I would call him Eddie. I didn't care what everybody else called him. He was Eddie to me.
And soon he would be my Eddie.
That fact was inevitable.
No guy, other than Felix and Garrett, had been able to resist my looks and charm. The only reason that I hadn't fucked the two of them is because wherever they were, my freaking sisters were as well. I knew that if I was able to get the two of them alone, there was no way they would be able to resist me. Nobody ever could. I got what I wanted, when I wanted it. Every single time.
This time would be no different.
But then she had to go and turn up. His girlfriend. What the hell was she doing here anyway? There was nothing wrong with her. She said that she was here because she was supporting Eddie. But I could see through her. She was making sure that he didn't get with anyone else. I had to admit, it was a smart plan. If I had someone as gorgeous as Eddie on my arm, there was no way that I would let him out of my sight. But then again, soon I would have someone like Eddie on my arm.
I would have Eddie on my arm.
Soon. Very soon.
It wouldn't be hard to get him away from her. I would just have to show him what he was missing being with her rather than me and he would come running. They all did. And Eddie would be no different.
But he seemed adamant about staying with that short, brown-haired weirdo. Why? She wasn't even that pretty. Sure, she wasn't horrible looking, but there was no way she could compare to me. Her hair colour was all wrong to start with, and she was way too short. Even after I tried to get him alone after breakfast, he wouldn't budge. If he thought that that would put me off, the fact that he had a girlfriend, he was so wrong. In fact, I relished the challenge. Back home, all the guys I wanted came running. I had never really had a challenge and I liked it. It made me work harder to get Eddie to be mine.
He still didn't want to accept that it was me he should be with and not her. I would make him see.
She had cast some sort of spell over him. I would break it. I didn't care if she was there. Bella. I would show him and her that she wasn't good enough for Eddie. That he was supposed to be with someone that matched him, looks-wise. And the only one that I knew that matched Eddie in that way, was yours truly. And people should always be with people that match themselves in attractiveness. And this Bella he was with, definitely wasn't on the same level as him.
Then his family came. I could use that to my advantage. I saw that he had a large family. That would be good. I came from a big family so I knew how to handle them. The guys were cute, not as gorgeous as Eddie, but they weren't lacking in the looks department. I would have to see if I could get them as well. Oooh, brothers. I had been there once before and it was good. It was definitely something that I wasn't opposed to doing again. Alternating between brothers, comparing different techniques. It was definitely something I would do again. I just had to work out how I was going to do it.
The parents would be easy enough. I was able to charm my way with parents every time. Parents were easy. I would do my usual routine. Introduce them, charm them and work my in with them. It would be easy. All parents loved me, with my blonde hair and baby blue eyes, no parents could resist me. I'll give Eddie something though. I could see where he got his looks from. He definitely had good genes. His mother was pretty, with her brown hair and eyes, she was slender, not as thin as she could be, but still, she was still thin. But his dad. His dad was hot. He had blonde hair and blue eyes. I could see where Eddie got his looks from. Hell, screw the brothers, maybe a little father-son comparison was in order here.
But the girls would be harder to get to. I knew from experience that girls were more protective of their brothers than guys were. They would always feel threatened. But I would be able to work on them, easy peasy. No family, no matter how close nit they were, was unbreakable. I would be able to ease my way in and convince them that I was better for their Eddie than that Bella was.
What actually happened really pissed me off.
They ignored me.
They fucking ignored me!
That little witch must have all of them under her spell. Making them believe that she was what Eddie needed. I would show them that she wasn't. I didn't know how. But I would. I would expose to them all that that little bitch was bad for Eddie. That she was holding him back. And then I would discreetly worm my way in and steal Eddie for myself. It would have to be the perfect plan. Because I could tell that she had them all wrapped around her little finger.
I would break that spell soon enough.
There was no doubt about that.
But then, that bitch Dr. Martin had to go and move me onto another fucking wing!
I didn't do anything wrong! I only pointed out what the rest of the world was too blind to see! I had designed a plan in my head. I had to make it look like that Bella was jealous of me and scared that I would take Eddie away from her, which was the ultimate goal of course. So I had to do something that would get her kicked out of the clinic. I had to make sure that they saw her for the lying manipulative cow she really was.
Of course those little freaks she calls friends had to stand up for her when I told her that she might as well leave. The frustrating thing was, that when I've behaved like that to other girls, I see a flicker of doubt run across their expressions. Something that they would never admit to, but I saw.
But Hell! There was none of that with this girl. She was so delusional. To think that Eddie would want her when he could ultimately have someone like me. I knew that if I could get her to leave on her own then it would be simpler, but no. She had to go and be so goddamn sure about their relationship. Well, we'll see about that.
Trashing my room was hard to do. I didn't want to ruin my things, but I knew that to get what I want, I would have to make some sacrifices. And with Eddie as the prize, it would be worth it in the end. Besides, Daddy would replace anything I broke so it was no big deal.
I had it all in place. I had trashed my room and I was getting ready to put on my act. My acting is flawless. I had won over many unsuspecting audiences with my acting. And every time it played to my advantage. I ran to find that irritating nurse, rehearsing my sob story. When I got called to go up to the doctor's office I knew that I had won. I knew that my plan had worked and I would be able to get Eddie all to myself. I couldn't help but feel a little smug at myself. I'd earned it.
When I walked into the office I couldn't help but smirk. They were all sat in front of me. I knew I had to keep up the act so I pretended to be upset. The doctor had to believe me over them. With them all sat there, it was like they were ganging up on me, which added to my act. I could act all stressed and upset and then I could blame it on Bella and her little friends.
But she didn't believe me!
How could she not believe me!
And she was moving me onto another wing. There was no way that I was going to let this happen. My Daddy would have to listen to me, come here today or tomorrow and tell them that they cannot move me. I couldn't be away from Eddie. He needed me more than he needed that bitch!
But they wouldn't listen to me. They wanted me to leave my Eddie. I had to try to convince them and him that they couldn't let me leave. That he wanted me to stay. He needed me to stay with him. And then, freaking Irina had to turn up didn't she? She's always hated me, so obviously she's going to take the side of those who wanted me gone. She always has to take everything away from me. She's just jealous of everything I am and everything I have. I know that she is. That's why she goes out of her way to make she miserable. She and my other sisters.
After I was moved off of that unit, I made it my mission to get out of the clinic, just so I could see Eddie again. I pretended to be "getting better" as they called it. Yes, I ate, but only so I could get out of there. I don't think they realised that I wasn't really doing what they wanted me to do. I managed to get out of there in 2 months, so that worked well for me. I would have a lot of time to find Eddie now that I was out.
I planned on using Irina's contact with that bitch Bella to my advantage. I didn't want her to find out what I was doing though, because she would tell her and it would all be completely ruined.
I didn't hear much about my Eddie until June. Irina was going to his birthday party. He must have been out by now then.
I made a plan there and then.
I followed Irina and Felix to this crappy little town. I asked one of my friends to borrow their car, telling her that mine was waiting to be picked up to be taken into the shop, so I could follow Irina to find Eddie. They didn't know my friends cars, which was good because there would be no way I could follow them in my car. Yeah, I can be sneaky. Didn't think I could. Well, you're wrong.
I followed them carefully, up this huge driveway, to a gorgeous house. It was huge. It was definitely somewhere I could see my Eddie living. And the rest of his family. I made sure that I wasn't seen as I followed them there. They didn't have a clue that I was behind them. I had to smirk to myself in the car. I now knew where my Eddie lived. And nobody knew that I knew. I was definitely getting sneakier than they gave me credit for.
I would now bide my time. I would wait until I had the perfect opportunity or reason to leave my home and drive to the little town where my Eddie lived. He was my Eddie. He loved me, he just didn't realise it yet. When he did, he would leave that no good tramp and come to me. I was counting down the days until I could see him again. I would have to be careful. If I wasn't then that Bella would be tipped off and she would never leave him alone again. I would have to wait. As much as it pained me to be away from my Eddie. I would have to wait.
I didn't have to wait as long as I thought.
One day I heard that there was a party. I knew that it would be a good release for me to go and get laid. And I needed to get laid. Desperately.
It was being held on some cliffs somewhere. I knew that where it was was close to where my Eddie lived. There was a chance he could be there, and even if he wasn't, I knew where he lived. I could just leave the party and go to his house. Even if I couldn't be with him, that he knew of, I could be happy to know that he was there, that he was near to me. And while I was there, I could formulate my plan to get Eddie to leave that bitch and his family and come with me. It had to be perfect.
I had been turning down guys ever since I had come out of the hospital. Something that was extremely hard for me to do, because I was used to getting it whenever and wherever I wanted it. I wanted my next conquest to be Eddie. And he was one that I wasn't going to let go. He was going to be mine.
One way or another.
Do you hate me?
I know it seems weird to have her in POV in the story, but I wanted to do the psycho POV. It had been going through my head all day, and I knew that I had to write it.
Don't hate me.
You notice that her thoughts get more and more psycho-ish as the chapter carries on. Yup, that's the way I intended it :P
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